My DH and I have been TTC for the last 3 years, ever since we got married. We've had a lot of ups and downs in our marriage and we're really looking forward to a great 2008. I lost my mom to cancer in 2006, we lost my mother in law to cancer in 2007 and we had 2 ectopics in 2007 and 1 ectopic 2008. The 1st pregnancy, we took 2 rounds of metho in March of 2007 and that was that. It felt like a long road to recovery, it felt like a decade to not have pregnancy symptons. Then in June we found out my pregnancy once again was ectopic. We took more metho shots but they didn't work and I ended up in ER and had my left tube taken out. I let my body rest for the next few months and did an HSG test in late October. My right tube was clear! Then the most recent ectopic was January 2008. BFP on 1/5/08 which then resulted in 1 round of metho and that was that.
Thursday, 4/17/08. Had my 1st infertility appointment yesterday. My husband and I have some blood tests to check on some things. Other than that, Dr.'s not suggesting IVF or anything. I'm looking forward to keeping my body healthy and TTC again!
Monday, 4/28/08. I had my 1st round of blood tests done and have 2 more to do before I see the RE again. I decided to also go to an acupuncture Dr. and WOW is she expensive! I decided to take herbs for now and once finances permit I plan to start accupuncture. The acupuncturist says that my circulation is bad therefore my pregnancies aren't "flowing" to my uterus as they should. She also says that even though I only have 1 tube left, that tube works double time to compensate for not having 2 tubes. That's great news. So far, my RE and acupuncturist Dr. says that we can TTC, we'll see. I'm just so hesitant with all that my body has been through already and the emotional stress I've been through that I'm scarred to be pregnant again. When the Lord wants us to have children we will and I'll be prepared!
Tuesday, 5/13/08. Went in for my CD22 blood tests my RE ordered me to take. I threw in a blood pregnancy test in there as well and it was a BFN!!! So disappointing! My next step is my 2nd appointment with RE once the results from CD22 are in. Anyone had a BFN on CD22 blood pregnancy test and was still preggerz?
Monday, 5/19/08. Went to my nephews 2 year birthday party on Saturday and had a great time. My newphew had his 2 girl cousins, ages 2 and 3 there to play and it was just so adorable watching all the kiddies hang around and play with DH. Usually these kiddies are shy and don't really play with adults so watching them with DH was a real pleasure!
Wednesday, 5/21/08. Had my 4th appointment with acupuncturist/herbal doctor. I'm not doing acupuncture yet, just taking the herbs that she perscribes on a weekly basis and they taste absolutely horrific! 6 out of 7 days, 2 times a day, I cook these herbs to drink and so far it's given me a lot more energy. Yesterday's appointment was fun. Dr looked at my tongue and said, "you getting betta!", Dr's chinese with major accent-LOL. She told me to take another HPT in 2 days since AF hasn't visited yet. I'm hoping for a BFP!!!
Thursday, 5/2908. So, ya, NO I didn't see a BFP. It was our first month after metho took its course of TTC and what was I thinking-would I be that lucky-heck no! I was the latest I've been in at least a year and I think it was b/c of the chinese herbs I was taking. I've decided to stop seeing the acupuncturist until I got our finances a little more comfy and maybe even after the Vega$ trip. I really enjoyed seeing the acupuncturist and am a little sad about my decision but it's the best thing for my DH and me right now. Having just bought our house and still adjusting to the expenses has us sacraficing A LOT of things these days. But one thing I have noticed taking the herbs for the past month, no lower back pains which I usually get b4 AF and my flow itself is clearer-sorry TMI but hopefully for you ladies taking herbs this stuff works! Other than that, just waiting for AF to run its course. I'm scarred that if I do get preggers again that it might be ectopic but we all take our chances in life-right!?
TTC Month 2
6/23/08-BFN!
6/25/08-CD 30, probably test again tonight.... BFN!
6/27-CD32 feeling really tired. Could be because I've getting to bed a little later than I'd like 9:30. I bought myself an elliptical on 6/13/08 and have not worked out 5 days since then. Other than that, I've been working out everyday for 50 min's, it's summer time and I need a bathing suit bod! Excersize maybe affecting AF and cycle as well. CM sticky for the past week.
6/27/08-CD 32. i took an hpt and it showed a faint line, so faint my hubby couldn't see it, anyone experience this?
6/29/08-CD34.took another hpt, digital this time-BFN! i'm a little concerned b/c if it was truly a faint line on the hpt i took and today i get a BFN...maybe i am preggers and hcg is just not rising as it should which could mean another ecoptic? who knows!? i slept for like 13 hours yesterday and last night total bc i'm so sleepy and bb's are still really full!
7/3/08-CD38.i started spotting 3 days ago and was praying it was implantation bleeding as af has not officially arrived but to my surprise hpt yesterday was BFN! my DH is so cute, after the hpt yesterday as i was coming out of the restroom, he jumped in front of me and said, "IT'S A GIRL!" i responded with, "it's a negative" i could tell he was dissapointed. he then said, "honey, we have to stay positive." between our 2 families, his and my side, everyone has children ages ranging from 4 months to 16 years of age, and i just don't understand why we haven't been blessed with any that are here with us physically. i know it's not something i will ever understand or something that i should even try to grasp but i'm sad b/c i would like us to start our family. the other part that gets to me sometime is that i have some family members who in my eyes mistreats their child. when her baby starts to cry for food, she will not breast feed him until he's crying for like 30 min to an 1 hour and the reason is is b/c she doesn't like it when the baby falls asleep in her arms so she starves her child in hopes he'll stay awake durng the breast feeding. i can't say anything, it's none of my business, and what do i know!? i don't have any children. what i do know is that when i am blessed with children, i wont starve him/her for selfish reasons like that! that's when i start to think- i would be a better mother than her so why not me? who am i to say whose better-i just want children. for now, i will stay positive and enjoy my DH and my father who lives with us. these 2 people are the most positive inspirations to me and their love for me is so unsurmountable that having their love makes me feel like it's going to be just fine.
TTC 3
Monday, 7/7/08. CD2. Last cycle lasted 41 days!
Tuesday, 7/15/08. CD 10. Feeling more energetic these days, last month's cycle took a lot out of me!
Tuesday, 7/22/08. CD 18. 2WW...excitted for Vegas. Hubby took me out on the town, San Francisco, on Saturday and he picked me out a nice pair of high heels-sexy! He's got great taste in shoes. Enjoying life.