I know I haven’t written in this thing in three months and well, I guess a lot has happened from now and then. I’m eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwich right now. I’ve been eating them for almost two weeks. I have to have at least three of them in a day. Its got me thinking that you’re gonna come out looking like a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Hahaha. Well I’ve gone through a number of cravings throughout this pregnancy.

- Hot pot

- Nutella & croissants

- Peanut butter and (STRAWBERRY) jelly Sandwiches

- Cup of Noodles

- Cantaloupes

- Watermelon

- Chicken Salad

So far I haven’t been craving anything weird. Thank God. My next ultrasound is on 8/6 and I find out if you’re a boy bean or a girl bean. Pretty exciting huh? My nausea has subsided and has been so for a couple weeks now. However, my back feels like spaghetti. I’ve lost most of the strength in my back and find it hard to get up by myself.

My hormones are going haywire and I’ve been having crying spells lately. Even some television commercials make me cry. Some days I’m really bummed and other days I feel like a big dork for crying at the things that I do.

You’ve also been kicking me around for the past couple of weeks. I kept a kick log for a few days and then I got busy and stopped logging. Well, you haven’t been really as active lately. Its already 11:42 AM today and you haven’t moved an inch. Well none that I can feel anyway. This is the kick log that I’ve kept.

Bean's Kick Log
Date	# Of Kicks	Time
7/23/2007	1	10:57 AM
7/23/2007	1	11:19 AM
7/23/2007	1	11:20 AM
7/23/2007	1	12:07 PM
7/23/2007	1	2:42 PM
7/23/2007	2	3:32 PM
7/23/2007	1	3:38 PM
7/24/2007	2	10:31 AM
7/24/2007	1	11:32 AM
7/24/2007	1	2:32 PM
7/24/2007	2	3:59 PM
7/24/2007	3	4:51 PM
7/24/2007	1	4:53 PM
7/25/2007	1	2:01 PM
7/25/2007	4	2:14 PM
7/25/2007	3	2:15 PM
7/25/2007	1	2:17 PM
7/25/2007	3	2:18 PM
7/25/2007	5	2:31 PM
7/25/2007	1	2:36 PM
7/25/2007	1	4:08 PM
7/25/2007	1	4:19 PM
7/25/2007	1	4:29 PM
7/25/2007	5	4:31 PM
7/25/2007	3	4:51 PM
7/25/2007	1	4:53 PM

Well hopefully you’ll give me a little nudge after I finish my Peanut Butter and Jelly sandwich. =)

More....

I started writing a journal here at work. don't know if anyone cares to read... but here's what i've put together so far.

05/01/2007 I’m at work right now. (pretending to work) Playhut, Inc.

I found out that I was pregnant with you Sunday, April 29^th 2007. It was your dad, ninong, ninang, and I that were the first to know.

It was a long weekend for me because I took that Friday off. Your Lola Martha wanted to change out the floors inside the house that Saturday so we had to clear out the room we were staying in. Well, plans to change out the floor were canceled and I ended up sleeping practically the entire weekend. I knew something was amuck, but I couldn’t figure it out. I thought maybe it was that stupid bed we had been sleeping on. We had been sleeping on an inflatable mattress. Anyway, I was just too tired to function. I would wake up for a little bit, lie in bed with the TV on, and then fall asleep for three hours straight. Point is, I COULDN’T GET ENOUGH SLEEP!

Sunday rolled around, and your dad and I met up with your ninong and ninang to hang out, and I told your dad that we should get a pregnancy .

I got a little sidetracked and found this cool stuff about you.

Anyway, back to my story… So, we went to Albertsons because your ninong wanted to buy some wine. I bought a pregnancy test and ran straight to the bathroom to go use it. Your ninang came with me to the bathroom. It didn’t take the whole three minutes it said it would to read the results. I was excited and kinda freaked out. Ok not really freaked out because I knew it was going to happen sooner or later because I wasn’t on any birth control at the time. I showed it to your ninang and she says, “So, which one is yours?” I burst into laughter and I said, “They’re both mine you dummy! I’m the only one who pee’d on it. It means I’m pregnant you dork!” It took her a little while to register that I was actually pregnant but in the end she was happy too. Your dad and your ninong were already waiting in the car for us. Your dad was the next one to see. He was a little shocked too but we are both so happy that you are on the way. I took the other pregnancy test in the morning, because the one we had bought was a two pack. And sure enough it was positive. We’re both hoping that you come out a girl at this point, but you never know! Your dad is so excited about you. He’s running around shouting to the world that we’re expecting a baby. It’s kinda silly but cute. All I know is that he’s really happy.

I don’t have any morning or evening sickness. I’m still very tired however. I’m thinking about asking my boss if I could split my lunch breaks into two thirty minute segments instead of one hour in the middle of the day. I need more than one nap to function.

Yesterday I went to Kaiser Hospital in Baldwin Park because the hospital has to verify my pregnancy with its own test before I can go to my first pre-natal appointment. Don’t know who our doctor is going to be yet. It’s about 4:00 in the afternoon and I’m not sleepy yet. I am getting kinda crampy though. Constipation is terrible. I’m seriously contemplating quitting smoking. This is just terrible. I WANT A CIGARETTE>

05/02/2007

Today I woke up with chest pains. I thought it was the way that I was sleeping. I ended up not getting very much sleep because I felt like I was getting an anxiety attack.

I was very very irritated with your dad last night. We went out to dinner with your ninong and ninang and their friends. I didn’t really want to be around anyone and I certainly did NOT want to eat at Max’s Chicken. I keep thinking about your lolo and how I’m going to tell him. I’m sure he’s not going to take it very well at fist since he doesn’t really like your dad that much. So I got bored at work again and decided to look up a checklist of things to have when I finally get to take you home from the hospital.

05/07/2007

So I’m feeling a little anxious and I can’t wait for this first trimester to be over. Today I’m feeling very tired and very fat. I just want to curl up into a ball and hide in the bedroom until I feel better.