About Me

I'm 27 years old and have been married to my wonderful husband for almost six years. This baby was an unplanned but not entirely prevented blessing - take that as you will...! I was ready, he was ready and let's just say neither of us spoke up about the not being to careful thing. He also didn't seem to mind the action! :P

Unfortunately my husband and I don't actually live together full time which has been really hard, especially since we're so close to the delivery date. I'm finishing nursing school in Houston and he is working in San Antonio. We see each other about every other weekend. :( Balancing school, pregnancy, missing my husband and everything else has been difficult but I just have to get through it. I graduate May 2009 and then, FINALLY, make money, instead of borrowing loans!

UPDATE:
Avelyn Isabel was born April 18, 2008 at 2:05 pm. She weighed 6 pounds, 6 ounces and was 18.5 inches long. She came out beautiful and just amazes me everyday. I can't believe how much I love her. If I could sit in a chair and just hold her and stare at her all day I think I would. Now that she is here I cannot imagine my life without her.

We had a rough start and we had to induce at 37 weeks because the amniotic fluid level was dangerously low. She had a very high bilirubin count for several days and was on phototherapy to treat it. It was hard to put her in the bilibed 24 hours a day except for feedings. I did have a case of the weepy baby blues but it seems to have cleared up at about day 10 and with a little more rest.

Unfortunately we're having some breastfeeding problems but I am pumping so she at least gets breastmilk and as little formula as possible. I have had a really hard time feeling guilty about not being able to feed her, lots and lots of tears, but I finally decided that no one should make me feel bad about not putting her to breast. She's still getting the milk she needs and my nipples aren't bleeding and scabby and causing me to cry anymore. Everytime she latches on it feels like she is literally biting the nipples off. I have seen a lactation consultant, every nurse in the hospital, my mother and mother-in-law and nothing has worked. At least I know I tried. I desperately wanted to breastfeed and was feeling horribly guilty by everyone telling me it shouldn't hurt, to just keep trying, or it will hurt for weeks and then get better. Yeah right! No amount of pain and bleeding is worth it. And no one should ever make you feel like a bad mother because it isn't working. I will continue to try every now and then and hope my nipples and her mouth get bigger, better and can work it out. Until then, my baby is happy, healthy, beautiful and the light of my life! I love her so much!