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Pregnancy Survey (2007)
About You
Name?:	jenny
Age?:	24
Height?:	5'7
Pre-pregnancy weight?:	241
About The Father
Name?:	tim
Age?:	25
Height?:	5'9
Are you still together?:yes since	July 1st 2000
About Your Pregnancy
Is this your first pregnancy?:	No, I had a previous mc. in 2000 and a healthy son in 2003
When did you find out you were pregnant?:	In March
Was it planned?:	yes
What was your first reaction?:	Disbelief, excitement, nerviousness,...
Who was with you when you found out?:	my husband and son waited outside the bathroom
Who was the first person you told?:	my husband
How did your parents react?:	excitement
How far along are you?:	38 weeks
What was your first symptom?:	nausea, FREQUENT urination, tired
What is your due date?:	Nov. 25th
Do you know the sex of the baby?:	YES
If so, what is it?:	It's a BOY!!
Have you picked out names?:	Yes
If so, what are they?:	Payton Blaine Simmons
How much weight have you gained?:	8lbs
Do you have stretch marks?:	yeah they are getting so bad
Have you felt the baby move?:	yes since 14 weeks
Have you heard the heartbeat?:	YES!!!!
About the birth
Will you keep the baby?:	Definatly
Home or hospital birth?:	hospital birth
Natural or medicated birth?:	medicated for sure
Who will be in the delivery room with you?:	My husband.
Will you breastfeed?:	Yes
Do you think you'll need a c-section?:	yes c-section on Nov.23rd maybe sooner!
Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?:	I didn't with my son but it is the greatest feeling in the world
What's the first thing you might say to him/her?:	you where so worth the wait!
Would you let someone videotape the birth?:	not a chance
Are you excited about the birth, or scared?:	Nervious.... but not nearly as much as I was with my first pregnancy, I'll be glad to get it over with

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We are sitting at lunch one day when my daughter
casually mentions that she and her husband are
thinking of starting a family. "We're taking a
survey," she says half-joking. "Do you think I should
have a baby?" "It will change your life," I say,
carefully keeping my tone neutral. "I know," she says,
"no more sleeping in on weekends, no more spontaneous
vacations."
But that is not what I meant at all. I look at my
daughter, trying to decide what to tell her. I want
her to know what she will never learn in childbirth
classes. I want to tell her that the physical wounds
of child bearing will heal, but becoming a mother will
leave her with an emotional wound so raw that she will
forever be vulnerable.
I consider warning her that she will never again read
a newspaper without asking, "What if that had been MY
child?" That every plane crash, every house fire will
haunt her. That when she sees pictures of starving
children, she will wonder if anything could be worse
than watching your child die. I look at her carefully
manicured nails and stylish suit and think that no
matter how sophisticated she is, becoming a mother
will reduce her to the primitive level of a bear
protecting her cub. That an urgent call of "Mom!" will
cause her to drop a soufflé; or her best crystal
without a moment's hesitation.
I feel that I should warn her that no matter how many
years she has invested in her career, she will be
professionally derailed by motherhood. She might
arrange for child-care, but one day she will be going
into an important business meeting and she will think
of her baby's sweet smell. She will have to use every
ounce of discipline to keep from running home, just to
make sure her baby is all right.
I want my daughter to know that every day decisions
will no longer be routine. That a five year old boy's
desire to go to the men's room rather than the women's
at McDonald's will become a major dilemma. That right
there, in the midst of clattering trays and screaming
children, issues of independence and gender identity
will be weighed against the prospect that a child
molester may be lurking in that rest-room. However
decisive she may be at the office, she will
second-guess herself constantly as a mother.
Looking at my attractive daughter, I want to assure
her that eventually she will shed the pounds of
pregnancy, but she will never feel the same about
herself. That her life, now so important, will be of
less value to her once she has a child. That she would
give it up in a moment to save her offspring, but will
also begin to hope for more years, not to
accomplish her own dreams, but to watch her child
accomplish theirs.
I want her to know that a Cesarean scar or shiny
stretch marks will become badges of honor. My
daughter's relationship with her husband will change,
but not in the way she thinks. I wish she could
understand how much more you can love a man who is
careful to powder the baby or who never hesitates to
play with his child. I think she should know that she
will fall in love with him again for reasons she would
now find very unromantic.
I wish my daughter could sense the bond she will feel
with women throughout history who have tried to stop
war, prejudice and drunk driving. I hope she will
understand why I can think rationally about most
issues, but become temporarily insane when I discuss
the threat of nuclear war to my children's future. I
want to describe to my daughter the exhilaration of
seeing your child learn to ride a bike. I want to
capture for her the belly laugh of a baby who is
touching the soft fur of a dog or cat for the first
time. I want her to taste the joy that is so real it
actually hurts.
My daughter's quizzical look makes me realize that
tears have formed in my eyes. "You'll never regret
it," I finally say. Then I reached across the table,
squeezed my daughter's hand and offered a silent
prayer for her, and for me, and for all the mere
mortal women who stumble their way into this most
wonderful of callings. This blessed gift from God...
TO BE A MOTHER

JULY 17th 2007 -

today I faced my biggest fear and had a mole from above my left eye removed. I'm waiting the results from the biopsy and it's really nerve racking my life is on hold

July 23rd 2007

the results are in it was nothing I'm so relieved now I can breath a little easier and it feels like my life has been given back to me! thank you for all your prayers. they have made a difference

July 24th 2007

One more day until we (hopefully) find out if we having a BOY or a GIRL. Yesterday my step sister found out she is having a little girl ( we are due on the same day!!) I'll be happy either way I'm just ready to start buying clothes and decorating the nursery.

July 25th 2007

IT'S A BOY!!!!!

August 19th 2007

the nursery is ready!!! I can't wait to hold and see baby Payton. it seems like thanksgiving will never get here but I know it will be here before I know it...

I've been having some BH contracts the past few days and some pressure and cramping but I'm told it's all normal unless I have any spotting so I've been trying to take things easy, when they start. I signed up for Prenatal Classes both CPR and breastfeeding and the sibling class.

I need to brush up on those since it's been almost 5 years since i had a little baby, maybe I'll learn something new. and I hope the sibling class helps my son adjust to having a little brother.

my only big fears at this point in time are having a HUGE baby... blake weighted 8 lbs. 14 oz. but my husband was 13 lbs at birth!!!!... they say they get bigger so I'm a little worried and I fear that this baby will have colic like my son... I hope this one is happier than my first son who seemed to cry all the time the first 6 months... but I guess I've been throught it all once and I know it couldn't get any worse than that... so either way I'm prepared . RIGHT???

August 23rd 2007

fear confirmed!! I'm measuring 30 weeks already! they want to go with my original due date of Nov. 25th so htat would put me at 26.5 weeks now. my doctor said this will be between a 9 and 10 lb baby boy!!! Oh wow! I've got my lab work slip I need to go get my 1 hour sugar test done. I know I'll fail it. maybe I'll pass the 3 hour?

AUGUST 31st 2007

Alright, it's the end of August I've reach the third trimester ...there is an end and it's in sight!! the last two weeks I've felt pretty good no pain in my pelvic area... no nothing ... but suddenly I feel horrible! the pain is returning along with Morning sickness, and I have a constant flow of saliva in my mouth that makes it worse than in my first trimester! my belly is huge..people touch my bump and ask when's it due and I sigh and say not until Novemeber and they say 'Oh , my' . I feel like my skin/belly is trying to pull off of my rib cae there is a constant pulling feeling and I'm sore on both sides. I sigh often just to catch an extra breath.

Since my husband works third shift I typically see him about 1.5-2 hours a day , which leaves me to take care of our son Blake and the house...I get lazy alot and end up doing daily work in spurts..resting in between. so my ankles don't swell too much, and so tht I don't sweat like a pig which isn't hard to do...lol...

being able to shave my legs and paint my toes nails are no longer fun things to do, but worse than that is the pubic area , are you kidding i can barely see it , let alone shave it! and even when I do shave you can't tell in a day or two! my maternity clothes are now getting tight, thy say to by your prepregnancy size in maternity so I got large-xl well Large is just too tight ...along with bras I Have to go bra shopping this weekend or the twins are gonna be homeless I'm tired of trying to shove and push them into the bras I have...then they pop out of the front top bottom back sides ...somewhere, I'd rather go braless but fear gravity will cause further damage!...lol...

ok so I'm complaining a bit..let me be thankful...cause I know after Payton comes out and he is in my arms I will miss him being in my belly...he is really an active little baby...much more than Blake. I feel like we've already bonded... like at night when I lay down and get comfortable I can then feel him snuggle in for the night...it's so sweet. and everytime I roll over he kicks a few times, when I get excited, he knows and responds with a bunch of crazy kicks and movements. yet i know when he comes out he will barely move...lol...but he will remember my voice and it will calm him and make him feel good just to be touched and talked to. I can hardly wait!

I only wish my husband where home at night to share in the middle of the night wakings hahaha...yet again me and Payton will bond even more, when I am the one that does everything for him! just like me and Blake!

ok it's 3 pm I'm rambling I have a load of house work to do and a nap to take :D

October 3rd 2007

Well I stared insulin over the weekend... I take 15 units just before breakfast and 10 units before dinner... I hate needles so this is something that I've really had a hard time getting use to doing. But I've surprised myself and I'm now able to do it by myself at first I had to get my husband to give them to me... since I've started insulin I've gotten a sinus infection and my blood sugars actually went up higher than what they where before I started the insulin which is very frusterating...but I'm on 3 different med's that are working to get rid of the infection and slowly my blood sugars are going down. I'm so ready to meet Payton, as soon as he is ready,I'm ready. I have plans to talk to my doctor about inducing me ealier than the 23rd since my family doctors thinks it would be safe and maybe I can spend thanksgiving relaxing with our newest family member( and not so worried about carb counting:)

If any of you ladies have gestational diabetes and you have questions, I can offer advice...I've quickly become an expert at the topic visiting my RD twice a week! also my little brother (age 12) has type 1 diabetes he's taught me alot as well.

Anyways ... with 50 days or (less) left until "D" day. the nursery is done and my baby shower is planned for the October 22. I think my four year old is mentally prepared.

October 10 2007

I just got off the phone with my friend Cassie , she went in for her final ob check and pre-opt appointment here due date is October 20th but she is having a repeat c-section monday the 15th! 5 MORE DAYS!!!!! I'm so excited for her , she's really been in alot of pain the last few weeks, and also I think once she has had Her that it will speed up my last few weeks they really seem to be dragging I've got 7 more Fridays until my scheduled c-section on 11-23-07 unless I go into labor on my own before then. but for now I'm counting down the days between each prenatal visit , I have NST's every friday, and one more ultrasound at 36 weeks,which I'm really looking forward to !

Some sad news about my other friend Dawn she is 16 and 28 weeks pregnant she has type 2 diabetes that was not controlled when she got pregnant, she was told her baby has no kidneys and she has very little amniotic fluid(spelling?)and they are just waiting for it to die or wait until she goes into labor and it will die soon after. she was offered an abortion which she refused, she is hoping and praying that it is born with at least one kidney so it will have a fighting chance. SO please if you have a heart and any believe in God remember her.

as for my last post my Ob doesn't agree with my family doctor about being induced any earlier since I have GD his lungs might not be fully developed if taken any earlier...so I'm happy with him safe in there kicking around.

lately he's been doing alot more rolling type movements and less kicking , I think he has dropped. last night I felt his head low in my pelvis right around my pubic bone , turning from side to side and a few fluddery feeling around the same area I think it's his fingers... he still gets the hiccups at least twice a day and sometimes I rub his thigh, legs, feet, bum when he sticks it out , which can be uncomfortable... sometimes I jsut lay on my side watching him practice his breathing you can see an area of my belly rasie and fall rythmically but unlike hiccups it's not a jarring , jerking movment just slow and steady. it's so unfar they are right there so close yet you can't hold them or see what they look like ....aahhh the suspence!

and I still hear click / popping sounds at least once a day yesterday i heard it at least 4 times, I think it's his little maturing bones and joints popping, like ours do ..at least that is what it sounds like, my doctor has no idea but I've looked it up on the computer and alot of other women in there last few weeks have heard the same sound so at least I'm not going crazy!! I had an Rn hear it once and also my husband so yeah it's not my mind :D

Oct. 23rd 2007

my babyshower was last evening ... I didn't get a whole lot but I didn't really think I would baby showers for the second born are never like the first :( but it was still a good time with family and friends. and since I'm already 35 weeks I already have mostly everything I needed. so...

I went for my Non Stress test this morning which I'm going to be doing every Tuesday and Friday from here on out. it went great, Payton is normally pretty active when I have them , with the exception of last week when I had to drink water because he wasn't moving. They also did my group B strep test. I was suppose to have my Growth scan tomorrow but they changed ituntil next Tuesday when I'm already in the office for my NST... tomorrow I will be getting a flu shot...my husband has to get one every year they are free where he works and required, my 4 year old son has asthama and get's one every year as well... I have never got one but I think it will be a good idea since the immunity will be pasted on to Payton and he will be born and so little in the middle of cold and flu season. my 4 year old was born in April and got his first cold at 3 weeks which was scary!! then at 9 months he got really sick they thought he had RSV! I think his asthama has alot to do with him getting sick like that ...so anything I can do to help Payton from getting sick I'm gonna do, the worse case ... would be me getting a mild flu for a few days, better me than him.

NOV. 2nd 2007~

ok I think I've made it to a point of going crazy!!

I'm so uncomfortable, irriratable, sleepy, and emotional I don't know what to do with myself... I've got an 8lb baby inside of me that I want to enjoy being there for these last few days before he is born... but my ribs are bruised , I've been cramping like I'm about to have the worlds worst ever period, along with the whole lower back ache, I have to pee everytime I change from sitting to standing or standing to sitting , I'm irriatable mainly because my house is a mess, I can't stand a messy house, I want to clean it and I try but there is just not enough time right now between dr. appointments, running here or there, picking up after my 4 year old and all of that fun stuff, when I have a free minute I'd much rather find a comfortable place to rest or nap then I feel quilty that my son is watching t.v instead of interacting with me or that my husbnad is watching our son, instead of me.

and if I get past that I can't get comfortable enought to sleep...my hip hurts, my legs cramp, my hand falls asleep, i get heartburn,I have to pee AGAIN! the baby decideds to kick and you know I'd much rather lay there sleepy and feel him happy moving around than nap any day!! or my son needs my help. so i feel like I need to get up to put in his movie or wipe his bum or get him a drink cause that's what mommies do , and I worry I'm not being fair to him, by resting or like this evening not taking him skating because he wants to but I don't feel like it so I cry ... then I get over it, get up, get both of us ready take him skating only for him to fall asleep on the way there, I cry some more while sitting in the parking lot talking to my husband who is working (3rd shift) and knows I've been having a rough couple of days. I pull out of the parking lot , make it back home all while listening to my son snore..wishing it where me!! I wake him..errr.... try to wake him...he cries 'cause he isn't at the skating placeand is sleep and mommy can't carry him inside.I tried but he is 70 lbs. and I just can't do it right now !!

my husband said he remembers me getting this way just before I had our son... I swear I don't remember... such a mix of emotion... loving being pregnant but wanting it to be over...

NOV. 9th 2007

ONE LAST LOOK BACK...

SO close yet so far away it seems , yet I know the pregnancy will all be behind me soon and I'll be just beginning life with a newborn (AGAIN!) It's sometimes still all so unreal to me ..after trying so long without luck and then bam it just happened, I remember all the tears I shead , every month after we'd tried when my period came, I remember once having a positive pregnancy test and being a week late while on vacation ...I told my mom I thought I was PREGNANT I was so excited ..but then I started my period the day befreo we left vacation I was crushed!!I remember crying to my Ob/Gyn about wanting to get pregnant and I remember charting my BBT every morning and have sex when our chances where best for getting pregnant...the stress! the defeat...going to my Ob a nervous wrech asking to be put on Birth control because our marriage was being strained, we where tired of the monthly roller coaster ride and decided we could be happy with just one child BLAKE. I remmber giving away the last of my maternity clothes and books and nursing tops and a tote of baby clothes I had saved for the baby I'd never have...

A month later!!! I would regret all of that!! we where getting ready to leave for our annual vacation to Florida and I had just had my period not wanting to fool with a trip to the pharmacy I decided I'd get my birth control filled when I got home, after all we where unprotected for 3 years and nothing happened. we thought nothing of it.

SO I feel bad everytime I complain about a pain or the discomfort ...because it's really what I was praying for all along. not next friday but the following at this time I will be holding my long awaited angel in my arms, nothing more to complain about, ok maybe the post - op pains but again they are all worth it!

Not knowing if we'll ever be able to have another ( we always wanted 3) I want to make the most of every minute not only with Payton but with Blake, they are truely a gift and they have taught me so much about life.

10 MORE DAYS!! it seems like forever!! I'M so ready , yet so unprepared! all our lives are about to be changed FOREVER!! WOW!I had another NST today baby is moving fine and his heart rate is reacting just right to all his movement, 3 more days and I have one last fluid check, another non stress test and my pre-op appointment ...2 weeks from now I will be at home with my baby...no longer pregnant. I really want to make the most out of these last couple of days, Thanksgiving this year is gonna take on a whole new meaning..forget exstended family, stuffing my face full of grandma's turkey , traveling house to house to visit, it's all about my husband, my son , me and the baby and our new life together. If i have not went into labor before my C-section date ( the 23rd) which is hte day after thanksgiving I think I'll make us our own small family meal and we can hang out in our pj's until noon watching the macy's thanksgiving day parade, eat our meal ... before we even call or visit anyone.

Pregnancy Survey (2008-2009)
About You
Name?:	jenny
Age?:	25
Height?:	5'7
Pre-pregnancy weight?:	208
About The Father
Name?:	tim
Age?:	25
Height?:	5'9
Are you still together?:yes since	July 1st 2000
About Your Pregnancy
Is this your first pregnancy?:	No, I had a previous mc. in 2000 and a healthy son in 2003, healthly son in 2007
When did you find out you were pregnant?:	july 31st
Was it planned?:	NO!
What was your first reaction?:	Disbelief, excitement, nerviousness,...
Who was with you when you found out?:	my husband
Who was the first person you told?:	my husband
How did your parents react?:	didn't say much..my grandmotehr suggested an abortion since Payton is only a baby... I was so mad I have not spoke to her since!
How far along are you?:	33 weeks
What was your first symptom?:	nausea, tired , craving spinach!
What is your due date?:	March 1st 2009 c-section scheduled for Feb. 27th
Do you know the sex of the baby?:	yes
If so, what is it?:	BOY!
Have you picked out names?:	yes
If so, what are they?:	Wyatt Christian or Wyatt Natanial
How much weight have you gained?:	I lost in the beginning now i"m up to 224 uggg...
Do you have stretch marks?:	from previous pregnancy
Have you felt the baby move?:	yes
Have you heard the heartbeat?:	yes
About the birth
Will you keep the baby?:	Definatly
Home or hospital birth?:	hospital birth
Natural or medicated birth?:	medicated for sure
Who will be in the delivery room with you?:	My husband.
Will you breastfeed?:	Yes
Do you think you'll need a c-section?:	yes scheduled c-section Feb. 27th
Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?:	no
What's the first thing you might say to him/her?:	hi , little one
Would you let someone videotape the birth?:	not a chance
Are you excited about the birth, or scared?:	c-sections are nerve racking, I hate that part

NOV. 9th 2008~

OK I feel a little bad not writing before now about this pregnancy but truth is I'm very busy! blake is now 5 and a half and in Kindergarten, he has just finished playing fall soccer and is in Karate 3 days a week . and is looking forward to spring t-ball meanwhile he is keeping busy skating every weekend until then =)

Payton is a very active 11 month old ..with his birthday 2 weeks away I'm starting to get ready for that and sorta feeling like time has flown by and it wasn't long ago I was writing a blog about him kicking me while I was pregnant with him , now he is crawling around ..ready to walk at any moment so full of life and a momma boy...I'm really worried how it's going to be once this baby comes. I'm going to be busy! and with payton still nursing and not wanting to wean I don't want to wean or rush his babyhood just because we are going to have another that's not fair to him and as a child I was treated unfairly so I'm not going to treat my kids that way .

well I suppose a little background info would be helpful at this point . I found out I was Pregnant this time on July 31st I was laying in bed wake and feeling really sick... the sun was not up yet... and as i lay there I started thinking about all my symptoms...OMG..there was no way I had an 8 month old that I was nursing regularly and we where using over the counter birth control when we found the time ..which was kinda hardly ever at that point... so I lay there till my husband got home from work and I met him in the kitchen I asked him if he'd run to the store for diapers for Payton ...and a pregnancy test ... his eyes got huge... do you think your pregnant? NO , I know I am sweetie I ust need confirmation...I had spent 2 hours thinking and had come up with 7 or 8 symptoms and I knew I was....

...the test was positive, I was crying , my husbnad was sitting on the bathroom floor .. reassuring me it was going to be ok... and I just cried... we thought we might want a 3rd child but I was getting ready to start fall classes to start a career and Payton is only little and our house is only 3 bedrooms and money is going to be tight.... i was at the dr a few days later and I found out I was infact 10 weeks pregnant... I falled my sugar test that week and was amazed at the ultra sound seeing our baby already formed when I had no idea days before I was even pregnant!!

it'took a few weeks for me to stop worrying about everything and just enjoying being pregnant.

now I"m 24 weeks we found out it's another boy! we thing we are going to name him wyatt Christian although my husband like jona too so we are not set with any name yet.

my c-section date is set for Feb. 27th just 2 days before my actual due date of March 1st ..I know with Payton's birthday , then thanksgiving ...christmas , new years ...tax time... valentines' day , my husbnads birthday ( feb.. 18th ) time is going to fly . I'm thankfulto be pregnant once again and I cant wait to meet this little one that couldn't wait to be here =)

43 more days ! Wyatt is laying Transverse(sideways) so as much as I'd like to actually go into labor on my own that way I know the baby is ready to be born ans just to have the experience I'm afraid the cord could become prolapsed and hurt the baby if I did infact go into labor on my own... I'm still hoping he'll turn he's got a little while longer I think they say before 36 weeks.

I started taking oral meds for my GD and it's been very good ..well today isn't but that happens every few weeks I have an off day I think it's due to a growth spurt?? and I still get livid when I read the girls in week 20-28 saying they hope they don't have sugar because eat sweets... just because you have sugar doesn't mean you sit down to a meal of sticky buns and soda every day... it is in your gene's and of course diet does factor in you can have sugar and not really eat sweets...ok I'm done ranting now...

everything is going well I suppose I should be cherishing these last few days as a pregnant women as this is probably our last BUT... since my last pregnancy and this one as so close together I'm really ready to get the pregnancy part over and start living and getting use to our new life as a big family of 5 since i never fully adjusted to being a family of 4... it's crazy how fast life happens... my 5 year old has just lost his first tooth and another is loose and my 13 month old almost 14 month old now had 12 teeth... and is totally weaned from breastfeeding... time flies!