Updates

Yesterday I went to my first prenatal appointment with my new care provider--a natural midwife--with Jack. She used a doppler to try to find a fetal heatbeat. She couldn't find one! I swear I started seeing stars and thought I was going to pass out. She told me she wasn't worried because she couldn't even feel my uterus and thought it was probably buried so far under my pelvic bone that it was too hard to hear. But when she realized how freaked I was, she called the hospital and got me in for an ultrasound that day. So we trucked over there and sat in the ER for a while watching CMT until we were led back to the ultrasound room. It was the first time they did an abdominal ultrasound--sticky!!! Anyway there was Jellybean waving it's arms and legs around all crazy and in it's chest that little pulsating star. I'm not positive but I think I saw Jack wiping tears out of his eyes. Anyway we are up to 4 cm in length with big growth spurts expected. In a week and a half I'll be a third of the way through! Oh, and I'm getting a little pudgy around the middle, unbuttoned jeans, etc.

Sunday, March 30:

I had my first prenatal appointment on Friday. I was nervous to the point of tears on the ultrasound table. But there it was...our jellybean...all head and heart--and what a heart!!!!


Wednesday, March 19:

Okay, getting my first taste of the physical discomforts that come along with this little miracle of life, not to mention the mood swings, i.e. emotional roller coaster. Biggest problem is I can't sleep. I have nightmares, have to pee twice during the night, and cannot go back to sleep after I come back from the bathroom.

After being up before five myself, I finally woke up the BF at seven--but I made him coffee--which was nice of me since I can't drink it! He complained, first about getting up and then about me not waking him up sooner! And then he told me he loved me a lot and took me to the grocery store.

Monday, March 17:

Still five weeks? I think I got my DLP wrong before. I want to be thirteen weeks pregnant already!!!

Well I had my first appt today with the MOMS nurse. I'm still nervous but everyone tells me to just relax because the only thing I can do is try to make the best environment possible for the new baby and hope he likes it here. I want an ultrasound, like yesterday!

My boyfriend is happy and excited. Tonight I tell the family. Wish me luck. *^_^*

Tuesday, March 11:

WOW! Thanks for the congratulations.

Alright...so does anyone have any advice for telling the boyfriend? We've only been together since November. We just crossed the whole "I think I love you" lalalaladeda and we agreed that we are both ready and looking for a long term partner...and then we decided to take things SLOW and to see where things go....so NEEDLESS TO SAY, this was not the Plan!!!!!!!!!!! I'm afraid he'll be mad at me (as if this was my fault!). Or feel trapped. Or feel like he has to stay with me.

BTW,I'm in love with him...and so happy to be having his baby. I just just just....I am 30yrs old and this is making me feel like I am 17. Will someone please pinch me into adulthood, and fast!!!!

Monday, March 10:

I just took two pregnancy tests. Holy moley there were two lines...both times! Huh. I really can't believe that this is happening to me. I keep pinching myself... And whats worse, I could really use a beer!!!! Hahahahaha! Anyone out there?