jillangel
jillangel has 12 days to go and is now in week 38
	Age: 34 Country: Province/region: City: Partner: Ken Children: Yes, 3 Pregnant: Yes Due date: 08 Aug ,2008 Occupation: hairstylist
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Let's see... I'm 7 weeks pregnant after 2 m/c one in Aug then 2 weeks later pregnant again but lost in October due to hormones not being back to normal. We waited 2 months which was very hard because if we tried right away my due date would have been my birthday Aug 19th and what a present that would have been. Better though so we can have a healthy baby. Both losses were daughters and I have a daughter Ashley from a previous marriage that will be 10 on Feb 16th. She will be a wonderful big sister and a huge help to us. I am with the love of my life after dating twice when we were young then going our separate ways I couldn't stop thinking about him and got in touch with him and we've been together ever since. I finally have that fairy tale love I only thought was in books and movies. lol. Third time's the charm for us and hopefully for our baby. Good Luck to everyone!

On Feb 26 th I went in for my 12 week scan and there were two babies in there! We are so excited. This is after 2 sonograms showed only one heartbeat. One at 5 weeks 5 days and one at 7 weeks 3 days so my doctor was just as surprised as we are! I go in 2 days for an in depth sonogram to see if they are fraternal or identical. I just hope everything is ok. Funny thing is full term for twins is a little early so they will be closer to my bday anyway!

March 6th. Not so great news. Apparently the twins are identical and sharing a placenta and I have twin to twin transfusion syndrome. I am only 13 weeks so I understand it is severe when it starts that early. I am waiting to hear from my doctor and I will be seeing a perinatologist. I am on immediate bed rest and have gotten alot of info off the internet etc. but would appreciate hearing from anyone who had this or was in a similar situation. Thank you.

March 9th. Great news today. I saw a wonderful high risk doctor at Sinai, Dr. Arrabal. He says it is too early to say I have ttts but that the babys heartbeats are good and strong and they are only measuring 3 days apart. I am 13 weeks and 2 days. Baby a is measuring 13 weeks 3 days and heartbeat of 149 Baby b is 13 weeks and heartbeat of 150. He said it is normal to have a slight difference in fluid early on inmultiple pregnancy. They still didn't find a bladder in baby b but I go for another sonogram in 2 weeks. I am still extremely high risk with identical twins but they will just keep a close eye on me to see what develops. I am off of bed rest for the time being and it turned out it was not the grave situation they thought they were dealing with. I don't know but we'll take it day by day.

March 24th. Not so great news. After the sonogram we still have two heartbeats but are in stage two of the twin to twin transfusion syndrome. The doctor called the specialist at university of maryland and our next step is a consultation to see if we are candidates for laser surgery. I will be 16 weeks on Wednesday (4 days) and that is the earliest they can do anything. Right now it is back to bedrest and pray for the best and take it day by day.

March 30th.Well now we wait. I saw the wonderful doctors at University of Md and we will do the surgery. I am 16 weeks 2 days and they would like for me to get to between 18 and 20 weeks to stretch the placenta and uterus to get a better view and minimize bleeding etc. The babies are doing well so I go again on Tues. and they will keep an eye on me and if they take a critical turn for the worst they will do the surgery immediately but hopefully I'll make it a few weeks for a better outcome with the surgery. They aren't 100% but if they had to guess based on what they could see they are thinking girls. I'm still resting so hopefully my placenta will get maximum nutrients and oxygen and Tuesday we will see how everything is going.

April 4th. Yesterday I went back to University of Md and they babies are still the same relatively stable. I go back next week if they are still the same they will hold off on the surgery because they aren't doing bad enough which is a mixed blessing. We are so glad they are doing so well but I'm afraid if they don't get the surgery by 26 weeks and then it gets bad I have to have amnioreductions and they may not make it to term then. Everything is week to week and if anything does happen I can get the surgery up to 26 weeks so it is a waiting game. I'm just happy they are ok so far and let them get bigger. They are more sure they are girls. I still don't feel any movement yet and am 17 weeks today. I do still get sick about once a day but I think maybe that is starting to get better.

April 12th. Well we made it to 18 weeks! The girls are still doing very good and staying stable. Baby a is 9oz. with a h/b of 163. Baby b is 8oz. with a h/b of 153. They are about 1-2 oz. ahead of where they should be so they are growing great. Their dopplers looked good so I will go back to Sinai now for weekly sonograms until they get bad enough for the surgery(if they ever do). Right now because of my anterior placenta I need a 10-12 cm pocket of fluid and it is only 7 cm up from 5.5 last week and baby b still has a 4.4 which is good she isn't stuck and was able to move around some. (hopefully she will get off my sciatic nerve!)I went for a week without getting sick just gagging and nausea but then yesterday I got sick in the morning. Maybe it was nerves. I have been a hormonal nervous wreck worrying like crazy and easily agitated.I think I may have felt a kick last night but it was so quick I wasn't sure. I know most people say you never forget it but it's been 10 yrs since I was pregnant and alot seems new again. I'm sure I'll know when I get kicked real hard but between every contraction, stretch, cramp and twinge I never can tell.

April 13. I'm sure I felt a kick last night. My fiance lays in bed every night talking to his babies and kissing and rubbing my stomach. He was poking theright side trying to wake them up and clear as day he got a "knock it off daddy" kick. There was no mistaking it. Today I feel a little here and there. I love so much the attention he pays to the babies. It makes me love him more and more. Now it's funny because my sex drive is off the charts and he won't have any part of sex because he is afraid of anything happening. The doctor said it was ok as long as we were careful but he still won't. Right before both miscarriages we had sex and he is terrified that something will happen again no matter what the doctors say he won't take the chance. So that just makes me love him more and there is other stuff we can do of course but wow that's a long time I'll have to wait lol.

The first pic is me at 14 1/2 weeks. The second is 9 1/2 weeks. The third is my two favorite boys Ken and Dakota. They are out numbered by all the girls here. The forth is the best kiddle in the world big sister Ashley. The fifth is Ken and I at my cousin's wedding.Sixth and seventh are two cakes I made for showers. I wish I could find a pic on the computer I made similar but alot more colorful. I've made quite a few different ones for showers like that so if anyone wants to know how just ask. I'll probably make my own shower cake this time lol.Eight is Ash in Wildwood when she was about 7. Last is the hissy mixum. ashley took that pic.

I need to figure out my scanner or take pics of my ultrasounds to put them on. That would be slideshow because I have at least 30 lol. That's a perk of high risk I guess. I get to see my babies at least once a week every week.

I'm so happy we are having girls. Personally I'd be happy no matter what as long as they are healthy but Ken and Ash really wanted girls and both the m/c were girls. We have so much girl stuff and all our friends have girls to hand us down stuff so that works out. The best though is our last name is Angel and you find so much cute daddy's little angel and mommy's little angel stuff but not so much boy angel stuff. I'd have been happy either way though.

Pregnancy...
Name?:	Jill
Birthdate?:	Aug 19
Current Age?:	33
Height?:	5'5"
First Pregnancy?:	4th
Is not how many children do u have?:	10 yr old daughter 2 m/c and pregnant with identical twin girls
How much did they weight?:	7lbs.1oz.
How long where they?:	21 1/2in.
How long was your birth?:	very quick about 3 hrs
Are you excited?:	more than words can describe
When are you Due?:	Sept 12th but with twins they won't let me go past Aug 29th if we make it that far
Do you know what your having?:	Identical twin girls
Any Complications??:	We are in stage 2 of twin to twin transfusion syndrome
First doctor appt?:	Jan 16th
When did u find out you were pregnant??:	Dec 30th
Best thing so far about being pregnant?:	My fiance rubbing my belly and talking to "his babies"
Who was the first person you told?:	Ken
Who was with u when you found out?:	My dog Dakota was in the bathroom with me
Did u have morning sickness?:	Everyday from week 8 til week 17
Did certain smells make you sick?:	the refrigerator,trash and dog food
What was your favroit thing to eat?:	nothing appealed to me when I was sick
How much was your pre pregnancy weight?:	200lbs
How much weight have you gained so far?:	maybe a pound in the last week since I haven't been sick
Pregnant now? If so how far along are you?:	yup 18 1/2 weeks
Do u love being pregnant?:	So very much
Age when you got pregnant?:	33
Do u want to find out the gender?:	already did
What do u want?:	girls and that's what we got
Vaginal or cesarian?:	vaginal hopefully
Carrying high or low?:	high
About dad!!!
Name?:	Ken
Birthdate?:	Sept 26th
Height?:	6'3"
What was dads reaction?:	Cautiously excited after 2 m/c
Are you still with the father?:	most definately
Is he excited?:	Yeah even if he is worried
More Questions
How did your parents react?:	happy
How did his parents react?:	happy
Did you have your first ultrasound?:	I've literally had at least 12. Once a week if not more lately
How is the baby's movement?:	great
How is the baby's heartbeat?:	baby a 163 baby b 153 this week
Who do you think the baby will look like?:	tall like daddy hopefully cute like him too
What was the first change you noticed in your body?:	face breaking out
What was the latest change in your body??:	showing
What is your work schedule?:	haven't been working mostly on bedrest
What is the last thing you bought for the baby?:	nothing yet
What was the last thing you bought for yourself?:	maternity clothes
Planned birth place?:	hospital
Who will be in the room with you?:	Ken, Ashley and hopefully our parents will make it in time
Are you scared?:	not so much
Are you going to use drugs?:	I sure hope so
How do you think you will react ?:	relieved and happy
How do you think the father will react?:	same
Have you started birthing classes?:	No I know how to breathe and I already had one natural without drugs and lived through it
What is the nursery theme?:	none so far
Are you going to breastfeed?:	going to try
Is someone videotaping it?:	hopefully
Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?:	I'm so sure
Take this survey | April 26th- Well good news. We are still stable and now they can barely classify us as twin to twin syndrome. There still is a fluid difference and a slight difference in the babies sizes but the hearts are good and blood flow is good. They will check next week and see how the growth is doing as compared to last week. They didn't measure this week because from week to week it may seem like not much difference. If all is ok and still stable they think I can go back to bi weekly sonograms. I have finally started gaining between 5 and 10 lbs. depending on when I get weighed maybe because I haven't been sick in a week. Woo Hoo. I've been more active this week and when I am boy do I feel it. I get ridiculous pressure between my legs and I'm only 20 weeks. I can't imagine how I'll feel in a few more weeks especially as it gets hotter. I swore I wouldn't complain because I wanted to be pregnant at all costs but wow. Another good thing is when I was at the hospital today for my appt. a lady gave birth to identical twin girls ( I was eavesdropping in the waiting room) and I struck up a conversation with the lady making my appt and she said they had twin to twin and made it to 36 weeks. So I took my nosey hormonal self out the door and found one of the family members and she told me everyone was doing great very healthy and couldn't be better. I was crying I was so happy for them. I told her that gave me so much hope and I was glad to hear everything went well for them. I go to my ob on Tuesday and another sonogram on Thursday so I'll wait a little more optimistically this week. May 5th-I went Thursday and apparently the doctor I saw last week didn't look over my previous records (first time I saw her) I kind of thought it was odd what she was saying was a little too good to be true. So I saw the doctor more familiar with my case and he went over the last few weeks when I was at other hospitals etc. he basically said what I was used to. Still somewhat stable but fluid on A has gotten worse 8.2 cm (still not enough for surgery) B's fluid increased to 5.1 which I was thrilled about but baby B had an abnormal doppler reading. Last weeks doctor didn't do them and that was one of the things I was there for. Anyway it was an elevated umbilical artery doppler which the doc said we need to keep a close eye on. I think that can lead to absent or reverse diastolic flow. He had me set up appts. for the next few weeks every week. I knew there was no way they would take me biweekly. I would have said something if they did not that I love going every week but every other doctor said this can go bad quick and wouldn't feel safe seeing me less frequently than weekly and for my peace of mind I would insist on it. My doc also said he will see me this week for an in depth growth scan so we will know if there has been growth in the last few weeks. I'm nervous about that. He also wants to go over what has gone on in the past few weeks. He said when I see different docs something could get overlooked and he doesn't want that. Well thank you neither do I. He also came out to make sure when I schedule to make sure I was seen with him. So I felt more comfortable then until this week.lol. So I put myself back on as much rest as possible all the protein I can handle. I've gained 7 lbs so far and am 21 1/2 weeks along. Docs don't seem concerned. everything else is ok. I saw my ob this week too. Blood pressure good, no protein in urine etc. Still don't feel the babies very much. I guess with this anterior placenta and fat roll in front it just takes longer. I would have thought with two in there I'd feel them more by now. May 14th- I hope everyone had a wonderful mothers day! I went for the big growth scan and consultation on Thursday and it all went pretty well. Dopplers were back to normal. Nice bladder in baby b. Fluid on a is 8.3 cm still polyhydraminous. Fluid on B was 3.2 considered within normal. There is a 24% growth discordance between them just something to keep an eye on they are still growing. Baby a is 1lb 1oz Baby b is 13 oz. Now this is for 22 weeks and 1 day. Well a difference in twins is expected and sites I've looked at give a range of weight for 22 weeks between 12 oz. and 15 oz. so even for baby b 13 oz. is in that range so I feel pretty good about all that. I think I've been feeling baby A a bit yesterday and this morning. Thursday night and yesterday I was getting weird pains in my right side. I have to call the doctor. I feel like a baby but Id rather be safe than sorry. Hard to even describe. they last for about 15 min. Doesn't feel like gas or braxton hicks. I'm thinking maybe the baby is stretching weird. That is the baby with extra fluid but if it were getting worse I'd think it would hurt constantly. It wasn't after being active and laying down does not help. Pressure against it helps a little. I saw a site on fibroids and it kind of sounds like that. When I had the last m/c the sonographer mentioned fibroids but no one has said anything since. Part of me thinks I'm being paranoid but at the same time I'm not imagining when it hurts. Hopefully it's nothing. Anyone with fibroids or this strange pain let me know. May 25th... I haven't updated in a bit. We made it to 24 weeks! Talk about excited. And we are by no means out of the woods here but still. When you aren't expected to make it to 16 weeks and we've made it this far it gives me some kind of optimism. We met with the neonatalogist this week "in case" we have an emergency and need to be delivered now we would know what to expect. Doctors don't expect us to go soon though we are still staying stable. Sonogram this week showed both babies within normal limits as far as fluid dopplers etc. Next week is another growth scan and ob appt. so we will see how they are growing. Baby a went breech so I finally feel some kicking in the bottom of my belly. Baby b I feel every now and then. I wish my fiance and daughter could feel them already but so far nothing. It takes some of my anxiety away though when I can feel them.I kept wondering when it would finally hit me that two were in there and when I saw the nicu doc it did. Not only do you have to worry about all that can happen to one but two. Not a great thought. Hopefully we will make it super far and not need that. I feel like writing that we are doing good or saying it out loud is going to jinx us and we will start doing bad. I'm trying to eat everything not nailed down and tons of protein so they gain some weight. I feel good. Still get weird pain in my pubic bone which seems like pressure when I go to stand but nothing that I can't deal with. I have a nice long cervix still 5.1cm so that's good. It's starting to get hot here in Md. I had to finally turn the air on last night or I'd have never got to sleep. I go in to work a little more now an hour here or there. I'm the center of attention I feel like a movie star. I always loved being pregnant people are nice to you for no good reason and always like talking about their experiences etc and it puts people in a good mood. My daughter is going with my parents to the ocean for the week and I'm staying home due to all my doc appts. next week. P U. But she'll have fun. I hope everyone has a great memorial day weekend. June 1st-25 weeks 2 days. Still hanging in there. Draining day yesterday. Babies are doing good. Baby a-h/b 147 weighs 1lb12oz. Baby B h/b 143 weighs 1lb5oz. Still in range for 25 weeks. They have a 27% growth discordance still something to watch. Well after the growth scan yesterday the doctor I saw april 26th who I think is a nut comes in. She tried to tell me we don't have ttts and we can be seen bi weekly. I said No. We had a slight arguement. Obviously I won and I won't have to see her anymore. She left slamming the door. It's kind of funny today. Now I am thrilled we are staying stable but now is when it could get worse and quick so I am not going to every two weeks. Every doctor I've seen (that's 8 including her) seems to agree on this but her. This may stay stable but it doesn't just go away. She seemed to be offended but oh well. When you spend every day worried and make it this far I'm not so worried about offending anyone. Even if that wasn't my intention and I was very nice. Either way I'll get to see the peri who has more knowledge about this next week. I hope nothing changes for the worst but so help me if it does. Last time she said we could go biweekly I didn't and sure enough elevated doppler levels that week. I don't even love going every week. I'm extremely uncomfortable laying there and it gets worse every week but I figure buck up I need to know they are ok for my piece of mind. I am having those ridiculous hip pains and can't get comfortable. When you are resting so much your muscles get restless and I still have that lovely pubic pain. Nothing I can't live with but I'm a little surprised at how uncomfortable I get sometimes at only 25 weeks. I feel the babies a lot more now and that puts my mind at ease. Wednesday night at 25 weeks exactly my honey felt the babies for the first time and he kind of had to press a little but I was so happy about that. I was beginning to think he'd never get to feel them. I still haven't decided on names. Hell I can't even decide on meat at the grocery store. I like alot of names just nothing thrills me 100%. Saw my ob this week everything is still good there too. I've gained 11 lbs so far and I guess that's fine since the babies are still growing. Community pool is open now so when my daughter gets back from the ocean we'll be going to the pool. So I need to go find a bathing suit. That ought to be cute. Should have done that yesterday when my nerves were already shot. I should quit complaining now I'm technically very happy. June 8th-Made it to 26 weeks. Well the doctor last week was 100% quack. Which I knew but hoped she was right. Well I went yesterday for my weekly doppler fluid check and fluid started to develop on baby B's heart. So my wonderful doctor asked what we decided as far as delivery and we said we would deliver if neccesary. He decided to start testing to see if the babies were in distress or not. The fluid was right at the borderline 2mm level. Both babies were moving like crazy and baby b the one with fluid she's all over the place. So they decided to start BPP testing. We failed the first one because of the practice breathing. Ate and waited an hour tested again and finally passed. So now every week in addition to my other tests I have this 1 hour Bpp test. Definately every week. Oh I'd have loved for that other doctor to have been working I was ready for her. My doctor had me stop working becuase he saw on my record from the week before that the growth was slowing down. Not on bedrest but not allowed on my feet for an excessive amount of time. I do that but I was working more and more because I have a hard time saying no. Plus when I feel good it's hard to not do anything because I don't feel "sick" So I don't feel so bad since my doctor told me to stop. I also feel like unless something unexpected happens I'll make it to at least 27 weeks and then if something goes wrong they give me steroids and get me to 28 weeks before delivering would be good. Obviously I'd rather go all the way but even getting to 30 weeks would make me feel alot better. My next growth scan isn't for 2 weeks. Hopefully this rest will get us further. Now for all my complaints. First I think my honey is going to kill me. Poor thing can't get any sleep because I snore so bad. Actually I think I have sleep apnea because I wake myself up with this snort trying to catch my breath and when I looked it up it was described word for word. I thought there was nothing to be done about it but I should say something to my doctor. Apparently it deprives the babies of oxygen and can stunt their growth. So we will see what the doc says. I eventually slept on the sofa. He wants me to be comfy and he'd sleep on the sofa but it is no sense because I'm really as comfortable as I'm going to get and he is the one working and needing to sleep. I don't mind I just like sleeping with him but don't want to keep him up and I do it over and over all night. My other complaint is still my pubic bone. What the hell? I can be completely resting and it hurts and if I get up as soon as I put pressure on one leg or another wow. I walk like I'm 110 yrs old. This whole pregnancy thing is starting to settle in (after 26 weeks) I was a bit worried yesterday that oh sh*t we may really have babies soon. I'm so used to going and everything being stable that I take that for granted. I'm terrified that I'll have to go on hospital bedrest and be away from my daughter. I know everything would work out but I want to avoid that if at all possible. I try not to worry but now every little thing starts worrying me. I'm in so much a better situation than alot of people though I really am grateful. June 16th- I can't believe it's the middle of June. We are 27 weeks. Went to the doc thursday and it went pretty well. Due to a scheduling mix-up I got my growth scan a week early so it had only been two weeks. Baby a is 2 lbs 1oz. Baby B is 1 lb 11oz. a gained 5 oz b gained 6 oz in two weeks!. This was great because now there is only a 19% difference in size down from 27% and baby b is catching up and grabbing her share of the nutrients. Baby a is starting to get hair that you could see on the sonogram that was funny to me that you can even see that. Both had elevated dopplers but they will just keep an eye on everything. I guess the not working is helping so I have been trying to eat everything like crazy to help them gain. Now I have a stomach ache. I don't think I am going to have those 4d scans because honestly I am so sick of sonograms every week and even though it is neat to see with twins I may not see so much because they don't like to cooperate.lol. I have been tired for no good reason the last two days but otherwise I have been feeling good. June 30th-Well it's been awhile because it's been super hectic. Thursday before last when I was at 28 weeks, baby b failed practice breathing twice on bpp so I had nst and she passed so that was good. That Saturday the 23rd I had a shower that was a surprise. I hadn't even registered yet. It is getting close and everyone is worried these babies are coming early. I had also been looking at minivans since I'll need one now. Tuesday we were supposed to go get the minivan I liked then settle on the refinance of my house but I was waiting til 1:00 when my daughter was leaving for a camping trip until Sunday. About 11 am I got real dizzy and started throwing up. Now it is about a million degrees out and I was getting stressed but I wanted to make sure I wasn't going into labor so I go to labor and delivery and they were to keep me overnight for observation. Turned into two days even though we were all fine, my doc wanted me to see a neurologist just to check on the dizziness and the neurologist was behind because of emergencies. I appreciate they wanted to check me but it was an ordeal and I ended up getting out close to midnight. I had stuff to do and if it was an emergency I'd be ok but it wasn't. This thursday was a blur I had to go to bank and do transfers and get to the hospital for my weekly tests which could take all day. Well good babies must have figured I'd been through enough and passed on the first try. And it was baby b the stubborn one who passed immediately this time. Well I was so happy I could have cried. So now I'm good God willing til next week for growth. I did gain 2lbs this week which is amazing because at the hospital they had me on a liquid diet. I thought I was going to eat my dog when I saw him. Left the hospital and picked up the minivan and they kept calling about the house settlement and that was the most stressful. These people are BS'ers from the word go. It has been going on for so long telling me whatever and it never happening. Well this is what stresses me so much. I just wanted to be done with it. I'm sure I got screwed (which is as close to sex as I've been for more weeks than I remember) but papers finally got signed yesterday so I don't have to worry about that. I am just trying to get things taken care of before our little friends arrive and now it is starting to hit me they will be here maybe soon. Getting their room ready and all the little clothes and fun baby stuff. That's exciting but i'm also trying not to overdo it. Scared me but good Tuesday when I thought I may be in labor and we could be having the babies then. Woo. But now we are almost to 30 weeks(4th of jul-nation will be celebrating with fireworks that we made it that far lol) I feel like the babies are getting bigger too. Well until next week I hope you all are hanging in there. July 6th- 30 weeks 2 days. Still here. Growth yesterday. Baby a is 3 lbs 5 oz. Baby B is 2 lbs 9 oz. Still growing but a 21% difference. I probably haven't been resting as much as I should. I lost a lb too. Don't know what that's all about. My cervix is long at 4.7. We passed the bpp and nst tests. I want to make it til August but I so hope nothing happens this week because my doctor is on vacation. I feel like I have 10 million things to do and I know I shouldn't be doing much. Super hot today and will be the next few days so I'm staying in my air conditioning. July 16th -31 weeks 5 days woo hoo almost 32 weeks. I am officially no longer comfortable. Yesterday was miserable. Baby a was sitting funny and the pain on my right side was almost unbearable. I tried to go to the grocery store and that was cute. I got home and laid down drank alot of water got the runs (tmi) I scared myself thinking I over did it and may be early labor. After the last trip to the hospital I wasn't calling til I was sure and here I am ok again. I feel ok so far today I hope that continues. I went to the doc thursday. They started straight away with the nst and we passed. Rotten babies though, they like to move off the monitor as soon as we get a heartbeat on one the other moves.lol. Dopplers and fluid good. I go Wednesday to my ob and I guess I'll find out if I definately have to have a c section which I imagine I will with one placenta and if it gets scheduled or what. Plus I may be having my gestational diabetes test. I've gained 20 lbs. so far as last week. Then I woke up Friday with a strange pain in just my left knee I thought I slept wrong it lasted most of the day and went away. Funny all these weird aches and pains. Still feels like my pubic bone is split in half but I see the reason for that. I'll try and take it easy so maybe I won't be uncomfortable but it's all worth it. Less than 6 weeks we will have babies here. July 28th 33 weeks 2 days. Last week it was decided I go 2x a week for nst testing and we are doing well there. Thursday we had growth and baby a is 4lbs 7oz. baby b is 3lbs 4oz. Both within normal range but a 26% difference. Dr. says I should be on bedrest now. I had been doing way too much trying to get ready etc. but when I feel good it's hard to sit still especially since I wanted to get stuff ready not knowing how long I'd go. My next growth is 36 weeks (AUG 16TH) and dr said they will do amnio then and if lungs are mature we will deliver. So we will have babies in less than 3 weeks unless something happens before then. Possibly may not need c section because both are head down right now but that could change I guess. I'll have to see how that amnio works. If it's good and then they induce me right away or what. My bday is that Sunday and I'd love to have them then but I don't know about being in labor that long. Afraid to say but haven't been so uncomfortable and I passed the gestational diabetes test so we are good right now. Aug 9th- 35 weeks 1 day. I will be induced next Fri if I make it til then. One more week and I am nervous. We've been passing our nst and bpp tests twice a week and I go back Monday. Then Wednesday for growth. Thursday for amnio to see if their lungs are mature and Friday for induction if they are. Both are head down so we are trying for vaginal. Well after my testing today the doc says to come to his office to finalize stuff and he checks my cervix and I am 2cm dilated and 70% efffaced. Worried me a bit because my daughter came so fast the doc says if I so much as think I am in labor to get to the hospital but I could stay like this for awhile. A week I hope. My mom is going out of town for a wedding this weekend and that makes me nervous it will probably happen then. lol. I sware during the cervix exam he was trying to feel for my heart. My blood pressure went up good after that but then it went down again but wow. I hope all that fooling around down there don't get labor started so I am just laying around and drinking water. No contractions etc. Last year on this exact day I was at the hospital having a d&c for a miscarriage and here a year later I was there 35 weeks pregnant with twins. If someone would have told me that then I'd have thought they were crazy. Funny what can happen in a year. I hope everyone is doing well. next updates should be more exciting. We have two healthy perfect beautiful girls born aug 17th and were able to come home with us and everyone is doing great. I'll update later. It is truly absolutely amazing. We have babies! Born on Friday August 17th Morgan Michelle Angel 7:59 pm 5lbs 5 .2oz 19 inches and Megan Nicole Angel 8:01 pm 4lbs even 18 inches. We made it to 36 weeks and 2 days amnio showed the lungs to be mature and no signs of the ttts other than a weight disordance but they were both slowing down in weight gain so they decided to induce and get them out. After being induced at 5:30 in the am I was wheeled into the operating room with them both head down at 7:30 while I was pushing Morgan out Megan flipped wrapped herself up twice in the cord and went up high and had to have an immediate csection they had to basically push and pull Morgan back in to get her out. They were doing very well a little quick breathing and took us all into the recovery room where they had Ken doing the skin to skin kangaroo care to calm them down and I get a blood clot and my blood pressure went down to 50 over 31 they took the girls away and worked on me yet I didn't even realize how serious it was I was just happy I knew the girls were here ok. They got the clot and me stable but took Megan to nicu and Morgan to newborn nursery. Saturday visitors all got to see Megan in the nicu and Morgan and they brought me pics of both girls but I didn't get to see Megan until Sunday I got taken up to the nicu her breathing was good they just wanted to establish her sucking because she took her good old time eating. I then got Morgan in my room with me. I cried for hours that night because I felt bad that she was up there by herself and we were all down in the room. Monday right before lunch they surprised me and brought Megan down to the room and she ate great and has been ever since. We all left the hospital together Tuesday Morgan weighing 4lbs 15oz and Megan 3lbs 11oz. It is ridiculous you can be that small. Both together weigh about what Ash was total. They are 100% Ken I don't see one bit of me in them at all down to the fuzzy hairline, big feet and hands long fingers and toes that aren't even as big as pretzel sticks. Megans head is barely as big as a baseball. If they didn't have the weight difference I wouldn't be able to tell them apart. I have to look at both together. They make all Ken's facial expressions especially in their sleep (which is alot) but the best is their freakshow long eyelashes. Not one doctor, nurse, visitor or anyone else went without commenting on them it's the first thing you notice other than how small they are. He makes pretty babies though. The pics don't even really show how tiny they are. I wish everyone could see them but the doc said to limit visitors and if we go out don't let people handle or touch them for awhile. They swim in preemie clothes. Ashley is so good with them she can tell them apart pretty good as long as we have them in different outfits or blankets. In the hospital she was on sanitizer patrol she would make sure everyone washed or used sanitizer when they came in and she holds them and all but notices the lb difference between them. The dog and cat don't know what to make of them especially if they cry they just sniff them alot and keep checking them out. I am a hormonal wreck just happy and can't believe they are here and ok after everything we went through I just look at them and cry and it doesn't help that Ken is so great. He has to be one of the happiest daddy's I've ever seen. There is some country song about daddy's little girls turning men into babies and the words to it make me cry right now thinking of it but I was supposed to be resting and he was playing it to them and it just tears me up. He is so good with them. So far it has been pretty easy because they eat and sleep and leave me presents in their diapers. I recovered well after the surgery didn't even need so much as a motrin. I can drive and get around fine even if I'm not supposed to I take it a little easy though I just feel happy since for so long when I was pregnant I couldn't do anything now I can clean and get things situated. I gained 24lbs and have lost all but 5 lbs immediately but I still look blubbery around the middle especially but I can fit into my regular clothes and all. I just wanted everyone to know we are doing great and thank you for thinking of us. December 13th- Here we go again! The following is something I posted on a twin website but it sums everything up...I don't know where to post this but I just had identical twin girls August 17th. Yesterday I took a pregnancy test and it was very positive. I was on the pill for two full months and had taken the first pill in the third pack that "special" night. November 12th. Took the whole third pack and missed my period last week. When I called the doctor Monday and mentioned that, I was told it could take 3 months for my body to get regular. ok fine. Now I'm under unbelievable stress besides taking care of 4 month old twins 24/7 I have a ton of other bizarre things that keep happening it's one thing after another. Well that's life and when I started getting nauseated and exhausted I kept telling myself it's just stress there is NO way I can be pregnant. Mind you I took these pills every morning same time never skipped I'm not on antibiotics so taken as directed there is only a 1% chance of pregnancy. But yesterday, 4 days into my 4th pack I thought I'll take a test to put my mind at ease and sure enough it was 2 lines dark and fast. I feel like the old lady that lived in a shoe. I'd be due August 8th so for about 2 weeks I'll have three babies under one. No with my luck this will be twins again. I am so stunned I can't even put into words. I was already minutes away from checking into the looney bin because of two colicky babies. I've always thought everything happens for a reason but can't for the life of me figure out this reason. I also figure this must be strongly meant to be for it to happen well at least I keep telling myself that. I have the most wonderful 10 year old and with the twins we were trying. I had two miscarriages and I wanted a baby SO bad. (Actually wanted twins because I never really thought that would happen) Watch what you wish for...boom we get twins. Well we were (and still are) thrilled to death. Now identical twins are random something like a 10% chance I think. Well they were definately identical because we were in stage two of twin to twin syndrome the entire pregnancy. Less than 10% chance of developing twin to twin and we did. Even less of a chance they would be delivered healthy. A miracle but thank god they were. But I can't even describe how scary that was.. not a day, hour even minute would go by that we could let our guard down. Because we are so incredibly thankful I swore I'd never complain and I don't. I don't know how I make it through the day. I tell myself if they are screaming they are breathing and they can't scream forever. I (as everyone here knows) get up a million times a night and never ask for help because this is what I wanted and I got it. But wow. People say God only gives you what you can handle. I honestly don't know where he got the idea I can handle two babies now this? I seriously don't know what to do because I am in so much shock. No one in their right mind would have another baby right now but I can't see terminating it because I think that would screw me up too much always wondering what would have been etc. and so many people would kill to have a baby but I can't see putting it up for adoption because we would be too attached. But financially even considering this is absurd. My fiance is shockingly thrilled to death. Completely different reaction than I thought he would have but I am so grateful otherwise I'd probably shoot myself. So he is supportive no matter what, saying if people waited til they were financially ready they'd never have babies. Well I think he is delirious or in shock to be happy and saying this stuff because it's all on him to be the big breadwinner here. With the twins we were financially ok to have ONE baby. I had insurance, had savings, have a three bedroom house. I was working full time as a hairstylist, plan was work all the way til I had the baby be out 6 weeks and go back to work. 12 weeks later find out we were having twins- plans changed. End up having twin to twin so was on bedrest for most of the pregnancy. Now since I wasn't working full time I lost my insurance and had to go on medical assistance. Thank god for that but now I feel ashamed like I'm making babies I can't take care of. My fiance worked his butt off but we've now gone through our savings. Can't afford to put the twins in daycare so I watch them during the day and had just recently started back to work part time to try and make a little money. To top things off my fiance got in an argument with his manager and quit his job three weeks ago and is having a hard time finding another. Now this was a major part of my stress. To top it off my ex husband is a deadbeat who refuses to pay child support and keeps getting off in court-how I don't know but that's a whole different story. Got to love the Maryland court system. I swear I couldn't make this up. I should be on Jerry Springer. Sorry this is so long I thought if I wrote it down it may help organize my thoughts, maybe someone has some helpful advice? Well 15 minutes til my doctors office opens. December 20th. I went Monday and my levels were 14,287. Dr E says we should see something. So I went yesterday and we saw one sac with two of something in it. One heartbeat but something else was definately in there. So after the holiday I go to a more in depth sonogram and see if the something else has a heartbeat. Based on my lmp of Nov 2nd. I would be 6 weeks so I am in that iffy time where things are still developing etc. Especially not knowing when I ovulated or conceived etc. Implantation could have been late. Either way that would be two sets of identicals within a year. I should write a book. Then Ken says he won the lottery. 3 numbers $7.00 Woo hoo we can retire. January 28th 12 weeks 3 days I went Friday for 12 week sono and the other yolk sac reabsorbed but we are having what appears to be one healthy baby. Heartbeat of 152. Funny how thinking we were having another 2 makes having just one not seem so overwhelming. Actually we've become quite happy. Guess you never know what you want til you get it. Maybe I'm still a bit in denial. I don't feel pregnant at all for the most part. Looking at that sonogram was strange as if I were watching someone else. I keep feeling like this pregnancy I'm supposed to enjoy since my last was so scary. Hopefully everything goes well. July 7,08 36 weeks High time I update this. Practically through the whole pregnancy without updating. I suck. Well we've known this is supposedly another girl since 17 weeks we've just come up with a name. Ryleigh Madisyn (we think) I'm lucky this pregnancy has been completely uneventful. I've gained 14 lbs (that's what happens when you chase two babies all day) and I eat a ton. No gestational diabetes, swelling, nothing. This is how pregnancy should be for everyone. I can't believe I am at the point when the twins were born. Less than a month we will have another. Still sounds so absurd.