Hi Everyone
This is my story.... My name is Jenny and I am 27 years old and married to the most amazing man in the world. We have been inseparatable since we were 16. We've travelled the world together, bought a home together and decided three years ago to start a family. We thought it would be easy. but after 18months of TTC. .... and no success, we sort professional help. Like so many others, we have been through alot.....I was operated on in April 2007 to treat PCOS and Endometrios. And miscarried on 20th August 2007. (I was 6 wks). I had conceived on Clomid 50mg. I was determined that even from the moment, I was never going to give up. It took a few more rounds of Clomid and finally.... yes finally, I am pregnant and managed to fall pregnant again on 50mg. Like so many others out there, to battle on and make our dream come true is worth it.
It can be tough at times and the world seems against us at times too.... but faith, believing in oneself and patients really does assist. I'd really appreciate hearing and sharing the journey with you all - both those already pregnant and those who are TTC! So Please drop me line. May luck be with you all. ~ jenny

Calendar Day 2 (CD2)- 1st November 2007

Yep, AF came yesterday. I am back to TTC again! :(
I was half expecting it and half wishing all the signs that was telling me it was coming was wrong!
My husband came in this morning when i told him and he gave me the biggest hug.
He knows me too well.. I really needed the hug!!

Well good luck to all you ladies out there awaiting tests. And lots of baby dust to all.

Looking at the positives- at least I ovulated again and I am back to lots and lots of baby dancing ;)

~ Take care all!

(CD13) - 12th November 2007
well I think I ovulating. I have been having temperture rise and last night i slept so damn hot waking up so much.
Lots of baby dust to all

CD 20
Well I am going to officially have a test tomorrow to make sure the clomid made me ovulate.
Then I am going to sit back and wait for a couple of weeks to see if I am pregnant... Gosh I hope i am... I have done the count and if I am I would be due around my dads birthday... that would be cool.. to have a baby around/on his birthday.
I have a good feeling. Lets hope it stays that way...
Best of luck to all

CD32 ~ 30th November, 2007 - I am pregnant. Tested on Wednesday night and again yesterday all BFP. Unfortunately I know I should be happy but I am sooo scared and I am sufferring from the loss of my close cousin who died in a horrific car accident only three days ago. He was only 32 years old.
I am praying to my cousin all the time hoping he will watch over me now and the baby. I've asked for him to look after my baby I lost a few months ago in August too.
For those of you curious, yes I conceived again on 50mg of clomid.. Fingers crossed this pregnancy will make progress and survive.

Baby dust to all

3rd February 2008
I am 14 weeks pregnant on Tuesday. (thats only 2 days away), Yeay!!
Apart from feeling nausea these past few weeks, We, LJ (Little Junior) and I, are doing well.
Naturally I am so excited but then at times I am scared. Its only when I seen LJ on the big screen I become overwhelmed and realise that things are okay. When we had the first scan at 8 weeks, my husband and I were so mesmerised by the legs and arms moving around and the little heartbeat. It took us a little while for us to see its our dream come true!
I am not sure about anyone else thats been through what i have been through, but when I am struggling with things and start to doubt the road ahead I pray and take comfort in those that have past. I pray to my cousin Vinnie who died tragically just a day before I found out i was pregnant. I feel like his presence is here at those times and because I ask god for guidance, I feel like he is giving me Vinnie to have watch over me which instantly makes me safe and feel that all will be well all the days ahead. To all those ttc and those on the road to delivery, wishing you safe, well, happiest, healthiness and friendship.

Baby dust to all!

Jenny

18th February 2008
I am sixteen weeks tomorrow.
Felt a few flutter feelings in the tummy. If I lay really still at night in bed with my hand low on the tummy - just below the navel, I reckon that i can feel it alot more frequently.
I have a doctors appointment tomorrow and will be finding out about our next scan. I can't wait to see LJ again (LJ = little junior).
I am hoping to find out what I am having at the next scan, even though my husband doesn't want too.
Lots of baby dust to all ~ Jenny

20th February 2008 - 16 weeks

I had my doctors appointment yesterday and my blood pressure is normal so that is good. The doctor showed me how to feel the wombed. All I had to do was palpate down the tummy until I hit hard tissue. This hard tissue is the womb. At the moment, my womb is just under the belly button. It was weird, but at the same time awesome to know. I had my husband do the same thing yesterday when I got home from teh appointment. He is sooooooo very excited!
I am having arrangements made to have a scan on the 19th March which is 4 weeks away and will be asking for it to be taped onto a DVD so that i can play back for my family. I am also planning on find out the sex of the baby. can't wait!

7th August 2008 - 27 weeks

Time sure is flying isn't it? Well, I had my 20 week ultrasound and I invited my mum along. My husband, mum and I were just so fascinated at seeing this little baby moving around and hiccupping. Managed to get a great DVD with commentary from the doctor so we can listen to time and time again about what was showing on the screen.
So clearly we could see it kicking and doing lots of circle work in the tummy, but unfortunately at the time I couldn't personally feel it kicking.
I should mention, that my first noticable kick wasn't actually until I approached week 22 - it was the experience of the flutters!! And my reaction after realising that was what it was, was "wow Amazing!!" *LOL*
Since then, those flutters have become distinct kicks (about week 24).
Now, because its taken such a long time for me to enjoy this pregnancy and accept it as safe, I now have come up with my own self-assuring way to comfort myself aswell as has my husband of just how 'okay' we are and its been by lifting up my shirt each day to watch my little one kick my tummy... and you know what... I love it!!!
And my husband loves it too. We get so excited that we often find ourselves walking down to the bedroom and looking at the cot and the little items we have bought. And a couple of times I have caught my husband doing this on his own as he has caught me too! :)
As for the nursery..
We have a cot set up in the house, but haven't anything hanging on the walls.
Other than the cot, we have only really bought what the doctors have requested we bring to the hospital - 6 singlets, 6 grow suits, mittens, hat, 6 bunny rugs, 2 dummies, cot blanket, unscented wipes, Nappies for home and socks.
Well actually... I lie, we have bought a lambskin mat and another playmat thing that the bab will be able to lie on and eventually reach for the little mobile toys that are hanging over it. I have also bought some items for the baby which i have hidden from my husband because he doesn't knwo what we are having (his choice is to have the surprise)!
Just can't believe I have only 13 weeks till my due date. How exciting!!!
I just can't wait now to hold this little one in my arms and take it home.
And "yes" people ask me do I think about all the sleepless nights ahead of us too, and "YES" I do, and my reply is simple: I look at it in a positive light, because we have wanted a child for so long and to be blessed with a beautiful miracle baby when so many others can't be, I will never take for granted this special gift and the gift of motherhood.

Tuesday 4th June, 2008

Hi everyone,

I at times struggle to believe how far I have come in this pregnancy and how little time there is between now and when the baby is due. To look back on the day before I found out, I was feeling like life itself, was never going to change.... Now, I am so eagerly excited about the changes that lay ahead. Being 31 weeks pregnant - I feel great!!

The nursery is slowly coming together, although I still ahve some personal touches to make.
I have pre-natal classes starting next week and I am really excited about that too.

At my appoinment last Tuesday, my doctor reassured me that the baby was developing at a great rate. We discussed my birthing plan of still wanting to deliver naturally.
He has aired on caution that in order for me to have this opportunity there may be a possibility that I may have to be infact induced earlier than my expected date.
Reason being is because of my small statue (height 152cm and slim). My husband on the other hand is quite tall. At my week 20 scan, it indicated the baby has long bones, and while its about fattening up these last few weeks in gestation, it could make the task of natural birth difficult given the fact that I have a very small pelvis. So - yep could be as early as 37 weeks. Which is only 6 weeks away!! Yeks!!

Well I hope all is well with everyone. Will keep you all posted on how things go over the coming weeks. ..

Am really looking forward to meeting my little precious and introducing her to her father.

Take care and baby dust to all the TTC'ers. May the light of happiness find its way to your heart and help bring good news your way very soon.

~ Jenny

27th July 2008.

Its been such a long long time since i last wrote on my page.
Firstly, I am 10 days way from my due date: 5th August 2008.

My feelings - well besides being a little anxious, I am also getting extremely excited about meeting my little precious.

My couple of my friends have had a baby in the last few weeks and its been really getting me pumped about what i am about to go through.

I have my bags packed for the hospital and am waiting just for the day to come.

My husband has just finished up work for a few weeks so its exciting for him too. Plus we get to spend some time together alone before the baby comes. Its really great too. I can't remember the last time we have been able to just sit and talk and cuddle up in bed talk about the pending birth of our baby.

If by chance I go over my due date, I have asked the doctor to start inducing me on the 10th of August, with the intention to have my natural birth come about on the 11th. The reason I have chosen this day is becuase this is my father's birthday and I thought a very special birthday delivery may lift his spirit's given that he has gone through so much this past 12 months with his cancer.

I have also opted to go as natural as possible... of course this will all depend on my ability to withstand pain, but I am counting on making this as natural of an experience as possible.

Well, Thats it from this end. My next message hopefully will be that i have had the baby.

Wishing everyone well.

Jenny xo