March 11th

My name is Melissa and I have a little girl due on July 3, 2008. So far everything has been normal. Normal meaning all the icky heartburn, cravings, mood swings, etc. The worst thing that happened so far was on my first appt ever... when I was 7 wks 3 days, I had a spot where the placenta hadn't fully attached itself yet. It didn't turn into anything. Well, I guess the worst part is waiting on her to get here. I see this room with tons of little girls things, but no chubby, smiley little girl to complete it. My advice would be to wait on getting so much. It just makes you anxious. I am looking to meet mommies due around the time I am so we can exchange stories, etc. Anyone can feel free to write me a message.

March 12th

What to do about acid indigestion? It's KILLING me! Also, I can't remember the last time I got a solid nights rest. My mind is all over the place, I just can't seem to fall asleep. I think I am going insane... finally. And I now have to admit that I can't control my emotions. They're all over the place, and it makes me feel guilty. Poor Sean!

March 13th

Just to let you guys know... I had to drive 5 hrs today and it SUCKED. Let me tell you why. Once upon a time there was a little girl named Melissa. The world was not so great to this little girl. She was born to a very bipolar and schizophrenic woman named Cindy. Well this mentally retarded (literally) woman put Melissa in a situation of physical and sexual abuse. She was put in foster care at age 7. Well, this little girl is all grown up now and out of five children (her being the oldest) she is the only one trying to have a relationship with her birth mother. Well she picked birth mother up from Griffin GA yesterday and birth mother LITERALLY had a temper tantrum that she wanted to go home. This is why it was a problem: Only God knows why, but today I was stricken with diarrhea/nausea/heartburn so bad I seriously couldn't breathe. And oh yea, Sean couldn't drive because of Atlanta traffic/he had beer at Ruby Tuesdays. So here I was with a 37 year old woman and her retarded/autistic weird new guy in her life in my back seat having a temper tantrum saying I was holding her hostage. What kind of shit is that?! Excuse my French! And to top it all off, it was rush hour bumper to bumper traffic. Now in this stage of my pregnancy, I simply cannot deal with crap like that. I was about to drop them off on I-85. Bad huh? Oh well. I don't care. I go out on a limb for her and she does that to me? Some "mother." It's a wonder I didn't turn out that way. I guess God knows what he's doing after all. Here is my solemn vow though. I will NEVER EVER be like her. My child will never be put through what I was put through. You can quote me on that if you like. Something is wrong with this world. Guess that's all for now. I am still really sick. By the way, is Kaopectate okay for pregnancy? I took it today. I called my OB and missed their call back... and by the time I got the message, it was after closing hours. Well, thanks for reading and good luck. Hope you guys are feeling better than I am!

March 15th

Today I woke up and had a splitting headache and as soon as I stood up, my world was swirling. I was dizzy with a migraine and nausea all day. These thunderstorms and hail are making it even worse. What a gloomy awful day. I guess the best part was that we went to Chucks BBQ. They are only open on the weekends and I crave their brunswick stew often. It was really good... and being in a really country BBQ place on a gloomy day is cozy feeling. I think Jadyn was happier after that. I HAVE to say this... you should see my Chihuahua right now. His ears on standing straight up and he's looking at me like I'm retarded! Well, I have my glucose tolerance test on Monday. I'm not really looking forward to it. I have the drink the ick and wait an hour. I wish they would have let me take it home with me and drink it pre-appointment. Oh well. Such is life.