December 4 - Wow, I'm getting really big. I'm only three months so that worries me a little. So far it's all in my belly - At least the morning sickness is getting a lot better, but my dreams are so vivid and WEIRD! I had a dream that i gave birth to a spider. Of all things -- can you imagine? Anyway, I was horrified, but it was MY spider and I was going to love it and take care of it. The first night I put it in its crib too close to the heater and it BURNED UP! EEEK! I'm a terrible mom! I can't even take care of my hormone induced wacko dream baby spider! I would tell you more but I'm sure everyone would think I need a shrink ASAP!

December 10 - Today was my doctor appointment. Fibroids have moved on over to one side and are no longer an issue in the pregnancy. Praise God! I'm really happy. Doctor did an ultrasound and he thinks it's a girl! Wow!

December 20th - Wow - still can't believe I'm pregnant. It's been weighing on my mind about the baby being a girl and what a tremendous responsibility that is. I mean, having a boy is as well, but a girl? I get to thinking about all the issues I faced as a young girl, teenager and adult. All those insecurity issues that I have faced I want to be able make sure she doesn't have those. Or at least teach her how to deal with them better so she doesn't go to destructive means to cope. I don't know. Maybe I'm over thinking this and its stupid to assume she will even have those types of issues. But I still can't help but wonder, what kind of role model will I be? How can I be a better one?

January 8, 2008

It's official! It's a girl!!! I"m so excited! My husband was so adorable too. My heart fills when I see how happy he is and how hard he tries to make everything so special. I knew he was a great guy when we were dating him and of course I was ecstatic when we got married, but to see him in this way makes me love him even more. I did good :)

On the health front, the fibroids have moved over to the left side of my uterus and baby Ava is on the right side. My uterus is pretty crowded and the dr told me it is putting a lot of pressure on my nerves in my back and down my legs. He said it will make work pretty hard in the end and I'm supposed to lay on my left side every two hours to increase blood flow. Luckily my job can accomodate this. I was worried on friday because my legs and ankles swelled up to a freakishly large and strange shape due to all the water I was holding. Wow! I gained twelve pounds of water! After elevating, drinking a ton of water and relaxing, the extra weight was gone by Monday but it stressed me quite a bit.

January 19, 2008

Baby AVA is so active!

January 28th, 2008

So much is going on right now both good and bad. So, I'll start with the good. I got the approval to work from home during my maternity leave. I about lost it when they started talking about bringing in a temp while I was gone. GRRRR, get away from my stuff :) That means I get to keep my full salary when I'm out. Even though I have to work, at least I will be home and can be with my baby girl. So that is GREAT news!

My health is still good although I have to be so careful about what I eat or I blow up like a water balloon. It's so ugly when I retain all that water and look like that really old great aunt that everyone has. You know -- the one that has those freakish looking legs and cankles that scare all the little kids. That's me after french fries. On the plus side, it helps keep my weight down that I can't go crazy eating everything in sight.

I love my husband. He has been really great except for those times that I am in a mood swing and I want to kill him :) just kidding -- My mom made a comment the other day about how we need to hurry up and have another baby right after this one was born and I swear he turned pale. He gave her this 'nervous laugh' and told her that we could do that as long as I lived with her during the pregnancy. Apparently, I've been a little mean and get this ----- craaaazzzy. Go figure..... Anyway, I've established that he is going to be a big softie when it comes to the baby and she will be able to sucker him every chance she gets.

And yes - finally ---- after nearly ten years of plugging away at my degree, I will be finished!!! Whew! I'm glad I never gave up and it was so hard going to school when I was a single mom and broke, but I'm really proud of myself. I should be finishing up my final class just as baby AVA is born. Yay me! Now I need to make it work for me so I can start paying back all my student loans lol.........

My son is so excited to be a big brother. He is really growing up and girls have started to call him. What's up with all these aggressive little girls? He is only in 6th grade but some of these girls act like they are 20. I went to pick him up the other day and I thought some of them were moms! Nope, guess they are all growing up quick! It is so strange to be in two different phases. Aren't I lucky? I get to go through puberty with one and teething with the other AT THE SAME TIME!

Wow - after all that good news, I don't really want to make such a big deal anymore about the bad! I'm so blessed! I guess I just worry about finances. Thinking about the extra baby costs makes me want to hyperventilate. We have decided to move to a less expensive place so we don't have to struggle so much. The anticipation of the medical bills after the baby is born is the worst. Gotta love America! Always bitching about family values and how important the family is and then want to drown couples in debt over medical bills! And we have health insurance! FYI - Obama '08!!! Things have GOT to change. I like Hillary, but i think she is too divisive and that's the LAST thing we need is more divisiveness. Thank you for that commentary Kathryn.

So what can more can I say? My next appointment is on Feb. 4th - can't wait!!!!

Feb. 21st

I am enormous. Every time I try to bend over to pick something up it's a challenge. When I finally retrieve said item and stand up, it's like a triumphant Mt. Everest climb. And I'm only 6 months along. The next few months should be interesting.

Baby is doing great! All the tests came back great. And I think she is a gymnast.... or kickboxer....or will be able to beat David Beckham (MMMMMM, David Beckham, yummy) at soccer when she is a mere two months old.

I can't wait to get the nursery ready!

March 13, 2008

It's been a while since I posted anything new. Things are going really well. I am SOOOOO BIG!!!! I don't even want to think about how much weight I have gained! I can't sleep or sit and be comfortable. On the upside, we are getting really excited. Finished painting the nursery. We decided to make our colors pink and mint green. It is so cute. I ordered all the furniture and I can't wait for it to be delivered.

I had my big ultrasound and the baby is healthy and strong. That makes me really happy. She is still kicking me like nobody's business but I don't really mind it so much anymore.

Last week of May!!!! Yay!