07/10/07

Well here I go again I am 25 have been with my wonderful Boyfriend Geoff for 18 months now we have been ttc since August 06. I was diagnosed with PCOS just before Christmas last year I was referred to a gyno and he basically told me I was too fat to get pregnant and that I would need to lose weight. So not happy with that I got another referral this time to see a FS she was great, put me straight onto Clomid and never once mentioned my weight.

Currently I have been walking every day in an effort to lose weight as I am hoping that it will make it easier for me when I do finally manage to conceive a little bundle of joy.

I have seen so many friends have babies before me and I am also I proud Auntie to three nephews. I am hoping and praying that it will be my time soon and Geoff and myself can start our own little family. It is great to look after my friends babies but now I want one that I don't have to hand back.

10/10/07

Well AF has finally gone so now it is just a matter of Lot's of BDing hopefully it will happen soon. Just gotta cross our fingers and pray that this will be our month. Sending Lot's of baby dust to everyone TTC

13/10/07

OK I had a blood test on Thursday to check my LH E2 and Prog levels basically it is to see if I am ovulating so I will hopefully have the results to that on Monday or Tuesday.

I have started to chart my temp to see if that will help, what makes it so hard is with my PCOS I have never had regular periods so I can never tell when I am ovulating it is like I can go anywhere from 1 month to 6 months before I will have a visit from AF.

So anyway keep my fingers crossed, wear my man out with bding all the time and hopefully it will happen soon. Lot's of Baby dust to everyone.

16/10/07

OK so I got my results from my blood test last night and the doctor said for Geoff and myself to BD last night and do another test to check my LH E2 and Prog levels today so I am hoping that means that I am close to ovulating and that we might have a good chance of conceiving just a matter of playing the waiting game again I guess.

Will keep you updated on all the progress sending lots of Baby Dust to all TTC

25/10/07

Well I am 10 days into the 2ww but if AF doesn't turn up on Monday then I am not going to get my hopes up as I am never regular but I will be testing on Wednesday just to see, I haven't felt any different so I don't think this is my month, although it would be nice if I was as Geoff and myself are going up to my Parents place in about two weeks so it would be good if I could give my family some good news while I am there but I just have to wait and see.

Thinking of everyone and sending Lot's of baby dust may all our wishes come true soon.

31/10/07

Well I did a HPT this morning and it was a BFN I wasn't really expecting anything else so I guess it is just a matter of waiting for AF to arrive so that i can start taking the Clomid again. It would have been nice to get a BFN but I guess this is just not my month, as all my family and friends say it will happen when it is meant to I just wish that it was meant to happen now I don't know how many more BFN's I can take before it starts to get me down. The one thing I have wanted all my life is a baby to call my own and now that I have found the man I want to be with for the rest of my life I thought that it would just come natural guess I was wrong.

Sending Lots of Baby dust out to everyone that needs it and hoping all our wishes come true soon.

6/11/07

Well AF still hasn't arrived not surprising really. I was talking to my younger brother last night he already has a baby boy with his girlfriend, anyway he asked if Geoff and myself had had any luck yet and I told him no well he then proceeded to tell me that we weren't trying hard enough that we should be trying every day at least 4 times a day and it really annoyed me as he doesn't understand that all the BDing in the world won't make one bit of difference if I am not ovulating. My Mum was trying to tell me to stop thinking about becoming pregnant and like I said to her it is really hard to not think about it when I have to take clomid and have so many blood tests done just to see if I am ovulating or not.

Well I just really needed to get that off my chest I am praying everyday for god to bless me with a baby hopefully he here's me soon.

Lot's Baby dust to everyone that needs it.

13/11/07

OK so AF still hasn't arrived I am thinking about testing again tomorrow but I am scared to get another BFN I really should be use to them by now as that is all I keep getting. Geoff and myself went away to my parents place for the weekend and it kinda took my mind off of everything a few times I thought that AF was going to visit but she didn't end up showing up that may be a good thing it may not be never know. I am just trying to keep my hopes up and not to lose faith hopefully it happens soon.

Sending Lot's of Baby dust to everyone trying to conceive.

18/11/07

OK so AF still hasn't arrived I really hoping that she doesn't decide to arrive at Christmas as Geoff and Myself will be down at his parents place and it is the first time I have been there so I don't want to have to deal with them as well. I am thinking about testing on Wednesday just to see what the result is but I am kinda scared as I don't want to get another BFN I don't know how many more I can handle I just spent a couple of days with my nephews and it made me want a baby of my own even more.

Sending Lots of Baby dust out to everyone and hoping that we will all be blessed very soon.

28/11/07

OK I thought that I would try that Blackmore's Conceive Well they keep advertising on the home page well it cost me $40 so I am hoping that it works. I think I will ring my FS in the next few days as I still am not getting visits from AF and still getting BFN's so I want to talk to her and see if there is something else that we can try as I can't take my next course of Clomid until AF visits and it doesn't seem like she is going to do that anytime soon. It is just getting very frustrating not knowing what is going on with my body. A friend of mine gave me an OPK the other day she brought it to see if it would help her to conceive and she did the HPT that came with it and got a BFP so she didn't need the OPK part of it so she gave it to me I haven't tried it yet as I am worried that it will be a waste of time as it says on the instructions that if you suffer from PCOS or are taking Clomid then it can give you false results the last thing I want is to take the tests and be getting false positives because that will just make me get my hopes up for nothing.

Sending lo0ts of sticky baby dust to everyone that needs it and hoping that we all get our christmas blessings.

20/12/07

Well I haven't written in a while first I would like to wish everyone a very happy and safe christmas and a great new year.

So anyway I think I may have ovulated in the past few days as I have charting my temps and they went up to 36.3 degrees celcius and now they are going back down again unfortantly Geoff and myself didn't do any BDing as we have both been working overtime with christmas coming up. If I am right then I should get a visit from AF on New Years Day if she turns up then I will start on the Clomid again and get back in contact with my FS to see if it is working or not if AF doesn't arrive then I will test and see what happens.

10/01/08

Ok so I am so confused at the moment I did a test bout a week ago and it was BFN I also started spotting on Sat and Sun last week also again Yesterday and today I don't know if this means that I am getting a visit from AF or not as it is a brown colored spotting. I am just really confused as to what it could mean. I am praying and hoping that I am pregnant but at the same time trying not to get my hopes up as I don't want to be dissapointed again. If anyone has any ideas bout what is happening I would love to hear them.

12/01/08

Well I got my answer AF finally visited today so I will start on Clomid tomorrow and ring my FS on monday to let her know what is happening and see when she wants me to do my next blood test. Keeping my fingers crossed and hoping that this is our month.

20/01/08

Ok so I am so totally confused now as I had a visit from AF for about 3 days then she went away for 2 days and now she is back again and I have just come home from work for lunch and I am so Dizzy I am barely able to stand I really don't know what is happening to me but it is not fun I can tell you that how am I ever ment to have a baby if my body keeps doing silly things like this. I hope this Dizziness doesn't last long as I need to go back to work and I really don't like feeling like this.

23/01/08

Well I have just come back from a visit with my FS and she now wants me to start on Puregon which is an injection I have to give myself from CD5 to CD14 so I am really not looking forward to having to do that as I really don't like needles that much but I am prepared to do whatever it takes to have a baby of my own. Apparently Clomid wasn't doing the trick for me so now we are trying this. Just a matter of gritting my teeth and bearing it and hopefully it works.

Sending out lots of Babydust to everyone and wishing us all the best for the new year.

03/02/08

Ok so after my last blood test my FS has made my doesage up to 50 iu now instead of 43iu and we have been instructed to BD tonight then another blood test tomorrow I think that the puregon might be working as I had alot of CM yesterday and today and it has been ewcm so that is hopefully a good sign we BD'd on Friday so crossing my fingers hoping that it has all worked this time will keep everyone updated as things progress.

06/02/08

Ok so the results from my latest blood test came back and I have been told to up my puregon to 66 IU and another blood test on thursday I was really down when I got home and found the message I was so sure that it had worked this time. Oh well just gotta keep going till we find the right doseage for me I guess. Till then sending lot's of Babydust out to everyone.

13/02/08

Well I rang my FS on monday to get the results from my blood test I did on thursday anyway she said that my numbers are still not moving so up my Puregon to 75IU and do another blood test this thursday. It is started to get to me the whole process of having to inject myself all the time, some days I find myself to be really depressed and crying to myself over the whole thing and other days I am a bit more positive and thinking it is going to happen. I am really over all the ups and downs I can be a very impatiant person and I want to be pregnant like yesterday. Yet I know that is not going to happen so I just need to keep going and praying for our little miracle.

18/02/08

Ok so results from latest blood test puregon still not having the right effect so uping the dosage to 83IU and another blood test on thursday. Oh well just keep doing this till something happens although I only have one and half viles left so after that I will have to see FS again to get another prescription for it.

24/02/08

Well suprise suprise AF came for a visit yesterday so I guess that means one of two things either my body is playing tricks on me again or the Puregon has worked and I ovulated without the FS knowing it although with all the blood test I have been having lately I don't know how that could of happened anyway that means that I only had a 42 day cycle this time as appossed to a 122 cycle I think that is the longest one I have had so far so it can become very frustrating. So I guess it is just a matter of waiting for AF to go away again then start all over again.

Wish me luck, Praying and wish for everyone ttc baby dust to you all.

26/02/08

ok got the results from my latest blood test and now I am being put on Pregnyl on top of Puregon so that is two injections I have to give myself now but one is only every second day. Also my so called visit from AF has been that light it is almost like she is not there so I asked the FS about that and it doesn't affect my taking the drugs also I didn't get told when do my next blood test so I am playing it by ear at the moment.

Hopefully this all starts to work soon so I can finally get a break from taking the drugs.

11/03/08

Yes AF has finally gone now I can get down to the buisness of BDing I have a good feeling about this month I am hoping that this is the one. All the fetility drugs I am on have got to be working soon. Anyway wishing everyone lots and lots of babydust.

19/03/08

Ok so the lady from my FS office called yesterday the doctor wants me to take a break from the drugs for now until 27/03/08 then start on them again and do another blood test. Apparently the results of my last blood test showed that my levels were low so I am not real sure as to what that means but I hope that the break gives my body a chance to relax. I am kinda glad to be off the meds for now as the injections were really starting to get me down a fair bit, I just wish that I could get some good news one day it is starting to get very frustrating knowing that everyone else is having babies or getting pregnant and nothing seems to be working for me yet.

Sending lots of baby dust to everyone that needs it.