August 29, 2007 (12 weeks 4 days)

Today I had my second doctors check. This time I had to get the unpleasant thing done, which sucked. At least I got to hear my baby's heart beat with a stick thing though. It was great but it really hurt my tummy. The heart rate was about 147.

October 3, 2007 (17 weeks 5 days)

I've gotten to hear the heart beat again and now they don't have to push on my belly at all! Last time my mid-wife barely touched the doppler to my tummy-it was so great, each time I hear it I feel so good!

I get to find out the sex of my baby on the 15th of October!!! I am so very excited- then the real shopping begins :]

October 8, 2007 (18 weeks and 3 days)

Being off my depression and anxiety meds for the pregnancy has been really hard. I ended up having to go into the hospital agian- this time I only stayed for a few days. We talked to my psychologist and therapist and after failing to persuade me to go back on the meds (I won't take the risk) they both agreed that I should try some natural healing methods. I had a prenatal massage right away- which was great and I was surprised at how relaxed it made me feel even days afterward. Also I am going to begin acupucture on Wednesday, my doctor said that there are great results in curing severe depression and even O.C.D. which is crazy to me since I have been struggling with it since I was three and all this time something as simple as acupuncture could possibly cure me for good. My mom also sighend me up fo a prenatal yoga class to help keep me calm and to learn meditation. I am going to go twice a week from now until we move. It was crazy, the instructor was demostrating our next "pose" and I'm sitting there thinking "how are these full-term looking woman going to do that??" So the woman that look like their going to pop any moment get into these odd positions all gracefully and there I am, one of the smallest in the class panting like I just ran a mile.

Check out my pregnancy calendar at http://ehd.org/pregnancy-calendar.php?id=1565 (it's not linked so you will have to copy-past it) you'll probably want to make your own, It is so amazing- you will love it.

ONE WEEK UNTIL I GET TO FIND OUT THE SEX OF THE BABY ON OCTOBER 15TH!

October15, 2007 (19 weeks and 2 days)

Today was the big ultra sound! We found out the sex....and.....its a boy!!! A bit surprising but I'm sooo happy! It was so amazing to see how much he has developed in just 19 weeks! I have a little person inside of me! He was really active also, which I was hoping for. He kept doing flips and waving his little hands around...Ahh, I am so happy- I can't stop smiling :) Also, the tech said that he looks very healthy and all the measurments were in normal range. A health heart, and brain!

Octoeber 18, 2007 (19 weeks 5 days)

Last night I was involved in a car accident. I was going through a green light and someone decided that they would run their light. I was driving with Johnny (the baby's dad) in the passanger seat. It was very scarry. She hit the right side of my little VW cabrio and totalled it. After I relized that what I had just seen was real, the first thing that popped into my mind was my little boy. A man that had seen the whole thing stayed untill the police came and soon after the fire truck and ambulance. They said I should get checked out at the hospital to make sure everything was ok with the baby and had me ride the ambulance. They checked his heart beat and the DR. wanted to run an ultra sound because of cramps that I started to have. Everything looked good thank God.

Those moments, first waiting for the nurse to find the heart beat (which seemed to take ages) then waiting for the ultra sound tech to tell me everything looked good were the hardest moments of my life. I was so afraid I was going to loose him.

He just kicked me now as to remind me everything is okay.

October 28, 2007 (21 weeks )

I had another pre-natal check-up and my mid-wife showed me the reports about the ultra sound I had on the 15th. I found out baby boy weighs about 12 oz! Also, my due date was moved up 4 days to March 4th instead of the 8th! I know that doesn't mean much but it's still exciting to me, I am just so looking forward to holding him in my arms!

December 10, 2007

Wow! I can't believe I'm in my 3rd trimester already! He is almost here and I can hardly wait. So much has gone on in the past couple months that I haven't had time to updat this but here goes...Me and my boyfriend (the daddy) are doing really well. He is so cute and excited for his son, I can't wait to see him hold him for the first time! Johnny also moved in with my family so he could be around me more (he was already staying here most of the week anyway) and so he will be able to be with our baby as much as possible. We hope to move out as soon as possible since me and my mother are constantly fighting and the stress-level is way too high for me and the baby-plus we need to get out on our own anyway if we want to start this family semi-normal. As the due date comes near we have also been really trying to buckle down and decide on a name. I really loved the name Aiden (it was the first name I liked when I found out I was pregnant) but since it is the #1 name for this year I have been trying to steer away from it, but me and Johnny talked about it and we both love it so much that we are really concidering it. We also like Kaiden (that was our compromise to Aiden) but we found out that is #3 on the list of popular names so either way he is going to be a pretty common name. But whatever. We love it. We are also going to use one of Johnny's names for one of his middle names (i want him to have 2) so we were thinking...

Aiden Johnnathan Forrester-Huffman (plus another middle name not decided yet)

or

Kaiden John Patrick Forrester-Huffman

or

Chance Patrick John or Chance John Patrick...I don't know about that one.

December 27, 2007 (30 weeks and 2 days)

Christmas sucked this year. Sucked. Sucked. Sucked.

Christmas day: Mom left. Day after Christmas: Parents announced that they are getting divorced. I guess the shitty year had to end with a big BANG. I dont know why I am so bummbed about it. Mostly I feel bad for my dad. He is such an amazing person. Truely. My mom on the other hand is a psychotic skank bitch. I hate her so much right now. I hate her. I hate her. My dad is so hurt by this. I hate more than anything to see him sad. I feel terrible for my little brother. I got to grow up in a "normal" or at least semi-normal family, and Kaleb is only 9 and has to spend the rest of his childhood in a broken home. Wow did I ever take our family for granted. I should have been thankful, instead of grossed out when my parents kissed, and hugged, and were all lovey-dovey. What would I do to see my mom and dad kiss!? I am done with my mother. She has screwed me over one too many times and I am done letting her hurt me. This just fucking beyond sucks. What is the point of this life when no one ever ends up happy??

This is just all too much at once.

December 28, 2007 (30 weeks and 3 days)

Just got back from my midwife's, my dad took me and Johnny so he got to hear the heart beat for the first time. Everything with our baby is amazing. His heart beat is so easy to hear now and she showed me how when she pokes him, his heart beat speeds up. So amazing!! I also measured well and my weight is normal.

January 9, 2008 (32 weeks and 1 day)

OH MY GOODNESS!!

I think I might go CRAZY by the time March rolls around! I'm so close!!! I really can't believe it. I'm 32 weeks! Thats like less than 8 weeks till my due date. WOWOWOWOW. Crazy, I remember looking at peoples pages and being so enviouse that they were in there 30th weeks and thinking how long I had to go until I was where they are. But now. I'm here!

Last night me and Johnny had our first childbirth class. Really odd. We were (of corse) the youngest ones there and no one would even look at us. We had to do this activity were they split the room in half and we got cards that said different pregnancy symptoms and which one indicated you were in labor, which one did not, and which one COULD indicate you were in labor. I kept trying to involve myself but any time I said something I was totally ignored. It sucked majorly. But oh well. We were deff the cutest couple there! Even if we were the only ones not married (they kept referring the partner as "your husband". How annoying, right?) But it was funny, since everyone else was married and probably had been for a long time, me and Johnny were the only ones that looked really in love. It made me giggle, I'm sure they all were in love but it's sad how marriage can change how a couple looks. We were holding hands and smiling at eachother and they were sitting far apart and not even looking at eachother. But yea. We are cute :) The class really made me scared though. I'm going to be in labor in 8ish weeks. Real labor. Pushing my baby out into this world. CRAZY.

January 28. 2008 (34 weeks and 6 days)

I just got back from seeing my midwife a couple hours ago. Everything is great! I was so worried about gaining too much weight (I had gained like 5 pounds last time) but this time I only gained a pound! Perfect! Also she did the strep B test (I'll post the results when I get 'em) and checked my cervix...and...I am almost 1 cm dialated! I know it's not much but it means I'm on the right track! She also checked his position and he is head down and pretty low! She said she thinks he will come early and weigh about 8 pounds, wich is a relief since I weighed 8.4 and Johnny weighed a whopping 9.5...I was expecting a 10 pound baby! I just couldn't stop smiling after the appointment! I am so overwhelmed with happiness that my little boy is doing well and progessing!

January 30, 2008 (35 weeks and 1 day)

I'm so happy! I just got back from Babies R us and my dad got me a car seat and stroller! It's really cute, I'm going to post pictures.

February 9, 2008 (36 weeks and 4 days)

I feel like a terrible mother. I see everyone on here with their nurserys all set up perfectly in anticipation for their little one to arrive, and all I have is a bassinette next to my bed. No crib. No changing table or drawers for his little clothes. No paint. No nursery theme. Nothing. I feel like I'm setting him up for less than greatness. He deserves greatness. I feel so bad. I wish I could provide for him a beautiful nursery so badly. I have been wanting to do that the whole pregnancy. I would never have expected to be a few days less than full term and still not even have the beginings of a nursery for my son.

February 11, 2008 (36 weeks and 6 days)

I'm so excited. Johnny got me some casting stuff so we can cast my belly! I can't wait. It will be a good project to take up some time and give me something to do, because these past couple weeks have seemed to be dragging on.

February 25, 2008 (38 weeks and 6 days)

I am at the hospital right now! My water broke at 10 am and it is 5:37pm right now and I haven't been having bad contractions so they are going to start giving me Pitocin to get things moving in a few minutes! I am sooooooo sooooooooooooooo soooooo happy! No words can discribe this!

Funny thing, this morning when we woke up Johnny turned to me and said "your water is going to break today and you are going to have Aiden." I did not believe him!! Looks like he was right!

They are corny, but I love my boyfriend!