i was talking to zoe one night and was telling her i was late coming on!

i realised i was a few days late, so she told me to get a test. I was thinking, no way am i pregnant and its just the pill thats messed my cycle up, but the next day in town i thought, why not!

so i went into the pound shop for three cheapie tests (£1 for 3! BARGAIN!!) and i went into the car park toilets and did one. i was rushing because i had to go back to college, so i did the test, put it back in the box and went to my car.

it was roughly 2 minutes from the toilets to my car so i thought, if its going to come up positive then its bound to have come up by now...

so i looked at it and it was positive! i didnt cry, and i didnt laugh! i just stared at it crying!! i phoned sam and started crying when i was telling her! n then i text zoe and told her.

sam was all giddy and excited and zoe was quite shocked!

i still didnt believe it much cos they were only cheap £1 shop tests, so i went to asda and got 2 of their brand.

i went home and my mum was having a sleep, so while she was asleep i went and did the other tests i had. all came up positive in no time at all!

i was looking forward to telling my mum, but really nervous at the same time. so i made her a cup of tea and took it upstairs n woke her. i sat on the side of the bed and she said.... whats up? u never make me a brew and never wake me up!

so i said im pregnant! and she went what? n i said yeah ive just found out now, and she was asking me all these quesitons, but while she was asking them she kept smiling so i knew she was fine

we talked for a bit, decided what i wanted to do about it, then i rung the doctors and got in the same day! the doctor did a pregnancy test to confirm it, but it came up negative so i thought oh no im gonna seem like a right idiot! so he said we'll need to do a blood test, but i hate needles so i was like no, no, wait and the line might come up!

but it never, so i said ive done 5 tests today, all positive so im deffinately pregnant! and i had 2 of them in my bag so i took them out and shown him! so then he believed me lol

he booked me in for my first midwife appt for 6th june!

i was going to only tell shane and my mum and my 2 close friends, but i couldnt keep it in so told my dad, sister n other friends!! lol

Shane was brilliant and shocked at first, but he's really looking forward to becoming a dad... His family were also thrilled!!!

I stopped smoking straight away, and my mum promised not to smoke in front of me so i dont get any cravings but it hasnt bothered me that much! been easier than i thought.

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I had my first midwife appointment on 6th june and my midwife was really really nice. i was worried because id heard a lot of women don't get on with their miwife but i was really impressed with mine.

she took mine and shanes familys health history and she was shocked to find out that there are 15 sets of twins in my family.. so she said its highly likely that ill have 2 babies!!

she couldnt really do much because i was so early, but i was given my bounty pack and antenatal notes and told to make another appointment for four weeks, so i have to go back on 4th july to have urine tests and blood tests etc.

She also asked me about my symptoms... I hadn't really had many to indicate i was pregnant before i found out.. i just remember having a hangover like feeling every morning and going dizzy quite a lot at work... but i put that down to the heat!

since then though, my ( o )( o )'s have been extremely sore and feel like they're on fire. my gums have also started bleeding every time i brush my teeth (which is due to increased blood), and i feel quite sick first thing in the morning.

i was sick for the first time this week - wasn't nice!

Ive also been spotting quite a bit - every day in fact, but i wasnt worrying too much about it because ive heard it can be quite normal, but i phoned my midwife to put my mind at ease.

she told me to book in to see my doctor, and i went that same day. he asked me what the spotting was like, so i told him and he booked me in for an early scan at EPU at blakburn royal on 13th june..

I went for my first scan on 13th june..

my mum came with me because shane couldnt get off work cos of the short notice. i was really nervous - not because i thought anything was wrong, but because i would be finding out how many babies are in there! TWINS RULE MY FAMILY REMEMBER - ON BOTH SIDES!!

we waited for about 15mins in the waiting room, and saw a girl from rishton in there so said hi to her.

i was told to have a full bladder for the scan because it kind of pushes ur uterus up and allows for better viewing, so i was just starting my 3rd bottle of water, in absolute agony because i was dying to go,, when the nurse came and said is your bladder full? and i said yeah its ready to burst, and she said well because your so early, we need to do an internal scan so you need an empty bladder! so off i went while the nurse took my notes..

shortly after, the doctor came for me and we followed her into this little room.

she told me to undress from the waist down and get on the bed... so i did as i was told and laid down (with a sheet over me of course) and while she was looking at my notes i was looking at the machine next toe me, when i saw what can only be described as a foot long dildo!!

she squirted this gel stuff on it and then popped a condom thing onto it and then up it went! haha

i couldnt see the screen cos it wasnt facing me, but i was watching my mums reaction, because i told her if we see two sacs then its twins!

but she looked relieved and then started crying! i knew then that it was just one!

i asked if i could see, so she turned the screen round and all that was there was a little grey blob! she pointed to a little flutter on the blob and said thats ur babys heartbeat!!

my mum was uncontrollable then! lol

the doctor said everything was fine and that spotting can happen through all the nine months so dont get too worked up about it.

we asked for a picture but they said no!! we offered to buy one because i know that sometimes u have to buy them , but she still said no

but it looked something like this...

.......except it was a little bit smaller!!!

so my baby has a heartbeat!

Current mood: excited

not much has changed this week, not feeling much different, just get so so tired i need a catnap during the day, which never used to be like me.

i cant wait to go back to college because i am so bored, and plus i should be showing by then and i wont have to tell anyone else because they'll figure it out for themselves!

the spotting it still happening, in fact i think its gonna happen for the rest of the pregnancy, but im not worrying about it anymore.

alcohol is obviously a big no no, and i went to wales on 19th june with shane and his family for a little holiday, but i stocked up on plenty of alcohol free becks and didnt feel lik i was missing out! it actually tastes better than normal beer!

weather was shite and we didnt do much except from lots of shopping, and by the time we finished shopping i was too tired to do anything else unless i had a sleep!

even though we were on holiday and ate out a lot, i still managed to eat healthily and got my 5 fruit n veg a day!

the smell of food cooking knocks me a bit sick now, so i prefer to have cold meals! and the fact that shane was cooking eggs nearly every morning in a small caravan made me feel

i didnt have many symptoms while on holiday... just very very tired. ive also been feelin a lot happier (maybe cos im excited) and its rubbed off on people cos even my mum said ive become a much nicer person and always in a good mood!

but on sunday night (last night there) me and shane were in bed an he decided to fart and hold the cover over my head, which made me gag and then i went to the toilet and was sick 4 times with shane pissing himself laughin! bastard

anyway, the next day it took around 7 hours to get home because of all the floods. i was getting ratty cos i needed a wee (with no toilets anywhere near us!) i was wet and cold, it was taking ages to move through the floods and i had cramp in my foot from driving for so long!

i was so relieved to get home and have a nice hot shower without hundreds of spiders crawling round the shower like in the caravan!

while i was away, my mum and stepdad bought me a new wardrobe, new bedspread, new curtains, lamps and rug! and they scrubbed all my bedroom floor, repainted my walls and changed all my room round as a suprise for me!

shes even left room down one side of my room for the cot! she said she never did it for me, she did it for baby!!

it used to be such a mess, and then i came home to this.... i felt like i was on changing rooms!!

Current mood: exhausted

since i found out im pregnant, i keep saying i cant wait to find out whether its a boy or girl, because then i can get stuff sorted and colour coordinated!

i know its only early days, but im having second thoughts now and think i wanna do it the old fashioned way and wait until the birth.

ive read up about it and apparently it lessens the boring part of labour, and makes u more determined to push because u know theres a big suprise at the end of it, so it makes u more determined to get the babbi out!

shane and my mum want to know what it is, but im not sure now!

but if they find out and i dont, i can guarantee i wont last 5 minutes and ill be begging them to tell me! but at least if i dont find out at the scan, then ill know how long i can last!

anyway i have my dating scan on 17th july and i cant wait cos ill deffo get a picture!! but first ive gotta get past the blood tests on 4th july

im not showing yet, but i cant wait to! im so impatient but i know im in for a long wait! my boobs are getting bigger though and soon ill be looking like jordan hehe

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Current mood: amused

well today is 4th july and that meant blood tests!

i was papping myself all morning because ive got really thin veins and you can hardly see them, so i was panicking to my mum like, what if they cant get any blood out!! can they take it from anywhere else?!

and i had this horrible thought that they were gonna take it out my neck if they couldnt get it out my arm! lol

i went at 8.40am and got in straight away. i was only in for less than 5 minutes. the midwife asked me how the spotting is, so i told her it had calmed down and she told me not to worry, and also said my symptoms should start easing off now (not that ive had many anyway!)

so then she asked me if i was ok with her taking blood, or if i go faint? so i said ill more than likely go faint so she told me to lay down on the bed thing!

she strapped a belt thing around my arm so my veins would pop up, and luckily she managed to get a vein on the inside of my elbow (where ur arm bends on the inside!) and it was right on the crease!

she said u might feel a little scratch, so i stared at the wall like this while she faffed around with the needle.

then she just pushed it in but to be honest it didnt hurt half as much as i was expecting! i dont know why i was being so soft! the needle was in for about 2 minutes while she swapped tubey things to collect more blood, and then it was over.

i said "is that it?!" and she said yeah i only took two samples - one to check your iron levels and the other to check for rubella. ill need to take more after you pass 12 weeks to check for the risk of downs etc. so that means i have to have more! lol

it wasnt that bad though - i was just being a soft ass

got my scan on 17th july and can't wait. then its back to the midwife on 15th august

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my god i was so nervous about having my scan, i was 100% convinced something had happened because all my symptoms had gone..

last night was murder because i was so so nervous and couldnt sit still! but luckily it was at 9.15am this morning, so didnt really ave time to fret!

well we got there for 9am and we got called in at ten past. you have to have a full bladder before a scan, and id had one litre of water but i wasnt bursting, but thought it would be full enough!

anyway she started the scan and we got a quick glimpse of baby and its heart beat. she messed around with the scanner for a while but it started hurting so i told her, and she said its because my bladder isn't full enough.

so she told me to go back at 9.50 after having a couple more bottles of water..

well it got to 9.30 and i was desperate for a wee but had to wait!

eventually we got called back in, and she put the gel on my belly and bean popped up on screen

we could see it reallly clearly and it was bouncing around as if it was dancing! lol

we could see both arms and legs, its little body and its heart beating, and also its huge head!! lol

i got a few tears while the nurse was pointing everything out to us, and it was really good to see it moving around a lot because i really thought something had happened!

anyway we ordered three pictures (£4 each!!!!!!!) and had to wait in the waiting area for them to fetch the pics to us.

we got the pictures and then we had to go and book our next scan (11th september, my mums birthday) and then go back and wait to see a midwife.

so while we were waiting i went to the toilet for the wee i was desperate for! but before i managed to have one, i started violently throwing up!!

i couldnt stop myself! lol i heard a woman come into the toilets but then she went straight out again because she must of heard me! lol sorry!!

anyway we waited for an hour to see the midwife and finalllllly got in.

she filled some forms in and gave me back my original due date of 27th jan 08.

she also said all my blood tests had come back normal so i didnt have aids or syphillis etc etc lol!!!

but then she said she has to take some more blood to check what blood group i am, so she took some more while i nipped shanes arm with all my strength lol

and that was it.. we finally got out at 11.30 but it was well worth all the waiting..

heres the pic, but i dont have a scanner so had to take a pic with my digital camera so its not that clear, but u can see its head, heart, body, and u can also see its arm on this side, and that little dot above its chest was its other hand, so looked like it was waving!! lol