hey i'm kimmy! 18 years old graduated last year and now expecting my first baby. me and the babys dad matt are super excited. i've had cravings for alot of sweets, i'm trying to stay away from them. my mood swings have been really hard for both me and matt. sometimes i feel like an idiot for the things i get upset over and i feel guilty for taking it out on matt, he's usually the only person i can stress to.

Oct. 15th

i'm 18 weeks today. lately it's been nothing but me being emotional about everything, or really grumpy. i try to control it as best i can. i don't want people to be mad at me. luckily my boyfriend can take a deep breath and handle most of it. i love him so much. he's leaving on wensday for work. he'll be back on the weekends but i week is along time with out him. he'll be able to take a few days off every know and then but that means he won't be going to alot of the appt. with me. which i'm kinda upset because i want him to experience it too. but he's doing what best for the both of us. i'm starting to get worried that things might go wrong, or somthing might happen when he's gone.

oct. 20th

my man left today! he wasn't going to leave until tomorrow but i'll see him next weekend and try to stay strong. i'm going to my at home job next week finally i get to earn a little extra cash. i had a really bad moodswing last night. i broke down and started to cry really bad. i think it's one of the worst ones for far. i got upset over nothing really. i hate fighting with my boyfriend, i just feel so crappy afterwards we never fought this much before i was pregnant. i feel like i'm finally starting to show which is good, i am so tired of feeling fat all the time and bloated. lol. i only have 9 days until i find out the sex of my baby. i worry about labor even though i still have a long ways. i dont' know if i want to go with a natural birth or the epidural, i'm really going for less pain as long as my baby comes out health i'm happy with it.

Nov. 12th

i haven't wrote on my page for a while. i'm getting pretty big i'm 22 weeks now and i couldn't be more excited. i'm finally starting to get my belly. i don't feel fat anymore lol. i spent the week with my boyfriend, well i was in a motel room most the time, to cold to spend alot of time outside. i walked around the town a little nothing really there, a couple neat stores...everything over priced. i got a new hair style for the first time in a long time my hair is at shoulder length. but it looks pretty cute. i'm getting use to the fact that matt will be gone during the week. it took time but we need to get into out own place and have our own space and time together when he comes into town....every weekend. i want to have christmas with him wake up christmas morning and only have the one i love be there. christmas dinner we're going to be with my family anyways. i can't wait to meet his mom. we've been going out for a year and i haven't met his mom yet. she lives on the other side of the country...but i hope i meet her after i have the baby. my back pain is getting so bad, and it's almost always at night when i'm trying to go to bed. it sucks. but i can deal with it. so i'm scared that i've gained to much wieght already. i worry about gaining to much weight. i don't worry MUCH about what i'm going to look like after but i worry about making it harder on me during labor. everyone worries about what they're going to look like after the baby.