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Hello Ladies. My name is Rekisha and I am a very proud mommy to be. I am seventeen years old and I am looking forward to graduating this year. I am due on Feb. 28, 2008 or March 2, 2008 , the day that will change my life forever, although it is slowly chaning already. I am very nervous because of the fact that this is my first pregnancy and I am a teenage mother. I know that this chapter in my life will not be an easy one but I have promised my unborn child that mommy will do her best to be the best that she can be. Regardless if daddy is there or not my life is dedicated to providig for you and seeing that you never go without anything you need. With so much going on, I will always offer my baby the love of a strong black mother that I received while I was growing up. It's so many words that I have to say to my baby, I don't know where to begin, so I simply say I LOVE YOU.

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11/3Today I am 23 weeks and 2 days. I feel fine. I am still a little concerned about how slowly I am growing. Lots of people say it's normal, maybe I'm just anxious to start showing. Since this is my first diary entry, I'll write up until now. On October 3rd, I had my first sonograms. Unfortuantely, my baby's legs were closed. Although he/she was very active, the little one would not open up! So I am very anxious to find out what I'm having. I did a lot of reading about what to expect to have by the way your baby sits, the things you eat, and how fast you grow. While I've done many of these test the results still come back mixed up at times. When I went for my sonograms my baby's heartrate was 150 bpm. The last time I actually visited my OBGYN was on Nov. 19, so as you can see it's been awhile. So rightnow I'm scared for my baby although I know he/she is fine because I feel kicks from time to time. I just haven't waited this long for an appointment. My doctor is always booked. My next appointment is on the 16th of this month. PRAY FOR ME!!

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11/4It is 5:29 A.M. and I've been up for awhile now. I had trouble going back to sleep after the dogs next door barked and barked. I have been waking up in the early hours of the morning lately so it's nothing new. I usually find it hard to get back up to get ready for school, but somehow I make it. Just the other day, I woke up around 3 something to cook guess what...A HOTDOG!! =) I don't know if it was because I was hungry or I was just craving it. But I ate and stayed up for forever. I felt my little one kick a little earlier and I =)! I just wish he/she was more active throughout the day. But I'm blessed to have a health baby so I won't complain. I am so anxious about my next appointment...I know these next few days are going to drive me crazy!! For most women I've seen they are ready to have their baby round their due date. For me, I am so ready to hold and cuddle and just love my baby. I know it's going to be a very emotional day. I have so much to look forward to but often feel sad and worried. I know I'm going to be the best mommy ever but I just don't know how. I can't keep asking my mother and sister for stuff. I am now forced to grow up and that's what I am determined to do. Of course I'm going to finish school, I'm a senior, what's the point of dropping out now?? I'm getting a job ASAP, as soon as I heel, maybe before then. I ♥ my baby enough to give up my social life, friends, and maybe his/her father if it's problems later on down the line. Right now everything is fine so I'm happy.

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11/19Today I am 25 weeks and 3 days. I finally went to my doctor's appointment. Everything was fine with baby. His/Her heartbeat was 135, so that was normal. All his/her blood test and stuff came back negative so I was happy. I am also glad to say that I fm finally picking up weight. I am now 129 pounds which isn't really alot but feels like it especially coming from 115. I also found out that I am going to be able to get more sonograms =) YAYYYYYYY!! I been waiting forever and I got to wait some more. I have to wait until I'm around 32 weeks. So =( that was the down side. Gotta wait again. But nonetheless, I'm happy that everything is going good. I have recently been experiencing pains. It usually happens when I'm sitting, standing, or laying in the same position for awhile. When I get up to move it feels like bones are breaking "down there" and alot of pressure builds when I walk aroind for a while. But I am getting sluggish. LOL!! But hopefully this means that baby is doing good in there. I CAN NOT WAIT!!! I am sooo ready for my baby to get here. It feels like time has been going pretty fast lately so he/she will be here in no time. I'll update later...BYE BYE!!!