Hi,

I am Kourtnee. This is my third pregnancy, but my first one with my new husband.

May 1, 2008-

I really wish that I had insurance.. I think that I have a kidney infection.. The lower right hand side of my back hurts so bad... I have been having uti symptoms for a few days but since I don't have insurance, I don't know 100%... My husband is a paramedic and he just keeps telling me to drink cranberry juice.. YEAH, I have been.. He just doesn't want me to go to the hospital cause the bill will be alot.. Nice huh? We have been fighting a lot lately and I am at a point where I just want to leave him. Sad,, but he makes me soooooo mad and he is so unsympathetic with this pregnancy.. Anyways,, I have an appointment on the 14th. I hope that everything is okay since this will be my first one and I am already four months... My husband says that women have been having babies for thousands of years and never had to go to a Dr.. WHATEVER!!!!! I do not want to get the blood screen done that can determine if the baby has down's or some other deformity.. I had one of those tests come back positive with my second son and then had the amnio done.. It came back negative but I would rather not know.. I will love the baby no matter what..

By the way,, I have felt the baby kick.. A couple nights ago.. It was sooooo cool. I had a coughing fit and when I was done,, the baby was not happy about being bonked around and it let me know it.. I could feel it with my hand. And today the baby was kicking so hard that I could see my shirt move. I thought that the baby wasn't supposed to be able to kick that hard til later. Well,, either way,, it was soooo cool..

May 13, 2008- Well,, I have not felt the baby move in a few days. It was kicking soooo hard at 16 weeks that my hubby and son could feel it... But my hubby keeps telling me that if something is wrong, I would have a lot of cramping and bleeding.. Hmmmm??? I am going to my first appt tomorrow.. YEAH!! I hope to have an u/s done. I want to know if it is a girl or boy.. Let's hope for a girl,, but I will be just as happy if it is another boy... My hubby and I are doing a lot better.. Looks like I will keep him around.. = 0)

July 13th-
Well I am getting a divorce.. I can not put up with this mental abuse from my husband any longer. I am tired of paying him rent to live with him,, tired of him disconnecting the furnace when he goes to work for three to four days at a time, tired of him not wanting this baby,,,, just can not do it anymore... It is a sad thing but how much can one take,, especially pregnant?? I mean, this stress is killing me..... Thank God that this baby is doing good.. I have been having a lot of BH contractions though. Hope it is not early labor.. Only time will tell... I go to the Dr on the 18th......

August 13th- 31 weeks

IT'S a BOY!!!!!! Was hoping that I would have a girl,, but am actually relieved to have another boy.. I wouldn't know what to do with a girl.....

Still going through a divorce. Just finished going to court, but just for a temp restraining order... Not sure when the divorce hearing is.. But my husband, or do I call him ex-husband is accusing me of child abuse. I guess cause he thinks that he can get this baby and not pay child support? Sad situation I tell ya.....

I went into early labor at 28 weeks,,, was hainvg contractions every two minutes for awhile before I was given meds to stop them.. Thankfully the meds worked but I was very nervous... I think that I went into early labor due to this stress that I am under........ Hopefully the rest of this pregnancy will go smooth... I need help finding a boys name.... Any suggestions? I was thinking of using an original last name as a first.. Like Anderson, or Bennett.. THen I could call him Andy or Ben???

Hope everyone out there is doing great......