Hey all Haute Mamma's to be! Im Leslie, I'm 20 this year and in october I'll be 21 and 7 months pregnant. What a way to celebrate. I'm so excited. Its gonna be great I love kids and so does daddy to be!

Isn't he just so georgeous!And Mommy!

June 22, 2007 1:35AM

Okay so this will be my first entry telling you all reading this a little bit about myself. Some people think I'm crazy, but I think that things happen for a reason, if not to make your life great then to teach you a lesson. Well the daddy i met working at a movie theather, back in Janurary, we officially started dating on Feb 14th, so not long after that I became pregnant. We weren't very careful because neither of us were worried about the "consequences" we really liked eachother and so that was that. So now we are gonna have a baby and some people think we are crazy. But Im so happy Ive been waiting to have a baby for so long. I love kids and now i cant wait to have my own. Im 12 weeks 3 days and have about 192 days left till my baby is due. Im so excited and this pregnancy so far has been a breeze, knock on wood that it stays that way. Well I'll update some more in a few days maybe tomorrow if Im bored but for now I'll chat with a few of ya.

All pictures moved to My Photo Book!

June 24, 2007

So today has been a pretty long day! I seem to find myself awake so late at night. IM having such a hard time being tired at night. Today I strayed away from taking an afternoon nap but still im not tired. Ive tried everything I can think of. A few years ago I used to have insomnia really bad to where i was taking 1000mg of trazadone to go to sleep. I thinking the Insomnia is back and that there is nothing I can do really. Do any of you other ladies find this as a problem? If so let me know, so i know im not alone here. I'm gonna try to wake up really early tomorrow, Hoping that will bring along tiredness. Thanks for all the comments so far. Well I saw on one of your pages a baby predictor and i couldnt help but do it myslef.(thanks to 28rebecca) So this one says im having a boy which is what I want....But we will see just another 7.2 weeks and I will find out the sex of the baby...My next apt is on 7-13-07 Friday the 13th pretty crazy huh? I got another question...Do you always get a sonogram/ultrasound whenever you go see the doc. This will be my 2nd visit and all we did on the 1st on was the sono, no questions, no examination, they did check my pee though. Is that normal what shall i expect at my next visit. If any ladies see this please leave me a comment. Im glad im surrounded my so much knowledge. Well enough for today...Im sure by the end of my pregnancy this page is gonna be super long.

June 25th, 2007

Last night I tried to update but my computer went haywire and opened like 30 windows on its own...So I shut it down and went to sleep early. Today is monday, Mondays and Thursdays are usually the days i get to spend all day with my boyfriend. Today I have no idea what the plan is, I know he has to drop off his car at the dealer cause the mantience light is already coming on. Then I think he's gonna take me shopping for some maternity pants. Cause I dont know if its cause im bloated or cause my belly may be growing but none of my jeans fit. Other than that i dont know what we are doing. I want to go to the japanese tea gardens and take some picture of all the flower and tree and waterfalls. I love photography. If I go I'll post them on here. :) Well I need to finish getting ready for my day and eat and take my vitamin. So I'll update again tonight.

I had an alright day up until now. To keep myself entertained I browse through other baby sites at the other womens journals on this site to see how they are doing. And I notice more and more that the woman I see that are 12 or 13 weeks look bigger than me, Like they are showing already. I know that I have grown its just I don't see that big of a differance as I feel I should see being 13 weeks. And having no signs of pregnancy aside from sore boobs, is not very reasuring. I go see the doctor again in two weeks and 3 three days. When I'll be 15 weeks. I guess I can talk to her about how I'm feeling. I keep a picture of my sonogram here from my 11th week, which makes me feel better on these days. I just want to see him or her again to hear the heartbeat. To know that the baby is healthy and growing normally even though I don't see growth on the outside will make me feel so much better. The last dr. apointment the baby was 4.64cm a little bit bigger than I have been reading for babies 11 weeks old. I just hope everything is A okay and Hope I will be feeling better tomorrow. My boyfriend is coming over after work, the last movie he has to serve should be 1040 so the kitchen should close around 1130, I expect him here around 12 - 1230...I'll talk to him about it and ask him if my stomach has significatly grown. Today I weighed myself still nothing at 168 my starting weight. Just wish me luck and keep me in your prayers. Till Tomorrow!

Okay so im doing these gender prediction tests...And i just did the one with the ring on a string and Like dead serious not lying...right in front of my belly it moves in circles right....okay away from my belly in front of something else it doesn't move either at all or not in circles that is insane like i can't believe it....I did it like 20 times...IM about to do it again.......I'll updte again in a bit..

So my mom is fine after all, after my dad got home around six I talked her out of bed...All day she had been completly out of it. After getting her out of bed, I went to barnes and noble, I picked up a few things, I got chicken soup for the expectant mothers soul and Belly Laughs the jenny mccarthy book, I also got my mom a book to read to the baby it put a smile on her face. I got one for my self...they were only like 2 dollars...super sale. One another note tonight is the second night in a row that my bf has gone out to a bar or club...Last night he went to a bar to wish his friend chirs a good tour...hes going on a cooking tour, so they spent one more night together...Then tonight he went to club krystals...he got there around 12:40 and its 3:40 now and he still has yet to come home....I dread and have nightmares that he is cheating on me and with this behavior how can i think not. NOt to mention last night while we were at the mall his brother text him and told him that two girls wanted to double up on him, and then a few hours later when we were at my house his brother called again and asked about hotels and which one he should go to, then he went to the bathroom for 5 minutes(seemed like an eternity) and I couldn't help but think that he was planing on going to and having some sort of crazy 4-some. Ugh my thoughts are killing me.... But before all of this we went to IHOP ...They messed up everything but it was still delicious I ate everything...pancakes, hasbrowns, ham, bacon, and sausage...and still felt like I could eat more!...We talked all about baby...how i have been doing all the gender prediction tests and how they reviel we will have a boy...He doesn't believe in that he says...But looking at all you mommies it sure does look like its true. We talked all about the little person in me...How we cant wait to see him/her again, we still haven't heard the heartbeat so that will be exciting. I told him I want the birth video taped...I thought he would think i was crazy but i really want to...I dont care if im screaming and yelling...or maybe I'll be a champ who knows. Then he really upset me and I'm still a little upset...We had planed that when he gets his new apartment and all that I would move in with him at least a month or so before baby is due...to get its room ready and what not. Now he is saying that he wants me to stay here at home...I didn't understand, I still don't, why then have we looked at and picked what kind of baby furniture to get what kind of them we want, the kind of everything, I dont understand...How am I supposed to go through the first couple of weeks without my partner, Its so depressing im crying...I can't stay up all night with a baby when I'll proably not have had much sleep....I haven't told him any of this but I will. How am I to do it all alone. He says he will be here everyday but will he really...Is he just trying to let me go easily or something...Ugh im so depressed now...Ill go ahead and finish here...BTW its 3:30 and he still isn't home.

Me and Vernon at his brothers party!

July 2, 2007, 13 Weeks 6 Days

Last night was terrible, like I posted last night I slept terrible after waking up I didn't get back to sleep till around 7 this morning it was horrible. I slept at the least 5 hours maybe all together, because even when i fell asleep I woke up not even an hour later from a horrible dream or not being comfortable. I can feel baby more when I'm aleep like what side he/she has gotten comfortable on. Its harder on that part of my body I believe where the baby is. Last night I was in the bathroom and I found the baby and was pushing against it and then all of a sudden the hardness was gone and moved to another side of my body, it was the coolest thing! Its really cool I can feel where it is now, Now I await the moment that baby starts moving inside of me Ugh how i cant wait. In about a week my pregnancy book says I may feel when the baby has the Hiccups, How exciting....I go to the doctor in 10 days, I gotta ask her about my sleeping and if there is anything I can do about it, and how much weight she would like me to gain. I'll be 15 weeks 3 days when I go. Well tonight I am going with my boyfriend to go out with his brother Its his birthday so we are going to Texas Land And Cattle, it should be good thinking about it is making me so hungry....Now i really cant wait. Well he should be here in about 5 minutes so I'll post either tomorrow or tonight...TTYS!

July 4th, 2007: Week 14 Day 1

So I have decided to only post once or twice a week, Ive only been a VIP for not even two weeks and my page is getting longer than some mommies who have already delieverd. So I figured its time to take it a little slower. No need in posting every day, I'll just keep an at home diary for that. LOL! Although I wont post every day I will definatly stop by everyday. Its just not enough is happening to post non-stop like I have been. All that has been happening is my horrible sleep patterns which i will talk to my Dr. about next friday...Almost a week away Yay...So Im really excited about that. But I guess thats all for today...Still havent heard from my bf about what we are gonna do about where I'm living when the baby gets here...My mom pretty much made it clear she doesn't want me to stay here! Till Monday!

7 - 07 - 07 The day of the heavens!

Just a tiny update for all of you readers out there. My night tonight was great. My bf stopped by after he got off work it was so nice, He told me how much he had missed me, and we had some make up, Well you know! It was amazing I was so filled with joy and I felt so amazing in his strong arms that as soon as he was done...I STARTED CRYING! Never has this happend to me, I am truly in love! Well that is all hope all you mommies are doing good! I'll be on tomorrow night! Love Ya

7-7-07 ~ I think I felt my baby move for the first time today! Aahaha! So excited, its like little fluttery movements! It is so exciting especially on todays date. SO COOL!

So since i was really excited about thinking that I can feel the baby, I went and asked my mom, If its possible that thats what I'm feeling she's telling me that NO its too early that its probably just gas. I was so happy to now im kind of just blah! I mean I was thrilled, I text my bf and told him and everything. I'm still feeling it here and there and too me I dont think Its gas I know this is just TMI but I know I dont have to fart! I dont know someone tell me if this is too soon to be feeling the littler fluttery movements? I really wanna know, I have been waiting for this moment.

July 10, 2007 : 15 Weeks exactly

Well today i'm 15 weeks my apt. is in 3 days. I'm excited I'm hoping she will let me hear the heartbeat, I will be so disapointed if I leave there having not heard it. Its so hot here today. I'm not sure what the temp is but my goodness I thought I was going to die out there. Its definatly uncomfortable. Yesturday I spent half the day with Vernon, he bought me a bunch of maternity clothes from a store called Melrose. If you are young thats definatly the place to get your maternity clothes. It has a young look to it, and only being 20 I still want to look my age even though I'm pregnant. I went to sleep late last night and woke up early today, so I'm feeling a little sleepy. All is good though. I will probably end up not updating again till Friday, unless something happens between now and then. I'm still feeling the little movements! Yay! Hope everyone is doing good. Talk to you all soon!

July 13th 2007 14 weeks 3 Days!!!

As most of you who read my page every once in awhile, You will know that I had my 15 week apointment today. It went wonderful!!! I was so happy when I left there. They checked my urine, I GOT TO HEAR MY BABY'S HEARTBEAT! It was the best thing. I dont know how to explain it but it was just so sureal. I felt it was even more amazing than seeing the baby for the first time. Most of you were right it was like I dont even know the words to use. I was utterly amazed. She answered all the questions I had, she is a fantastic doctor, very sweet and gentel. I'm so excited 4 weeks and 4 days till we find out the sex of the baby. Thats 31 days, just a month! I'm thrilled! I had the Tripple Quad test and the Cystic Fibrosis tests done today, I hate getting my blood drawn but this lady did a very good job, she was very smooth and left me no bruise, usually I bruise. This Evening I saw Harry Potter, it was good, just long and the theather was cold. But other than that, I had fun seeing everyone I used to work with, Some people there I can't stand but others I love, they are so supportive! Well after my long day I am exhausted. I've been up since 9 and its 1045 now, So This is where I will leave off today, If anything exciting or important happens between now and Monday I'll be sure to let you know. Till then, thank you all for your support and advice, and to all those TTC, May you recieve all the baby dust you need to create little miracles of your own!!!

July 16th 2007, 15 weeks 6 days pregnant!

7:00pm Well he told them, It didn't take long. They told him that he should have been more responsible and that I shouldn't be pregnant. This I feel is going to make things so much harder than they already are. Im really upset and depressed now, and I don't really even feel like spending any time with him at all. I wish it just would have went better. My parents are happy, my mom was never upset, my dad at first was disapointed and now is happy and embracing the fact of the matter. I really feel like I'm going to be doing this on my own, With no emotional support from his parents I feel that this is going to become more stressful for the both of us especially him knowing his parents are upset about the situation. I dont know I wish he would have told them when we found out that way we could talk about it more. I feel like I'm the only one happy about it. Well till friday ladies or this evening if me and him talked about anything interesting.

July 20, 2007 ~ 16week 3 days.

Yesturday was a bad day starting off but a better day to end one. I woke up yesturday around 12:45 and ate some breakfast. Then afterwards I was going to go straighten my hair and to my complete surprise!!!! The straightener was gone! I had no idea what happend to it. Its not mine but my sister was letting me use it, My sister who has natural straight hair, and why she even has a straightener is beyond my comprehension. Well she recently came and got all her things so she could move out with her terrible bf. Well the straightener was in my bedroom, so apparently she came into my room with out me knowing and took it back. Now thats fine and all but she could have at least warned me, so on the day I'm hanging out with vernon, I cant straighten my hair, for me this is disater!!! I have extremly poofy wavy hair completly unmanageable unless I have gell and hairspray in it to hold the curls in place. So unfortunatly I had to to make my hair curly which I didn't want to do. But It was done and it looked nice I'll post picture of it curly and straight! Well After my predicament I was ready right when my bf got here, he went a bought me a new straightener which works really really good!!! YAY!!! So now I have one the one I had before I was using my sisters broke! From there we drove all the way out to Bandera to eat some famous hamburgers, its like at 20 minute drive. It was good and there we talked about all kinds of stuff. In one of the books he bought me it says that a 8oz cup of soda or coffee is safe, and he said he didn't care that he didn't want a cranky baby, It botherd me cause if you remenber from before he doesn't want me to move in with him, So I was like what does it matter it'll be around me most of the time, He was like "Well where will I be" I told him "You'll be at your house", And he was like where will you be I told him "At my house!" He was confused like we ARE going to be living together, so I dont know ladies, I didn't want to talk to him about it there, I didn't want to ruin our day. So I dont know what do you guys think???? Well enough for today! OH OH OH I got a job interview for a customer serivice company Its on monday at 1:45 so I will definatly let you all know how that goes. YOu think they will hire me knowing I'm pregnant???? Hopefully, I will warn them after they offer me the job, if they can't already tell I'm pregnant!

July 29th, 17 weeks 5 days

Its been more than a week since I made an update, I've been really down lately not because of anyone really. Its just I feel like I'm almost doing this alone. Like I know I have my family and my boyfriend, But my family can't be there the way I need them too, really the only thing I feel that they are useful for is mental support, they don't talk to me about it, its like I'm the only one going through this(duh) And then my bf isn't here the way I want him to be. I just wish he was there when I needed him, Like when I'm feeling really down or when I'm sitting around worrying about things I shouldn't be worried about. Last night was really bad, I had a really bad backache and my kness were hurting really bad, and I just wanted him here with me, at least if not here with me but knowing he would be comming to me soon. Not living with him is really bad sometimes. And on top of that all, I don't know if its my hormones or what but its getting harder and harder to trust him. He goes out alot, and this week his brother went out of town and we stayed at his apartment thursday night. And I'm sorry but I couldn't help but think that after he went out last night that he took a girl back to his brothers place. He forgot to call me when he left work last night, It was like going out for him was more important than calling me and seeing how I was doing, He managed to call me after he had been down there for thirty minutes, He said he knew he had forgotten something. I was like oh thanks for thinking about me. And then he text me when he got home just to ask me to call and wake him at noon. Well I did, and then I went back to sleep cause I didn't get to sleep till after 5 this morning, I woke up really late though like I thought it was only one, it was 3:30I couldn't believe it. So I figured he was already at work since he is supposed to be there at 2, so I text him at 3:40 because I never got a text or a call saying he was at work, He text me back at 4:15 telling me he was getting ready, and that he was beat! I didn't understand how, he slept in the day before and got to work at 4 and then went out like he usually does, I didn't understand how he could be so tired. So I figured he was going to be going in to work late, So hours past and finally at 9:35 this evening I got a text from him saying he was still in bed. I was shocked, I thought he had been at work all day. So I don't know what is up with him. But he has yet to call me still today. But I dont know It'll probalby be another week or so till I post again. I dont know I'm just not feeling it at much. Well, I'ma go eat since I can't sleep now. P.S My ultrasound appointment is in two weeks, I can't wait!!!!!

August 3, 2007 18 weeks 3 days pregnant

Well Its been almost a week since I have posted, Just wanted to come on and update a bit as to how I'm feeling and whats been going on. I am extremly emotional about everything right now. I assume its all these hormones. Its not very fun I have to admit. I seem to cry over everything, Let me explain all the reasons why I cried today: 1.) I was watching big brother with my mom while vernon was on our laptop, and the house guest I didn't want to get evicted did, I cried didn't let anyone see me but I did. 2.) While Vernon was playing on the computer, I made him something to eat, I got him a soda and forgot to wash off the top, He didn't get mad but told me I can't forget that, because just because I can't see the germs they are there. So I gave him his food sat down facing the TV and cried some more because I felt bad because I thought that he didn't want it now and it was my fault(while he was drinking it) I laugh at myself now!!! 3.) I made a powerpoint of the baby nursery things I want and read that we may need. He didn't think alot of the stuff I put in it was practical, he said we wouldn't need thoese things. But I was really upset because I had worked on it for countless hours and days. So I started crying again this time I couldn't stop it. He told me that he liked how I put it together but that he has helped an ex raise a baby and he knows we wont need anything like that. But I was still sad because I spent so much time on it. So In return, he searched online for things he liked and thought we would need, that cheered me up and made me really happy. I think today was the first time he has seen me this emotional. Like when I did the drink he was like is this just your high emotional state right now, I told him yes because it is. But other than my extreme emotions everything is great. Everything is going good with Vernon, He is doing everything he can to make me feel as good as I can, and everything in his capabilities to make me as happy as he can! I am doing the same in return. A couple of months back maybe 2 I really didn't think we were going to make it this far, I thought something would happen between us and I would be in this all alone, But like he always told me I had a ton of potential, and now he can see us getting married down the road, and We will be living together once baby gets here, He hasn't quite said so, but, His actions and what we talk about show that he has changed his mind. Like today, we got the baby monitiors at Target, He wants to start buying things here and there because once we get into the apartment the budget is going to get a little tight. But he has almost made it clear that I will be living with him. Like tonight we were looking at furniture at Roomstogo.com and he told me that he would need two dressers, and i was like what one for you and one for the baby, and He said NO one for me and one for you, and then about the night stands, he said he would need to get two because he was sure that I would want one too.....So I'm thrilled. I'm even more thrilled because my ultrasound is in like one week. friday saturday and sunday are going to go by so fast that they dont even count....hahah Im so excited. Wow like super, Like I can just imagine being in that room, laying on the cold surface waiting for the doctor to do the U/S and then holding vernons hand as we watch our little miracle moving around, and then to supprisingly be flashed little boy or little girl parts OMG! I will squeez his had look over at him and say that our little Lance or thats our little Layla! I cry just thinking about it I know I will cry that day, and its his day off so we will be able to spend all day together!!!! Ugh I can't wait I almost wish it was tomorrow. But you all will be one of the firsts to know, I'll personally message all of you. Well ladies Good Luck with the Pregnancies & God Bless You All!!!

August 13, 2007, 19 weeks 6 days

Well Ladies, today is technically the big day, I have yet to go to sleep because I am so filled with anticipation, but fourtunatly I am getting extremely tired. Its already 3:45am, Ugh sometimes I hate being up this late and wish I was capable of going to sleep around 11 like the rest of my family. But Oh well. So almost 12 hours till my appointment, I am extatic, The aticipation wasn't as bad as I would have expected it to be, It was worse when I was around my bf, I had to take him to work today, because he go into an accident, his brand new car, He's really down and out, so hopefully seeing his little baby tomorrow will cheer him up a little. I was playing with my dog and talking to my mom before they went to sleep, and I asked her if she was coming tomorrow, she said of course and so I told her that, She might have to follow or meet us there because afterwards Vernon and I were going out to celebrate the baby and our 6 month anniversary, She said "6 Month anniversary and your already 5 months pregnant." I told her "Things happen for a reason and you just have to learn to accept thoese things that happen." I left after that because she really hurt my feelings, I bet she wont even appologize for it. I know that we should have been more careful, but we weren't and had conscious thought over what the concequences could be, So this I belive happened to either show Vernon and I a lesson, or to show us that we were meant for eachother, and fourtunatly it took this miracle to bring us together and make us stronger than we have ever been before. I have no doubt in my mind that I will be with Vernon for a very long time. Forever maybe! I see him in my future and he sees me in his and It doesn't get any better than that. Well thats enough for now its about 8 till 4 and I need to go to sleep. I love you all! Good Luck with Everything, and I'll update on tuesday!

August 16, 2007 20 Weeks 4 Days

Well as most of you know, Monday I had my appointment. I started out the day early with Vernon, we went out to lunch before and had chinese food, then we left for the appointment which was at 4. We got there early since all the other appointments we had been late too. Well getting there early didn't quite work in our favor, we were there waiting for an hour and still had not been seen. I had an extremely full bladder for the sonogram and was dying almost in tears because I had to go so bad. Finally after about an hour and 20 minutes of waiting they called me back. They weighed me and omg I weighed 183, I almost died, they told me that was ten lbs more than the last time. I started out at 168 and didn't gain any weight till my 4 month appointment were I weighed 173 5-6lbs of weight gain, I remember the doctor saying. So 10lbs gained in a month was a shock. I'm eating now more than I did before I was pregnant, because I know i need to eat certain things. I'm just so scared now that I'm going to gain to much weight, And I know I can't just not eat. Ugh what am I supposed to do? So after the they weighed me I went back to the ultrasound room, the nurse told me that it took so long b/c my doctor had a delivery and was running really behind but that if I didn't mind that another doctor could do it, That was fine with me, so he came in a few minutes later and talked about, my weight gain and told me that I owe them 5 lbs this month, and that I need to watch it because I don't want to have a 9 or 10lb baby and not be able to deliver vaginally and have to have a C-Section. So he really scared the Crap outta me! I dont konw what I am going to do. Then He did the ultrasound and we saw the baby moving all around kicking his legs and moving his arms all around. He measured him all around and said everything was right on target, that he was already in the head down position. He said he looked perfect, he showed us his feet, his spine, stomach heart, we heard the heartbeat, it sounded so strong. Then he showed us his legs butt....And I knew it was getting close I was getting so nevous, and then he froze the picture and Put I"m A Boy! Next to his Penis ohmygoodness I had tears roll down my check, I squeezed Vernons hand and he squeezed mine. I was so happy. So unbeliveably thrilled. I knew It was going to be great. But he saw my bladder in the ultrasound and told me that he will give me 2lbs for the bladder, pluss i had just eaten and pardon me but I had to take a crap! So I'm sure it wasn't really ten lbs but im still really worried and will monitor my weight gain more. But It was an amazing day all in all!!!! We even bought him some little outfits and things :) I'm so happy I'm having my boy I really dont think I could be more thrilled. Now I'll have a little vernon to play with all the time MY LITTLE LANCE! Thats what I call him. Well talk to you all soon..I'm slowly running out of room and thinking of making a new page from here till I have him and then another after I do! But that wont happen till I run out of room. Take care all and God Bless!!! ~~~~~~~~ Leslie!!

August 17, 2007 20 Weeks 5 Days

Well tonight with Vernon was one of thoese not so good ones. I dont know how to explain what happened for you would have to know everything about our personal life, and I mean Personal. I wish I had the time to explain how the things that happened tonight happend but I do not. Instead I'll make it short and sweet. Hopefully one of you lovely experinced ladies will have some sort of advice for me. What it all boils down to is that basically I am sexually incompetent, to explain further, I have lack of sexual everything, I don't know how to start off or engage anything, I can't suprise my partner with anything. I have no idea where to even start. He doesn't understand it and thinks that I am not attracted to him or into him and that is just not the case, I just don't know what to do when we are alone. UGH I feel so embarassed saying all of this. Its like when we are alone of course the thought of being with him that way goes through my mind but I just don't know how to act upon it. What do I do, how do I surprise him, how do I change how do I do the things he wishes I could do. He says he's pretty much giving up on touching and caressing me. I told him that I'm so scared that he is going to leave me and find someone elese who makes him happier than I do, and does all the things that he wishes I could do. He told me that he has no plans on leaving me that the thought never even crosses his mind. But still I am so terrified that he will leave me.

August 20, 2007 21 Weeks 1 Day

Well So much for seeingworking or doing something to pass the time. Then Monday comes around and He doesn't even want to get out of bed to come see me. I know I've said something along the lines of that before but here it is again. Last time he said that he didn't want to do anything, He still came and we had a really bad time together. I told him I'm not upset but of course I am. It pisses me off! He was supposed to come and we were gonna go eat and watch a movie, then come back here and see his baby move around. I've recently been able to see him moving from the outside and he was really excited about that. Now it has to wait till thursday, thats even if he wants to leave his house that day too. I dont know what I'm gonna do now, I don't even want to be awake. I got all ready and for what, Nothing at all. Its gonna be a whole week before I see Him again, but thats his own fault. I'm just gonna eat and go to sleep. Vernon today. He has decided that he doesn't feel like doing anything today, That hes running all day at work and now that he is at home he is doing the same thing and he just wants to relax. So I told him If thats how he feels to just stay home. I dont really want to see him if I know that he would rather be at home in bed. So whatever, I just wish he would think about how it makes me feel. I sit at home all week doing nothing but wishing I was

August 21, 2007 22 Weeks 2 Days

Well Ladies today I went and visited Vernon at the theater today, since I didn't get to see him yesturday. I really missed him and didn't want to wait till Thursday to see him. I hung out there for just an hour and a half, we talked about the baby. How he isn't going to put his system into his car till after the baby comes and we are settled. So As of now all is off for his car besides getting the suspension done. While we were talking though he told me that his mom asked what we were having, and she didn't have anything good to say of course. She told him that she doesn't think that its his that it just sounds funny that I am 5 months pregnant and we have only been together a little over 6 months. She went out to say that after the baby is born that she wants to get a DNA test done to make sure it is his. And that I suckered him into this pregnancy, Like I planned for this all to happen. Ugh I was so furious about it. All I have to say is if she wants a DNA test done she can go ahead and do that and pay for it herself. Then when the results are in I promise all of you( I know this is terrible) But I want to be there and I want to LAUGH in her face as hard as I have ever laughed in anyones face before I mean seriously! Shes really gotta be mad about this. Then about the me suckering him into this. Yeah cause that was really my plan, This was completly unplanned and I was really looking forward to this yr b/c of my long awaited 21st birthday, It really wasn't a plan for me to be 21 and 7 months pregnant yeah f*n right. I mean how stupid can you be seriously. She is an Idiot, I really can tell you I truly never want my son around this women when he is I am not going to be there. I never want him spending nights there, I really do not want her to have anything to do with his life. When he told me all this I was very upset really it was worse hearing that she didn't think it was his and that I suckered him into this, Than just hearing that she was mad that I was pregnant. Thats like the worst really it is. But I was really upset and almost crying I really sucked it up cause it was a pissed off upset not a sad upset! So he had me sit on his lap and thats when I told him all my thoughts on how I don't want her in his life and if he is ever around her I do not want to be there. He laughed I told him I was serious. He told me he knew how I felt and that this would all pass. UGh i mean how stupid can you be we spent every single waking moment with eachother the first 3 months together. We had been together almost 3 months when I found out I was pregnant. It was not planned.I just can't wait, till she sees how stupid she is. I really do not care for her and am sorry my son has to have such a terrible woman for a grandmother. I dont know tell me how you all would feel.

August 24, 2007 21 weeks 5 days

Well its been a couple of days since I was able to get onto the computer, My computer stopped working and it took 3 days to get it up and running again, we had to reinstall windows on it which deleted everything on my computer, I saved pictures and things first. Then after we got it reinstalled, the router for the internet stopped working because the modem was old and the people we were on the phone with for the past two days, did not let us know till early this moring. So we had to buy a new router and now everything is working fantasticly! So the past few days have been fairly good, Wednesday night Vernon came to my house after work and brought me some dinner, we ate together, and then talked about the baby, He put his ear to my belly to try to hear anything, then he talked to him telling him how he loves him so much already and how he can't wait to hold him in his arms, and that he is going to be so beautiful! It was so precious I wanted to cry! Good Tears but I wanted to. He was really tired while he was here, and begged me to let him stay till 6 and sleep. I gave in and let him, It was nice having him with me. Before he left I really SUPRISED him, at least two of you will know what I mean :). Then shortly after he left cause my mom would have seen that he was here late and she would have died. So he left and went home and slept till around 2pm then got up and ran errands before comming to get me, which was good because I had no idea what I was going to wear...I was gonna wear jeans and sneakers BUT none of my jeans fit now. So monday he is taking me to buy some maternity jeans and some flat black and white shoes cause the ones I had my feet have gotten too fat for! We didn't do anything really, we went and had chinese, while we were having chinese we talked more about the baby, and about where I'm going to live, he still has it in his head that he wants me to stay here at my parents so I wont ever be alone, that is just not going to work. First of all there is not room here for a baby, I have no room for his clothes let alone a bed even. I dont know what he expects, I don't know if he magically thinks another room is going to appear in my house. Secondly he isn't going to be able to stay here and help me with the baby during the night, just because we will have a baby does not mean my mother is going to let him stay the night. He does not understand that at all. So I dont know monday he wants to order the crib so I think me and him will sit down and have a serious discussion about it again. He said that while we were at the resturant that, If he drops me off at my moms before work and then picks me up after then that would be fine. He just doesn't want me there alone all the time. I just hope by monday we get something figured out. After chinese an our talk we went and saw Superbad which was hallarious and then went to wal-mart and then he brought me home and I was exhausted from only getting a few hours of sleep the night before, so I told him he should just go out, cause I was really tired and probably wouldn't be any fun. So I went to sleep early Thursday night but slept really late today to catch up on some zzzz's. Well thats all thats happened in the past couple of days, I probably wont write again till tuesday. But will be on to check my messages.

August 27, 2007 22 weeks 1 Day

Well its Monday. My computer is not working again and so here I am on my fathers lap top. Luckily for me my mom is buying a new one. I'm so happy about that, I haven't had a new computer in years. So its great that she is getting me. My computer is just broken to no fixing point it doesn't go past the welcome screen. The my mom had an extra computer laying around the house that she was going to give away but she let me take it, and my mom and brother did this PC Eraser thing that fried the whole computer it doesn't even turn on now. So I would love to take these computers outside and beat them into a million little pieces with a baseball bat. But I dont think we have a baseball bat. But anyway today is Vernon's mothers birthday and he doesn't even wanna be with her, I called him around 2pm and he seemed either really tired or just really upset and bothered. I knew it wasn't me, but I knew something was wrong. After we got off the phone he text me, He told me He was feeling really upset and pissed off with his family that it was ridiculous how pissed off he is. He said he didn't even wanna go, that he couldn't wait to be with me and away from them. I feel so bad for him and wish there was something I could do. I can just imagine the shit they are giving him, poor thing. But they really are being ridiculous about all of this its stupid really. Too bad they can't just accept it. My dad voiced on sunday that he is really excited about me having the baby but that he wished Vernon treated me better, I guess he doesn't think he does because of how much I cry :( So I can't imagine what he is gonna think when he finds out Vernon wants me to stay here after the baby is born, He will be furious. Well this is enough for now. I'm almost out off room on the site, I got about %18 left. So I'll really be making a new page soon. Hopefully this will last me till the 13th.

Well Ladies I have decided to go ahead and start a New Page Its going to be LeslieandLance For my baby boy Lance! I have about 17 weeks left and Hopefully that will last me till he gets here. I'll still be checking here for Your messages but I'll be sure to message each one of you!