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A Newborn's Conversation with God

A baby asked God, 'They tell me you are sending me to earth Tomorrow, but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?' God said, 'Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you.' The child further inquired, 'But tell me, here in heaven I don't have to do anything but sing and smile to be happy.' God said, 'Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you. And you will feel your angel's love and be very happy.' Again the child asked, 'And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me If I don't know the language?' God said, 'Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak.' And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?' God said, 'Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how To pray.' 'Who will protect me?' God said, 'Your angel will defend you even if it means risking its life.' But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore.' God said, 'Your angel will always talk to you about Me and will teach you the Way to come back to Me, even though I will always be next to you.' At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from Earth could be heard and the child hurriedly asked, 'God, if I am to Leave now, please tell me my angel's name.' God said, 'You will simply call her, 'Mom.'

March 2, 2008: Well, at my last appointment we made the plan for if baby didn't arrive on his/her own. Tomorrow we implement the plan! At 6:30 p.m., I have to go to the hospital, where I will be admitted (as long as there is a bed) and given Cervidil, because my cervix is soft but not dilated. I will be monitored for 12 hours, and if labor doesn't begin by then, I will be given Pitocin on Tuesday morning. I'm not gonna lie- I'm a little nervous about this whole thing. I am so ready to have the baby because I'm so uncomfortable, but it scares me that we need to force the child out! I know it is common, and I shouldn't be worried, but I can't help it. I never really thought about having to be induced because I was so sure the baby was going to come on its own. Now, here I am, 8 days late! I'm praying that the induction works correctly though, because I don't want to have a C-section. My husband is having knee surgery in 3 weeks, and I'll need to be able to care for my 2 babies then!:)

Despite the nervousness, I am so excited that I will be meeting my son or daughter for the first time within the next 48 hours! I can't wait to find out the gender, and look into his/her beautiful eyes, and be able to talk, read, and sing to my baby and not just my big belly! I know that my life is going to change more than I ever thought possible, and while I'm a little scared, I know that this is going to be the beginning of the best thing in my life. I love this little one so much already, and I know that love is going to multiply by millions the first time I hold my little one. I can't wait!

February 26, 2008: Here I am, 3 days after my due date, and no baby yet! I am SOOOO uncomfortable, moving has become so difficult. I am getting so anxious to see my little one, it is difficult to wait anymore. I know the baby will come when the baby is ready, but I just wish I could make him/her come now! I have been off of work for a week and a half now, and I am so bored. I almost wish I could still be working! (Last week, the school was closed for vacation, and since I had to schedule my leave in advance, it just made sense to start it right after vacation. Now I wish I had worked this week too!) I have tried keeping busy, but of course this little one is all I think about! At my last appointment the doctor said my cervix has thinned, but not dilated yet. If baby doesn't arrive by Thursday morning, I will go in for a NST and to schedule my induction. I am hoping the baby doesn't come on the 29th, but I also don't want the baby to come on March 2nd because there are already 2 family birthdays on that day and I want my baby to have his/her own day! I know it's not up to me though. It's weird thinking that since June I have been dreaming of a February baby, and now it may actually be a March baby! The thought had crossed my mind, but it's weird now that it's a probability! Oh well, no matter what, the only thing that is important is that my labor goes smoothly and this little one is healthy. I'm just so anxious to find out if it's a boy or a girl now!

February 16, 2008: A little update: Thursday I went to the doctor, and the baby's heart rate was a little higher than normal, so they hooked me up to the monitors and discovered I was having contractions that I didn't feel! I still wasn't dilated at all, but they ended up giving me some biophysical profile which was basically the sonogram tech watching the baby for a half hour (which was SO uncomfortable, laying on that table that long!) and when she didn't see exactly what she wanted they sent me to Labor & Delivery. The midwife at the hospital monitored me for about 45 minutes, and while I was still having contractions, she sent me home because they weren't close enough yet and the baby was fine. I asked her if I could go to work on Friday- there was NO WAY I was getting so close to the end and then missing my last day! She said if I'm feeling well enough, and I was so I went. My students would have been disappointed if they didn't get the chance to say goodbye! Now I'm hoping to have the baby sometime this week, maybe Thursday or Friday. Baby has been cooperative thus far, I'm hoping it stays that way! But it definitely could be any day- the secretary at my doctor's office scheduled my appt for this Thursday, but said she'll be surprised if she actually sees me there! We'll see!
I've been more uncomfortable the past 3 days than I ever thought I could be- I hope it doesn't get worse!

February 8, 2008: I went for my sonogram yesterday. The baby's head is down! Yay!! They said the estimated weight is 6 pounds 11 ounces... I hope I don't have a huge baby! The heart rate was 152. We got to see the top of the head, and we could actually see the hair. I never knew you could see that in an ultrasound, it was very cool. We got to see the face, and the tech said the baby has chubby cheeks- how cute! We also saw the kidneys, stomach, and heart. Everything is looking good, so that is a relief. I just love getting to see my little one! We still don't know the gender- I didn't want to have waited this long and then find out 2 weeks before my due date! I'm glad everything is going well, but I'm just feeling completely worn out now. My back and feet hurt so much by the end of the day, and I'm still supposed to work for one more week. I'm praying I can make it that long- I don't want to use any sick days now! My brother was convinced the baby was going to come today, because today is his birthday, but I'm so glad he was wrong! I need another week to get things ready. I feel like there is so much to do, and it's taking so long to get it done because I can only do a little at a time before I'm too tired or in too much pain to do any more. Plus, with working all day and having graduate school, I have no time! I'm falling behind in school, because I feel that getting the house prepared is more important, but my grades are going to suffer which is not good. I guess I'm just really frustrated right now, because I'm trying to take care of everything and I feel like I'm not getting enough help. I'd actually love it if the baby comes right around the due date, because that way I will have some time for R&R after my last day of work on the 15th. I hope the baby cooperates with my schedule!

February 2, 2008: I had an appointment at the doctor yesterday. Things have been going perfectly well so far, heart rate is generally in the 140s (144 yesterday) and I'm measuring right where I should be. I had my first internal exam yesterday, and the doctor couldn't tell for sure that the baby is head down, so he scheduled a sonogram for next Thursday. I'm praying that the head is down, I don't want to have to have a C-section! I'm a little nervous because we don't know the gender of the baby, and I don't want to find out accidentally through this sonogram! The doctor also said I'm not dilated at all, which I was disappointed, but my mom told me she wasn't dilated at all with me even when her water broke! Ugh, I'm not sure if I want that to happen! I had both my showers, one 2 weeks ago and one last weekend. They were both so much fun, and we got practically everything we registered for, which is a huge help. I can't believe the showers are over- the fun stuff always goes so fast! Now I feel like it's a waiting game until baby comes! At least I'm still able to work. I have 10 more days, and then school is on vacation for a week so I won't return after that. I'm praying I can last those 10 days, so I don't have to take as much time unpaid since I am not returning to work until school starts in the fall! However, I am getting pretty uncomfortable, so I'm anxious for baby to arrive. I can't believe it's going to be so soon! I can't wait to hold this little miracle in my arms!

December 5, 2007: I went to the doctor today, and what a great appointment it was. The results of my glucose screening were a 125, which means I don't have to go for more testing and I don't have diabetes, YAY! All my other levels looked good too, and my BP was 102/70, which the doctor said is wonderful. The baby's HR was 145, which is lower than it has been but doc said it lowers the closer you get to birth. He also felt my stomach, and said the baby was laying face down with it's butt near my ribs. That explains why I was feeling movement lower today! Now, I'm feeling movement higher, so baby must have turned over. What an amazing feeling. I also had to get my RhoGam shot, for my Rh-negative blood. That wasn't fun, but it's way less painful than childbirth, so I figured I'd look at it as a tiny pain for an amazing miracle! I can't help but to feel a little sad today, despite the great doctor's appointment. One year ago today, I miscarried my first child. I was only 8 weeks pregnant, but it was still a great loss. It's hard to believe that a year has gone by. If I hadn't miscarried that baby, I would have a 5-month old now, and be celebrating baby's first christmas this year! I know that I have a little angel in heaven looking out for me, my husband, and this baby, but I will also always have a hole in my heart for my child that I never got to know. One year ago today, I was at the doctor for a TERRIBLE, SAD appointment.... maybe I was scheduled to go today so I would have a happy memory for this day too. God does work in mysterious ways!

November 26, 2007: I was sitting here on my couch, and my little bean decided he/she wanted to say hello. I could see my stomach moving, and I put my hand over the place that was moving. The baby pushed up against my hand, and for the first time I felt REALLY close to this little one... not that I hadn't felt a bond before now, but this was different. It was so real, like the baby was trying to touch me, and I felt so overwhelmed with love for my child! I nearly cried, it was so beautiful. The baby has not stopped moving since, and each time he/she does, I feel closer and closer. I have been feeling so sick and uncomfortable lately that it has been difficult to enjoy the pregnancy, but tonight I feel no pain, just love for my little one!

November 6, 2007: Last night when I laid down to go to sleep, little baby decided it was time to start kicking away. I put my hands on my belly, and felt a big push on my stomach, so I took my husband's hand and put it in the same spot (he had only felt one TINY movement before this). Little one decided s/he wanted to say hi to Daddy, and kicked two more times. My husband was a little freaked out, since it felt to strange, but we were both so excited. I think that he's starting to feel a little closer to the baby now, because before hadn't experienced anything except listening to me vomit and complain. Now that I'm getting bigger and the baby is moving where he can feel it, the whole thing is becoming so real! I can't believe in just a few short months we will have a beautiful little baby! I can't wait!

October 18, 2007: We went for sonogram #4 (probably the last one!), and it was incredibly special because it's my husband's birthday. He was very excited that he got to see his baby for his birthday! The doctor said the little one looks fantastic, which is always reassuring to hear! We saw all the organs again, and this time the baby was more cooperative so they got all the images they needed. At one point, baby kicked and I could see the outline of the entire foot, which was very cool. Heart rate was 156, and this time the tech was able to tell if it is a boy or a girl. It was very hard for me to not ask, because now there is someone out there who knows what the gender is! But I'm sticking to my guns, I want this one to be a surprise. This past week I have had the worst head cold, and it has made me sick every morning. The doctor told me to take plain sudafed, so I took some last night and I do feel better now, but I'm hoping this cold will go away so I don't need to take any more medicine. I don't want to do anything that might put my beautiful little baby at risk!

September 20, 2007: I went in for sonogram #3 today, and it was amazing! I was a little disappointed, because the machines at my doctor are not nearly as clear as the ones at the hospital where my last one was done, so it was difficult to see anything. The baby is looking good, which is wonderful! We saw the kidneys and the bladder, and where the cord is connected. We also saw the 4 heart chambers, and the heart rate was 150. It's just amazing to see that little heart beating- what a miracle! We also saw the baby open his/her mouth and blink his/her eyes- that was amazing! We also saw the arms and fingers again, plus the feet with those cute little toes! It's a good thing that we didn't want to know the gender, because the baby was all curled up and the tech told us she wasn't sure she could even tell us if we wanted to know. She also told us this might be our last sonogram, but then my doctor scheduled one more in a month because they couldn't get a profile shot of the face, and for some reason she wants one. So I get to see my little bean at least one more time onscreen before we meet face to face! I'm 17 weeks, 5 days, and I'm still feeling sick, which I had hoped would be gone, but it might just be the weather- this week has been hot! I'm exhausted, because I'm teaching full time, taking 2 grad classes (both research, and a LOT of work!) and teaching piano & voice lessons on weekends..... but at least the schedule will clear up in December when grad school is over. I'm SOOOO looking forward to that

September 3, 2007: I'm 15 weeks, 2 days pregnant, and I figured the sickness would be gone by now... unfortunately it isn't! I have to go back to work tomorrow, and I just hope that the sickness comes while I'm at home. It would definitely be embarassing to get sick in front of a class of high schoolers..... I don't think they would get it!:) I'm definitely not looking forward to going back to work, because it has been nice to have so much time to rest and relax, and work is so stressful that I worry something will go wrong. I'll just have to remind myself to relax and not get too stressed out. I'm looking forward to my next doctor's appointment on the 20th. I have a sonogram, so hopefully I'll get more great pictures!:)

August 15, 2007: Today we went for a first trimester screening, to test specifically for the chances of Down's Syndrome and other chromasomal abnormalities. The doctor said everything looks really good, and the chances of any problems are slim. YAY!!! They did say it's possible that the baby is a week older than we thought, which would change my due date to Feb. 16th. They're going to send the files to my doctor, who will review everything and decide if the due date should be changed. We also got to see our second pictures of the baby. The first ultrasound was so early that the baby only looked like a little blob, but this time you can tell it's a baby! We could see the heart chambers, and the heart rate was 150, which is good. We saw all the limbs, and the facial features, and it was so amazing to see the little one jumping around! It is certainly an active baby. I absolutely cannot wait to meet this little one in February! We got some amazing pictures, which I'm so happy about. It's so amazing that this baby is developing inside of me, but I still don't feel a thing! What a wonderful miracle babies are!

AUGUST 9, 2007: I'm nearing the end of the first trimester. I PRAY this sickness goes away. I've been up since 4:30am, feeling so sick.... I know it's a good thing, because it means the baby is developing and hopefully healthy, but I just want to feel like I'm not going to vomit every 5 seconds! My house is a total mess, and I just have no energy to fix it. How come they never show this side of pregnancy in movies and TV shows???

AUGUST 1, 2007: Well, I'm in the middle of week 10, and all of a sudden I've got terrible morning sickness!:( No fun.... I thought it was supposed to get better the further along you get! I hope this goes away soon.

JULY 28, 2007: I'm a wife, teacher, and graduate school student. My husband and I are very excited to be welcoming our first little bundle of joy in February! Initially my due date was Feb. 8th, but I was given an early sonogram and the doctor said based on the size of the baby I'm actually due on Feb. 23rd. It was quite strange thinking I was 8 weeks along, then having to go backwards! Things seem to be progressing nicely, which I am very thankful for. I'm just praying for a nice, healthy little baby! Right now I'm 9 weeks, and I feel pretty good. A little nausea sometimes, but no vomiting, thank goodness