JUNE 10, 2008:

Hey, I'm feeling so blue today, due to the fact that my babys father is giving me such a hard time. I've tired so hard not to cry, but today i just couldnt hold it any longer. He was saying mean, and nasty things to me that is unbearable...Especially when i'm at a stage of being so emotional. I'm trying so hard not to become a single mom, but i guess i should stop putting the effort, cuz it aint going nowhere. I cried for 2 hours and rubbing my tummy, saying sorry to my son... I neva got to feel what its like 2 not have a father in my life, and its going to be very hard for me..... Mind you ladies, this child was planned it was neva a MISTAKE.... But baby's father is now denying everything that he never wanted a baby etc... Thats it for now, or i can be going on for pages and pages... "Hope all the ladies is in the best mood ever, and stress free"...Love Lidz

JUNE 6, 2008:

I AM SO NOT KEEPING UP WITH THIS WEBSITE; BUT I WANT ALL THE LADIES TO KNOW THAT I'M EXPECTING A "BOY" OCTOBER 14, 2008.

I am very excited and cant wait for this journey to be over and begin a new one when my SON is born....I'm so excited and can not wait any longer..lol I must say the man that IMPREGNANT me was a boyfriend for almost 4 years, and we both decided to have a child....yea i'm young ya know, 22 i should say but my life needed a new "spark"... but things began to change so suddenly with a blink of an eye....he denys my son everyday, he asks for a paternity test everyday, and at first I was so emotional and would cry alot...but now I saw "fuck him"....I'll give him anything to prove him wrong...Everyone is telling me that most men gets very scaried, and they behave like this....OH PLEASE......There's days that he would rub my tummy, and send kisses and days when he just acts like an "ANUS"....the hard part is that we are still living in together. I still consider myself a single mom because I am doing everything in my power to make my son happy; he hasnt once gone with me to an appointment or even care to look at the ultra sound pictures. I am never going to forgive him for any of this NEW behavior; I love him but there's things in life that is just not forgiveable or forgetful. I just hope once the test is given, he can be man enough to "TAKE CARE" of his son....Ladies itz not easy doing it all alone, itz very hard...... :o(

June 25, 2008,

Hello Ladies, I must say i'm in great spirit, couldn't ask for more. I've been constantly praying and asking "God" for his guidanence in all the obstacles, invading my journey. I must say, "God" has answer my prayers, my baby's father has done huge 360 angle degree turn with all that has happened in the past. He is back to his old self again, and my doctor has come to believe he must had my hormones for the past 5 months; I mean i didnt put on a pound for like 5 months and he did, his attitude changed for the worse, amd mines for the best. I'm happy too say things are changing for the best...( fingers crossed :o)

My "Son" has been kicking very actively daily, and I enjoy evry moment of it. It feels so great being pregnant "Now". I'm so happy, and excited and I can really enjoy my pregnancy now. Now I gently push on my tummy, and he kicks me right back after few seconds. I play songs for him, and he stays very quietly and listening; but as soon as I remove the head phones, he is jumping all over etc. I laugh so hard sometimes, cuz I can just picture him throwing a tantrum in my belly... :o) Itz so amazing how you can fall in love with someone you havent met, but know through the unforgettable kicks, and foods that you eat. God works miracles... I've been eating alot of bananas lately though... :o) Itz funny how I have a favorite food or fruit every month.

I was in a car accident May 27, 08 and Thank God things were okay. I have an appointment with my primary care doctor tomorrow June 26 because my foot has been swollen from time to time and freezes on me as well.. Weird!!! But i'm going to have that checjed out, since it began to start right after the accident. Other than that I will be seeing my OB June 30th, I think on that day I will be doing the diabetes testing etc... This is it for now!!!!!

July 1st, 2008

My decison thus far in naming my son is: "Diamoni Izaias Dejesus"

I'm so happy and excited i just can't wait!!!!!!!!