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My name is Lori & I am 39 years old and married to the most wonderful man in the world. We are currently in the process of having our third child. We have a beautiful daughter named Samantha who just turned 18 years old and a wonderful son named Chad who is in Heaven. He would be 8 years old this year, but passed away at the age of 5 from complications due to leukemia. He has taught us more about love, patience and strength in his short five years then someone could teach in a lifetime.

We didn't expect to have anymore children especially since Sami is 18 and graduating high school this year! But we are very excited and can't wait to hold our little one!

May 16th

I am 16 weeks 6 days today. My doctor appt this morning was dissapointing to say the least. They seemed so busy and rushed me through. I have a whole month to think up questions and it seems that today just didn't go as planned. My previous appts have always been so good so this was not fun! :) The heartbeat was 152 and very strong which made me happy. Doc said that my uterus was 2" bigger than he thought it would be at this point and it could be attributed to my fibroid...I wanted to ask more questions, but as I said, I didn't. I hate when I do that in an appt. I forget to ask questions while I'm in there. I also asked if I could schedule my CSection for before the 21st of October since my daughter starts College on that day and I don't want her to miss it or school...He said no. the soonest he would take the baby is the 24th unless I have an amnio to show lung development. I totally understand, but it's frustrating! He said that my ultrasound next week may move the due date up or I may go into labor early and of course that would move it up as well! I only hope for a healthy baby. Everything else will fall into place. I am just very hormonal today I think! I want it to go my way! ha Oh, and I'm a little freaked out over this fibroid thing...so if it is growing too, will it harm the baby and what the heck do I have a fibroid for? I know I'm old (39), but I never knew I had one. I hope it turns out okay. I really don't think I could handle the drama of losing this baby. It is so wanted and loved already...After losing my little Chad 3 years ago, I really need to be a mom again. Sami is 18 and I don't see her moving out anytime soon, but still, she is independent and grown up. Chad was five when he passed away and our family isn't completely over the pain of cancer and the devastation it has caused. I miss him terribly and especially lately. He would have been a wonderful big brother. Well, next week, I have my level 2! Hope this little peppercorn is a flasher so we can find out what we are having! :)

May 30th

It's a boy! I had my level 2 yesterday...everything turned out great! I was so nervous about the baby's health due to my last child having Down Syndrome, the heart defect and then leukemia. I was over the top nervous. But there were no markers at all for anything and the baby checked out perfect and my due date didn't change even a day! HA I was hoping for moving it up a week or so. My oldest starts college on Oct 21st. I have to have a CSection and the doc won't take it any sooner than a week early. So that makes the 24th. I was hoping it would be before school starts so she wouldn't miss school. She said there is no way she will miss the baby...She is so excited! So, anyway, this ultrasound was so awesome. I got to see him do somersaults, I saw his fingers, toes, ears, little pug nose...I saw it all! The pics are great and I will post them tomorow. I even saw his little brain and his carotid arteries, kidneys, holy moly they looked at it all and measured every little thing. Very nice tech and such a great experience. I love looking at the pictures and I feel even closer to him now that I feel like I've actually seen him! :) I'm even more in love now. Now to pick out a name......:) My husband is over the moon and we can't decide!

June 20th I haven't updated this in a long time! I have been feeling so good! My last doc appt was two days ago and they said that I only gained one pound since last month! So, since I lost 4 then gained 5, I only weigh one pound more than when I started! That is so unlike me it is wierd! I gained 45 with my first and 50 with my second. I lost the weight both times, but maybe it is because I am about 20 pounds overweight I haven't gained as much.....not sure, but I am walking a TON. An hour in the morning and an hour at night every day so I'm sure that helps. Plus eating right and giving up my wine :( I can't wait to enjoy a nice glass of red next year! The baby is moving like crazy and kicking like a champion! My hubby and daughter have felt a few, but not super strong for them. For me though!! It is so hot here! The last two days are up in the 100 degree marks and this is the first summer pregnancy I have had to edure. My last two were in the cool weather during most of it. So, that isn't fun. Thank goodness for airconditioning!

I AM SO EXCITED AND CAN'T WAIT TO HOLD MY LITTLE SON!!!

August 31st

I haven't updated in awhile...I have had another level two and all looked good. Just double checking! I still worry and won't feel safe until I am holding him in my arms. I am only up to about a 9 pound weight gain, but I walking so slow and getting leg cramps all the time. At the glucose test (which I passed) I found out I was extremely anemic. The doc wanted me to take more iron. uggggggh Last week, my hands and feet started itching so bad that I couldn't take it! I couldn't sleep and my hands were "on fire". The doc said it could be an allergic reaction or it could be from my iron problem. After a week it seems better either way. My baby is moving like crazy! Mostly rolls and pushes since I am sure he is running out of room! The Csection has been scheduled for October 24th. So that will be Griffin's Birthday! Mine is the 22nd, and I was hoping for that day, but the doc said that one week was the soonest he would push it up. What's another two days I say, but oh well...maybe I'll go into labor early and then Griffin will decide when he is coming instead of all of us! My daughter was born on her due date and my first son was born two weeks early or so. You never know!!

My shower is scheduled for September 21st. Even though I hate those things, my daughter and mother-in-law are insisting and to be honest...after my son passed away, I really didn't think we would have any more, so I gave it all away to friends. I am excited to see all my friends and play with all the little tiny things. It just makes it a step closer to the big day. Sami (my daughter) is so excited! She talks to him every day and wants to rub my belly so he kicks her!

September 25th

My shower was a huge success and more fun than I thought. I hate being the center of attention at those kind of things, but everyone kept telling me how excited they were for me and how great I looked, so it was nice. I know they were probably just saying that, but that's okay, I enjoyed it! HA I received almost everything I needed. There were over 40 people there and I didn't even send out that many invitations. To think, some of them crashed my shower! How funny is that.

Tomorrow is my last day of work and I am out on leave. I have three weeks of no work before the csection is scheduled, so maybe I will have a chance to do my nesting I have wanted to do for a while now! My Braxton Hicks are getting stronger every day so I hope I have at least a week before I possibly go into labor. The Csection is scheduled for Oct 24th, so technically I have a month, but I just think I will go sooner. We'll see!

Sami packed the diaper bag for the baby and put together everything from the shower and put away all the little clothes, blankets, etc She is very excited for her little brother! I just have to put together my bag. I want to buy new jammies because I know after a Csection, your tummy stays kinda big because of the trauma and the air etc I just don't want something tight to make me look like I'm still pregnant! How vain is that! Oh well.

Last night TJ told me that he hopes Griffin comes early because he is getting excited to meet him. I have to say that is the sweetest thing he has said since I have became pregnant. He has been so nervous and anxious about this pregnancy that he has not been very vocal of his feelings...After losing our last child to cancer at such a young age of 5, we really are scared, especially him. He misses our son very much. I do too. Also, having a teenage daughter is hard for him, as it is for most fathers probably. I have such a good relationship with her, but it is hard for him to see her grow up, have a serious boyfriend and all the other things that come along with growing up and becoming a young woman. He is going gray fast!

Wish me luck everyone! We are so excited, but having an adult child (18) and a newborn at the same time...How wierd is that? And how wonderful! :) I just can't believe that I had our first child at 21 years old, our second at 31 years old and now our third at 40. TJ said absolutely NO at having one at 50! HAHAHA