He is 8 mos. already and he is getting cuter everyday. i am so totally in love! he has been crawling for what seems like forever and he is super fast. i love crwaling with him and playing hide and seek. he has a baby friend that is my cousins baby and they play so good together, gavin gives him kisses on his cheek. he hasnt said anyhing yet, i am still waiting but he "talks" really funny. he is taking his morning nap right now and i want him to wake up already! he has 7 teeth already, and he bites hard. today i caught him eating flowers that were under the front door, eww and yesterday we were outside and he wanted to eat leaves. i hope he doesnt start walking soon, he goes through the stages way too fast for me!

Gavin is almost 7 months old! it is june 6. He is so close to crawling and he can crawl but just a few and then he is back on his tummy. He has been scooting for a few weeks, maybe a month and he explores everywhere. This last week he has been pulling himself up to stand on anything he can reach. He can stand up in his crib and walk around the side and he tries to destroy his mobile. He loves to climb on me, he grabs onto me and stands up, he climbs over my legs and plays like im a jungle gym. he sat his self up all by himself yesterday for the first time but i missed it, my mom was watching him in the morning because i wanted to sleep in. he hasnt said any baby words yet like, ba ba, mama, dada ext. and he doesnt like to eat that much. he doesnt like any fruit or juice or cereal or anything sweet. he will eat mashed potatoes, and any meat and some veges, the only fruit he likes is avocado and he will eat a lot of it but the last time he woke up in the middle of the night and threw it up so i'm not going to feed him that anymore, he has eaten it like 4-5 times and it never happened before. he used to love to take a bath but not so much anymore. he loves a show called sushybye baby and he get the sweetest smiles when he watches it and he just stares. He loves to go outside a lot and he gets excited when we walk toward the door. he can play peek a boo with a blanket. Gavin loves my mom and my brother that i live with and he smiles for them and they love him a lot too. They play with him every day and talk to him. He can walk in his walker on the cement porch and on the linoleum in the kitchen but not on the carpet yet, he has only had his walker for about 2-3 weeks so i think he will get there soon. I am trying to teach him to wave bye but he hasnt yet. he has his two bottom teeth all the way in, he has had them for 1 1/2 months. he has never been sick yet so i am glad he is so healthy. i want to quit nursing him but i dont think it will be easy so i decided not to quit yet. i dont work but i go to school full time at night. this semester ended a few weeks ago and i have decided to take the summer off to enjoy. one more thing on my mind is he has NEVER slept through the night! i cant believe it, he still wakes up every 3 hours or sometimes every 2, it sucks....i miss Frank every single day and i want him here so bad, i feel like gavin, frank and me are all missing out on something so big and that is being our own family and enjoying our life together. Gavin is going to know he is missing something that everyone else has and that is his dad,

My name is Katrina and im 19. i live near fresno, ca. i have one sister Danica who is a year older and one brother Justin who is a year younger. I love being in the middle. I love my family more than anything. I have a big family with lots of cousins and aunts and uncles. My noni reacently passed away on August 1 and it is soo sad. I have lived with her since i was about 9. She was 89. The love of my life Frank was also taken from us last year on March 7. I miss him everyday and now my son will never know him or my noni. His father was a great person. I didnt know i was pregnant until after the accident so it was a huge surprise and a great blessing. i dont know where i would be without my baby. He is the best thing that has ever happend to me besides his father.

Missing Frank Castaneda.............we'll see you in paradise

i had a really good pregnancy! Besides all the normal sickness and pains i loved being pregnant. it was so special and exciting! my water broke at 1 30am on my due date. my contractions were close together but they didnt hurt. i got to the hospital around 3am and i was 3cm. dialated. my contractions stopped around 8 so i was given pitocin. the contractions got more and more intense and 7 hrs. later i asked for stadol but it didnt help at all i think it made it worse, so i got an epidural even though i didnt want one. the epidural was scary and it hurt but after i felt all better almost instantly.

i was 9 3/4 dialted by 8:30. my baby's heart rate dropped a few times but it came right back up, they made me try and move around and gave me oxygen. his heart rate dropped to 89 and slowly came up so the doctor said i had to have an emergency c-section. i was terrified, i didnt want that at all. i was freaked out. i had been in labor almost 20hrs and i was so close to time to push! i was begging for them to let me try but they said i had to have a csection.

they took me to the OR and prepped me i got a lot of medicine through my epidural. i wanted them to put me to sleep but they wouldnt. my mom and sister were with me through my labor but only my mom could go in the OR with me. at 8:57 my baby was born and they showed him to me and then they put me to sleep because i was so freaked out. it was really hard waking up and when i did they wouldnt bring me my baby. only a picture and finally they took me out of recovery into my room and i think an hour later they finally brought my baby. The whole time i was waiting to see our baby i was thinking about Franky. I wanted him. our baby looked so beautiful and peaceful. he was 7pounds 15ounces and 21 3/4inches long. during the csection they cut him on his eye lid and below it real bad. i was so upset. they said he was facing up.

early the next morning they made me walk to the bathroom to clean up! it was horrible. for a long time i could barely walk and i couldnt stand up straight. my recovery was slow and horrible but my baby made me feel alot better. i was scared to get the stapels out but it didnt hurt at all. it took a lot of time to be able to walk normal and lay down flat and sit up. my stomach muscles hurt! its been 2 1/2 months and im still healing.

i had him at kaiser hospital in fresno and i think they over reacted and i dont think i needed a csection but i'll never really know.

i loved being pregnant with gavin it was fun