My first baby !

I'm so excited to be having my first baby, and have been very thrilled that so far this pregnancy has been not as tough as I hear it is for some women ( I was lucky to not to have morning sickness ). This pregnancy wasn't planned but my partner and I are embracing the pregnancy with open arms. We were going to wait a couple more years and do some traveling but I guess it was meant to be.

Our last pregnancy wasn't so successful. I had an ectopic pregnancy ( embryo plants itself somewhere other than uterine lining, in my case it was the fallopian tube ) and ended up losing a fallopian tube due to the damage. I was crushed, and wasn't sure I would be able to have a successful pregnancy with the other tube being possibly damaged as well. So this is a very special pregnancy for my partner and I.

I have never been so happy in my life that I can remember.

It's a boy!!

Just got back from the utrasound, and wow that took a long time. The tech took all sorts of pictures ! I was lying there staring at the ceiling fan wondering how my little one was doing in there. My partner was finally allowed to come in and the monitor was finally aimed at me. I was so curious as to what we were having and she showed a little protruding "nub" from in between the legs. She says she can't be 100% sure, but even Adam and I could see visibly we are going to have a son!! Boys seem to run in his family, so it's not a shocker that we are going to have one too. I'm so thrilled!!! The tech says everything looked great, we even saw him drinking some amniotic fluid! Other than that I had to cough a couple of times to get the little guy to move because it seemed he was having a snooze. What a great day so far!! The weather is at it's best today too, the warmest it's been all year with the sun shining. I feel my son is shining inside me too :)

Something is wrong?....

The results from the lastest ultrasound unveiled something called a choroid plexus cyst in the brain. The news for me has been a challenge to deal with. The Doctor said it's nothing to be alarmed about because in most cases they dissapear when the baby is 24-28 weeks. It's considered a "soft marker" which is an indication there may be a genetic disorder, but because all the other markers for a genetic disorder aren't there I've been told that everything should be ok. Luckily the area the cyst is in doesn't affect development of the baby or the personality and there is no brain damage. My little guy is simply producing too much fluid for it to drain properly (the area is associated with the spinal fluid). I wish that I could be worrying about irrelevant things like my weight and stretch marks and how bloated I feel some days instead of how my baby's brain is doing. This information really puts things in perspective that anything can happen. It's times like this I really think about the mothers to be out there that have had to deal with much more challenging things like Trisomy 18, a child with Down Syndrome, Edwards Syndrome or any other disorder. I'll just stay positive and be patient for now. His little kicks are getting more and more frequent and stronger which puts a great big smile on my face.

A sigh of relief :)

Results from the bloodwork came back negative for any genetic abnormalities. I can finally rest my mind. I'm glad that i didn't stress about it too much, but it was annoying not knowing. They misplaced the bloodwork results so that's why we had to wait so long. Mistakes do happen, and i'm glad I was as patient as I could have been. I'm learning that alot of pregnany is being patient, and I know soon as I have a baby I will need to have even more patience. Almost 25 weeks as i'm typing this and i'm so happy. He's getting stronger by the day, his movements more forceful and consistant.

We just need to get his crib and change table now. There's such a huge pile of baby stuff accumulating, and I think having his change table/dresser will help. I can't wait to set that up!!

Almost done!

Four and a half weeks left and I'll be at 40 weeks! I can't believe i've made it this far. At this point my pelvic bone hurts me and walking is a bit of a challenge. I've grown tired and weary, I seem to be napping almost everyday if I can.

We're pretty much all ready to go except the maternity bag isn't quite packed yet. All of the baby's stuff is packed I just need to figure out what clothing to take for myself.

I can feel him moving quite often, his head is down and ready to go. I'm really really looking forward to meeting my son. I hope labour and delivery go well, I'm trying to mentally prepare myself however I have no idea what to prepare for as far as the pain is concerned. I have a feeling I'll be taking advantage of the epidural that is offered.

The hospital is great where we're delivering. I'm so glad to live in Canada where we have a fantastic health care system. The tour of the hospital has made me feel more comfortable..i'm so ready to have this baby!!

Okay..where's my baby???

Been over a week since my due date and still no baby. I'll be going into the hospital this weekend for an induction if he hasn't come by then. I've waited so long...9 long long months. Through 3 seasons..winter, spring and summer..I thought i'd have a baby by now. It's getting more and more frustrating as the days go by. For some reason he just doesn't want to come out. I'm getting nervous because I don't know how the induction is going to affect my body. I really don't want one. I want more in than anything in the world to go into labour naturally but as the weekend closes in i'm just not sure it's going to happen. I haven't tried anything to induce myself naturally except walking, lots of baby dancing (sex) and i've bounced alot on my birthing ball. I've been drinking raspberry leaf tea to strengthen my uterine muscles and to hopefully stimulate it to do something...anything. The last couple of weeks have dragged and dragged. I know I will soon have a baby in my arms, 4 more days at the most. I hope the 4 days go by quicky!

He's Here!!!

My son Cameron Gabriel was finally born September 28th at 12:36 am weighing in at 8 lbs 2 oz, 21 inches long, via c section. After going almost 2 weeks overdue I went in for an induction and the whole process took 24 hours. The gel they gave me didn't do much, I opened up a fingertip and that was about it. After getting the pitocin administered I went to 3 cm, stayed there, and then got stretched to 4 cm. My OB suggested I go without the epidural to make the pitocin more effective. Wow that was the most excrucitaing thing I have ever felt in my life. 3 hours of HARD labour I wasn't sure I could do it. I wanted so badly to rip the I.V out of my arm. After the contractions my boy's heart would dip b\c of the stress, he hated the idea of being evicted with the assistance of synthetic drugs. I was preparing myself to have a c section at that point. He hadn't dropped still and my OB said I could wait longer but he didn't think I was going to make any more progress. So a c section it was. I was so happy at the idea I was going to meet my son very soon I hadn't even thought of being nervous. The surgery went really really well, my OB took very good care of me. The insision looks like a long paper cut and it's hidden below my hairline. The pain is moderate but i'm able to move around and take care of my son which is great. He took to my breast quickly, and so far breast feeding has been a success! I'm so happy to finally have a son and begin motherhood. There's no other feeling like it in the world. Daddy has been a great help and we're all settling in and getting used to everything. I'm so happy I can finally begin the journey of motherhood.