Hesz finally here!!!

Lyric? Maurdale Aruben Lachpelle; Born- April 25th 2008 @ 4:19am

It all started April 24th.. i woke up in the morning not feeling right.. i just felt off. My doctores office is only a 10 min walk from my house soo i decided to go stop by for him too check me out to see if everything was ok. he said he didnt want to check me because he was sure i was fine it was like my last week soo it was only normal to feel off BUT* would check me if i felt the need. i took his word for it & decided to just go home & sleep of whatever it was that i was feeling.. [[ weird ]] lol. i was only home for about an hour when i felt a lil gush it woke me RITE up. it took me a second to realize wat was going on. then i felt it again. then when i stood up it just ran down my leg as if i were peeing.. i ran to the bathroom mind you i was house sittin for my sister soo i was there alone.. lmfao great time to house sit yea think!! neways i ran into the bathroom & convinced myself it wasnt my water breaking i had juss peed myself.. then more came out lmfao.. thats when i new it was for real.. but i wasnt in any pain.. i ran to my sisters friends told her.. called my mom & i was off to have my baby boy @ the hospital.. i tried to have him natural.. but after 7 hours of hard labour jeez i couldnt take it! my contractions were 2 every min & were soo intense.. i couldnt find a place to get comfy n juss take it all in... so i got the epidural.. it slowed my labour riite down.. so they gave me some other stuff to speed it up..that took like 20 min... the nurse said it would take while.. i guess my lil guy wanted out more then i wanted him out lol.. anywho... i started to yell at the nurse that he was comin out on his own.. she checked n seen he was riite there.. she yelled for the doctore... 10 mins later.. my lil monkey was born.. he was soo hairy.. & soo small.. i was soo inlove.it was like the most sureal thing that has ever happend to me in my life.

JULY 19th 08

well baby boysz almost 3 months old.. it soo scary how fast time flysz i dont like it. things havent changed too much... yonnik & i still fiite all the time. he still doesnt wanna tell his family that he has a baby. soo i took it apon myself to tell them. i sent a letter n all .. but im scared that he got to it b4 they could..hes soo selfish. whatever. cause really what Lyric dont noe wont hurt him.. but i at least want his family to noe that hes out there.. uhg i hate men. why do i even bother. all i wanted wass for my son to have a father.. i never asked him for money NOTHING.. he always asked me for money for gas & ray tay tay & now he has the nerve to say that he looks NOTHING like him.. & he wants no part after he was there for 3 months of his life.. * ii juss wanna scream *

but i guess that wont change anything now will it!!. i just pray that one day he will wake up n realize what he really did made him more less of a man.