Finally getting my page done at 3:15 am. Good timing, yeah.

Well here it goes:

On the 3rd December 2007 i found out i was pregnant. it was not planned, but i had been praying for a 1 year and a half for God to bless me with a Kandi junior and GOD decided at the oddest of times to bless.. I had just went back to college to do my nursing course and me and my mother had started a new relationship with each other. See we hadnt been getting along for a while, anywoo. When i found out i laughed and said " God you have good timing." i dont want to lie and say it never crossed my mind to have a termination but thought better of what i was doing. I asked God for this and if i have a termination, will i not be making a fool out of God. What if when the time is right i find out that i cant have Kids anymore because of a selfish mistake i made when i was 19. Anyhow i thank God everyday for Choosing me to bear this great fruit in me. And i promise to give it the best love only a mother could give.

According to my calculations i am 14 weeks 5 days pregnant. I havent had an appointment yet, my first one is on the 14 February 2008. How wonderful is that, now i know i dont have to give the daddy anyhting anything, hearing your childs heart beat is more thn a perfect gift, right?? i ill be 16 weeks pregnant by then, so i am hoping to get a ll the info at ones. I really want a girl, but the Daddy wants the boy since its our first. But really a healthy beautiful baby will do.

Will be back with more.

07 FEBRUARY 2008

I just hit 15 weeks and this is when my morning sickness starts. I think i must expect a handful from Divine, my DIVA. Will noting much has changed except that i cant sleep has much as i use to before-DANG. I miss it so much.

15 March 2008

Okay, so i really need to get this page thing going. Can you believe i have been on here every second day and yet i dont put on an entry. Lazy Girl,innit. Will here goes(Excuse me if it is a bit scatty, its 02:44am.) Well first thing first my baby is licking up a storm. I her/him so much. So days i feel like "God why God" and then others i am like Oh baby i cant wait to meet you. I am so confused it makes me feel lost.The timing was just the worst i cant emphasis enough on that. What makes it worse is that my mom still doesnt know, which means i ma going through this without a help from her or anybody else. My man is another story. Question ladies: Are relationships suppose to be this hard? I was brought up to believe that the first few years of a relationship are suppose to be hard, and that the woman has to be strong