10/17/07 Mandy’s Pyschic Reading with Carol Wise this is my whole reading - i'm telling you girls, i told her nothing except the point where i said I'm pregnant and she nailed it all!!!

She started by saying she saw changes going on at work – I confirmed that as Kevin is leaving and I should be getting hired full-time sometime in the next millennium. She said not to worry about it, it’s all going to work out…

Then she said “let’s talk about your house – you’re moving rooms around, you’re trying to figure out where to put things – what’s that about?” and I said “well, I’m pregnant…” and she said “and you’re moving your room upstairs and putting the nursery up there in your room with you – because it’s a big room, isn’t it?” and I said “Yea!” she said “it’s beautiful – do want to know what you’re having?” duh “a boy – a big one at that – about 9 pounds, 21 inches long…oh he’s absolutely BEAUTIFUL – he’s such a pretty boy, with a full head of dark hair when he’s born and long eyelashes.”

Then she said “the father…he’s full of turmoil, isn’t he? He keeps turning to you, turning his back, over and over again, but then he turns his back to you permanently (meaning no romantic relationship) but you keep the door open for him to take advantage of the opportunity to see his son, and for that his grateful. You don’t pressure him for anything because you don’t need to get married, you just want your baby…you’ve been friends with him and that’s all you have with him in the future….

There’s someone else in his life, a woman, not one he’s going to marry, who causes him a lot of grief, a lot of anxiety..” so I told her yes, his ex-girlfriend Erica is due with his son at the end of this month and she said “and she just gives him hell, doesn’t she? She’s made this very difficult on him – but that’s why he takes comfort in you, because you aren’t holding him to anything, you don’t demand anything from him, you just want him involved with his son… and he’ll appreciate that. She’s a very angry person, and will continue to be – but he’ll never marry her…”

so then she said “there’s a man coming into your life next year – you’re holding your baby and he’s opening his arms to both of you, about five to eight years older than you – I’m assuming that because the numbers 5 & 8 keep popping up – and he likes the outdoors – not that he wants to live on a farm per se, but he likes his space – there’s a big detached garage where he can work on things….he likes the outdoors – he likes hunting and fishing and camping – anything outside – he’s very active, very responsible and successful and he just wants to take care of you…there’s a big backyard too, you’re at a bonfire, roasting hotdogs, just holding your baby…” “eventually you’ll marry him, tho probably not any time soon because you’re so cautious, but this baby is so lucky – he gets two daddies, his biological daddy and this new man…” ok! =)

so then she said “you have an aunt you’re close to…” and I said “well, I’m the closest out of all the kids to my Aunt Eloise” and she said “she’s your mother’s sister (yup)…go ahead and tell her about the baby – she’s very open-minded (she’s 75 & still picking up men in bars, she’s the 40 year older version of me!) and loves you and will do a lot for you…” so then she said “oh honey, don’t worry about telling your parents…yes, they’d prefer you were married, and they’ll be shocked when you tell them, but this is the first grandbaby (yup) and they’re going to love him and support you more than you can even imagine…”

“I’m seeing helping hands – you will have so much help.. friends and family will be doting on you and this baby, and you don’t go far to have someone watch the baby – I know you’re worried about what you’ll do with him when you start working, but I see your home a lot – people come to you and watch him for you – and your feet are going to swell like no other – just like the rest of you. You’re going to try to watch your weight during this pregnancy, but it won’t do any good – you’re having a big boy and you’re going to be big, but as soon as you have him, the weight will slide off of you…”

“you’re going to have two showers, aren’t you?” and I said “well, my friends had thought we’d do one with all of the characters in my life, and then the traditional family and family friends one” and she said “yep, that’ll work out fine – it’s a great idea…” “and stop worrying about getting the room upstairs done – you have plenty of time and will have plenty of help – just start making lists of everything you’ll need and start planning it out like you’re good at, and it will all come together. You’re going to love every minute of this pregnancy and in the end this is such a smart baby – because his parents are so smart. He gets his intellect from you and his dexterity and ability to figure things out from his father – he does so much with his hands – nurture that – he’ll always want to build and do things with his hand- he’s really amazing.”

Then she gave me a hug! =)

10/28/07 Update....My first ultrasound is this Wednesday - my best friend Smurf is going with me. I cannot wait! My family just has to deal with it so i guess i'll give them time and whatnot. As luck would have it, I've gone out with a GREAT guy a couple times but I just told him I'm pregnant so i'm really not sure he'll want to continue this....even tho i want nothing but a good time, exactly what we've had so far, he's just 28 and i'm sure the thought of dating a 33 year old pregnant girl is not his idea of a great time - but we shall see. oh, and to all the vomiters/no sex-drivers out there, i feel so bad for you! i've felt great this whole time and can't get enough - don't hate me! i think because i wasn't supposed to be able to get pregnant, god granted me this miracle and decided i could just have a great pregnancy! hoping we all make it to the end together!

11/2/07 confirmed the baby died - stuck at week 6. D&C is scheduled for 11/9/07. can't imagine my sadness.

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