Hi Everyone .... My name is Tracy. I have been married for 10 years. We have 2 wonderfull kids. Katherine is 10 years old, She was born with Mental Disablities and Autism. Our son just turned 7 on Feb,12.

I just found out on Jan, 28 that we are pregnant. Very unexpected but a great suprise !!!!!

I would love to talk to other moms and make some new friends.

Feb,15,2008

Last week I went to the OB, at 5 and a half weeks we just saw the sac. I have to wait tell March,7 to see my baby. I wish the time would go by so much faster. She did say that everything looked fine and not to worry, but I cann't help it, I wanna see the baby and heartbeat and make sure everything is ok.

March,4,2008

tomorrow is the big day. I sooooo cann't wait. I am 9 weeks and have not seen the baby yet. I am so excited.I may go to bed early so tomorrow can hurry up and get here.

March,12,2008

Well I have lost the baby. We went to the OB on March,5, she could not find a heartbeat, so just to make sure she had us go to an imaging center just to confirm. SHe called me back on the 6th and It was our worst night mare the baby didn't make it. I was almost 10 weeks along. Well she gave us 3 choices, have a d&c, try to pass it naturally, or have some pills put in my cervix to start the process. Well we choose to have the pills done.I just wanted to get it over with. So friday morning the 7th we went in, she put the pills in, we went home to wait. Well finally at 6:30 pm, the baby slipped out. The whole process was easier than I thought, It hurt like hell but the doc gave me some pain meds, thank god for pain meds. Well the 7th was also our 11 year anniversary, we didn't get to celebrate really, but that's ok. She did a sonogram on the 5th and said that the baby looked like it had some deformaties. I have a daughter that has mental handicapps and Autism, so she is in special ed. I have seen and talked to some mothers in her class and I personally don't think that I could have handled another child with a disability, and I believe that god knew that.It still hurts like crazy, I have waited 7 years for another baby, But we are going to start trying in a couple of months, I just have to remind myself to just breath and it will get better. Thanks everyone for reading and good luck.

March,27,2008,

I had my follow up appt yesterday for the miscarriage, the doc said everything went really well and that we can start trying again after 1 period. Well my husband and I could not agree on when to start he wanted August and I want as soon as possiable. Well he came up with the idea of rolling the dice. Well I rolled a 3 and then he rolled a 3 so that makes 6 so it's June. We are going to start again in June. I am so happy right now.

April,11,2008

I am so happy. Today I started AF. I am back on my 28 day cycle. Yah.How cool. I never thought in a million years I would be so happy to see AF.

June,2,2008

Well we are going to start "trying this month". I really hope it doesn't take to long. I am a very impataient person. Sticky baby dust to me :)

June,10,2008

Well I got af on June,7 ... back to a 28 day cycle yahhhhhh .. Time to get it on like donkey kong .... :)

Aug,12,2008...

Well were to begin .. AF was due Around August,7-8. SO I am now about 5 days late. I took a test last week and it was neg. But on July,9 I started the pill, only took it for 4 days, made me to sick and we decide what the hell that's try. So I don't know if I am late cause of the pill or if I am pregnant. I might wait a couple of days and see what happens. I hope and pray I am pregnant.