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Hi I had no idea how to do this at first and really have had no time to find out. But I am here now and here goes:

I am 32 years old, I have been married for four years and I really really really want to start a family. I was on the road to one earlier this year, I was happy and excited and 14wks pregnant. All that faded on April 30th this year with an unfortunate M/C. This was the most devasting part of my life and I could not get over it. I had to have a D&C and as a result ended up with an infection. It was not a good part f my life, with out my husband I would of drowned in depression. I seeked help and I am now on the road to start this journey again. They say that God works in mysterious ways, and yes he does. The almighty man knew that emotionally I was not ready. My M/C took place at 3.30am about 20mins before that I was a sleep and I was dreaming, I dreamt that I had a girl but she was standing in front of me and she brushed my face and said to me oneday Mum we shall meet not just yet I loved the name you have chosen to give me, the only thing i could see was her long curly hair. I woke up I felt the warmth of her hand on my face and I felt strange I then realised my water had broken. I was horrified and really shaken that I had that dream.

So now where I stand: I am TTC and all postive things I want to come my way.

22nd November 2007

I went to the Dr's yesterday, because I woke up and I was so nauseated that my husband took me to the clinic straight away. The Dr did a PG test and it came up positive then he sent me for a blood test and the test came up negative. Dr said that it is to early to test as my AF is due on Sunday and my HCG levels are reading a low 2 instead of 5 for a positive result. I am really confused as I have all the symptoms of being pregnant. Just have to wait and see I guess.