4 months old- father time, where did you go?

I ask myself that everyday, the infant face and the baby mullet is almost gone. She's doubled , almost, her birth weight and grown atleast three and a half inches. She went from this wriggly little infant to a baby complete with a zillion smiles a day !! I still look at her in complete awe. She's rolling over and babbling up a storm and laughing! She recognizes people(that's good and bad) she's cried when several people have tried to talk to her!! Our son, (bubba so she will call him) absolutely postively adores her, and she adores him. He is seven and is so much like a grown man, it's still hard to believe that he is only seven. Wise before his time but I may be a little biased ;-) We are so incredibly blessed to have two perfect children and I couldn't ask for anything more. This weekend was father's day. It was so nice! We had both my father and my husband's father (and our mothers of course)over and just relaxed and spent time together and grilled out. I can't imagine what it would be like without family. It's who we are, what we do. It would be so lonely without them. I never grew up with grandparents around, so that is a large blank in my memory that has been replaced by our wonderful parents who hopefully will be in our children's lives for a long time to come. Where else would Mason and Peyton get all the wise knowledge that comes from being on this earth 50+ years?

our lil' sweet "P" is now three months old has grown 3 inches and gained four pounds since birth!!!!

May 2, 2008

missing my lil' sweet "P"

these last eleven weeks with my daughter Peyton have flown by so fast. This was my first week back at work. It breaks my heart everyday I bring her into the babysitters house and set her carseat on the couch. She's smiling back at me like she always does, and I melt like I always do. It's just that much harder to leave her. But the lady who keeps her is GREAT! She's so loving. It just sucks b/c other than an occasional trip to the store or a baseball game of my son's she's only really been with me and her Grandma. Now I'm having to pump three times daily to keep up my milk at work, and she spends 10 hours a day with someone to her feels like a stranger. i'm sure in a couple of weeks she'll be adjusted and there are lots of toddlers there to keep her entertained. When I pick her and my 7 yr old son up at 4:30 from the babysitter all I want to do is bond with her and play with him the rest of the afternoon. Does anyone else feel like there aren't enough hours in the day to spend with your children? And they are supposed to be TOP priority. But with cooking cleaning, homework, playtime, laundry, bathtime and an 8:30 bedtime, I am completely exhausted. I cannot wait for 4oclock today. I want to go back on maternity leave, or be a stay at home mom!!

We Named her Peyton Grace- February 14, 2008

8lbs 12oz./19.5"

week 39- 5 days to go!!

So i am just waiting for my beautiful valentine's day girl to be delivered on thursday!! One problem still- we just can't decide on a name. I know, ridiculous isn't it? Everything else is in place, everything!! I just cannot believe i only have 5 days left until I meet her. I check in at 5:30 am Thursday morning, and the c-section is scheduled for 7:30.

I wish I could just sleep until Thursday morning... that'd be nice. It hurts so bad on the underside of my belly. Not to mention that my belly is soooooo big that hardly nothing covers it anymore, and I refused like a month ago to buy anymore maternity clothes, I just can't do it, so I've been wearing my husbands shirts instead.

I'm hanging in there, tho. I guess I should finish packing our bags, really that's all that is left to do!! Why can't it be wednesday night already?????????????

Jan 30th- two weeks to go.........

so I went to my doc this morning for my regular check-up on baby and he tells me the cervix is still shut tight, and I say to him "so what-- she's not coming out that way- i don't care if it ever dilates one centimeter!! These last two weeks I can tell are really gonna suck. the carpal tunnel in my hands can be quite excruciating at times, it drives me crazy! My tummy is so heavy that the skin just aches, and my poor feet and cervix ache like nobody's business. I know, I know, it'll all be over soon, and in the end my sweet little girl will be worth every ache and pain I ever endured- true. I tested positive for the group b strep, which apparently doesn't mean jack- since my delivery is a c-sec, I think they give me antibiotic pills to take. I'm just gonna make the best of two more weeks of anticipation, and I promise I'll never wish another day away again in my life-- okay except for really bad ones ;-)

Jan 22- 22 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I finally had my baby shower this weekend!! 32 of the 41 people I expected came. I knew of all that were not coming, so actually everybody I expected showed up! What a great feeling. These are all close personal friends and family and what's better is they showed up in the crappiest of weather- snow, sleet and rain!!! It's good to be loved- that or either they came for the food!!!! I got everything I needed and then tons more!! I got the crib bedding, a crib matress, (really nice one too!) the travel system, the high chair, diapers, clothes out the ying-yang, my avent bottles, the soothie pacis, wipes, onesies, an awesome baby monitor that has night vision capability, lcd picture frames w/remote, and a pedicure with reflexology, for myself!! Yeah that's definitely gonna be used here reaaaaaaally soon, as this is my last week of work, yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My mil's neighbor has this monitor that goes under the baby's crib matress that detects breathing movements, and if she were to ever stop breathing-God forbid-the alarm on this monitor would go off!! I know with my first son they didn't have monitors where you could actually see baby sleeping, only hear them, and I would always go in there-holding my breath- just to watch his chest rise and fall!! What a peace of mind I'll have this time around. The usual aches and pains are still here. COME ON FEB 14TH!!!!!!!!!!

The c-section has been scheduled for 7am that morning!!!!

.....It's A Girl!!