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Aiden


Aiden at 20wks

Pregnancy...
Name?:		Melinda
Birthdate?:		4-1-84
Current Age?:		23
Height?:		5'5"
First Pregnancy?:		yes
Is not how many children do u have?:		a very needy dog
		Im gonna have a new what??
Are you excited?:		Is this an auctual question
When are you Due?:		9-5-2007
Do you know what your having?:		A BOY
Any Complications??:		so far so good
First doctor appt?:		01/05/2007
When did u find out you were pregnant??:		01/03/2007
Best thing so far about being pregnant?:		anticipation of a new life
Who was the first person you told?:		my x-fiance and his family
Who was with u when you found out?:		my x-fiance and his family
Did u have morning sickness?:		u mean all the time
Did certain smells make you sick?:		rarley
What was your favroit thing to eat?:		hot dogs with cheese n relish
How much was your pre pregnancy weight?:		165
How much weight have you gained so far?:		26lbs
Pregnant now? If so how far along are you?:		30 weeks
Do u love being pregnant?:		depends on the day
Age when you got pregnant?:		22
Do u want to find out the gender?:		yes
What do u want?:		A girl but I am convinced it is a boy
Vaginal or cesarian?:		whatever is best at the time
Carrying high or low?:		i think all over
About dad!!!
Name?:		jesse
Birthdate?:		01/1984
Height?:		6'
What was dads reaction?:		shocked!!
Are you still with the father?:		no
Is he excited?:		questionable

Nursery Pics

March 27th- Yay I am back, we had no internet for a long time. I have been really busy with work. Aiden has been sick twice since the RSV and was in the hospital once again but only for 2 days this time I took him up to children's memorial in chicago I was done messin around. They found out he was aspiriating when he was coughing so that was not helping all of this. I heard from jesse last week he said he wants to start seeing aiden and that he would start to pay child support. He also said he had no job but had things under the table(drugs), n that he was living with other baby's momma they been together for a month and were gonna get married, which I though was scary, she is a piece of work. and a terrible mother he said that they were going to try and get custody back of their kids. Good luck!! I told him he could not see Aiden. and I got a thing in the mail 2day if he dont pay all his back child support or come to court on the 19th with documentation as to why he can't work he goes to jail!! YAY!! I will try and get pics on soon, miss you all

February 15th-well I hope everyone is doing good. Aiden was sick with RSV for a while and we were in the hospital for a week got home he was doing better and then an ear infection, then he started wheezing again, so he is now back on the steroids and back on the albuterol, hopefully this time it will nip it. It makes me so nervous I can't stand it.

January 18th-I am starting 2 adjust 2 working now. Aiden was 16lbs on the 5th!! He is doing great at day care. I had the mirena iuc put in this week I was super nervous but it didnt really hurt only 4 a quick second. I had really weird stuff come out tho like chunks of skin membrane stuff that was freaky, I hope thats normal. Aidens day care/school is sellin pizza things for a fundfaiser and we have 2 sell the most, so I am the best mom and he is the best baby!!!

January 5th-alot has changed in the past month, I got a job and with it Aiden got cay care at a discount because my boss also owns the day care! I am in charge of medical records and doing group counseling, for a big counseling center infact the biggest on in Illinois and the 4 surrounding states, the pay is ok and I did get benifits and I get a raise n such to. It was terrible leaving aiden at day care for the first time I cried for an hour and almost could not go into work, but I know I had no choice, and it will be good for him. The job is going good. I also went to court for child support and of course jesse didn't go, and they set up payments for him n everything, I called him n told him because I thought it was just for paternity or that is wt my letter told me. He was madder than hell and of course its all my fault and since this si all through public aid if he dont pay he will go to jail, which I think is good!! Aiden is doing great he got his shots and the oko for food and boy did he eat up the cereal and prunes to help with his poopy! O yes and he rolled over for the first time the same day he ate..lol..!! YAY AIDEN! O and he is 16lbs 25inches!! BIG BOY!

December 11th-well a few new things have happened. I went to spfld to visit some friends and after much thought decided to call jesse and let him meet Aiden for the first time. It was at my friend Marlenas house so we werent alone. It went well, I guess better than I could have hoped he was there for like 30min. took some pics held him stared at me with him alot and when i asked him why he said it was just great to see me interact with him and that i was a wonderful mom like he knew i would be. he said to that he is ready to settle down and wishes it could be with me but knows id never forgive him, and i said no i cant, so he is thinkin about gettin back with other baby momma which scares me they fight really bad i mean throwin shit gettin the kids involved bashin windows in the bitch is crazy. I told jesse i dont want aiden around that at all!!!! He said he understands that n that is why it is a hard decision for him to go back to her. It's his life so we will see what he does. I think Aiden is getting a cold, the poor thing is sneezing and sleepin and fussin alot.

December 1st-It turn out jesse was in jail he did 30 days, he got caught with a warrent out for a missed court date and had weed on him, looser!!! He called me this week mad as can be cause he got served with the papers to go to court, and he wanted me to figure out how he was going to get here and how he was going to pay for everything, I just told him that it was not my problem, and then he yelled at me that I should be getting a job, evidentaly the state served him with paperwork makin him responsible for all medical bills and or insurance for Aiden, and he is freakin out..really its not my problem. He said he is getting a lawyer to get some kina custody over Aiden b4 he pays nething. Well my dad is a lawyer and I told him wt jesse said, and there is no way that can happen, he would have to hire a local lawyer, come up here 3 times just to fill out the paper work, still pay in the mean time there is no way he can get out of that, and even then with his felony and with im just gettin out of jail, its not gonna happen, he is living a fantasy. Still lookin for a job wish me luck!!

November 23rd-Well I am on the hunt for a job, and I really don't wana head back to work, but I think I am gonna loose my state aid here soon, so I have no choice, which really really sucks, and wt sucks even more is the economy and job market rt now, the only jobs I come across are in chicago and I can't afford to commute with the shity pay, and I would not have any time with Aiden. So that is out of the question. I haven't heard from jesse still, oh well Im sure he is to busy tryin to get someone else knocked up!! I meet with the people from the state this week and am going to court soon to first establish fraternity, and if he don't show up to the court date it is the same as him signing the birth certificate sayin he is the dad. I highly doubt that he would show his face, and they looked it up for me he is not in jail rt now like he said he was gonna be, looser. I also filled out the paperwork for him to pay for things from when I was pregnant and we were not together. Other than that Aiden is doing good, we need to do more tummy time, but we are working on that, he talks n talks n talks now, and I am rounding up christmas stuff for him, I got his that lamaze belly thing That will be loads of fun!! Wish me luck finding a job!

November 2nd-He had his 2month yesterday and got 3 shots, poor guy, I had my mom stay in there and I left cause I knew that I would have completely lost it. The doc talked to us for over an hour and as usual I had my list of questions, from his rash to sleep schedule to SIDS. I am just so freakin paranoyed somethin will happen to him. Jesse callin again makes it worse cause it reminds me that I have lost him and that I don't want to loose Aiden too. He hasn't called in a few days cause we got in a little tiss he was putting words in my mouth, like he used to and sayin I was bein a bitch and rubbin it in his face that he left us, all because I said I wasn't gonna drive 2-1/2 hours to come and see him..a hole. if he wan't to see Aiden he can drive his ass here!!!! He was 12lbs 2oz!!! He is just growing like a weed, it amazing, and the doc said developmentally he is ahead of the game holding his head up and cooing and whatnot. My holes from the incision are just about all sealed up now, yay!! I can't imagine finally feeling completey normal, if there is such a thing. I am thinking about working part time till the first of the year, then I am going to take the two more classes I need to get into grad school, and I also need to take my GRE before too long.

October 8th-Well I have lots of new news! We went to the specialist and found out that Aiden should be able to hear by the time he is 6years old, that is when they can do the surgery. And we are going to have a prostect ear as opposed to the risky plastic surgery, so he will look normal too!!! What a relief. I finally heard from Jesse 2days ago. He started texting me and just said that it was killing him inside he wanted to know how the baby and I were, and said he was begging to talk to me, If I would let him. So I thought about it and then gave him a call. I told him all about Aiden and he just cried the whole time, which was nice, and made me a little teary too. We kept it simple and just talked about the baby, he asked me if I would send him a picture and I told him that I would, I had to go so the conversation just ended with him saying..if you need anything at all call me. I am relieved that that is over it was bound to happen at some point, and things were left on a good note, in my mind it could not have gone any better. John however got really pissed, he said so wt are you gettin back with him now, n i was like fuck no. and he is going on and on that jes don't deserve to know anything about Adien and that if he comes near us he is gonna kill him n badadada..wt ever..i told him to back off, he snudy comments didnt help, all this is hard enough on me as is. I am still not healing from the stupid c-section, Aparently according to the doctor my inside stiches are pushing out thru my outside stiches and basically riping hole in my skin. So I have about 5 hole where the cut is that are oozing and bleeding shit, she said to give it 3more weeks to seal up!! ARG!!!!I feel like im never gonna heal, one day one of the hole will look alot better while another one is bigger and gushing blood. I think its just cause there is no air that can get down there to heal them. I don't get why they just wont stich me up, I am trying to be patient but I want my life back!

August 29th-Bad news, he is not in position, and i have been in labor on and off for two days, arg!!! So I am just resting and it is stoping, they scheduled a c-section for the 5th if I don't go into full blown labor first, One more week at the most!!

August 22nd-Good news he has finally turned into position and has moved down!! YAY!! My blood pressure was high..again...so i have to do a non stress test twice a week and do a 24 urine once a week and have the fluid checked once a week, so that will give me something to look forward too. And I lost my plug after my exam!! YAY I am so excited now, finally something, my doula says he will probably be here within a week now

August 18th-Well it can really be any day now. But I don't feel any different. I went to my doula this week and he is laying horizontal which is what I thought, I can feel his head at one end and his butt at the other side, which makes it hard to sleep with a lump pokin out of my sides..we tried to move him but no luck..we are gonna try again on monday before I go to the doctor on wednesday, I have been walking alot and doin the all fours thing when he starts to move but no luck!! Frusterating hopefully it will be ok, I will have him either way. I can't wait to see how big he is on our sono!! I will update on wednesday after our apointment!!

August 5-YAY!! Four more weeks to go I can't wait. I have good days and bad days. Emotional days and physical days. It's like a box of chocolates u never kno wt ur gonna get..hehe..My house is completely under construction, I live in my grampas house which is 160 years old and needs a lot of work. We were cleaning out the basement and found termits, just wt I needed to hear. And one of the beams is completely ready to go, of course there is nothing I can do about this with my "condition". My grampa is in the nursing home recovering from surgery..hence all the housework. So I am trying to push my mom to get the money from my grampa do get this shit done, I don't want the dam house to cave in. And naturally she says..o it will be fine. I don't think so, if it's not done by the time baby is here we are moving out. But we got most of the mold removed which was another huge thing on my to do list!! We pulled up some of the carpet and found hardwood floors and are re-doing them..of course im not.. so I'm outa the house for at least a week with all the fumes, great timing!! I was almost done with the baby's stuff, so I really hope he don't come early..but then again I want him here. O well things will get done. We go to the doctor tomorrow!!

July 27th-UUGGGHHH I dont wana do this nemore, I am so so so dam emotional, I just can't stand it!!! I am so tired and my ribs are so soar, it is so painful!!! Everthing hurts!!! All i wana so is cry, what if i dont like the baby? What if i freak out?? OMG to many what if's..Did i mention everything hurts, I cant shit, i cant shower, i cant eat, i can't walk, i cant do nething!! WWHHHAAA I want happy pills..lol...someone please tell me i will survive all this

July 25th-We went to the doctor this week, we are going to have another sono in 3wks to see if he has turned into position, if not we will be scheduling a c-section for the 5th!! I am not to happy about that but wt ever is suppose to be will be.

July 19th-Our sono was so much fun yesterday!!! He is 4lbs 9oz, and we are moved up again to september 5th!!! I had a terrible time tryin to pic out which pics to put on here we have about 70, and these are not the best ones cause I could not see them well on the thing when i downloaded them, and we have video too!! He was tryin to eat his foot it was so funny..in one of the video's he was sticking his tounge out n tryin for dear life to get that foot, and when he did that wasn't good enough he had his big toe in his mouth and then was tryin to hard to strech the other one up his nose..lol...ooo he is my child..lol..so cute!! I wish I could show you all the video's. O and his head and feet are both up by my ribs, which is aparently why I am so uncomfortable, so I really hope he moves soon, he looked so cramped in there.

July 10th-last night he was moving all over the place and i felt him really shift down lower, and then by my groin/croch area so I started feelin around n my whole croch area was rock hard and his foot was poking out thru my skin..like by where your leg meets your croch area and i mean really sticking out and everything down there was rock hard and numb, and pushing down..so i called the hospital and the stupid nurse knew nothing and told me i could come in for monitoring, but i didn't cause i figured they would send me home neway..so then today I called my doc and talked to the nurse and she said that was not normal and I am goin to see the doc at 1...

update:::went to the doc and she says it was physically impossible for the baby to be where is was unless he was outside of the uterus...so she checked me all out and my cervix was still closed, but my blood pressure was aparently thru the roof so they sent a urine sample out to check for preclampsya stuff...and the babys heart beat was low..I was real scared she could not find it and when she did she had a worried look on her face and listened a long time...then she debated on wt to do with me...so I go back on monday for a blood pressure check..we'll see it was really scary tho!!

June 27-I feel like its been forever since I have written on here. Things haven't been going too bad, I got on WIC and they are giving me food stamp things for me and baby, milk, cheese, peanut butter, etc..they are gonna get me a breast pump too..which is really exciting to me!! Tomorrow they have a nurse coming out to the house to check things out and tell me what all I need to make sure is done so that baby is safe, that will make me feel better too!! Still no word from Jesse, my guess is he found someone new to bone and is happy, which is fine. my body is really changing as always, i am just gaining weight at an amazing SCARY rate and I have no idea why I am eating less, and I have been really nauseated which I was not happy about comming back, but it is not as bad as the first time. Other than that, not much is going on, my blood pressure has still been really low, but they are not concerned about it, only 5 more weeks left of school, too!! I am meeting with someone today to find out how much more I will need to get my RN, since I already have my bachelors, i don't think it will take long, and this will open up alot more job opportunities that I can also use my degree with and over double the pay!!

June 6- I am just getting fed up. I hadn't heard from Jesse much since the last post, once when he called blaming everything on me and I would not have it and he got really man n hung up..I heard from him about 2 wks later...being sunday of course he had the kids with him, as always to upset me..asshole..i told him i was sorting thru baby stuff and I was..he didn't say much other than I told ya u you have plenty of clothes. I told him we had to talk about the baby, and he said "I told u everything I needed to say" and i was like well that don't hold up in court...lol....I then told him I had the papers for him to sign over his rights (but they will still leave him liable for child support..etc..) and there was a long pause..n he says he has to go get somethin to eat but he will think about it n call me back in about an hour...and that was 4 days ago still no call back..im not sure how to interpret that...I wana call him really bad to figure out wtf the deal is but I stop myself. I saw one on my new doc's on Monday n im not real sure I like him...he did a pelvic and a pap..and didn't tell me he was gonna do one..I was really upset...it hurt so so so bad..more sensitive my ass..I was in tears from the pain by the time I left the office..but Aiden is doin ok!!

May 23-As if bein prego ain't enough I have poision ivy all over...itchy itchy itchy...Jesse started callin again 2 days ago...i was a little bit nicer to him, but I still have not told him the sex. Im just not sure wt to do with him, i don't get why he has decided to care all of a sudden and who knows how long it will last, he did agree with me on that cause he is so unstable he always has been. I may just tell him I guess he will find out at some point anyway. Last month he said he was gonna kill me and now he thinks I can just forget all that...im sorry but I can't my mom instinct has kicked in and when he talks like that all I think of is Aiden hearing it, and I never want him to hear his dad talk like that..not to me or any other woman...Other than that I went on a date last night it was kina odd but I did have a really nice time. I just tell myself that I don't have to make any decisions rite now..

May 15-School is over yay!! Finals went fairly well..and i am back home. I just got the internet hooked up here, and I have been doing a ton of yard work with the help of my family and a few neighbor kids. Jesse has been calling latley and left me a message yesterday sayin happy mothers day. Today he called and called and called so i answered and he was bein sweet that I miss you i love you shit. but i was a down right bitch I told him he would never see this kid and i didnt give a fuck about him and I just wanted him to disappear. He went on with the same ole well i had to take care of myself thing and I said well if you were a real man he would take care of me and his kids first not tell them all to fuck off, for his sake. My mom was there most of the time i was talkin to him and she was even tellin me to loosen up. But i am so sick of it I just want him to go away. I feel kina bad now but at the same time he has been suck an ass to my why should on..just becuase one day he decides to be nice. He went on that he wants to be in the kids life if he is gonna pay me any money and
I just told him then he can prove that he is a fit parent which will never happen. He disagreed cause he has a job now and supposidly his own place..which I dont believe. I wonder alot if I am doing the right thing wanting to keep Aiden away from his dad, I suppose time will tell.

April 25-Well it's a boy!! Jesse called yesterday, aparently he called the doctor and found out when my apointment was. He wanted to know the sex, and I would not tell him. He said he didnt give a fuck about me or the baby and that we didn't exist to him. He also said he would sign over his rights, but we'll see I wana try to get some money out of him, I will see a lawyer soon, and get that mess figured out. So we will see he said he wont call me again, after he gave me his adress. He also said that he would find me no matter where i was...wt ever..My family want's me to get a restraining order against him, but I think that would make him even more mad and likley to do something, after all he does have quite the criminal record. For some reason ever since finding out I miss him alot.

April 23-Well i haven't talked to Jesse in a week, he has called but i just don't answer the phone, i refuse to talk to him when he is gonna be an asshole and make me feel like shit, so he can take some of the blame off himself. I am so scared to go for my sono tomorrow, i don't kno why for some reason it is making me miss Jesse alot, i guess it is just the idea of going on my own, even tho my mom is going, it's not the same, wish me luck.

April 16-i guess things have been ok latley, jesse is still bein n ahole the other day in one conversation he went from yellin at me about the abortion thing too tellin me i should just give him the kid LMAO..to tellin me that i should get a clue by now that im a bitch cause all my bf's leave me n cheat on me n shit..wtf ever...i talked to him for a sec yesterday n i was at panera n he was like with who n i was like me n my self n he was like well i swear if u r there with neone else im gonna come there n kill u...i was like well i wasnt aware i couldnt be wth neone else n he was like no u cant if i cant have u no one can wtf ever asshole its your choice that u left us it wasnt like i didnt fucking try to work on things....arrrggg wt ever i just let it go

April 14- Well the past few days have not been easy for me to say the least, I didnt talk to Jesse again until thursday and we got in a fight about him moving, and he still says he has to take care of him right now and I need to respect that, and said im sorry but I dont understand you and I can't respect that..so I got the ever so farmiliar...click..whatever....My mom was here and we got a ton of packing done and im so soar. Last night I had another puking episode but this one freaked the shit out of me!!! I looked up from the toliet and saw stars I swear to god!!! And then boom down I went...When I got up i was totally freaked out and Im all alone with my family 2 hours away..so I tried to call Jesse and of course no answer...ARG!!! And no call back but we survived...just not hapily..And I kept going onto my back last night and waking up in utter pain cause my legs had fallen asleep so bad OWIE!!!! I hope u all have had a better past few days than me.

April 11-Well Jes called last night a cryin fool, and I was not very sympathetic to him, at all. I got the I miss u and I love u and I made the biggest mistake of my life and I wana be with u, and on and on. he said his momma showed him the wedding ring she had for me and that ever since he has just lost it. And he had too see me cause he had to cuddle with me and baby, and I said no way but he came over any way and i made him whine and cry outside for a little bit, until I finally let him in he slept next to me, cried n rubbed my bell all night, but I didnt so much as kiss him. Im not getting my hopes up though, so we will see what happens next, but im not givin in so easy!!

April 9-Well the new news is that its my fault Jesse is leaving because I wouldnt get an abortion..of course its all clear now..lol. We got into it good the other day, n I still feel really shity for some reason im havin a hard time shaking it this round. Aparently I knew what would happen if I got prego which I found a little comical and he tried to warn me even more comical. I told him it wasn't fair that he was there for his other baby's momma and his other kids but not me and not this child n he said that life isin't fair so I should get used to it and he learned his lesson from that. he said he would come back from tenessee but he didnt know when and that he dosnt have a choice he has to go and its my fault I can't accept that, so I told him I could never forgive him for leaving me and this child, and again thats my problem...So I said never to call me again and he said ok n hung up and I didnt call back go me!!

April 5- Well the saga continues!!But lets remember I have a chioce to let it contiue of stop it now. Jesse called today n suprise suprise is still in a really bad place, thinking moving out of state will solve all this problems, and that I am out to rewin his life. I am moving back to my family after graduation next month n i did want him to come with me, but he said I was making him abandon his family n other kids(even tho my dad is a lawyer n was going to get us full custody of them), and now he is leavin all of us but is still mad at me for wanting him to leave..2 hours verses 2 days away..does this make sense to neone cause it dont to me. I wrote him a letter n said thank you for teaching me so many lessons and for giving me the greatest gift of my life, and i truly mean it...I hope he can find himself...but i know we will be ok :-)

April 3-Today was a rough day, Jesse showed up at my door askin to get the rest of his stuff n then his 6year old son poped out from around the corner. Jesse just asked me where is was grabed his shit n left. His son asked me where the rabit was..n that was it. Not a how r u, a how is the baby, a hug nothing! Im so angry it was just like a slap in the face, i was not expecting to see him. I cried for about an hour after he left, but i had so much to do today I didn't gave time to sit n whine to myself. I know i have a chioce as to if i let this upset me or not. It just makes me mad that he brought his son, not a good thing to teach him, and it makes me feel like me and this baby are not good enough for him...its sad for me but when i think about it i am more sad for my child, becuase he is suck a good dad to his 2 other kids, but o well im sure its for the best. I just need to take a deep breath n take things one day at a time.

March 26-Well im still surviving!! Just got through some rough papers and exams, and thank god that is over, can i sleep now?? We go to the doctor tomorrow n then our next appointment we will see if i need to buy a cute dress of some cubbies attire! I think things are officially over with Jesse and I. It's so sad but rite now I have to concentrate on me and the baby. I really hope that he will get his head on strait and come back home to us, but what is meant to be will be.

March 27-Well everything went good at the Doctor today except for some WBC's in my urine so we will find out if I have an infection. The heart beat was 147!! Which means there is a 5% increase of the chance that it's a girl!! And iv only gained one pound!!

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