01/01/08 New Years Eve in Bend OR

2 Days Prego (aprox) and have no clue!

12 weeks later

I am so excited to be having my first baby! I am 36 and never had much of a desire to have children. Everyone said I would change my mind and when I hit 30 I started thinking about it. Partly because my husband was diagnosed with brain cancer and partly my age (tick tock). I wasn't even sure if we could conceive after his chemo and didn't want to set myself up for disappointment by wanting something I couldn't have. Well it was a tough decision with my hubbys uncertain future but I stopped my birth control 3 months prior to conceiving and wah lah, I-am-pregnant and so excited. It is amazing that a few months ago I wasn't sure if this is what I should do and now I want it more than anything!

I am so impressed with some of you girls pages, I don't know where you find all that stuff and how you get it on your page but it sure is cute and interesting. I took my second belly pic today but I just got a new puter that doesn't have an SD slot so I'm going to have to find a cable to connect my camera to post more pics. I bought more stuff for my nursery today :) .So fun. I am doing a rainforest room that I woulod love to look like the rainforest cafe (for those of you who have been there). If you havn't been to one you can look on youtube.com at travelers visits to one or go to Disneyland, it is such a fun place, I can't wait to take my child to a Rainforest Cafe' (and Disneyland of course). Ayways, I got some containers for toys that are made out of some jungly looking stuff. I also recently bought a big bamboo area rug and these HUGE floor to ceiling plants (fake, but they are really nice not fake looking) I got them at Costco and people were wanting to help me load them because they thought they looked too heavy for me to lift on my own. ha ha. They are actually light since they are not real. Go Costco, I love that place. I also put up bamboo string lights and got some cute little froggy outfits and receiving blankies. Cute cute cute! I love decorating. 12 weeks along and I've gained 5 lb's already, this is very scary for me. I think part of it might be because I didn't have any morning sickness (praise God) so I
didn't have any problem with apetite all this time but I was severely fatigued and therefore I layed around for weeks eating and getting no exercize. I'm 5'7 and started out at 129 which I was happy with. Now I'm 134 and super nervous about putting on too much weight. I think this 2nd trimester will be a really good opportunity to reign in the weight gain though because I am feeling more energy already and will be getting alot more exercize. Yay!

Week 14 March 24th

Well I've gained 10 lbs and am officially freaking out! Aghhh! I know I've been pushing it a little but I didnt think it was that bad! I'm feeling huge! Too much ranch dressing! I was fortunate enough to never have MS so maybe when everyone else appetites were stifled, mine was full speed ahead. Anyways, Must slow it dow!

Ok, I'll try to focus on something else for a min. I haven't felt the baby kick yet. I can't wait. I feel for it now and then but nothing so far. I was tired today and thought I'd lay down for a few and woke up 2 hours later. That was niiice. Been stressad the last couple of days and I'm not sure if it's hormones or legit but I'm suspecting the hormones are making me over react. I experienced one of those pains I keep hearing about where you sneeze and it hurts in the uterine area, ouch. That was fun:) Still loving being pregnant. Starting to get concerned about labor though. Totally freaked out about childbirth, always have been. I'm not worried just not knowing what to do. EPI or no EPI? If no epi then water birth or no water birth? childbirth classes or no childbirth classes? the list goes on and on, so many decisions. Well thats about it for now. Cant wait to find my camera cord so I can download some belly pics. I feel monstrous, lol.

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