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minkymoo78
	Age: 30 Country: UK Province/region: Lincolnshire City: Grimsby Partner: Steve Children: Pregnant: Trying to conceive Occupation: Management Secretary
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This is my story:-

Me and my adorable husband Steve have been trying to conceive since January 2007. After nearly a year of TTC we were sent for fertility tests and 3 days before we went to get the test results I found out I was pregnant. We were absolutely over the moon because we thought there was something wrong with one of us and this proved that there wasn't. We told everyone about the pregnancy as we were so excited and we made plans for the baby that we'd wanted so badly. It totally took over our lives and we couldn't have wished for anything more. 10 weeks later I had a miscarriage. It hit us really hard and I ended up on medication for anxiety for 3 months as I started suffering with panic attacks and was generally depressed.

Just as I was starting to feel like myself again in June 2008 I fell pregnant again, this time we were even more excited but we tried not to show it as we were scared that the same thing could happen again. On 31st July it DID happen again and I lost my 2nd baby at 5 weeks and 1 day.

So we are now trying to pick up the pieces and move on but it is so difficult. I keep thinking to myself, if I get pregnant for a third time am I going to have to go through this again? Am I doing something wrong to cause these miscarriages? Am I ever going to be able to carry full term? There are so many questions I want answers to but I probably won't ever get them.

I am trying to be positive and believe that we will be parents in the near future but I feel like I've waited such a long time and we've been through so much heartache that it feels like it's never going to happen.

I want to thank all of you lovely, wonderful, kind, caring ladies on this website who truly amaze me each and every day. Whoever invented this website deserves a medal because without it I wouldn't have coped as well as I have in the past. I received so many helpful messages both times I miscarried and they mean so much. I haven't replied to you all because I just get upset but I will be back to my normal TTC self in a few weeks and the positive Minkymoo/Helen will be back, I PROMISE.

Thank you ladies and take care, give yourselves a pat on the back for being so wonderful xxx

My Gorgeous Baby Jack xx

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kelim - Friday, 5 September
ps. i hope i didnt offend you?

kelim - Friday, 5 September
thts good, well i hope there isnt nothing wrong with you results, and you get preggo this month, if you do the specialist will give you advise

kelim - Friday, 5 September
thanks for you message!xxx

bbcoop - Friday, 5 September
In response to CD5 Blog:
You are not alone. I'm so sorry you are feeling this way, I hope tomorrow is much better.
I can identify with what you said so much that I wanted to cry when I read it. I will be praying for you. Two months ago after 16 mos of charting, waiting, opk's, bbts, cbefm, dr tests/visits, you name it--I lost control. As my husband was starting to walk out the front door to jog, he hollered, "Im going now!" I lost it b/c I needed him to stay soo bad to just comfort me. He stayed and I sat at the top of the stairs bawling hysterically and ranting, all the same stuff you said, and expressing how tired I was and weary , and just over this process--this went on for over an hour, then I went to sleep for the night at 6pm...just know that you are not alone and that God has plans for you that are so wonderful! Don't lose hope!

bbcoop - Friday, 5 September
In response to For Info Blog: Yes, I can see how that might be somewhat frustrating since those are totally separate issues... i want to apologize b/c i might have been one of those that missed the mark on your situation. Anyway, best of luck to you, I'll keep reading to see how you are doing!

kitz - Thursday, 4 September
deffo since ive been on here everyone has been lovely and helped mt through my loss

rainbowrach - Thursday, 4 September
Hi hun, sounds like we are having a bad day together. I am soooooooooooo fed up! I am bored and lonely, but when people speak to me they are just annoying me! Feels like a very bad bout of PMT

Just had a read through your blog, I think you are doing the right thing by giving the ovulation testing etc a rest of the month, just TTC and see what happens. Enjoy yourself, enjoy your husband

, make the most of your precious time together, as soon you will have your life filled with looking after your baby, Im sure. I think it will do you really good to just chill out for a bit, give you mind a rest. Hope you have a better day tomorrow. Rach x

LizDW - Thursday, 4 September
UPDATE! 1st appointment - 6 weeks and 1 day.

kitz - Wednesday, 3 September
I will, keep me updated too - Sorry i added ya with out asking but i looked at your friends list and wow guess im the only person NOT on there lol now you have the whole site hehe

kelim - Wednesday, 3 September
hopefully you can find out why you cant stay pregnant soon, its not the getting preggo, its staying, and if they find out why, you could be a mummy b4 you know it! and i really hope you are, lets hope you can find some answers and you be pregnant very soon, and its good tht your app as been moved forward!xx

DiscoDivaSara - Wednesday, 3 September
Yeah it's a good job u dont mind giving blood!! I'm going a week today to the see the midwife, I'm not feeling that nervous now though cos I know it has to be done. I've conquered my fear ha!! I hope you do get preggers soon, especially after being so hopeful for such a long time!!! x

kitz - Wednesday, 3 September
Hi i just wanted to say sorry for your loss.
I to started to bleed on the 1st of august i lost the baby on the 4th and eventually stopped bleeding on the 9th. Now ive started my first AF on the 31st and im also CD4 seems we may be testing together, good luck

. Baby dust coming your way

blessedbaby2be - Wednesday, 3 September
Thanks for the advice I will keep you posted!

RainbowRach - Wednesday, 3 September
Its great news that the blood tests are coming back OK and that you have managed to get the scan pulled forward, its not what you know - its who you know

Good on you! I am ok. I work from home, so I am on my own most of the day, which I am finding hard as I sit here thinking about the m/c. I am still in the mindset of how *&�*ing unfair it is, esp as I am watching Jeremy Kyle, seeing all these horrid people, with 100's of kids in unstable relationships getting pregnant at the drop of the hat!!!!!

Anyway, enough of my ranting! Are you going to put TTC on hold for this month, or still going for it?

bunches - Wednesday, 3 September
They will probably tell you if they see cysts, I had to have scans for cysts as I have poly cystic ovaries, which they say can make it harder to conceive, but i must say in my case it didnt make any difference adn I had some really big ones. I had a scan to check them quite literally the day I conceived, cos she told me she could see that the egg had burst out of it's sack within hours of the scan.. was weird that she could see that much detail... obviously, I went home that night and hi jacked hubby! And bobs your uncle i was pregnant that month. During my first pregnancy, I had some huge ones that they were keeping an eye on,but said they didn't affect pregnancy, though after my miscarriage my cysts had cleared , after having had ovaries covered in them since I was 22.. no idea why, but obviously not complaining. Don't be too worried if they see some, as you develop one each time you get pregnant too, it's called corpus luthem cyst or similar and most people have some. Hopefully you'll get a nice ultrasound lady, who'll talk you through it all. But they can't diagnose obviously...but should tell you what they see. If not I always open the envelope with the results in or would ask for a copy of the report...worth a go, isn't it.

myeggoispreggo2 - Wednesday, 3 September
Today is not a good day. My heart is aching. It is all I can think about.

jterrill08 - Wednesday, 3 September
Those 10 days really will go by fast. I have faith in that. I am doing good. Tired since I'm not able to get much sleep these days but hanging in alright. My next appointment isn't until the 19th so I'm anxiously awaiting that, but I think everything is okay so far. I could definitely do without the gas, though! Not the most attractive symptom of pregnancy. In fact, it was the bloating that made me take my test to begin with and that was the day AF was suppose to come. I knew something was up because I had never felt so "full" before. But I was really confused too because I had the cramping. I didn't know what to expect. Anyway, I'm just taking it day by day and praying we can make it through. Keep us posted on how you are doing. Hopefully you will get some positive news on the results from your tests friday. I truely think that you guys will have your baby in 2009!

kelim - Wednesday, 3 September
im ok considering how massive i am, not long now, glad your ok, bet ou will be better wen you get your tests back!x

bunches - Wednesday, 3 September
I think that's a great thing to do and I'm sure they will put you in a cancellation slot. Good for you Helen and good luck. I think finally your luck is about to change... your body is clearly very ready to be pregnant, at the rate you are conceiving.

jterrill08 - Wednesday, 3 September
Hey hon, I hope you are doing okay. I've been sending a lot of prayers your way. Hopefully these cd's will go by fast! You guys are going to make one beautiful baby soon! Wishing you the most and best of luck!!!

myeggoispreggo2 - Wednesday, 3 September
Thanks sweetie. I know if anyone knows what we are going through it is you. We are devastated, but hopeful for the future. I know he has a bigger plan for us. Good luck and I hope you become pregnant soon and carry and deliver a healthy baby.

one day - Wednesday, 3 September
Thank you! When are we going to get our hopes and dreams fulfilled??? That's what I get for testing early... but what the heck??? What happened to just being pregnant!? As soon as I get news I will go online and post!! Thank u again!!!

How r u doing? Hope September will be the ONE!!! XOXO

stephbmw - Tuesday, 2 September
hello hun just a quick message as i have been none stop today and wanted to let you know i haven't forgot about you just been soo busy and then had unexpected visitors so ill speak to you tommorow hope your ok must dash as iv'e got to do ellies packed lunch for tommorow as its d-day ha ha luv steph xxxx

cher-20 - Tuesday, 2 September
thanks you are correct i just wanted someone to tell me what i no. how are you feeling?