This is a saguaro cactus in Tucson...looks like its pregnant too!

3-18-08

Pregnancy...I've always wondered what it would be like and now I'm knee...no chest deep in the sensation. I like it, its weird and interesting and an awesome feeling all at the same time as being a bit painful in my back and joints and completely exhaugsting. I saw myself in a window today as I was walking and thought 'oh my God! I really look big!' because I had just spent the morning thinking that my sweater hid the bump pretty well...not that I'm trying to hide it. I spend the first moments after I wake up humming to my little bean. My humming always gets it moving and it feels like a form of communication. I really like that time and it makes me wonder what the babe will do after its born and I hum and sing to it. I can't wait to find out.

3-13-08

So this little bean is 3.8lbs! Which makes me a little worried, even though I've been told your baby won't get bigger than your body can handle. I can't wait to see this kid, the ultra sound last week made it look exactly like my husband...even though it was hard to see everything, I could see the similarities already. I'm more excited about it each day. Although I went to a friends house, who has a 2 month old...and now I'm anxious at the same time. I feel so unprepared for crying baby at 3 in the morning. Hopefully the hormones will take over and I'll not care too much! The baby shower is next weekend. I'm looking forward to seeing what we get so I can go shopping and get everything we need. I'm officially nesting now. I'm sewing a diaper bag and a baby sling this week!

3-5-08

I just came back from the Nurse-midwife and everything is looking great. I love to hear the little bean's heart beating. I've gained 30lbs...which seems like a lot, but I guess I'll just be more in tune with loosing it later. I'm not really worried about how fat I might look after the babe comes, more like how fat I might look 9 months after the babe comes! Taking my dog for a walk is definately becoming more taxing, poor dear. He is having to suffice with slowly and around the block only, instead of jaunts across the whole neighborhood. My husband is dealing with all the changes in very good humor and is good at reminding me when I am just working myself up over nothing. Which seems to be a good thing to remember these days. I can't wait to see what this little bean is gonna look like and act like. Its so much easier to imagine now that I know its growing well and that everything will work out okay...not that I'm a pessimist or anything usually, I just didn't want to get my hopes up over things that could have gone so wrong...Maybe I've just seen too much at the hospital. But I'm feeling good and excited, and the baby shower is just around the corner so I'll soon be able to see what else we need to buy! I'm starting to nest I think!

2-25-08

I'm amazed to see how far I can stretch my abdomen...Its a strange feeling to have so much weight in front of me and I find myself swaying a bit when I walk. This past week has been way too emotional for my liking. I find myself getting anxious when I look at the calendar and see how close the due date is. I'm so excited about it, but at the same time I just don't feel ready. Its such a big change coming our way, its good that we have 9 months to get use to it before a screaming babe comes out. I know that everything will be ok, and even great, I guess its just the hormones making me feel this way. Maybe next week will be better.

1-30-08
I'm at 23 weeks today. The little bean is kicking away right now, which makes me happy and tells me its doing well. Things are not fitting anymore...I thought these maternity pants would last the whole pregnancy! Its hard to get enough sleep with hip pain and having to roll over and get up to pee. Although, I feel good and healthy so I've not got much to complain about. It won't be long now and I'll feel really uncomfortable and ready for this to be over with...so I'll just enjoy it for now!

1-23-08
I'm 22 weeks pregnant and getting use to all the new changes in my body and mind. The little bean is kicking away in there, making its presence known a couple times a day. I can't wait to see what the next coming weeks will bring in the changes to my body.