I am 27. This is my second pregnancy. My first was last year, it was unexpected as I was on birth control. So, when I saw the positive pregnancy test, it through my life into a whirl-wind! My boyfriend and I had only been together 6 months and had just started our lives together... I had an ultrasound at 6 weeks (for dating purposes) and everything looked great, there was a strong heartbeat and I embraced the pregnancy almost immediately. I've always wanted to me a mom and couldn't wait for the arrival of our sweet little baby. We had decided on a girls name and had a few boys names picked out too, we were excited! We told our families almost right away and then our friends a few weeks later, around 10 weeks. At 12 weeks I went for my second ultrasound and new right away that something was wrong... It turned out the baby had stopped developing at 9 weeks (they could tell this by the measurements) and no longer had a heartbeat. My body just didn't recognize that the baby had died and continued to be pregnant. I was mortified! I always thought of miscarriages as being painful and having blood and knowing what was happening. But, this...my doctor called it a "missed" miscarriage and said it only happens in about 1% of pregnancies. I had a D&C that same week and suffered with the loss everyday. I knew then more than any other moment in my life that I wanted to be a mom more than anything else. My boyfriend and I decided to take things slow but agreed that we would get married within the next year or so and start our family. I didn't go back on birth control, we chose to use condoms instead and low and behold here I am pregnant! Again unplanned but, we always knew there was a chance... I am ecstatic for the pregnancy but, so fearful of another miscarriage. Because I went 3 weeks without even knowing I had lost the first baby, I wonder everyday if the same thing has already happened and I don't even know...
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