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mommy-for-first-time
	Age: 26 Country: USA Province/region: City: Partner: Shailendra- My Husband Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: No Due date: 09 0 ,0000 Occupation:
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Hey mommies to be,

I am a first time mom.....so a little nervous about the whole thing but absolutely excited about it at the same time. Never thought having a baby would bring so much happiness and anticipation in my life. Am thankful to god for this little joy. Hope everything goes well!!!

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About You
Name:	Shaleen
Age:	25
Height:	5'4
Pre-pregnancy weight:	127 Pounds
About The Father
Name:	Shailendra
Age:	30
Height:	5'8
Are you still together:	Yes we got married a year back
About Your Pregnancy
Is this your first pregnancy:	Yes
When did you find out you were pregnant:	December 9th, 2007
Was it planned:	Yes
What was your first reaction:	Disbelief, Surprised, happy, excited
Who was with you when you found out:	Shailendra
Who was the first person you told:	My Sis
How did your parents react:	Thrillled!!
How far along are you:	15 weeks
What was your first symptom:	Slept through the day!
What is your due date:	August 17th, 2008
Do you know the sex of the baby:	No
If so, what is it:
Have you picked out names:	The great search is on!!
If so, what are they:
How much weight have you gained:	2-3 pounds atleast
Do you have stretch marks:	No
Have you felt the baby move:	No :( ...my baby is a lil grape right now !!!
Have you heard the heartbeat:	Yes!!!
About the birth
Will you keep the baby:	Yes
Home or hospital birth:	Hospital
Natural or medicated birth:	Medicated
Who will be in the delivery room with you:	Shailendra
Will you breastfeed:	Yes
Do you think you'll need a c-section:	I hope not!!!
Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time:	Yes yes !!!!!!!!
What's the first thing you might say to him/her:	Hi my lil angel
Would you let someone videotape the birth:	Maybe...if am not frantic
Are you excited about the birth, or scared:	Both

Tuesday, 15 Jan

Hey,I am in my 9th week now....cant wait to reach the 12th !!!! These weeks have been good to me though...no morning sickness what so ever :)The only change is that i sleep extraordinarily long hours!!...I snooze through the morning into the afternoon....well i guess it is much better than nausea :)I hope everything happens fine...will update again after my 12th week doc appointment...cyaaa!!

Friday, 18th Jan 2008

Its the end of my 9th week...time seems to be just strolling by....my life has changed and i think i am getting a little coo-koo with baby stuff..... hehehe...my daily routine has changed into lying down all day in my robe watching loads of bringing home baby videos!!!!!!!!!! Am certainly getting excited about my lil bubba!!! but i need to get my life back on track.....phew!!! am for sure gonna get some sun !!!!

Monday, 21st Jan 2008

Allright!!! Week 10..........I am so excited....yesterday me and Shailendra went to see some baby furniture and boy was it expensive! But nothing is too much for your baby.......so lets see we are in the process of researching all this. Well week 10 doesnt feel any different from week 9 except am not fitting in my formal pants anymore....i have only 1 pair of size 8 jeans which i can wear and it fits. I have to go shopping but i think its too early to get maternity clothes yet......meanwhile i have been trying to train my little doggie to sit and stay and what not.......i think i'll have to take her to some sort of training classes so that our little bubba can also safely enjoy playing with this little mutt :)

Wednesday, 30th Jan 2008

Yay today was my doctor's appointment!!! I just keep on counting days between each appointment.....I simply cant wait to see the baby again! I went to the office at 10:30 today full with excitement and anticipation.....and was called in at 12:30!!!! I was getting so frustrated with the entire waiting deal........2 hours waiting at a doc's office just isn't right....but anyways we went in...my weight was surprisingly same as before.....and then we saw our little baby.......he looked like a miniature baby :)
all 5 fingers and toes.1 big head ...really cute.......he was resting i guess when we did U/S but then i laughed a little and the little thing just started jumping :)..........it went up and down .....was really adorable.......we got a scan picture but its not very clear....but i will never forget my little jumping jack i saw today :)

Tuesday, 19th Feb 2008

Yay!!!! Second trimester.....things are looking up for sure....my ridiculous acne has left me for one.....thank god!! ...darn those things had occupied my face. I thought i would have to deal with them throughout my pregnancy ...phew what a relief!!!!!

Also, lately i have been appreciating my mom and my family alot for some reason.....when i sit back and think about all the time i spent with her makes me feel what a MOM!!! I could never do that.......like all the times when she use to come home from her job and whip up a wonderful meal for us everyday...even weekends is just amazing!!! She use to get up before all of us and off to bed the last .....She use to get these little dresses for me and i use to hog them all before my sister got any glimpse of them.....hehehe they were fun times.......i wish i can do all this for my baby.....well i am just excited that she'll be comming here in July to help me out.....see see what i mean ...all this way just to help me!!!
I still remember when i use to act like a little brat and she use to tell me wait till you have kids of your own........well guess what mom i just realised it ........
I love you sooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!! muaaaaaaaaaaah!! can't wait to see yaa!

Saturday, 01st Mar 2008

I just had my 15 week appointment on wednesday. It was great. This time i was due for my alpha feto protien test....we went there and i realised i have gained 2 pounds since my last visit...which is pretty good :)......we saw our little bubba but i couldnt belive how big he has grown from last time....hes measuring 9.8 cms....was really happy to see him......he was not really active this time...maybe asleep but the heartbeat was racing like crazy....its always amazing to see my lil baby :) despite of the fact that i had to give blood for the test :( ....oh well but i hope results are alright.....now am waiting for my next appointment on 26th Mar....hope all of you guys are doing great :)

Thursday, 10th April

This is in loving memory of my son Aarya Gupta.

On 3rd April on my 20th week scan my doctor told us that we were having a baby boy...but as our scan went further she also told us that our baby was not well. They diagnosed him with a very rare disorder named Trisomy 18 chromosome disorder. They said that the chances of him having it were 1 in 10,000. It's not passed from family but just happens because of a horrible mutation by nature and usually results in fetal demise. Because of this, my baby was sick and was suffering with fluid in his chest and brain, bone deformation and swollen skin. To diagnose it further they took some amniotic fluid from him and told me that there is 1 in 1600 chance of me having a miscarriage because of the procedure. Next morning my baby was loosing amniotic fluid rapidly and i had complications. The odds were against us during this pregnancy. Me and my baby fought to keep it going on but i gave birth on 6th April at 21 weeks and he passed away shortly after.

I request you all to pray for his innocent soul and ask him to come back in our lives again.

In loving memory of my baby Aarya - 04/06/08 - 04/06/08. Mom and dad will always love you.

*Pregnancy LOSS*

Were you pregnant?:	Yes
Was it planned?:	Yes
Did you lose the baby?:	Yes
How did you know something was wrong?:	Through 20th week ultrasound
What happened after you found out?:	We were devastated and were sent for amniocentesis
How did the doctor know you lost the baby?:	They knew he wouldn't survive when i started leaking amniotic fluid
Was this your first loss?:	Yes
How did you feel?:	Hopeless, shattered
How far along were you?:	21 Weeks
How did your spouse feel?:	He was absolutely broken inside
Was he with you when you found out?:	Yes
Was it a boy or a girl?:	Boy
Did you have gifts all ready?:	No
How was the fetus removed?:	Normal delivery
Did you hear the heartbeat before the loss?:	Yes
If so, how fast was it?:	156 bpm
Was it unexpected, or was there a concern to begin with?:	Totally unexpected
How did your family react?:	They were heart broken & shocked
What the hardest part about it?:	Seeing my baby and then letting him go
Do you know anyone else that is pregnant?:	Yes
Do you blame yourself?:	No
Did it hurt?:	unimaginable pain
Do you have a sonogram to remember your baby?:	yes 5 of them
When were you due?:	17th Aug 2008
Will you do something special on your {was to be} due date?:	Yes
Are you going to try again?:	Yes
Why did you lose the baby?:	He was not going to make it due to loss of amniotic fluid
Are you ok?:	Still trying to find hope
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Wednesday, 6th May 2008

Today it is my baby's 1 month birthday. Happy Birthday Aarya. Up in the heaven you must be cradling in angel's arms. As they love you and take care of you, your mom misses you dearly here. This mother's day i will be looking up in the sky and wishing for another chance to celebrate it with you. My little angel you will always be in my heart. Mom and dad love you very much. Happy birthday son.

Friday, 9th May 2008

My results are in. My doctors said that this was a typical Trisomy 18 case. But surprisingly the results came out normal. My baby boy had normal 46 XY chromosomes. I remember his AFP results were normal too. My doctors have no idea what could have caused all the malformations in my baby. This was my first pregnancy and I am still searching for an answer. It is frustrating to loose your baby 'Just like that'. Possibilities are enormous and search can be endless. There is no one thing doctors can keep their finger on. I just believe that it was meant to happen and that it was simply not his time to come. It would have been amazing to see how Aarya would have grown up, looked like and how he would have changed our lives. But I have faith and know he will be back soon. Missing you baby on this mother's day.

Love,
Mom

Monday, 19th May 2008

I just wanted to share this very beautiful poem with all of you.

Daddy please don`t look so sad,
Mommy please don`t cry.
I am in the arms of God
and He sings me lullabies.
Please do not try to question God,
don`t think He is unkind.
Don`t think He sent me to you and that
He changed His mind.
You see, I am special
and I`m needed up above.
I`m the special child you gave Him,
the product of your love.
I`ll always be there with you.
So watch the sky at night.
Find the brightest star that`s gleaming.
That`s my halo`s brilliant light.
So Daddy please don`t look so sad.
Mommy please don`t cry.
I am in the arms of God.
And He sings me lullabies.

Glittery texts by bigoo.ws

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16th August 2008

This is a depressing post....So please read with discretion.

It is rainy today.....gloomy and dark outside......just like my heart inside.....17th August.......this date means nothing to me now.......but 4 months back I was counting down to this day........My baby was suppose to be born tomorrow.......Nothing new is going to happen....my day will just come and go......no one is going to visit me.......it is just going to be another Sunday.

I don't want to be sad or depressed but happiness has left me for good......I use to be a person with a huge smile always and now I always have tears in my eyes........I don't know when will I move on.....I am not progressing.....I am happy from outside but always sad inside.

I want to live again and not think about this day. But this day has come and every passing moment reminds me of it. I know it is bad not to acknowledge this day but seriously the more I remember the worse I feel inside.....

Hoping to move on with my Blah life......and not think about it anymore.

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jaimerdh76 - Friday, 29 August
Hey, girl! Skylar was born on August 22 @ 1:26 am. She was 8lbs, 3oz and 20 inches long. We are absolutely in love with her!! I'm going to upload a pic or two for you to see her. She is beautiful! Thank you for all of your thoughts and prayers for us. We really appreciate it. How are you doing? Things going okay? I think about you often. Keep in touch, okay!

tassy - Tuesday, 12 August
Hii Shaleen, how are you doing? Long time havent heard from you.. i hope u must be good and doing well. Do wrte in wots up with you.. as for me, its been 2 months since mis carried and i feel i am ready to start TTC again, but it my DH wants to wait for another month, so that we complete the 3 months waiting period after m/c as suggested by the doc. Lets see how it goes for me..

number5forme - Thursday, 7 August
Hi
Just wanted to drop in and see how you are doing...
Hugs to you Shaleen
xx

firstmommy08 - Wednesday, 6 August

number5forme - Wednesday, 30 July
There wasnt any message?

number5forme - Tuesday, 29 July
Thankyou so much!
xx

jaimerdh76 - Sunday, 27 July
I do still check on occasion :). Only 3 weeks to go! We're going weekly to appointments now. I'm scared and excited at the same time. Thank you for your well wishes. Hope all is well! Love ya!

number5forme - Sunday, 27 July
Hello,
I see you didnt get my last blog???? Maybe you've decided to not get them anymore? I have been a little bit on the miserable side so I wouldn't blame you! Fortunately they are going to get much chirpier (and hopefully STAY that way!) as I am pregnant!!!!
If you feel anything like the way I did every time one of my friends told me that they had a BFP (tears and a little bit self pity even though I was happy for them) IT IS OK AND I UNDERSTAND.
I am hoping that things are going well with you in your world and maybe getting a little easier for you each day?
I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO YOU JOINING ME ON THE 'I AM PREGNANT' PAGES SOON!!!!
Take care beautiful lady,
xx

jaimerdh76 - Friday, 27 June
Having a few issues with fainting...I've fainted at the wheel twice. My family is not letting me drive anymore with good reason. My OB referred me to a cardiologist just to be sure the heart is healthy. Per the cardiologist, it seems to be that the culprit is a condition I've had all my life called neuro-cardiogenic syncope and it's just being aggravated by being pregnant as well as having a cold. Should improve after the baby gets here, I'd assume. Baby's fine though, thank goodness! Hope all is well with you. I think about you often. Talk to you again soon!

Oh...my baby shower was on May 30th. It was beautiful and I appreciated it so much! Skylar would be proud of all of her goodies!

number5forme - Thursday, 19 June
Hi Shaleen,

Hope all is well in your world...

xx.

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