Feb 8

I am 25 weeks today and thought that maybe it was about time to start keeping a pregnancy journal on this page. Let's see, so far my pregnancy has been going well. I found out I was having a baby boy at what I thought was the 20 week mark. Surprisingly, the tech took one look at my boy and said he was definitely older than 20 weeks! So now they think I am 2 weeks further along which puts my due date at May 24th instead of June 7th. Although this pregnancy was not planned, and I honestly thought that maybe I shouldn't go through with the pregnancy I am so happy that my best friends convinced me to keep the baby. For the first time I know what falling in love really is. I mean my baby boy is my world and just thinking of him makes me smile. Although some days my fears about his future gets the best of me, my good days far out-number my bad ones. I thank God every day that he blessed me with this baby because He always knows what's best. At first I resented the fact that my life will never be the same with the coming of a new baby but now I am so excited that my little man will change my life forever.

Feb 10

I read that a lot of you get annoying comments from complete strangers. Well I had my first really annoying one this past week when I was in the hospital cafeteria. I had my cell phone in the jacket pocket of my sweat suit as I was checking out. The cashier starts repremanding me for having all that radiation from my cell phone near the baby. I got really annoyed and wanted to tell her that she needs to read up on her info before she goes talking about things she doesn't know. But then I changed my mind since she was older and many of them think everything we do is bad. If it were up to her I would be on bedrest for the full pregnancy! My grandfather thinks pregnant women shouldn't even work. I had to convince him that my work as a security guard was so low impact that I would be doing more activity sitting home than at work. I literally sit at a desk and make sure students coming in the building have ID. I'm realizing however that you can't reason with older folk so you should just nod and go on doing what you were doing. Anyway, today the baby and I were playing tag at work. I was bored and the baby was kicking a lot. I started to push my stomach in the spot where he kicked and he would kick back. Then I would follow his movements across my belly until he kicked my upper stomach so hard it made my whole belly move. The lump looked so big I think it was his head. Each kick tickled so much that I was laughing histerically! I'm sure if someone were to review the security tapes, they would think I was a mental case laughing to myself.

Feb 10

I `m torn between two names for my little boy

Joshua Evan

Jordan Elijah

I really wanted a biblical name and at first I was set on Jordan Elijah but lately I've been interested in Joshua Evan because Evan means Gracious gift of God. I think I may like both names equally so I need someone else to help me choose.

Feb 13

Yesterday was the scariest day of my pregnancy. There was a lot of freezing rain and I worked late. I wasn't really prepared for the ice and boy was it dangerous! I was slipping and sliding and so afraid that I was going to slip and fall on my tummy. I had even more trouble getting up the stairs to the house because it was completely covered. I was so glad my sister was there to help me because I'm sure i would have fallen. Well...tomorrow is valentine's day and I have nothing planned but to go to work. It's times like this that I'm really upset that the baby's father turned out to be such a loser. Anyway, I think I will treat my new love, my baby boy to a fat piece of strawberry shortcake tomorrow.

March 9

I went to another check up and found out that in fact the original due date of June 7th is more accurate than the one of May 24th. So instead of rejoicing that I am almost in my 30th week, I'm actually only 27 weeks. Oh well I'm just glad that the baby is doing so well. I guess its better that he may stay in longer since it will give me more time to work. Besides, at this point I can take him to work with me but once he's born I'll have to find babysitters. He's kicking more than ever and I think I can even make out little limbs when he kicks really hard. He's been in the head down sitting on the left side for weeks now but I hope he doesn't get any ideas about coming out too early. I discovered that he really likes split pea soup because after I ate some he was kicking like crazy. I can't believe my baby's a vegetarian! I also can't wait for my baby shower which is next Saturday. I haven't seen my friends in so long and I haven't been the center of attention in ages. I'm dying to look on the registry to see what everyone bought but I still want some surprise.

I'm miserable these days. Sure i am so excited about my baby shower on Saturday but my little man is kicking me way too much. I almost feel like he's doing it to hurt me but I know he doesnt know any better. I think the worst thing that's bothering me is this new symptom I've been having where my chest starts hurting and my heart rate goes up. Sometimes i even feel dizzy and it doesn't matter what I'm doing. I could just be standing at the stove or sitting watching tv. I'm just so tired of getting the weird, unexplainable problems that make me worry about the long term health of me and the baby. What i wouldn't give to just have frequent peeing and BH contractions. At least i know that's normal.