My wonderful husband and I have been together for about 20 years and have been married for 12 years. We feel so lucky to have each other, but knew we needed more. Unfortulately due to some medical problems, our only option of having a family of our own was IVF. We tried for the first time in 2005 and did not get pregnant which was devastating. We were not able to get back to baby making right away due to severe illnesses in close family members. After many years of loss, my husband and I were finally in a place where we could try IVF again.

In September 2009 (despite my "advanced maternal age") we got pregnant when we did IVF for the 2nd time! It was the best news ever and for 12 wonderful weeks we carried our little bean. Our time had finally come! The cloud that followed us had finally gone! This is what we had been waiting for our whole lifes! We dreamed of the life we would have together, the 3 of us. We read about the physical changes that were happening in our bean as the weeks passed. We watched in awe at the amazing growth of the baby on ultrasound. We listened to our beans heartbeat, on the 1st ultrasound it was 125, then 162, then 164, then 168 (they do lots of ultrasounds when you go through IVF). On our 12week 1 day ultrasound we were shocked and heartbroken to discover that our bean had no heartbeat, and had likely passed within the prior few days.

I love my husband with all my heart. He loves me back the same way. We are each others best friends, and we know we are sooooo lucky to have each other despite all the loss we have had in our lives. We need to share this love. We need a family. All we can do now is heal and pray that as they say "the 3rd time's a charm" and that this next round of IVF will be a roaring success.

Well 3rd time was a charm, though a shaky one. Our pregnancy test was positive though barely. The HCG was 5.21. I never thought you could be kind of pregnant. The doc was very cautious believing baby started to implant, but then stopped. We prayed and waited, and God gave us a little gift. The everyone's surprise the numbers kept going up. Now I sit hear 9 weeks pregnant with one awesome little baby in my belly. Wild, isn't it! We've heard the heart on US a few times now (isn't technology great). We are elated! We just keep being thankful everyday baby keeps growing, and praying this pregnancy ends in a sweet little healthy baby in our arms.

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