Yesterday I discovered this site. I was so bummed that I missed it for my whole pregnancy. My whole page got erased from whatever happened so now I'm going to try to put everything up again--even though I'm due tomorrow.
I'm having a boy. I'm super excited! I originally had my heart set on having a girl. Of all of my siblings, there has only been one girl (the first grandchild to be born) and then 6 boys. My whole family was hoping for a girl. My husband was pretty much the only one who was crossing his fingers for a boy.
When I got my US at 19 weeks I knew right away that it was a boy. I was a little disappointed (I had already been envisioning little dresses and tea parties) but then I warmed up to the idea pretty quickly. I'm so excited about having my little boy. I feel like I already know him so well. Soon I get to meet him! I can't wait! I'm SOOOO ready to have this baby!

I plan on having a fully natural birth. I will be having my baby at a birthing center down in Irvine. I wanted to have him at home, but my stupid insurance is apparently biased against home births and would only cover the birth if it's at a birthing center or a hospital. I think I'll do pretty well and I'm more excited than nervous. I know it'll be tough, but it can be done.
This pregnancy has been quite a trip for me both emotionally and physically. I never anticipated all the of the extra aches and pains you get from being pregnant. The main things I expected were: morning sickness, bigger breasts, possible evil stretch marks and labor. That was it. I never thought about the stretching ligaments that would make it so I would crumple if I stood too quickly, bloody noses, leg cramps, vericose veins, swollen hands and feet, carpel tunnel, etc. In addition to all that, I developed appendicitis at about 24 weeks. That was really scary and painful. I had an appendectomy-which made me truly terrified of having a c-section. The appendectomy was so painful but thankfully both baby and I did really well.
Around Christmas of last year we found out my mom had cancer. About a month later I was pregnant. My mom went through a radiation treatment and then started chemo. I was probably about 3 months pregnant by then. She developed congestive heart failure after just one chemo treatment and it had to be stopped. They did a bunch of handlings for it so she could try a different kind of chemo but she never got better. I spent months 3 and 4 taking care of my mom in the hospital, along with my siblings. It was horrible. She was bound and determined not to die and we didn't think she was going to. But, suddenly we found out that the docs hadn't really quite been honest with us about how bad her condition was and within about one weekend she went from almost being sent home to ccu and then icu and on life support. She died about a week later. I never expected to have to go through this without my mom around. I still look at pictures from Christmas when she seemed to be doing fine and it blows my mind that she's gone. She was one of my best friends. She had talked about how she thought it would be fun to be the baby's nanny when she was all better as she didn't think she could go back to her regular job. Anyhow...it's been tough as I still miss her a lot. I know she'll be watching over me when I have the baby, but I wish she could be there.

My amazing husband and I, pre-pregnancy

Oh, to be skinny again!

19 1/2 weeks

24 weeks-after I had my appendix out

A view of my beautiful stitches at 24 weeks

36 1/2 weeks

38 1/2 weeks
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So, I had my amazing baby boy October 5, 2007 at 4:05am. He was 7lbs, 4oz and 19 inches long. He is absolutely perfect.
I started having real contractions on the night of the 3rd and was up with them for most of the night. I called my midwife around 6am and went in for my weekly appt at 10am. I was 3cm dilated, but my contractions, while strong, were not regular yet. So, I went and hung out at my husband's office, which was close to where the birthing center was. Around lunch time my contractions suddenly became 2-3 minutes apart and really strong. We went back to the birth center and I was 6cm dilated. I then proceeded to be in labor until 4am the next morning. This was absolutely the hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life. I don't know how I did it. It was far more painful than I ever imagined it could be. I would never have been able to get through it without my amazing husband and sister. The midwife was amazing. There is no way I'd have been able to do it in a hospital without having at least an epidural. They literally had me going up and down stairs through contractions to help with positioning, doing lunges, I was able to take baths. I went through about and hour and a half of pushing in the bath. It seems like they always say that after all the laboring, the pushing is much easier. Yeah, right. It's true that it gave me something to do, but it was just as painful and when he really got low I would actually stop myself from pushing because of the pain. BUT-I made it! I did it all natural and had myself a perfect, adorable baby boy. My husband and I went home around 7am and made it through the whole day and last night taking care of the baby on our own. It's still unreal that this tiny little baby next to me is actually mine and that I made him and gave birth to him. He is so incredible.

Liam, about one hour old.


Sunday, 14 Oct
So, I weighed myself yesterday...only 12lbs to lose to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight!!! I lost 23 pounds since having the baby. Unfortunately I also have no muscles, so not only do I have to lose the weight, but I have to get back in shape. I'm not the greatest at exercising, but I've got some ideas for Liam and I!
Liam around Christmas time, what a hunk!!!

Liam all ready to go to daddy's work.
Liam mid January (about 3.5 months old).

What a kissable belly!!!!!

Alright, so here's an update on being a mommy:
I finally told the school that I work at that I probably won't be back for at least a year. I've had so much fun with Liam, I don't know how I could leave him with someone else.
At first it was really hard. The first couple weeks I wondered how I could have thought I was ready for a baby. Some people might call this postpartum, but honestly I think that everyone is entitled to be a bit overwhelmed when they first have a child. Lack of sleep, combined with a major change in lifestyle and extreme hormone shifts, etc. would cause anyone to feel like crap for a while. The first week the baby was born I tried to do everything by myself, I didn't want to ask my mother-in-law for help because I wanted to see if I could do it by myself. However, since I had the baby at a birthing center I went right home. The first couple days I couldn't even walk around because I was so dizzy. I then had a horrible time with breastfeeding. I was completely ready to give up after 5 days. I felt like the crappiest mom because I couldn't do something so simple as breastfeed. I saw a lactation consultant and I still couldn't do it. I had been to the ped when the baby was like 4 days old, and we had to go back again the next day because the baby had lost so much weight since being born. He also was jaundiced. So on the 5th day, when my nipples were severely cracked and bleeding we went back to the ped. The baby was doing better and had gained some of his weight back. When the nurse asked how everything else was going I started crying and told her about the breastfeeding. If anyone had even mentioned it might be okay for me to just not breastfeed I would have taken it and ran, but the nurse and my husband both insisted I could do it. The nurse worked with me and we figured out what I was doing wrong. After that, while it still hurt for a bit while I healed up, it went so much better.
When I saw the midwife, when the baby was about a week old, she insisted I allow people to help me so I wasn't so overwhelmed. My mother-in-law came over and spent the night. She was amazing. It was so nice to be able to sleep between feedings. I started feeling a lot better and started feeling like I could actually be a mom.
Liam has changed a lot in the last few months. He's been such a good baby. Overall, he's been pretty easy to care for. Recently he's decided that he doesn't ever want to sleep. It's obvious when he is tired because his eyes get all red and he started rubbing them, but he hates going to sleep. He fights it so much. It has sometimes taken me 3 horrible hours to get him to fall asleep at night. I think I've accumulated enough tricks that I get eventually get him to sleep, but sometimes it's a challenge.
Liam can hold his head up now and almost sit up. He hates being on his belly, so getting him to exercise those muscles isn't so fun. He rolled over twice about a week and a half ago, but hasn't done it since... (:
I think he's going to get his two bottom teeth in relatively soon. He's been slobbering up a storm for a while and I think I can see the very tops of them...I think. He won't really let me look at his gums, so I could totally be wrong.

Update!! So my little guy is over 5 months old. He's finally getting his first tooth in. It's trying to burst through. He's doing so well. He's rolling over, giggling, laughing, trying to get up on his knees to crawl. He sleeps through the night and goes to sleep on his own now. I love kissing him before he goes to bed then he rolls over and snuggles with his blankie and goes to sleep. It's awesome. I'm so lucky to have such a happy content little guy.
I'm having so much fun being a mommy!
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