Birth Story-

I never did update my page after Logan was born, so I thought I would, since everyone else does. :) So I went in at 5:00am the morning of October 23rd. They gave me my IV, and then the waiting game began. I was scheduled for 7:30am, the doctor didn't get in my room until around 8:10am. Not too much of a wait. I was so nervous. My previous c-section was terrible, so of course I expected the worse. (Will post my previous birth story below this one...) So before I went back, they gave me this TERRIBLE drink so I wouldn't get nauseous when I was in surgery. It was only the size of a shot glass, but it was the WORST drink EVER! Ugh. Anyway, so they wheeled me back to the OR and the anesthesiologist got prepared to give me my spinal tap. The first one didn't work, so they had to re-do it and give me a 2nd one. TERRIBLE!! The worst part about it, was when they push on your sides so they get the placement correct. Anyway, so they layed me down and immediately I got lightheaded and felt like I was going to pass out- which led to a minor panic attack. The anesthesiologist then gave me some medicine to help with that and it did! I remember falling asleep for a little bit, then when my husband came in, I was awake and fine. I didn't feel anything but tugging! So much different than my 1st sec!!! Anyway, at 8:36am Logan Christopher was born into the world, weighing 8lbs 10oz and was 21inches long! I couldn't believe his size. The week before I had him, I had a regular dr appointment and they guessed him weighing 7lbs 8oz. lol! Quite a bit of difference. Anyway, the whole thing went pretty well. My recovery in the hospital kinda sucked. I had HUGE gas pains, which was the worst part of it all. I had them all the way up in my shoulders and I couldn't hardly hold Logan. They say gas pains are the worst part of having a csec, and I totally agree! Anyway, he was a month old yesterday (Nov. 23rd) and I am still sore! Still have a pooch and still feel fat. :o( I guess it'll just take some time. All my swelling went down within 2 weeks. I was SO glad. ;) Anyway that is about it. Very un-eventful, thank God! :) I am so blessed to have the 2 most beautiful children a mother could ask for!!! I'm also glad that I'm DONE having kids. haha :) Don't think I could go through the pregnancy part of it all, again.

The birth story of my daughter Macie, Born January 27th 2005

I was 37 weeks when I had her. I had been REALLY sick the whole pregnancy, up until the day I had her, I would throw up several times a day, having severe panic attacks- caued by not being able to breathe. I had toxemia and high blood pressure. So when I went in for a regular doctor appointment, the doctor noticed how swollen I had gotten in just a weeks time. So he decided to induce. I went in the same day. It was around 3:00pm and they got me all set up. IV and discussed what was going to happen. They gave me cirvedell (sp?) and said that'd soften my cervix and start contractions. It did, although they weren't very strong. So the next morning they started me on pitocin and that REALLY started them going. They were the worst pains I had ever experienced in my whole life. So I asked shortly after for an epidural. They gave me that and it helped for about 5 minutes and the pains were back. About an hour later, they tried to give me another one and it worked that time for about 10-15 minutes. Then quit. So then they said that I was immune to the epidural and it wouldn't work. I'd have to do it all on my own. I was scared to death. Anyway, so all in all I had 26 hours of labor. From 6am on the 27th until 9:00pm I had the worst contractions EVER! Through it all, I only dialated to 4cm. They decided at 9 to take me in for a c-section. They got me back there and gave me ANOTHER epidural (for some reason, instead of giving me a spinal tap) they thought the stronger dose would definately work. Well- IT DIDNT. The doctor started poking on me asking me if I felt it and I said yes yes I feel it. Well, they didn't believe me, so they went ahead and started cutting. They thought all I could feel was pressure. HA! So I started screaming like crazy. My husband was holding me down and the next thing I remember is waking up in my room and my daughter was here. I didn't get to hear her first cry or anything, b/c they had to knock me completely out. It was the worst experience EVER. I had extremely bad postpartum depression when I got home too. It was so hard to be pregnant and the next thing I know, waking up and I have a baby. It was hard to deal with. I felt like someone just handed me a baby and said- here you go. Instead of actually giving birth to her, holding her immediately, etc... It was horrible. I remember looking at her and just crying. I didn't feel the connection... it took awhile and I finally got over it. Anyway, she was born at 9:52pm and was 7lbs 7oz - 20inches long. Let's just say, my 2nd experience was SO much better! LOL Didn't have to go through the hard labor, for it to end up in the c-section. :)

May 11th 2007

I see that everyone puts updates on their pages, so I thought I would do the same. I am currently 15 weeks and 4 days. I have been feeling wonderful. Other than I am still tired all the time and I have some major cravings for spicy foods!!! :) Today I had buffalo wings and spicy fries. Talk about heartburn.. but I just can't get enough!! lol I feel the baby moving quite a bit, nothing major, but I can definately feel him/her!!! I go for my ultrasound at 21 weeks (june 18th) and we will hopefully be able to find out the gender... as long as the baby cooperates! :) I still have frequent headaches, but usually goes away with tylenol and caffeiene. I am worried though, because I drink diet coke and they say the aspertame in it is bad, but I drank it with my daughter and she is fine. These days everything is bad for you, so I'm not too sure what is right or wrong. I wish I could update y'all on more.. but nothing is happenin.. :) Which is a good thing! I have only been to the doctor twice. These military doctors only see you ever 5 weeks until after you're 20 weeks. Kinda nuts!!!! Ok that's it for now!!! :)

May 12th

I swear I woke up this morning and my face was swollen bad! I feel like I just look terrible. But, so far I am still enjoying being pregnant. With my daughter, Macie, I was sick from the 6th month until I had her. I am praying that doesn't happen with this one. But so far so good! I am in the process of potty training my daughter, she's 2. She does NOT seem interested in it at all. But I am determined to have her out of diapers before too much longer. I don't want two kids in diapers. Been feeling a lot of movement lately and I love it. Feels like my ultrasound is forever away. *sigh* But it'll come faster than I think!!!! :)~ Send us some boy vibes!!! lol HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL YOU MOMMIES AND MOMMIES TO BE!!! :)

MAY 22nd

I am not very good at keeping this thing up like most of you! :) Anyway... lets see. Yesterday I had to go to the ER because I was having some bad cramping, which I originally thought it was just a bladder infection causing it to hurt, cause it also hurt when I went pee. Anyway, it wasn't a bladder infection, it was a urinary tract infection. Not fun! They gave me a prescription for some medicine, but I haven't got it yet... I stood in like for like 10-15 minutes with my daughter to drop it off and decided it was taking too long so I left. I am very impatient these days. Anyway, I REALLY hate the hospital/doctors office here on post. It's ridiculous. Anytime you have a problem, they send you straight to the ER, because they are booked solid for like 2 months. In my 17 weeks of being pregnant, I have only seen a doctor TWICE and I still haven't heard my baby's heartbeat! The last appointment I had, they couldn't find the heartbeat, so of course I was freaking out. So they ended up doing an ultrasound and seen the baby was just being hyper and moving around a lot. But everything was fine. Just drives me nuts to think I STILL haven't heard the beat. :( I don't even go back to the doctor until June 22nd and my U/S appointment is June 18th. A LONG WAYS AWAY STILL! I just feel like military doctors don't know what they're doing.... They have too many patients and not enough help. So sick of it. Anyway, nothing else has been going on. Been struggling with baby girl names. We have a definate boy name picked out, but not a girls name. We are throwing some names around, but none that just sticks...... Anyway...... I guess that's it for now...

May 24th

Finally got my UTI medicine today. And of course it had to have SOME side effect. Ugh. I kept having heart palputations which I thought was due to me having too much caffiene today, but then I called the pharmacist at Walgreens and she said that the medicine was causing them more than likely and to stop taking it. Now I have to find another medicine for this and try it again. So aggrivating. I wish I could just be seen by my doctor. Like I said before, I've only seen him twice. Feels kinda odd not to be seen as much as I did with my daughter.

Anyway, today I was in the bathtub relaxing and I kept feeling the baby move around, and the kicks got stronger, so I started watching my stomach and I seen my belly move around!!! It was awesome!! Of course it wasn't like major movement, cause 'it' isn't that strong yet, but it was definately awesome to see that!!!!! :) I didn't start seeing movement with my daughter until 20-22 weeks at least. So I got even more excited!

Sometimes I feel like I'm not as excited this pregnancy as I was with my first. Maybe cause with my first I didn't know what to expect and this time around it's not new to me... Of course I'm excited about the baby to get here, just the pregnancy itself isn't the same? Know what I mean or am I being weird? LOL Probably pregnancy hormones getting to my brain. Anyway.... I don't think anything else is new. Gotta go to the dentist June 4th to get a tooth fixed that broke off when I was eating chicken. It will probably have to be pulled and I'll HATE that!!! :( Hopefully they'll be able to fix it... I dont know though. Ok.. I'll update later. BYE! :)

June 4th (19 weeks tomorrow)

Well the past couple of days/weeks have been stressful!! I have had a UTI (urinary tract infection) for 2 weeks now. Of course I couldn't get an appointment with my doctor, because it's a military hospital and they're SOO booked, so I had to go to the ER.... They first gave me macrobid, and I took 2 pills, and it made me sick. So the next day I called to see if they could change my prescription over the phone since I was JUST in the ER, and they couldn't. So I had to go BACK to the ER, and sit for like 2 hours, the guy came got my urine sample.. (again) and came back out with macrobid again. I told him, I cannot take this it makes me sick, and he was persistant for me to try again... So I did. I took 3 pills this time, and stayed in bed for 2 straight days, where I only ate chicken broth.... Sick as a dog. Had to go BACK to the ER and complained and complained and finally got a doctor who prescribed me cephalexin (sp?)... but that was after getting my blood drawn to even see if I was pregnant.. WHAT? I was sooo pissed off... that was uncalled for, they could've looked at my charts! Then they took ANOTHER urine sample.. although I was there 2 days ago... Ughh it was a pain in my butt!!! I am SOOO sick of military doctors, that I have decided to have my baby back home in Missouri. Just got to find a doctor who accepts tricare insurance. I have to go back to have at least 2 appointments, then I can come back to OK until I'm 36 weeks. Then my husband and I will drive back to MO together, where I will have my scheduled csection. There are tons of women here who are fed up with Ft Sill doctors & nurses!! It's absolutely ridiculous. My appointments consist of them taking my blood pressure, and checking for the heartbeat. They don't ask if I have any swelling, vericose veins, or ask if I have any questions or problems.. Their goal is to get you in and out....... I HATE IT HERE!!!! Ughh. And on top of it all, I am 19 weeks (tomorrow) and I have only been seen by my regular doctor twice. I go for my U/S on June 18th, then follow-up with my doc on June 21st. *SCREAMS*

I've been needing to go to the dentist for I don't know how long, and of course I don't know anyone here to watch my daughter while I go. So I just have half a tooth in the back of my mouth that is going to have to wait until my hubby can take off an hour or 2 from work.

As you can tell, I'm really annoyed about everything! *ughhh*

June 18th

We had our ultrasound today........ and ................ YIPPIE!!!! We got to see his goodies, and he was PEEING too!!! *LoL* Very onery already! My husband and I are estatic!! It just hasn't clicked yet. We are naming him Logan Christopher. He was weighing 15oz already! Gonna be a big boy I think... I'm measuring at 21 weeks and 2 days. So they didn't change my due date. Only 2 days ahead than what I am. Oh my gosh, I still just can't believe it!!! :) Alrighty, that's it for now... nothing else is new really. Logan is realllllly hyper!!!! Probably cause I drink too much caffeine. Ekkk... really need to watch that! OK, will update later!!! I'll leave you with a pic of him. Sorry about the flash, my scanner is broken, so I had to take a pic of it... lol You can see his goodies still though...

Week 24 - July 11th 2007

Sorry I haven't updated lately. I highly doubt anyone reads these anyway. LOL Lets see, a lot of women have talked on the discussion page about their babies kicking in their ribs already! Seems like Logan is kickin me in the ribs too!! Not sure what that is all about, but it doesnt feel good! I feel him soo high, yet so low at the same time. I think he's gonna be tall like his daddy!! Anyway, I go to the Ear, Nose and Throat doc AGAIN today. I still have a clogged ear that will NOT open up. I thought it was getting better yesterday, and then I wake up this morning and it's clogged again. They've already suctioned the wax out once, and it didn't help... so I'm not sure what they're going to do this time. I hope they can fix whatever it is though! I have been taking sudafed to try to take the pressure off of the ear, and it's helped. Just hate taking medicines period, while I'm pregnant. Ugh. Lets see, I go to the doctor (for the 4th time this WHOLE pregnancy) on August 2nd. I have SO many questions. I'm so annoyed still at this hospital/doctors office, it's unreal. I still do NOT want to have my baby here, but I have no choice. I've said it before, but I have to say it again... THEY DO NOT KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING HERE!!!! They still never check my urine, or measure my stomach. They don't look for swelling or anything. You'd think they would since I was preclamptic with my daughter. Whatever... Only 13 more weeks for me!!! Then I'll have my scheduled c-section and this will be all over with! :o)~ Ok, that's it for now, gotta go get in the shower. My ear appointment is at 11:00, so I may update later tellin y'all what they say. :o)~ TTYL.

July 25th (week 26)

I'm just stressssssed today. I keep reading on websites, the dos and donts of pregnancy. It's all I have, seeing as how I still haven't been to the doctor for my ULTRASOUND RESULTS! I was 21 weeks when I had my ultrasound, and havent been back since. Anyway, I just worry myself too much. Like, what if what I'm drinking/eating is going to effect Logan. I drink diet coke each day. At least 1 cup. Sometimes I have 2 cups. But throughout my day, I drink -at least- 4 bottles of water too. I just worry about the aspertame in it. Some sites say it's ok, others say, to steer clear. Ughh, I just wish things weren't so complicated! And I suppose it's natural to worry about everything. I just want Logan to be healthy!!! And if he weren't, I'd blame myself! :o( Ughhh, does anyone else worry about these things? I mean, I drank soda with my daughter and she turned out ok. But I also went to the doctor on a regular basis, and asked him all sorts of questions. I have so many questions to ask on Aug 3rd. I think I'm going to go for the scheduled c-section, rather than a VBAC. Mainly because I dont trust these doctors... and 2nd I want my family from Missouri to be able to be here when I have him. AHHH I just hate this crap. Anyway, I do my glucose test, hopefully a little after my appt on the 3rd,.. we'll see. Sorry, I know all I do is complain. :( I have a LOT to be thankful for.... Ok better get. Write later.

July 29th

What a day it's been!!!! Woke up feeling kinda sick... I just get really out of breath easily and stuff, and this cold is stillllll lingering on. Finally got some benadryl allergy pills today. But let me tell you, on the way to the PX to get some medicine, water, and a few other things, I had a CLOSE call!! I was driving 45, and the speed limit was 50.. I seen a car on the right, waiting for cars to pass so she could cross the intersection... As I was approching where she was sitting, she all of a sudden pulls out in front me!!!!! Me and the car that was right beside me, had to slam our brakes on, which made BOTH of our cars go out of control, because it was SOOOO close to a collision it wasn't even funny. And the girl doesnt even look to see if we're ok. We both came to a complete stop (me and the car next to me) and we just both look like we can't believe what had happened! I seriously don't know how we didnt hit the car, except for God was watching over me!!!! It was funny, before that had even happened... I was praying to God and just talking to Him and thanking Him for everything... all our blessings, and how we needed to just trust in Him, during the rough financial struggle we're going through... and everything else... and then that happened. I still can't believe I didn't hit this girl. What DID freak me out, is the seat belt felt like got a little TOO tight when I was slammin on the breaks. But Logan is acting just fine... kickin like always, so I'm sure things are fine. I'm a natural worry wart though... THANK YOU LORD FOR KEEPING US SAFE!!!! Ok, I think that's about it for now. Will write more later.

August 16th (week 29)

I haven't updated in a LONG time! Lets see. Tuesday night I went into Labor & delivery b/c I had BH contractions (or so I thought they were) since 7:30 until about 6:30pm, so they said to come on in to be evaluated. I go in, they take my urine, test it to make sure I'm not dehydrated and make sure I don't have a bladder infection... Everything came back ok. I was having a few BH contractions that showed up on the screen, but nothing major. They checked my cervix and I was fully closed, so I was relieved about that!!! Other than that, nothing has been goin on! :) Logan is hyper as always. He likes to roll around rather than kick. He already has such a personality. He still doesn't kick when my husband has his hand on my belly, it's like he knows it's not me or something. lol Not sure. I soooo can't wait to meet him and see him for the first time. My daughter Macie is getting excited. I think she really understands what's going on. I show her pictures of logan and point to my belly and tell her he'll be coming out of my belly in about 8-9 weeks. We've been practicing with her baby dolls how to take care of him. She's getting excited. :) I can't wait to see how she acts with her brother. Ok that's it for now. :)

August 27th (week 21)

Well, we've decided on a crib bedding set- finally! This is going to be what my parents buy us for a baby gift!!! (see pic below) I'm really excited!! Logan has slowed down a little on his movement, but when he does move, he's crazy!! :) I love it. My next appointment is September 6th. Then hopefully I'll start going every 2 weeks. I had to switch doctors again. So this time I'm seeing a woman doctor. I'm excited, but bummed at the same time. :( I really liked my first doctor I had, and to have to go over all the scheduled c-section stuff again. Hopefully they'll give me a specific date this time. We shall see. I'm getting pretty anxious about Logan getting here. I realized last night I don't have very many outfits for him. I have a lot of onesies and sleepers. Hopefully we'll have the money to buy him more before he gets here. haha!! :) Realllly wish I were home. Then my church would give me a baby shower. The Lord will provide though. :) Ok this is it for now.

36 weeks 3 days (SEPT 4th)

Lets see.. my doc appointment goes a little like this... I go in, wait 30 minutes. Go into the room, wait another 15 minutes undressed from the waist down, getting a strep b test done, for some unknown reason. Why get that when I'm having a c-section done? Anyway... Doc comes in, I complain, tell him and SHOW him my swelling- he says "you're pregnant, elevate your feet, bedrest" ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I HAVE DONE THAT AND IT DOESNT WORK!!! He goes on to say that there was protein in my urine (+2), whatever that means, not sure how high it has to be before they think I have preeclampsia. So he ordered a 24 hour urine thing. Oh the fun... Told him how I have been off my feet with them IN THE AIR, how I had my daughter at 37 weeks because of these same symptomes... told him that I can't sleep at night b/c my feet and legs are sooo heavy... Told him how if they dont schedule my c-sec for earlier, my mom may not get to come down... which now she may not be coming, because the STUPID DOCTOR decided that the last week of October will be the best (for him) so he said maybe even the 28th.. well WHY NOT JUST NOT SCHEDULE IT AT ALL YOU NUMBNUT... So he says, come back in ONE WEEK and we will schedule it definately then. Ok, so I go to schedule my appointment, and NO DOCTOR OR NURSE PRACTICTIONER HAS AN OPEN APPOINTMENT UNTIL NOVEMBER! NONE, NADA, ZILCH... Ok, so what now??????????????? No appointment until AFTER my due date? ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS? HOW INCOMPETENT DO YOU HAVE TO BE???? So they took my number down, and finally called and said that Dr. Heirigs is on call on the 10th, but to come in at 10 and hopefully he's not too busy and maybe he can see me. Oh how sweet of him. @$$$$$$$$$$$$$

So anyway, all of this to say, if he schedules me for the last week of October, my parents can't come, b/c my mom has November elections to get ready for at work, and will be completely swamped! WHAT A MESS!!! THOSE DOCTORS WILL NOT LISTEN TO ME!!!!!!! All I guess I can hope for, is that my feet and legs dont' get ANY bigger and pray to GOD that my urine has protein in it when I take it back tomorrow! Won't get the results until Tuesday or Wednesday b/c of the holiday. Ughhh.

CAN YOU TELL I HATE MY LIFE?????? I'm fine with waiting... but not up until the day before my due date!!!!! I HAVE to have family here to watch Macie, or else I'll be in the operating room alone, b/c Chris will be watching Macie. And I also wouldn't mind waiting, if I wasn't SOOOO swollen.. It hurts to walk, I AM MISERABLE!!!!!!

October 16th (38 weeks)

Ok just got back from my doctor appointment. Things are still on for next Tuesday. My BP was 116/67 and Logan was measuring 37cm. Which means, he's dropped. The doc estimated him to weigh 7lbs 8oz as of now. So by next week he will probably weigh close to 8lbs!! I'm a little bummed that I'm not going earlier, but whatever. :) I can wait... I GUESS.... I got my paperwork done and go Monday for blood work. Oh, I'm a fingertip to 1cm dialated and 50% effaced. So, I doubt I go into labor before Tuesday. :) All in all I'm ok... Just glad Logan is ok.. I'm ok... And... well, I'll just have to not sleep and get myself ready for his arrival!!! The doc said it'd be ok for me to come home- I would've anyway. I go in Tuesday morning, leave the hospital Thursday night, get my staples out the following Tuesday and we'll be home Wednesday the 30th!!! I can't wait. Ok I guess that is all I got for now.... :) Keep us in your prayers. Mom and dad will be here Saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!