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im so excited to be pregnant again im married to the father and my love my chlidren from a previous man in my life i know nothing about. one night he left with them and i have no way to find them i just hope there alright so needless to say i have the fear that this will happen with my new baby.or there is something wrong with me why he did it so im very affraid to lose this child to. plus add hormones to it im going crazy starting to feel like im ugly my soon to be husband only wants to be with me for the baby then hes gonna leave i know its just hormones going nuts but they've progressed so far i dont know whats real and what im over thinking. i quit my job and that was the only connection to poeple i had i dont have any friends to talk to all i have is my mom in law and she really doesnt get it its been 20 years since shes had hormones and my life has not been a picnic so far so i have all my past stuff coming back up that somehow i have to figure out how to deal with so i dont get depressed and put my new babies health at risk. mainly i think i just need to talk to someone so if any one needs to talk to and is a good listener im here.