Hello Everyone!!!

9.25. 07

This past June/July, my husband and I decided to start trying for a baby. We did not expect it to happen the first month, but it did. In the same month, the same day I found out, I found out I was having a miscarriage. I was sad, but my doctor said there was no need to wait and I could try again the next month. This was at the very end of July.

Then, August brought news of a new pregnancy...again, completely unexpected to have happened so quickly. My mom has five children, so I guess I am extremely fertile?? Anyway, I was very excited and like a first timer, I started to tell everyone my great news. Then, about two weeks ago, I started spotting. The first day was a very light pink, and then after, the spotting became dark and mostly occurred once a day (usually after pooping--no nice way to say it). With the spotting, I have had mild period-like cramping and a sense of paranoia!!!

I took a blood test last week, and my HCG counts looked good (30,000). I went in today for another one, so my dr can check that they are rising. Why can I not get her to let me get an early u/s? (My dr drama is another story!!) I go in on Oct. 1 for my first u/s, and I am very anxious. I am stressed and worried about this spotting mess. Also, since I had a miscarriage the month prior to getting preggers, I have only a guess to how far along I really am. I am either in my 9th week or my 8th week. I am claiming the 8th so I won't be disappointed if it is less. This way, I can only get excited because I am further along than I expected...if you get what I mean.

My symptoms have been pretty normal: lots of gas (eww!), bloating, EXHAUSTION LIKE NEVER BEFORE, pimples (like I am 12 again), tender boobs (off and on as to how bad), some queasiness and some headaches. I have gained one pound so far and am dreading that part of this whole ordeal.

10/02/07

Well, yesterday I went to the doctor to meet her for the first time and to get my first u/s. The spotting continues, heavier on some days than others. My doc advises no physical activity aside from walking (that includes no sex) until I pass the first trimeste. I absolutely love the doc I chose, which I was extremely nervous about.

Anyway, my husband goes and I have to get a pap--been over a year--and he is just chopping it up with the doc. She sits, asks a bunch of questions, and then proceeds to do the vaginal u/s. The u/s was uncomfortable (with all the gas I have built up), but it was truly an experience I will NEVER forget. As my husband is talking to the doc about miscarriage, she sticks that stick in me. He is asking her about a friend who was pregnant with twins who lost one and the other one was born healthy. He asks if this is normal. She says that is perfectly normal, and "Speaking of twins"....you have got to be SH*TT*NG ME!!! Yes, I am pregnant with spontaneous twins (spontaneous meaning that I took no fertitilty drugs).

My husband in I are in complete shock as she shows us both heartbeats and measures them; one is 7.6 wks and the other was 8.1 wks. My due date was given at May 12, but she said to expect to deliver them in April. She also told us about the increased risks involved with multiple births, and I began to freak out about how huge I was going to get and how stressed the situation was becoming. This was completely unexpeceted--not even a shade of a thought of the possibility crossed our minds. Now, after investigating, twins runs in both of our families (thanks folks for the heads up on that one!). Both of our great grandfathers had siblings that were twins.

So, now, I am not planning on having a baby, but two babies. I will eventually get over this shock, hopefully! Twins? Twins? HuH? ME??? TWINS??? So, my hubby is very excited about this idea...and so am I. We are both worried about different things. Now, he is worried about finances and I am worried about not going insane in 7 months.

Sunday, 7 Oct