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Hello to everyone! I am currently expecting my 5th child. And from what I'm told it's a GIRL!!! I already have 4 boys, YESSSSSSS 4 boys ages 11,9,7 & 3. So just imagine where I would be with another boy. In the crazy house for real. I consider myself to be blessed that I had my boys first, and that my little girl will for sure be the baby girl. So now I am just sitting and counting down the days until I hold my little girl Shyla Faith!

12/2/07 I'm happy at the warm welcomes that I have received from this site. Lol! Right now, I'm sitting here in pain my lower back and buttocks is killing me. I had a car accident Monday afternoon, and they kept me over night for observation, and the lil mama is doing well. As far as the big mama( me) well thats something different. You would have thought my doctor would have taken me off for a little while, but instead he told me to take 4 10 minute hot showers a day. And how in the heck am I to do that when I have to work. So I will be calling the doctor tommorow, because I can not sit for long periods without this pain starting. Other than that I can say I'm just counting down these days. I'm tired now, or maybe I'm just a little anxious because it's a girl! Either way I'm soooooo ready to get this over with. Well I'm off of hereI guess I'll go take another one of these 10 minute showers. LOL!

12/4/07 Well my doctor finally agreed to take me off of work at least until my next appt. next Wed. And that works for me. If only these backaches were tolerable I would be fine. I feel my lil princess kicking more and more. Sometimes I could swear she was in there doing gymnastics or something. This is not my first time, but each time is always exciting to me. Like your experiencing it for the first time. My boys are statring to get a kick out of this and I mean literally a kick. LOL she kicks at them too. I'm just waiting to see how she interacts with her brothers, but of course that will be years to come.

12/17/07 I figured that I would do an update. I went to my appt. last Wed. and my doctor has taken me off of work until further notice. I don't know if I should be happy or what. Considering the fact that I'm still in pain, not to mention bored as ever. So for the last two nights I have tossed and turned and not really gotten to much sleep. I have heartburn like crazy, and it really sucks. I must admit that this has been my worst pregnancy yet. Don't get me wrong, I'm excited about my lil girl,but not excited about all the things I've had to deal with, with this pregnancy. Not to much longer to go, I know and lord knows I will be ready. I have been in the bed all day,because my back and hips have been killing me. So either she is going to be a really big baby or I'm just to damn old for this now. LOL!!!! As you can tell before I really don't talk about her father on this page. But lately I have been going thru this emotional roller coaster. And I try to keep it to myself, which may not be the best thing. For the most part we get along, we just don't deal with each other like we use too. So I guess I can't complain. But it's not that easy to cut off your feelings for someone especially when your carrying apart of them inside of you. So I lye in bed and I feel Shyla kicking up a storm and wish at times that he was here just to feel what I feel. So not to long ago, I sent him a text message just to say hello because I was going thru one of my emotional moods again. He responded back with what's up, and I simply told him that I was going thru one of my moods and feeling her kick and just wanted to say hello. So he said oh ok, well tell her I said hi and I love her. What the hell!!!! How am I to feel behind that. Yeah he's trying so I can't knock him for that. But I don't know, it still didn't make me feel better. Maybe I'm just expecting too much from him, and maybe I'm not. Pregnancy makes you emotional anyway, so maybe once she is here I'll be fine. I'm so quick to give others on here advice as if I'm together. Don't get me wrong I am a very strong woman. You have to be, raising 4 boys. But I guess I'm now at that point where I'm tired of so called men just acting as if this is nothing that we go thru. Yes I chose to have my child instead of aborting it. And i have no regrets at all. I just wish for a moment they could experience what we experience and see that its no joke.Well I guess I'll end here for now my back is starting to hurt and I just sat down. So holla!!!!

1/2/08 So we have finally made it, into a New Year!!! That I am extremely happy for, brings me so much closer to meeting my lil princess. I usually make a new years resolution, but for some strange reason I didn't this year. What do I want to do different this year?? Hmmmmmm, thats a good question. I guess I can't really sum it up bcuz its so much. I do know that I plan to continue to be the best mom that I can to my children. Hopefully I am now off my emotional roller coaster. I have been doing so well with my feelings lately that it actually surprises me. LOL I guess bcuz in a way I finally let him know how I feel. What a difference letting it out instead of holding it in does. So since it's a new year no need to look backwards. I'm leaving the animosity in 2007. So I'm feeling extremely huge, and of course my family reminded me of that also. But it seems like with in a matter of days Miss Shyla has grown alot. I know the delivery is only up the street and around the cornor and then a few blocks from there LOL, but a sister is tired. I don't know how much more my body can tolerate. I'm still off from work and praying that my job is going to cover my disabilty. I still have back aches, hip aches, headaches, and now my leg is swelling on me. When does it stop? So I figured when I go see the doc on the 9th I'm going to ask if it's at all possible to get induced when I turn 37 weeks. Bcuz at the rate that I'm going, I won't be able to walk pretty soon. Well enough with my aches, Miss Shyla is doing fine, kicking up a storm. And it's still exciting each time. Well except when your trying to sleep. I can't wait to meet this lil girl, I already know she is going to be handful. But a handful that I love and can't wait to meet.

1/8/08 Ok so I know that the end is somewhere close, but how close is it? I was having contractions yesterday but they were about 1 1/2 hours apart, so nothing to get alarmed or even happy about. As much as I complain and want this pregnancy to hurry up and be done with. I also want an healthy lil girl, so I'll tolerate the pains, aches, swelling, cravings, sleepless nights and everything else that's yet to come. I very much so realized that every pregnancy is different. But I also realize that, age plays a factor also. LOL No one has to worry about me doing this again, it's a wrap. God has blessed me with 5, and I won't be greedy, I think thats enough. So thanks God!!! As far as my emotions goes, I think that roller coaster ride is over with me. Thank you God for that too. Hey I'm a big girl (not literally) so I have to be strong. Went to the doctor today and everything is fine, he checked me and no change so I'm really not worried about those contractions now. LOL He did do all my cultures and gave me my paper work to carry with me at all times, so that lets me know that I'm closer to the finish line. I'm on my every two week visits, YAY!!!! Still off from work, and I won't complain. Bcuz as time goes on the more my back hurts. So my baby shower is on the 20th of this month, ready to have that over and done with too, so I can see if anyone brings me diapers like I requested. LOL That's all I really want. The rest of the stuff I pretty much have. I can truly say that I feel BLESSED & LOVED during this pregnancy.

1/13/08 So I can tell that it's getting closer to that time. I am irratable, grouchy and just plain ol in a fucked up as mood most of the time. Everything and just about everyone seems to get on my damn nerves. I'm trying my best to not let it show, but I don't think I'm doing a very god job of that. I did go to babies r us yesterday, they threw like this baby shower for expectant mothers, it was ok. I found these cute little boots and an outfit for Shyla. I must say she is going to be a mess. Everytime I say I'm not going to buy anything else, I turn around and do it. I need to go ahead and file my taxes, so that I can get another car. I called a lawyer the other day to see if I could sue the guy who hit me, and he told me no bcuz I didnt have insurance on my car and Michigan being a no fault state, I would probably come out having to pay him. Aint that about a cookie crumb up a monkeys butt. So I'm screwed. I called Chrysler and told them to come pick up the car bcuz I'm not going to get it fixed. So for the time being I've been using my mothers car, and thats starting to wear on me. Bcuz I'm at her house more than I'm at my own. Grrrrrrrrr!!!! So I'll figure it out. Then on top of that Bd tells me, his mom doesnt like me. LOL But remind you his mom has never met me, so I wonder what he has told her. I told him, I've been down this road before and I really dont care, bcuz I dont have to deal with your mom. So of course we went back and forth. But I hope he realize that I'm not kissing anyones ass!!! I cant speak on his mom bcuz I dont know her, but hey if she doesnt like me, shes not the 1st female and sure won't be the last. Hey as long as someone is hating on you, you know your thought about. LMAO!!!! But enough on that, I need to just shake it off, relax and enjoy the pains that Miss Shyla takes me thru.

1/21/08 Ok so yesterday was the big day!!! Not that big day, but my baby shower day. LOL I can say that I'm truly glad that it is over with now. I pretty much did a diaper shower bcuz that was all I needed. Considering the fact that it was like 11 degrees outside some people did show up. So Ms. Shyla should be good on diapers for a nice lil minute. Of course BD didn't show up, and that doesn't surprise me. But he calls at 12:45 last nite wanting details. Sigh.......needless to say I didn't cut his head off like I thought I would, maybe bcuz I was too tired from the day. But hey today is a new day. LOL Just kidding, today is the day we celebrate Dr. Martin Luther KIng's Bday, so I will not act a butt on this day. Actually I think I may just drop it all together. Wish me luck. Well ladies that's all for now, I go to the doctor tommorow and I'll update then if it's anything to update.

1/28/08 Ok so since yesterday I have been feeling like straight CRAP!!!!! Ugggggggh. I finally found some strength to put together Shyla's dresser, bcuz I hate waiting on anyone to do anything. It seems like when you want it done, everyone wants to do it on their time. Go figure!!! So I accomplished that, 8 months pregnant and all. Yay for me!!!! And of course BD and my brother calls after the fact. LOL Whatever. So I guess I've been in nesting mode. Washing clothes and trying to get lil miss Shyla's room together. So yesterday me and my sister was going thru all these freaking baby clothes. I've given away 4 bags of the clothes that was gien to me. Someone blessed me, so I needed to bless someone. Not to mention there is no way she was going to be able to wear all those clothes. But as we were sitting there, I'm sitting on the couch which by the way is very soft and my butt and back is KILLING me. I can't get comfortable to save my life. It felt like she was sitting right in my butt. Then she decided to stick her foot or fist (not really sure what it was) out, and you could see it just sitting there on the side of my stomach. My sister is like your sure your due in March? I'm like yessssssss. Later on, I try to sit down to get on here my favorite site now and ebay and just felt soooooo much pressure in the v- spot. LOL What is really going on????? So I get up and walk, put some more clothes in the washer. Come back to her room to put together this rocking chair. Not for me, but for her of course. And just say forget it, after I put the back on and left it on the floor. Bcuz now I'm really uncomfortable. So I figure if I lay down it will take the pressur off my back, and that it did. But I tossed and turned all night long. Which means I didn't get any sleep. I wake up this morning and I'm feeling nasuea, so I eat some oatmeal and hopefully that will help. I probably won't be going back to sleep after I drop the kids off at school. My 3 yr. old is with me during the day, and I'm trying to get him fully potty trained b4 the lil one gets here. He just forgets to go pee, when he has on underwear. So pray that I can get this done, it's a challenge. Not to mention the way I've been feeling I may not make it to March. But then again it can just be wishful thinking.

2/5/08 Well I guess it's about time for an update. Not really to much to update other than the fact, that I'm tired of being pregnant. But of course you guys already know this. LOL Well considering that my time is coming to an end with this pregnancy. I figured that I would pretty much let the BD know how I feel. And really want him, to soak it all in. He has an habit of depending on me to do things and I had to let him know that during these last weeks Im living stress free, and I mean it. Ive pretty much put Shyla's room together all by myself. The only thing missing is her bed. And it wouldnt surprise me if I put that together too. Sunday morning I was hoping that it was the real deal that I was feeling. I was having contractions again, and the moment I got up to pee they stopped. Go figure. Then later on that day I found out that my uncle had passed, and of course with the crying they started again. At that moment I wasnt hoping for the real thing. My concern went more towards my father, bcuz this is youngest brother and I knew that he would take it hard. So now thats one more worry for me, bcuz I have to constantly check on my dad. So I went to the doc today, and this time I recorded Shyla's heartbeat on my phone. I figured I'd send it to her dad thru text msg since he cant attend a doc's appt. No reply. Everything was fine, and guess what? Nothing, nothing has changed. So those contractions & pressure that I feel are doing absolutely NOTHING, GRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! So I guess thats a good thing, bcuz it's still early. But I have gained 5 lbs in 2 weeks. Maybe I need to slow down on the 7up pond cakes that Ive been making and eating. I had a dream about her the other day, that I had her (def. a dream, lol). But she looked just like my oldest son when he was a baby except she had her daddies nose. Had a dream about him last night and I was fighting him in my dream, and when I woke up I wanted to fight him for real. That day will come , I have a feeling. LOL But for now Im going to try to keep my temptation for that, heartburn & aches & pains under control.

2/19/08 So I suppose it's time for an update. Where do I began, well this lil girl has been playing with my emotions. I tell you,I keep having this contractions and of course I keep hoping that it's the real deal. Guess what, it's not. So I went to the docotor yesterday, and come to find out I'm dilated to 1 1/2 cm. Yay!!! I'm excited, not really sure why, bcuz you can be that way forever. LOL So I wake up at 3 this morning with contractions and they are coming every 10-8 mins. Now my doctor had just told me to go to the hospital if they are like that for an hour, well by the time I moved they had been like that for a couple of hours. So I drop my kids off at my moms called the BD, he finally answered after 2 calls and a text msg. I get to the hospital and I'm still at 1 1/2. So they tell me to walk around for 3 hours. WTF!!!!! But ok, anything to get her up out of me, right. So I tell him and my friend they can go home, so my friend she voluntered to walk with me, how sweet. Then the BD says can I talk to you for a minute. He goes on to say how, he feels the baby is his. But he wants a DNA test. How funny!!!! I'm like OK, why get mad I have nothing to hide. Then he says well give her your last name til after the blood test. WTF!!!! So once again I say ok, Im trying to get my walk on and this fool brings up this mess. Not to mention my damn voice is gone, bcuz im catching a cold. Then he calls me a lil while later to check on me, so I had to ask him....Why he waited to say that, when I'm possibly in labor. And he said he didnt want to tell me that a month ago and I try to hold it against him, LOL. Whatever. But he feels it's his child, he just wants the test. Must be for his mother (read previous update).Well he leaves to go out of town today and returns on Saturday. Maybe I wont have her, maybe I will. Well enough on him. They said my fluid was low, so now my doctor wants me to come in twice a week for an NST and once a week to check my fluid level. Oh yeah they also said that she weighs 7lbs or a lil less. Wow!! It's time to get her out.

12/20/08 Well I managed to make another trip to the hospital yesterday. This time they kept me. Contractions non-stop and then her heart rate dropped for a moment so that was an automatic stay. But GUESS WHAT, still didn't dilate anymore than what I was. This sucks!!!! So they tell me they wont help the process along bcuz I'm still considered pre-term. 2 days short of being full term, WTF!!!! But they wont stop it either. So I must suffer with the contractions. But Im a big girl, been down this road, just dust the contractions off like I would my shoulders. YEAH RIGHT!!!! Can't compare the two at all. LOL So now I sit at my moms house instead of going home, you know just in case. Or as I say wishful thinking. Im just ready to have this over with now. To much pain to deal with, just bcuz.

MISS SHYLA HAS ARRIVED!!!!!

Birth story under children's tab

2/28/08 So I guess it's time for an update. I've managed to survive a week being a new mom again. LOL I forgot about the sleepless nites and the middle of the nite feedings. Welcome to motherhood. But i wouldn't change it for anything in the world. I've finally had a lil girl, and it really hasn't sunk in that I have a daughter. YAY!!!! LOL Well believe it or not BD is loving her too. All he does is sit and hold her and rock her. OK he has concord the whole feeding and burping situation. time to graduate him to diaper changing. But so far things are going good. He has been over everyday since we came home, and it's kind of cute to watch him interact with and talk to her. Let me knock on wood that he stays this consistent.

3/14/08 So I frigured that I would do an update. My lil girl is now 3 weeks old. My insurance company finally added her to my insurance, so she went for her 2 week check-up at 3 weeks. Everything is good with her, she is now weighing in at 7lbs 4 oz. Which to me is good considering her being born at 6lbs even. and also her weight had dropped before we left the hospital she was 5 lbs 11 oz. So I think she's doing just fine on the weight gain. LOL Hey all she does is eat. Well BD so far has been consistent. He even kept her the other day for 5 hours. And guess what he even changed a diaper, maybe I should give him an award for his accomplishments. Nawwwwwwwww!!! Maybe when she turns a month old. Well she has finally been spoiled, and not by me. As some of you may say what did I expect right. But seriously I didn't expect a baby that wants to be stuck up under you at night, bcuz thats the only way she sleeps. Or a baby who wakes up as soon as you put her down, bcuz she wants to be held even while she sleeps. Other than that I'm loving be a new mommy all over again, and yes I'm enjoying having a lil girl. Especially when it's time to get her dressed. Gotta Love Her!!! And it just dawned on me that this is the day that she was suppose to be born. My due date!!! Well she came when she wanted to, and I don't mind at all.

4/17/08 WELL LET'S DO AN UPDATE!!!! MY LIL GIRL HAS BEEN HERE 8 WEEKS AS OF TODAY EVEN THOUGH OFFICIALLY SHE'S NOT 2 MONTHS UNTIL THE 21ST. BUT OH WELL NO TRYING TO FIGURE THAT OUT. SO TODAY SHE WENT FOR HER 2 MONTH CHECK-UP AND IN THIS CORNER MISS SHYLA IS WEIGHING IN AT 9LBS 12 OZ. 23 INCHES LONG. SO SHE IS DEF. GETTING THERE. AND OF COURSE SHE RECEIVED HER SHOTS, AS MANY TIMES AS I'VE BEEN DOWN THIS ROAD, IT STILL HURTS TO SEE THEM CRY AFTER THEIR SHOTS. AWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!! SO SHE'S A LIL CRANKY RIGHT NOW, SO THAT MEANS A LONG NIGHT AHEAD FOR ME. LOL SHE'S STARTING TO SMILE AND LAUGH AT US NOW. GOTTA LOVE IT, IT MELTS MY HEART EVERY TIME. OF COURSE I'M BACK AT WORK NOW, LORD KNOWS I WOULD PREFER TO HIT THE LOTTERY THAN BE THERE. BUT THIS IS HOW I PAY THE BILLS SO LET ME NOT COMPLAIN. THE BOYS ARE IN LOVE WITH THEIR LIL SISTER FOR NOW, LETS JUST SEE HOW THEY ARE WHEN SHE'S IN THEIR STUFF. LOL WELL I GUESS THAT'S IT FOR NOW, OH WAIT THE BD. WELL HE IS DOING WONDERFUL WITH HER, I CAN'T COMPLAIN WHEN IT COMES TO HIM AND HER, I MUST SAY IT'S A BEAUTIFUL THING, LET'S JUST HOPE THAT CONTINUES. WELL UNTIL WHENEVER I WILL TRY TO KEEP IN TOUCH AND WITH UPDATES. KISS THOSE BABIES FOR THEIR AUNTIE, YES ME!!!! HEY YOU'VE GUYS HAVE BECOME MY I-AM-PREGNANT SISTERS. LOL