Feb 22, 2008 Hello all mommies and TTC mommies to be, I guess it is time for me to type something here. My boyfriend and I have been trying to conceive now for about 5 months and we are having a hard time. I have a cycle that comes on when it wants to come on. Like now my last period was Jan 9^th and it is now Feb 22^nd and I have taken maybe 4 or 5 testes and they all came out BFN and still no AF yet. And still no BFP I am getting very discouraged at this point and now saying to myself that we need to take a break for a while and let GOD have his way. I have a child already my daughter is 18 and she is away in college he does not have kids and we are both the same age and both want childrens. I have been pregnant twice after my daughter but was young and silly and got rid of them both. I had my daughter when I was 16 and got knocked up twice maybe a year or two after that and decide that I was to young to have any more kids, but not to young to do what I was doing to make a kid. So for some reason I feel that since I made that mistake when I was young that I am now paying for it. I asked GOD to forgive me and I know that he has but I just don’t understand why we can’t get pregnant. I have went to the doctor and I did find out why my AF do come like she do; sometimes she is so heavy and stay may be like 2 or 3 weeks. It’s because I have a small fibroid pressing on a vessel that makes me bleed so heavy and long. The last time it happen my GYN doctor actually though I was going to bleed out my iron was so low and I was flowing so heavy. She had to fight my insurance company to get a depo shoot not like the birth control depo shot but she said that this shot will stop my flow and kind put me back to normal and it did maybe a couple days later. That was in October and now it has started again missing months and then coming on when it want to like it did before the shot it will skip a month or a month and a half and than come on and stay on forever in a day. Thank you God for allowing me to get all that out that was in me. I felt like I couldn’t release it and you allowed me to do it; and do it here thank u. I said all that to say if anyone have any advice or suggestion I am so open minded and I’m welling to listen.

Feb 26th I finally got AF after being 15 days late. I am so happy that she has finally arrived, me and my man are discussing if we want to try again now or wait until we are married. I am so confused at this point half of me want a child now and the other half want to wait until we are married to do it the right way. Pray for me please

Apr 3rd Hello ladies, I took a test on Apr 1st and got a BFP. Oh my GOD that's the only thing that seem like could flow from my mouth. I was very happy and scared, we wasn't even trying to be very honest with everyone It really did just happen. God Bless everyone and know that when it is your time It will really just happen. Stay strong and trust in the LORD

Apr 17th I went for my U/S today the 2nd one the 1st one was on the 11th at my 1st OB appt. I seen my little bean and started shaking (lol) wow I love my baby already. I'm always rubbing my stomach and talking to the baby and praying that everything be ok.May GOD bless us all and that his blessing will be with us 4 ever.

Jun 26th It has been a long time sense I updated my profile, I really need to get into a habit of updateing this more often. I found out on the 25th that I was having a baby BOY and yes I was so happpppy now I can start buy clothes. I hope all is well with everyone and that all the babies are doing just fine.