natsfirsttime
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So this is my first time being pregnant and I am attempting not to be one of those paraniod first time mommies but i have had some issue early on so please bear with me!!!!!! I will have pics of the little bugger up as soon as i get them! If u wanna check them out as of right now go to myspace.com/gnatthefly and u can see me and the baby. Thanks for taking an interest

ok so went to the doc today and was blessed to get another u/s cause of all the bleeding and stuff... so really its a blessing in disguise and well they could totally tell what the baby is!!! i'll post the pics so you can see its way obvious .........

so i am pretty sure he is proud of his stuff!!!!!! as soon as the girl told me if she could see she would tell me he was all like HEY ITS RIGHT HERE!!!!!!! so the name is samuel augusta.... both are pretty meaningful to me so ... my dad passed when i was little and his favorite name was samuel and his middle name was augusta so that is where it came from!!!!!!!! oh all is well my pap came back abnormal... i told them it would and i told them why but they don't listen to me! so i have another doc appt on the 8th then another on the 20 somethingth and that is the one to confirm gender! and to make sure that there isn't anything wrong with my uterus or anything like that!!!!! i am so excited to know what it is finally i can start buying stuff!!!!!!!!!

Well its June 7th and i have an appt in the morning with my colpo doc cause the pap aws abnormal and i am hoping that they don't poke and prod too much and start this whole bleeding thing again!it has slacked off a lot and things may be looking better... hopefully so i am keeping my fingers crossed... anyway things are good as far as i know the only thing bothering me lately is i feel like i did when i first was pregnant! my skin is aweful... i am really oily and breaking out which happened at first and then stopped and now its back and was sick there for a couple of days... but finally God let me go #2 normally which worries me and excited me all at once cause i have prayed for that! you ladies know what i mean i am sure... LOL anyway things are ok for now.. i actually sent the father a message that told him i was having a boy... that is all it said was just so you know its a boy... i kinda feel like i should let him know a little bit even though he isn't the best person on the planet.... anyway hope all is well with you ladies... as always i pray for all of us!

So today is June 26th and i am horrible about documenting this whole process... I am doing well as is Sam... though at times i think he is attempting to relocate my belly button by kicking it to my nose... lol the bleeding has stopped and so has the spotting brown for the most part... i am beginning to get bigger by the day it seems and i am a little worried about gaining too much weight cause i don't want it to be too hard to lose after he gets here... it seems men love to talk to the pregnant girl cause i guess i make them feel safe cause they can't get me pregnant though i can't say i am dating anyone... i just can't seem to focus on that currently at all though i like a guy i work with and he likes me but i have too much going on so i am taking that really really really slow... i spoke with the father and he graciously stated he would get bottles or something... great sense of responsibility there... ok so that was sarcasm... he still is convinced it isn't his though i know it is... whatever i don't NEED him... i can do this alone... i have another job interview with an insurance company which i may try to work 2 jobs and get in school cause i have to save some before my little man arrives... my theory is he is all the man i need in my life.... my docs visits are going well as far as i know but sometimes i don't trust that they are telling me the whole story as to what is going on... like they did a 3/d u/s the other day and though i am grateful i didn't ask for it and they didn't tell me why they did it... so i am a little bit worried but if there was something terribly wrong i guess they would tell me ... most likely they were looking for the septum in my uterus again that they found in my 8 weeks scan but they can't seem to locate now... i think it isn't there and they are hunting nothing but you know whatever i am getting more scans because of it and for that i am so thankful... Sam is moving a lot now and sometimes i cheat and drink a dr pepper just to make him move a lot so i can feel it... i am sure i will stop doing that soon and be all like GO TO SLEEP! but until then one every now and again isn't that bad i don't guess at least that is what the doc said.... well that is pretty much it for now... everything is going well i am still paranoid when i feel moisture down there thinking the blood might be back and sometimes i pee a little when i sneeze... this whole thing is getting pretty neat though... i keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers... be well... and thanks for reading this!

july 11 2007

well i thought that once i made it to 20 weeks i was gonna be safe and ok... especially since i hadn't bled in like 7 weeks... that is until I awoke from my nap yesterday to find that i was covered in blood... Sam was still moving though and i think i was having braxton hicks contractions... well anyway i got my roommate and we went to the hospital where i spent 6 hours for them to tell me again that all is well and some women just bleed throughout their pregnancy and there is no real reason for it... i was upset and worried cause i think once you know its sex and you give it a name and you feel the little one move you get super attached... so i cried... i cried almost the whole way there and then my roommate managed to make ME feel like shit over the whole ordeal cause he was mad cause they didn't do anything really and they aren't putting me on bed rest and they aren't telling me anything.... so now i get to come home and sit and worry myself to death that my little one isn't gonna make it cause the doctors don't seem to have time for me.... freaking crap i am a wreck today! the weird thing is I don't have the belly i had when i layed down yesterday... its like i have deflated or something... its weird the doctor said it wasn't possible really and that he couldn't explain it and i said well even he (pointing to my roommate) noticed it... i am substantially smaller than i was guess i need to go weigh myself and see if i weigh less... i guess that could be good or bad... i don't know what to think anymore... i have a doc appt on the 20th so i will talk to them then and see what else is going on... they have to come up with a reason for my bleeding there just has to be one! other than that things are going smoothly... work is ok though i am gonna tell them i have to sit more... cause my legs have been killing me and so has my back... thanks for reading this ladies... its my only way to vent really cause i don't think that anyone wants to listen to the pregnant chick bitch about being pregnant... oh another weird thing is while i was at the hospital they asked me weird questions like who is gonna help with the baby? i was like ummm no one its just me... and they kept pressing the issue... then they asked me what birth control i was gonna be on after he is born and if i was gonna breast feed or bottle feed or both... it jsut seemed weird for this exam... i mean all i needed was to see if i was losing him... not my post natal care... the one that bothered me was who is gonna help with the baby.... i don't have anyone to help me... its me and him and that is it... and they acted like that wasn't gonna be enough... well it is gonna have to be more than enough cause i don't have a choice really... anyway i will write again after i see the doc on the 20th... MUCH LOVE AND PRAYERS! nat

July 26...

ok so this week has been interesting to say the least... wal mart will not just give me a stool or chair to sit on without a huge ordeal being made out of it and well if they don't i have a really good discrimination case formed so it will all work out... till they approve it though i am on "medical leave" without pay... OVER A CHAIR! anyway i went to my doc appt talked to the genetics counselor and my DNA said it was feeling good about things LOL no really they said i had a 1 in 95 chance of having a kid with downs... they wanted to do amnio... i said and i quote... do you want me to punch you in the mouth? and the doc said no and i said well that is how i feel about you sticking a needle into my belly... needless to say they didn't do it but they did do an u/s and well the baby could be billy idol in the making... or at least i hope he was all about shaking his fist and whatnot it was cool yet he still looks creepy... and his mouth was open apparently he is gonna be a mouth breather or have an oral fixation or something cause there is always something going on with his mouth... either that or u/s techs have a thing about mouths... whatever it was cool to see him and see that everything looks normal... all fingers and toes and ears and stuff ... and boy is he still proud to be a boy... other than that the visit was uneventful... well except for the video... it was an intro to amnio i guess you could say i had to watch it before i spoke with my genetic counselor which i still think is a funny profession... well a funny name for it ... cause all i can think is "hi dna my name is .... how are we feeling today..." like my dna needs to talk to someone... anyway this video... probably was filmed in 1993 i am guessing due to the fashion and the lady in it... so they go through all the steps that i supposedly am gonna go through and then the what happens to your fluids after the send them off and all that ... you get to the end of the video and the lady says and this is a direct quote.... "and ladies please rest assured that even if your results come back abnormal there is a 95 % chance you child will still be intelligent" omg i fell out of the chair laughing... i looked at the nurse and was all like well at least i know he has a 95% chance of not being stupid... it just seemed ridiculous to me... anyway so i also asked them what they though i was gonna do at almost 23 weeks if he was handicapped... i mean i have carried him almost 6 months we are over half way through... surely they don't expect that i am gonna be all like 'well he's broke guess i'll throw this one away and try again later' but i kinda got the impression that they do think like that... i mean even if he had downs what can i do other than have him and do the best i can... but they said he doesn't appear to have it and i don't think he does either so... for some reason i think i would know if there was something really bad wrong like that... kinda like an intuition thing... anyway other than wal mart being run by nazis and the hysterical video at the genetics appt nothing to report all things look and seem normal... i am sleepy so i think i am gonna go lay down... went to the mall today had a good time... things going good ... knock on wood... i will post the u/s pics as soon as i figure out how to use this new scanner... thanks for reading!!!!!!

Tuesday, 9 Oct

OK well week 33 arrived without fail which is good... i am ready to be done... my button has popped and i am done... lol pain from the chest down and heartburn galore! sperm donor has been spotted in the area hunting for me... not good but i can handle it... medicaid is still flipping around not covering me... not good ... my mother is too busy for her first grandchild... not good and last but not least my roommate is a liar... also not good... good things are my nails look fab! my hair is thick and healthy uhhhh i am talking to a really neat guy ... i met freddy krueger and i have most of what i need .... just a few more small things and diapers and i will have it all taken care of i think... anyway things will work themselves out i guess... if not well i will deal with it when it comes God never gives me more than i can handle... at least that is what grandma used to tell me... anyway hope all u ladies are well and thanks for being here for me! i really appreciate it!

Thursday, 15 Nov

so i go to the doc thinking normal going to the doc thoughts like am i dialated? has he dropped? what does he weigh? which all got answered today but to get those answers i have to go through immortal idiot hell.... first i go in they weigh me (im not happy with that btw) they make me pee in a cup... nothing new then i go and sit in a room till the doc comes in... sweet they take my blood pressure which is great casue i am healthy and i wait the doc enters he asks me about bleeding discharge blah blah blah nothing weird or unusual so then he asks me about movement... ok so Sam doesn't move like he used to cause well he really doesn't have a whole lot of room and i think he is turned where i can't really feel him move... which at times is a good thing... so i tell the doc that... so he sends me for a stress test... ok cool i lay there and get to listen to his heartbeat and figure out what is a contraction and what isn't and talk to the nurse about cool shit she has seen and been through... sweet right ... wrong this is where trouble begins... the beginning of the cluster fuck... anyway so i am laying there i have a contraction and he goes nuts afterward... normal then i have another one and his heart rate drops below 120 sounding an alarm on the machine the nurse checks it out and says hmmmm.... i don't like that... hmmmm so i ask and she explains that the decrease in heart rate can denote fetal distress... so a little while later it happens again ... she takes the printout to the doc who then finally decides to bring me back to the room and check me and give me another ultrasound (yay!) so i get the u/s everything looks good his growth is great 7 and a half lbs (YAY!) and he has hair... SWEET! i will post the pic of his little face when i get a sec.... cause after this i am going to bed! anyway so then they take me in the room and check to see if i am dialated or effacing or anything ... dialated 1.25 cm (i am not sure how he knows that cause he didn't have a ruler that i saw) and floating which means the head is not engaged in the pelvis meaning he isn't dropping i am not effacing and he isn't ready yet... ok fine ill go home right.... noooooooooo that would be too easy so i go to the waiting room to wait on my appt card and nurse barbara (aka nurse fucking stupid ass bitch who doesn't pay attention) calls me to her and tells me to go to the office in the back that the doc wants to talk to me then she whispers that she thinks he is gonna induce me ... ok so i go to the office... i wait he comes in tells me that the concern is the baby will not handle labor well and they want to induce so i ask is he sure its best he says yes... so i say ok... great i won't be preggo anymore right WRONG! so they give me the paperwork and i head to the hospital ... calling rach my mom and kenny on my way... cause well those are the folks that are coming to the hospital and so... they get called anyway i get into the hospital and they are like no ur not getting induced and i am all like what do you mean im not getting induced he just talked to me about risks and blah blah blah ..... he said that is what we are doing... nope another stress test this time a longer one so i call everyone back... wait don't come ill call you and let you know what they say... nonstress test ... you lay with monitors on your belly on your side and wait this is how they start you... no biggie i was falling asleep during it... stress test ... rub ur nipple till you think your boob may fall off to make your body produce oxytocin which makes you have contractions... do this for 10 minutes.... we need 3 contractions in 10 minutes... freaking great... so now i am laying there ripping my nipple off with different people coming in and out of the room to make sure i am ripping my nipple off the correct way to have contractions so they can tell me that the baby seems great and that i can go home........ FUCK COMP CLINIC!!!!!!!! that is the moral of this story....... they have no idea what they are doing... so needless to say the baby is fine as am i with the exception of still being pregnant....... so i go back next week and maybe jsut maybe they will get their shit together cause i better get some good grub on turkey day....... after all i am pregnant and i can eat as much as i want....... HA!

Sunday, 25 Nov

well i was so freaking scared they did my nst and his heart rate dropped again during a few contractions well at least this time i took all my crap to the doctor just in case.. so i called mom and my best friend and my roommate and put them on alert went in they got my up to labor and delivery... started an IV and i was contracting lightly before then they put in a catheter in my cervix with a balloon on the end to make my cervix dialate... it was probably the worst thing i have ever had done in life.. not pain meds no nothing they inflate a balloon and wait for it to stretch you out enough where they can just tug it out.. that is like 4cm... i was at 1 but after a minute u get used to it so it stops hurting... they started the pitocin and OMG real contractions suck so bad! so i chilled out watched i love new york marathon with 2 of the coolest most chill nurses omg we were laughing and joking making the docs dance and stuff... we got the anesthesiologist say fo shizzle LOL it was great and then the contractions got for real... i was dialated to 4 only 50% effaced minus 3 and i was like oh yes please lets do something about this whole pain situation i opted to wait on the epi and got demerol.. i didn't like it ... it made me loopy ... then i woke up...still watching i love new york and they rotated nurses... freaking crap i loved those girls but the next one was just as cool so... cause i didn't know this but at the hospital i was at a nurse sits with you the whole time you labor and watches the monitor... well i called for the epi still only at 4 and 75% this time and the guy had to re do it like 6 times cause i have a lot of veins in my back apparently but really it wasn't bad they numb you and it just feels like pressure really... the burn they tell you about... it wasn't to bad at least not to me .... so i got that and OMG! i was in love with that man.... i couldn't feel a thing from about belly button down i was having contractions and not even knowing it... freaking AWESOME! i highly reccomend the epi... so i got some real not drugged sleep my mom showed up and my best friend and everyone around 8 in the evening (they drove from FL about 300 miles) and we waited... and waited and they checked me ..oh the broke my water right before i got the epi... i felt like they deflated me it was so weird but not painful like i thought it would be... anyway finally i was at 7 and 90% and he was way in the birth canal and the belly monitor wasn't picking him up so they attached the monitor to his head that was weird cause it hangs out and well if he moves you feel it through that thing... weird anyway things were progressing and finally it came time to push and i did and it was like i had not shit in 9 months and i had to really bad and that is how you push... so 30 minutes later at 3:56 am on Nov 22 he was out his apgars were 8 and 9 the nurses were instantly like OMG he is gorgeous! and i was like omg i am not pregnant anymore! i held him fed him they stitched me up i tore a little... not fun and we laughed and joked they bathed him and the nurse from the nursery was having a little photo shoot cause he has so much hair LOL instantly he has become a ladies man... anyway the moved us to post pardom... and we chilled... i finally got food and a dr pepper... the best i have ever had in life cause at that point i was starving... and so thirsty but that is about it... afterwards i felt fine really i mean i was up and walking around i took a shower and stuff... i will tell you that sleeping in the hospital is near impossible if you are breast feeding and all the post pardom checks and stuff once you get home things are great cause you control what happens totally... but all in all labor and being induced is not that bad then again i had higher pain expectations and most of my labor i had the epi so i cheated a little...

Tuesday, 27 Nov

well everything is going well i fall more and more in love with my little man the more i spend time with him which is all the time... i dread going back to work and i dread him getting bigger! i know it sounds nuts but i want him to stay this little forever! but not in a bad way .... breastfeeding seems to be going ok... its kinda a hit and miss thing at first but i think we are getting the hang of it... this week seems to be flying by... thursday will be a week for us wow! i have lost about 15 lbs already... thank god but i also kinda miss being pregnant... kinda like when he was still in there i had a reason to be fat and there is no movement and well its weird i didn't know how used to it i was... not saying that i am gonna run out and do it again anytime soon but i know eventually one day i will... plus new babies are AWESOME! i didn't know love like this existed... he was sleeping this morning and i caught him smiling for the first time omg my heart melted... he has little dimples and he is so gorgeous! anyway we have a weight check this week and hopefully he is gaining now... lord knows he eats enough my boobies are so sore... but they have a theme song now... lol i sing to him alot though i can't sing well... anyway just thought i would update everyone... hope all is well with you ladies and i hope your delivery is as great as mine was if you haven't delivered yet...

Wednesday, 5 Dec

well for those who check in on me... here's an update... sam is good he has had his first bout with projectile vomit all over me which was interesting thank god its just boobie milk... no fever though and he is eating fine so i am not worried just a little tummy upset and possibly an allergy to onions... anyway i had a fever the other day went to the doctor and they gave me antibiotics to cure anything that might be ailing me which also could have led to the vomit from sam ... guess we will see on that one... sam lost his belly button last night it was gross i still saved it though... and he took a semi soaking sponge bath... in his bathtub which was cool cause it was easier to rinse him now that he can be wet... today he has fought off the dreaded right boobie for he prefers the left which makes mommy sore... he got a nail trim... he says manicures are for girls so he won't let me buff and shine them LOL so far today we have chilled a lot he is asleep in my lap currently and we are waiting for uncle kenny to get home so maybe we will go out to dinner... or something cause mommy wants ryans again... good variety and it isn't that bad.. oh or cracker barrel mmmm yep cravings are still not gone LOL...i love being a mommy though i never bathe alone or pee alone or shut a door cause i have to listen for him and i can't just run into a store anymore cause i gotta take him in with me... its complicated but great i am loving every minute that i get to stay home with him... cause it won't be long before i have to get back to work and these fun days of laying around watching cops and judge shows will be over and i won't get to see him nearly as much... that makes me sad to think about... but its all good i will work it out... hope everyone else is well and loving their babies and stuff... later ladies!

Monday, 17 Dec

i have a staph infection in my leg stemming from where? we don `t have a clue they think i got it in labor and delivery or sometime in my hospital stay....so here i sit with a leg that is 4 times its normal size and no infection site nothing... no cuts scrapes... nothing anyway wed of last week my leg started to hurt and well i just thought i had slept funny... friday it was hurting pretty bad i could hardly walk so i called MEU and asked them about it they said it was nerve damage not to worry keep it elevated moist heat and motrin would take care of it... so i did that kinda and monday it was a little swollen... no biggie i treated it like they said and well... tuesday it was a little worse ... i ran errands went to dinner with my friend cassie and then when i got home it was really large... wed morning of this week it was so swollen you could see it through my pants... so i went to the ER where they found my white blood cells were elevated and i had a fever of 101.5 of course i had the baby with me.... cause i have no one to watch him... they ran a bunch of tests did an u/s to be sure there was no clot then they xrayed it... then they did a ct scan... then they took a needle and put it through my knee to draw fluid off of it... that was more painful than labor... let me tell you... anyway they admitted me my roommate came to help with the baby and i have been here ever since on IV antibiotics waititng to find out exactly how they need to treat this... the CT scan showed a abcess between the deep muscle in my thigh and bone so they drained that got 60 CCs of fluid out of it... apparently that is a lot... anyway the cultures came back staph and now i wait to find out what kind... i am getting good drugs lots of sleep cause my mom has my little man and well i am pumping when i think about it so i don `t dry up... then again i may just have to stop breast feeding all together cause of all the antibiotics i am on.... makes me so sad! anyway other than that things are ok...