Mommy to be!!!! This is my second pregnancy but hopefully first baby!!!! I was first found out I was pregnant on Oct 6th 2007, but lost it at 13 weeks and 2 days on Dec 3rd 2007. I have never been through something so hard, which Im sure a lot of women can understand where I am coming from. I woke up that morning at 4, felt like I peed myself. I knew that wasnt it cause I was only 13 weeks.... so I went to the bathroom and cleaned up, laid back down and it happened again. When I sat on the toilet this time, the mucous plug and the baby came out. I think its the most horrific thing to ever see when I was suppose to be pregnant, but it was natures way of telling me something was wrong with the baby. It took a long time to get over it, and I will never get over it, but just find ways to manage the pain. But here I am, about 8 months later, 13 weeks pregnant so far and everything is going great. (that I know of) My boyfriend and I tried for 3 months to get pregnant again and it happened a lot sooner then I thought it ever would!!! Im going to catch a lot of heat from my family about being pregnant again, but they dont unnderstand what its like to loose a baby, it feels like there is a void or some sort of emptines inside me... they can either accept it and move on, or move on from me and my baby!!!

When I found out this time, I was in total shock. I had been feeling weird a about a week, and knew something was wrong, I just honestly thought that I was sick. About a week before, I was soooooooooo tired!!! My mom came into work, and I was just yawning, and my eyes were tearing like crazy. I knew I had enough sleep but I just thought I was being super lazy. Then my mom said, your not pregnant are you?? I said nooo. There is no way, which there was a possibility, but I didnt want her to know that of course! Plus, my period wasnt expected yet so I just thought it was the normal PMS. So just to rule it out, I took a pregnancy test... it was negative. Then the following week, it hit me pretty hard. I was at work (I was a server) and I kept getting these hot flashes and dizziness. I thought that was weird but I kept on with my busniess. Finally, 2 hours later, it got so bad were my face got RED and I had to sit on the floor cause I nearly passed out. I got my blood pressure and pulse taken and they were elevated, and by this point I was 2 days late on my period, but I thought that could still be from the miscarriage. Then somebody asked me if I could be pregnant, and I said I could be, but I dont think so. So I had to have a friend come pick me up from work cause I was to scared to drive, and picked up another pregnancy test on the way home. Took the test and dont you know 2 lines appeared!!! My LMP was April 11th, concieved April 26th, found out May 13th, I was 4 weeks and 3 days!!! It all happened soooooo quickly!!!!!

• April 11th 2008- LMP
• April 26th 2008- Did some baby makin!!!
• May 11th 2008- Missed my period
• May 13th 2008- Positive pregnancy test
• June 6th 2008- First doctors appointment... everything was good
• June 17th 2008- First sonogram... saw my peanut heartbeat was 158!!!!
• July 3rd 2008- 12 week check up and ultrasound... I saw my growing baby move like crazy... heartbeat was 148, 151, and 158!!
• July 17th 2008- Heard the heartbeat for the first time... around 150 bpm!! Sooo excited!!!
• July 31st 2008-Had bloodwork done for triple screen. She hurt drawing blood!! grr!! And I heard the babies heartbeat today... 145 bpm!!!!!
• August 25th 2008- Found out Im having a baby girl!!!!!! Heartbeat was 147 bpm!!!!!
• August 26th 2008- Got a phone call from the midwife at my doctors office, the baby has a condition called Omphalocele... I have to drive an hour away from a level 2 ultrasound... I hope everything is ok. I can honestly say that I am scared out my mind... the internet doesnt give the greatest reassurance that everything will be ok.
• September 4th 2008- Terminated the pregnancy
• September 5th 2008- Adrianna Renee Lee was born she was 9.5 inches and 11 oz. RIP babygirl, I love you so much!

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