***Thursday, 21 Feb***

Wow! Im just sitting here saying I can `t believe how fast time is flying in my pregnancy. LOL I mean seriously...IM 5 MONTHS! doesnt even feel like it....I guess its because im not showing as much as I thought I would. I cant wait to go to the doctor so I can have my ultrasound done to find out what im having. I felt my baby moving around yesterday...it felt so wierd. And I call myself going out last night to get out of the house and have some fun while my sister is here from out of town...and I have come to the conclusion that I CANNOT HANG ANYMORE LOL I was so exausted from doing absolutely nothing, it was ridiculous. By 2 am I was done...and they were jus getting started. I came home and all I could tell my husband was never again! right before I fell in my nice comfy bed that was calling my name alllll night ;) Im not so frustrated with him anymore...as suspected its all because of these crazy hormones. I feel bad for him because he tries so hard but right now i just dont care lol i am not the easiest person to live with these days. But the most surprising thing today was I woke up with some nausea....I mean come on I have gotten this far dont start now lol Its crazy I hope its just one of those very rare occasions that I wont see very often if at all. Well let me finish drinking my nice hot decaff tea and lay my head down and rest some more. Well guess I will ttyl mommies.

***Saturday, 23 Feb***

Hello mommies! Well nothing much to update about. I am feeling a little bit sick...kinda nauseous, throat starting to bother me but I can deal...I was jus sitting here and I REALLY felt my little sweetie pie move... before I wasnt too sure and if i did think i felt him/her move it was very very light...But now I definitely know i felt it. It was like butterflies but lol it kinda felt like I had worms or something crawling around in my belly lol...i know weird way to explain it but hey, it brought tears to my eyes...lol I feel like such a big baby about my little baby ;) Its amazing how much love you can have for someone you have never met,never touched. But I love it! As you know we still dont know what we are having but we have decided if its a boy he will be named....Anthony James after his daddy. And if its a gurl her first name will be Aaliyah...still havent came up with a middle name but im thinking maybe...Aaliyah Breanne...or Aaliyah Gabriella...lol its a work in progress. Well i will keep u ladies up to date...LATER

***Monday, 25 Feb***

OMG!! I feel so freakin miserable...I went to the urgent care center yesterday and come to find out I have the frickin FLU! And it is horrible....but the worst of all is they wouldnt give me any medicine... Im coughing, sneezing, head hurts, chest hurts...one of the worst things that can happen to a pregnant woman...as if we arent going thru enough...I dont think my baby likes it either because he/she has just been moving so much....but everytime daddy touches my belly it stops lol And now I just got off the phone with my doctor and she said that I can take tylenol cold or sudafed....when all this time i have been sitting here just waiting to see if this flu will decide to just leave me alone...now im rushing to the pharmacy for drugs lol so I will return later....

***Saturday, 1 Mar***

My baby has been so active lately. I can tell already im going to have many sleepless nights, because he/she is quiet all day and kicking mommy all night. I must say it is such a beautiful feeling. Me and my hubby are doing so good right now...I am loving the time we spend together...he still gets on my nerves from time to time but I love him ;). Is it me or have any of you ladies seen pictures of women giving birth...the graphic kinda pictures, the kinda pictures that make you want to rethink having more kids lol well I have and I am seriously considering it. Like OMG! is that area suppose to stretch that wide...will it go back to size lol im sorry but without saying too much...i would rather my lower area shrink back to its natural size and shape that my hubby loves ;)I just dont see how you can push out a baby that size and then everything goes back to normal. I showed him a picture and he almost threw up and then I asked him is he still going to look when its time for me to push and he told me NO! lol Its intimidating watching it stretch to that size... I know just like a man. After seeing those pictures Im am so scared to give birth...people say its worth it to have a child lol we `ll see...I got to the doctor tuesday so I guess I will be back then...

Pregnancy Survey
About Mommy!
Name?:	LaToya
Age?:	20
First Child?:	yes
About Daddy!
Name?:	Anthony
Age?:	22
First Child?:	yes
The Couple
Are You two together?:	yes
Ever Been together?:	yes
In Love?:	yes deeply
Get Along?:	hmmm lol yea
Finding Out!!
Day?:	November 15,2007
Howd you feel when you found out?:	extremely shocked
Who was with you?:	no one
Whod you tell first?:	my hubby
How did they react?:	shocked as well
How did Daddy react?:	again shocked
Telling the Grandparents!
How did your parents react?:	My mom was really excited!
His Parents?:	happy and supportive
Are either of them helping with Baby names?:	not yet
About the pregnancy!
Did you ever have morning sickness?:	Luckily I was spared lol
What was your symptoms?:	sleeping, enlarged and sore breast lol
When was your first appointment?:	November20, 2007
Whens your due date?:	July 30, 2008
How far along are you?:	18wks 6days
How much weight have you gained?:	as far as I know 8lbs
Have you had an ultrasound?:	yes
Have you heard the heartbeat?:	yes
What was the heartbeat?:	152bpm
Worst thing about being pregnant?:	excessive sleeping lol
Is it a boy or girl?:	don't know yet
What did you want?:	hoping for a girl but satified with which ever as long as he or she is healthy
What did daddy want?:	what else.....a BOY
About the Birth!!
Where are you giving birth at?:	Baptist Hospital
Do you know what your taking with you?:	yes I already have my chekclist ready lol
Whos going to be in the room?:	hubby, my mom, his mom, and my grandmother
Is someone videotaping it?:	lol oh no
Natural or Medicated?:	definately medicated
Will you need a C-Section?:	not sure
Will you cry when you hold the baby for the first time?:	most likely
Are you scared about labor?:	YES lol I have seen the birthing pictures, the graphic ones
Have you taken any classes?:	not yet but I plan to
Other Random Questions!
Where and When was baby conceived?:	uh I think october, definately our new apartment ; )
Have you and daddy felt the baby move yet?:	yes and he/she is extremely active
What color hair do you think the baby will have?:	black
Whos eye color do you think the baby will have?:	both of ours...brown
What will the babies Religion be?Why?:	christian
Will the baby have godparents? Who?:	yes my bestfriend crissy
What was the first thing you bought for baby?:	nothing yet, waiting to find out the sex
Is the babies room done?:	no
If so, whats the theme?:	still deciding
When is your next appointment?:	March 4, 2008
Are you ready to be a mommy?:	I was born ready lol
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***Wednesday, 5 Mar***

Well I went to the doctor yesterday and was kinda upset that she had too many patients and was unable to do the ultrasound. I mean my husband had to take off from work to go and he was so excited. And everybody was blowing up my trying to see if we found out what we are having...sorry but no. Well we had to schedule a level 2 ultrasound at the hospital I will be delivering at and luckily they will be able to squeeze me in tomorrow. I also had to have blood work done to check and make sure that the baby doesnt have down syndrome, im just praying that he/she doesnt and is perfectly healthy. Now I am really anxious because I know for sure the hospital will be able to get it done and I can finally find out if this little gymnast has a hot dog or cheeseburger lol. I cant wait to start buying things and does my husband. He has been talking about all the educational things and toys he wants to start buying. And how it is definately a BOY lol I also just found out I have only gained 7lbs, which I dont know if its a good thing or bad thing...im kinda surprised given the fact that I have been eating like it was my last meal lol I wanted to pick up a little weight since I have been skinny my entire life. I mean dont get me wrong, im am getting a little pudgy and got me some lil hips now :) and it does look good on me. Well hopefully I will have some good news to bring back tomorrow :) later mommies

***Friday, 7 Mar***

Well let me see...I have some good news and bad news. The good new is I went to get my ultrasound done yesterday. And lets just say daddy got what he wanted....because im

lol I was so surprised. The crazy thing is I saw it before the lady told us. I saw when she skimmed over the lower half of the body and I saw his little peepee and all I could do is burst out laughing lol she was like whats wrong...I said its a boy! LOL she said yes it is and my hubby was smiling from ear to ear ...mouth wide open.There was no second guessing anything...he was all boy :) I just couldnt stop laughing...it was funny and at the same time i was so happy i was trying not to cry. I mean we actually got to count all 10 fingers and 10 toes, see that the baby has 2 eyes 1 nose, 160 bpm...no abnormalities, it was so amazing... but i couldnt hold it in any longer...i didnt burst in tears, but I had some little drizzles run down the side of my face lol. Its crazy because he has been so active and moving around so much but he was so calm during the ultrasound...I told the tech i thinks hes camera shy lol she said she likes it when they are quiet because then she can get all the pics she needs and she doesnt have to wrestle with them. We got soo many pictures...and one of them shows why my little man has been kicking mommy so hard...this little boy has some strongggg legs :) Soon as the ultrasound was over my husband was sending out mass text messgages informing everybody about our little prince...still smiling like he had won the lotto. The bad news is this morning I got a phone call from the doctor saying that my blood work had come back and it was positive...so now i have to got to a perinatologist which is scheduled for march 12. She tried to reassure me that it doesnt mean the baby has down syndrome but im still worried...I mean I did see the ultrasound and it was very detailed and they said nothing was wrong but im not so sure anymore...im am really just praying for the best right now... I havent told daddy yet...hes going to be devastated...

***Saturday, 8 Mar***

Hello ladies! well I told my husband the bad news and at first he seemed really hurt...he didnt say much just that he was ok. I didnt want to pressure him to talk so I tried to let it sink in and let him get his feelings together before I said anything else or asked anything. So eventually I felt that it was a good time to talk about so I tried to let him no that its not definite yet, we dont know for sure if the baby has down syndrome or not...that it could be a false positive and or it just means that our baby has a higher chance of having it. He told me that he was worried but he did some research and it did make him feel a little bit at ease but whatever comes we are going to deal with it. My baby is still very active....when I talk to him he kicks me like hes saying mommy I hear you! lol its the cutest little thing, makes your heart melt. It seems like Im getting into that stage where sleeping becomes a little more difficult. He likes to move around and then when its mommys bed time he likes to lay on my side(my favorite side to sleep on) and jus makes it a miserable nights sleep...lol daddy fusses because I take over his side of the bed because I cant get comfortable. But im dealing with everything the best I know how and whatever I feel I cant handle...I just have to put it in gods hands and trust that he knows best...and thats just what you have to do sometimes...well mommies enough of my rambling nonsense lol talk to you later when I actually have something of importance to say :)

***Tuesday, 11 Mar***

Well lets see...I have been trying to relax and go to sleep for a while now and it just aint happenin. My nerves are so wrecked right now...I am so worried about going to the specialist tomorrow, I dont know what to expect, I just pray my baby doesnt have down syndrome. Someone asked me what would I do if he does have it...said i would need to abort the pregnancy. But I couldnt do that to my baby. After coming this far and going thru so much to save this pregnancy I wouldnt be able to live with my self, i would feel so guilty. I mean true I wouldnt be able to support him financially given the cost to take care of a sick child with a serious condition. My mom had a hard time taking care of me and she is in debt to this day from my medical bills, I have been in and out of the hospital since I was 6, so i understand the risk. But I mean it just breaks my heart, the thought of doing that, after feeling him kick, seeing him move around on the sonogram and finding out the sex. Like how could I just ignore that. I am so confused because then I think do I really want my child to suffer...to be trapped and unable to communicate with the world, would I really be helping him. I dont know...in my mind I keep telling myself to just turn it over to god and whatever his will is it will be done...but my heart wont let me completely turn it all over. Im so scared, so scared...guess im gonna go and try to go to sleep AGAIN since my appt. is at 9am...nite mommies!

***Wednesday, 12 Mar***

Well me and the husband went to the pernatologist this morning...I was sooo nervous. We went in to speak with the counselor so she could go over everything and she asked me did I know what I was there for and I told her that my doctors office called and told me that my test came back positive for down syndrome. she told me that wasnt true the numbers that came back said that my baby had a 1 in 4219 chance of having down syndrome, which is what a normal result will come back. But what it did come back as positive or a higher chance of is spina bifida...which was the last thing i would have thought possible, it never crossed my mind. It said there was a 1 in 400 chance of spina bifida. So she gave me and my husband some options and asked if I wanted an amnio which I declined...i dont want to take that chance so I just settled for a retake of the MSAFP blood test and another ultrasound since they told me that it can be seen on the ultrasound. Let me just say that my son gave that lady hell while she was trying to get the pictures :) She was like he jus wont stay still, and then when he did stop moving he was in a position that was blocking the shot she needed and refused to move lol she was like he is so stubborn and u are going to have your hands full...my husband said just like his mama lol but after she showed the pix to the doc she said that everything was fine and normal so just to confirm we have to wait for the blood results, which I was also told that of the numbers are a little high it may just be a normal # for my pregnancy and is nothing to look further into. I am so relieved that all of this is almost done. Just cant wait to hold him in my arms.

***Sunday, 23 Mar***

No real update but...Is it me or is it that everytime my hubby leaves i start having some sort of seperation anxiety lol Its like in my head as he is walking out the door im screaming please dont go(song by Tank);) I hate being here in this house alone...doing absolutely nothin alllll day. I have no job...i have no life, other than my hubby. I mean I have family close by but would rather not be bothered with them. LOL I feel like a little kid when their mom or dad is going somewhere and they tug on their shirt asking "`can I please go with you, pretty please...i promise I `ll be good ` LMAO ladies you have to excuse me but the boredom is really taking over. Im hungry...I want some mangos and watermelon...why I dont know...I just know I want em `... And these mood swings are a real B****...one minute im fine then the next I am the worse person to be around. I guess pregnancy isnt always pleasant....sorry i had to bore u with my complaints but my significant other isnt here at the moment lol so you ladies will do... so until I have some real stuff to update about or some more complaining ;) LATER!!!

***Monday, 24 Mar***

Sorry ladies but im having another moment...i am so pissed off. I have been on medicaid since i was 6 for my medical condition and about 2yrs ago they told me i was not eligible and they would transfer me to another insurance company. They called, I set everything up and they were to send my new card in the mail. I had 2 insurances...one was from my stepdad the other medicaid...so either way i still had insurance and was using my stepdads. So for the past 2 years i never heard anything else about my new insurance...thinking my medicaid was off. So I decided to call today to find out what the hell was going on and all this time it was freaking on!!! nothing had changed, they didnt know anything about another company. I mean all this time i have been paying hospital bills that i wasnt even suppose to be paying,which i dont have the money for. I am so mad...these people will tell u any damn thing to shut you up and get rid of u. Oh yea and by the way...the cutest thing happened last night... me and daddy was laying in bed and we were playing and he was poking me in the stomach, so he layed his head on my stomach and when I tell you my baby kicked the s*** out of him lol i couldnt stop laughing, and i know he kicked him because it hurt like hell and was alot stronger then the usual kicks. He was like I know he didnt just kick me!! I was like yep he tellin you not to mess with him. It was jus so funny. uhh so yea thats it..Well i think thats all for now....im outtie !!

***Friday, 28 Mar***

OMG! ladies I had so much fun last night. Me and my hubby went to the fair last night and when I tell you I ate everything in sight...I was jus wobbling my lil butt around. But I will say after about and hour of walking lol ladies I felt like I needed a walker or wheelchair...i was hurtin all in my back and legs and feet and well everywhere :) But I did enjoy myself, I have never seen so many pregnant people in one place in my life....its like there was a pregnancy convention or somethin lol bellies bellies everywhere! I will say this though, if you go to the fair with ya hubby/bd ya betta keep him close because there are chicks everywhere and they are watchin lol...so u best believe he was tied to my hip...too bad I couldnt get on any rides...baby was kicking too...i guess he was tired and ready to go home too ...but i feel like i need to lay back down...body is killing me...later ladies!!

***Thursday, 4 April***

Well ladies I went to the doctor yesterday for my check up and everything was fine. I heard my baby heart beat and it was very strong. LOL before I actually went into the exam room my doctor passed by me and she was like " OMG!! they are huge lol" Im looking around like what in the world is this lady talking about until I looked down and realized she was talkin about my boobs lol. I must admit they have gotten a little...well maybe really big. So I waited for the doc to come in and she was like I cant believe how big they are, you're going to need to buy a nursing bra before they start to cause you problems...im like oh god not another thing on my list to buy...but we went and got one. And apparently im 23 weeks but im measuring 25 weeks, so I dont know if my due date is going to change or not...which my hubby will love considering he wanted the baby to come on his b-day which is the 14 of july which is 2 weeks earlier than my due date now. Im so confused lol. But I have to say to the world how much I love my hubby even though sometimes he gets on my nerves ; )...but my baby got up at 5am this morning to go get me breakfast from mcdonalds because I woke up hungry...just to let you know I am not a morning person so waking up that early is way out of the norm for me, maybe 12pm but not 5am. I guess that is something we are going to need to get used to. Oh Yea!! we went to pick up the crib bedding we bought last night, we bought 2 different sets and they are both so cute!! cant wait to get the crib and set it all up...well ladies gotta go search for food lol LATER!!!!

OH YEA I also found out I have gained a total of 14 pounds so far which I am happy about because im not tryin to gain too much weight too fast..okay im gone!!!

***Wednesday, April 23***

Well hello mommies and mommies to be! It's been awhile since I last updated. Hmmm let me see whats been going on. I have been doing pretty good, this weight gain has been getting the best of me though, I guess my body just isnt used to the extra pounds. The baby has been active as usual, now he has been all up in my ribs which has been causing some discomfort as u can imagine. I did have a little scare the other night. My husband had been gone out of town on a business trip for 4 days and when he got back...uhh lets just say my hormones were raging lol but after we *did the do* I noticed that I had some bleeding...it wasnt bright red more light a brownish color. I also noticed a small amount of mucous looking stuff... I was so scared I thought I had lost my mucous plug and im like god please no! im only 26 weeks. So I didnt panic and run to the emergency I figured maybe there was a little blood because we hadnt had intercourse in a while. Im jus going to keep watchin and making sure my baby is still moving and theres no pain...So pray for me and my little man.

***Tuesday, April 29***

Well things have been better since I last updated, well kinda...I only had bleeding that one day and then it stopped which I am very happy about. If it happens again then I will just let the doctor know and see what she says. On another note, My son has been kicking my butt! I have been in so much pain from him moving around and kicking me in my ribs and just OMG its been crazy. And then to make matters worst I had my first braxton hicks contractions for the past couple days. I havent been able to sleep, I havent been able to go to sleep until the sun is coming up. I have just been going through it ladies lol and just think...its only going to get worst, im only 27 weeks. But we have gone shopping and bought him some little outfits. And I have to tell you if u dont know, marshall's is a first time parents or any parents dream come true lol My son has sooo many ecko, timberland, ralph lauren,carters and even jordan outfits until its not even funny. And im not talking about $30 dollars or whatever, Im talking about 3 and 4 piece outfits for $10 and $5. We even found these little chucks shoes that are just too cute. I just cant wait until he gets here

***May 1, Thursday***

Well today I woke up and realized that I had a doctors appt at 1:30 and then got a phone call asking me was I ready and packed?!?! Then I realized that I was suppose to go to orlando to my sisters college graduation...I feel so bad I couldnt go. But I went to my doctors appt. and she checked my belly, let me and my hubby listen to my little mans heart beat, which was crazy because when she was trying to find his heart beat he started kicking where she was holding the little machine...which all we could hear was him being a naughty little boy and being stubborn lol. Then she started fussing at me telling me I needed to get some bigger clothes because mine were entirely too small....lol that made me feel so good about myself...oh yea! i have gained a total of 20 pounds yay me....even though I dont look like i have gained that much. But other then that I have to go get a gluocose test and a ultrasound done before I go back in two weeks...Thats the best part!! I get to see my baby again! i havent seen him in so long and I wanna see how much he has grown. The bad thing is now I have to go every 2 weeks....usually I wouldnt have a problem with that...but dont these people realize how much gas is these days, and it sure aint cheap down here in miami. I aint got money like dat to be burnin gas especially when I have to get the rest of the stuff for the babyshower and get myhair done, a outfit, and pay our bills this month...lol dang I guess I never really paid attention to how much everything was, but then again i didnt need to take care of anybody else but me. Im just sitting back counting down until he arrives....

AJ HAS ARRIVED!!!!!

Birth Story

Well I had a headache for about 2 days and on the last day I didnt sleep at all that night. So when I finally got out of bed the next day my head was killing me, I was dizzy, I was seeing spots in my vision so I called the the doctor to see If I could take somethin stronger for what I thought was now a major migraine. I explained everything to the doctor and she told me to get to the hospital immediately, she thought it was preeclampsia. SO I called my husband and told him what she told me and he rushed home from work to take me to the hospital. While I was waiting the doctor kept calling my phone asking if I was there yet, and I knew something was really wrong. When I got there I went straight to the mother and baby floor for them to triage me. The whole time I could barely see, my vision became so bad I couldnt really see where I was going and I couldnt even read the forms the nurse wanted me to feel out, and the whole time I was trying to answer the questions, I knew what i wanted to say but the words just wouldnt come out and I got so scared. When they took my blood pressure it was 192/120 and I had protein in my urine, my face and body period was so swollen and they said it was definitely preeclampsia. At that point I was terrified because the nurse said i had for sure had a seizure and probably passed out and didnt even realize it since I was already in bed. I couldnt answer anymore questions because even though I knew what i wanted to say, verbally it wouldnt come out....lol i know its hard to understand. So she hooked me up to and IV and gave me some magnesium to try and get my pressure down. She then informed me that if it went down I could try and be induced and have the baby vaginally or if it was still high they would do and emergency c-section....either way I was having the baby that day, no ifs ands or buts. Well it was dangerously high and they rushed me to labor and delivery to have me wait and see what the other test results were. When I saw the nurse come in with the surgical gown for my husband I knew what was happening and they had the neonatologist, anesthesiologist, my ob, and some other doctors in to tell me what was about to happen. When they rolled me in the opertating room he nurse was telling me to move onto the table and I couldnt see where she was...my vision was gone...im terrified on the verge of tears and just wanting my baby to be safe because I was only 32 weeks and 3 days. They did the spinal block and let my husband in and I was so scared. I could feel them pulling and pushing and when it felt like they popped something out I heard him start screaming and all I could do is start crying. LOL everything was so rushed that we didnt even have a camera to take pictures. I couldnt believe i had given birth to my son. They let his dad cut the cord and told me everything was ok....and then they let me see him before they took him out. I feel so extremely blessed because he didnt need to be on a ventilator or anything, he was breathing on his own and had absolutely no complications.... LoL the crazy thing is the night before me and the hubby were at walmart trying to get everything we needed to start packing the hospital bag. We hadnt washed any of his clothes or blankets....still hadnt purchased everything we needed for him, even though we had just had the babyshower 6 days before I had him(you know you never get what you really need at a babyshower) we were so unprepared