7-28 induction tomorrow at 430 in the morn so scared....i will have my baby n my arms tomorrow had dr. apt. today dialated between a 2-3

7/15/08 tuesday. my 38th wk apt. same ol same doctor didnt say anything had to ask again if anything had changed.. he said yeah a finger or 2 . what typa shit is that? anyways i cramped so bad after he checked me. and my sinus are acting up. i put kamora beatiful bassinet together last night. and i went today and spent 300 on the medela breast pump i just had to have. i hope like hell i get at least half of my moneys worth out of it!!! thats alot of freaking money. oh well anything for my princess. still working the kids at in my class are really working my nerves this week. i have a huge classroom and i walk back and forth while they play in there centers. there is two steps at the end of the walkway i climb up and down also. i gotta get my princess out soon. so i can take off work and take care of her!!

7-10 jus got back from l&d nurse check me i am 1 cm dialated and 75% effaced. she said baby head is fully engaged which is why im having so much pain walking. she said she could feel her head and my membranes. i really think that i was dialated like this two days ago at my apt doc just really didnt check me like he should. now i know i am progressing. which is a really great feeling!!! i have to stay off my feet as much as possible. she will be here soon enough. not a single contraction while i was there. but i knew once i layed down there wouldnt be because as soon as im off my feet they seize. oh well.

7-10-07 lots of pain today and sick to my stomach up all night and now im dry heaving may go to hospital when i get off.

7-7-08 i was the last pateint in the office before lunch so i got the shitty end of the stick! he rushed right through me . stuck his finger up there and didnt say anything so i asked has anything changed in there he said nope and out the door he went. the damn nurses where standing outside the door waiting for me to come out with their purses for lunch. i cant really stand my doc or his staff! oh yeah ive been walking 3 nights this week i have so much pressure its un real.

7-1-08 went to doctor today i lost 5 lbs so they sent me to do another anemia test. had step b test done . not so bad. doctor really didnt check me and when i asked if i was thinned any him and the nurse both laughed at me. pissed me off!

6-20-08 i started taking primrose oil capsules 2 days ago i think they are working because i do have a little discharge. daddy says he thinks that i maybe i have because it feels different down there!! dont know hell he dont know either! we will see when i go to the doc on the 24th i hope like hell he checks me! imma tell him that i am having alot of pressure down there so maybe he will! i will be so thrilled if he tells my im thinning or even dialated i know its still early but any sign of some type of labor readiness from this body is greatly appreciated it will give me jus a little bit of hope for my future labor that i am deathly afraid of!!!

6/16/08 My baby shower was amazing!!! kamora got so much stuff! she will never be able to wear an outfit twice! so many friends and family came. over 90 people where there! and everyone spent alot of money on their gifts. i got some multiple things from walmart but i am goin to take them back and get a gift card to buy the monitor i want online. my mom bought me the rug i wanted but couldnt find. she bought it at my favorite baby boutique Srorkland where we ordered my furniture from! i cant go in there unless i have lots of extra cash because they are really expensive! but i was really excited to get 2 $50 gift certificates from there!!! i put all, almost all her things up and put the rug down on the floor it seriously made the room pop!!! im so excited! i sit in the recliner in the nursury all the time and day dream about when i am going to be able to sit there rocking my baby girl!!! i am posting pictures soon! i am so freaking anxious. i hope i go early everyone is saying i will but i dont have very good luck. i am going to start walking sometime this week jus to get my body mind and soul ready for labor.

6/13/08 update.... my baby shower is sunday!! woooo hooo! im so excited!!!!!! cant wait to open all kamoras gifts!!! yeah!!! tomorrow i am goin to get a manicure and a pedicure and get my hair done! daddy is pampering me!! got love it!!! i love my baby so much! im so addicted to her already! shes already gotta attitude! she will stop kickin when daddy puts his hand on mommy's tummy! shes amazing!!! i cant wait to hold her and kiss her and never put her down!!! i bought a big nice recliner last weekend that i put in the nursury bought the curtains today all i need it the rug!! i just cant find the perfect one! if you all seen her room you would already think she has had her big shower already!!! she has a $4,000 dollar crib furniture set its beautiful her bedding cost $499. thanks to her Nana! my mom has went all out! i love it! im so blessed to have my mother be able to buy for my child the way she does! i cant stay out of the baby sections i have a fetish its my first stop at any of the store i go to!

6/3/08 i had my doctors apt today. everything went great. got to hear kamora's heart beat i will be 32 wks tomorrow! my dr wrote on the paper for my next apt to be every 2 wks but then looked at the calendar and changed it to 3 wks dont know why? shoulda asked but oh well! i have the nursury almost done i just need a rocker a rug and curtains! its so real now! my baby shower is the 15th. my baby shower is co-ed and we are expecting over 75+ people to attend we are doing it on fathers day and having a lil father day celebration along with it! i cant wait to see everyone! i am glad its june cause i can now say my baby is due next month even tho it is on the last day of the month!! i hope she comes the wk before i am predicting that she does!

update 5/23/08

things are wonderful! except for my swollen feet! i could imagine working somewhere where you are on your feet all day. i sit as all possible cost! daddy is putting the crib together now! we jus came back from walmart from picking up her bassinet and swing that i ordered at walmart.com! ordered her bottles today also. cant wait till daddy finish putting Kamora's crib together so i can get in there and start working! its as exciting as a new car or something!!! i feel Kamora all day long and especiallly after i eat! she goes crazy! i love it!!

Saturday, 19 Jan

this pregnancy was a surprise to me and everyone around me. I had been on the bc shot for 5 years. I had an abnormal pap come back and the doctor recommended that i switch to the pill i did. i have never been good at remembering to take pills i missed one day and got pregnant. good thing i chose the shot the first 5 years! i couldnt handle a pregnancy then! the timing was really off to me.I am in a sorority and was just elect to serve on exec in november for the following spring and fall semester. which is the governing body of the sorority. i was elected to serve as Education Vice President. when elected i was thrilled to be able to serve my sorority. only to find out a few months later that it jus wasnt meant for me. i told the president of the sorority about 2 weeks ago. i was really scared because i didnt know how the other girls would react. sometime girls can be so mean. she told me not to stress and that she would look into me options. i had lunch with her the next monday and she gave me many option but of course serving as the EVP was not one of them. i will admit it is a hard, time consuming job. and it would have caused alot of stress that i didnt need. i hated to step down from my position i felt like i was letting my sisters down.but i agreed it was best. i told the rest of my sisters this past tuesday. many didnt say much and some congradulated me. im trying my best to say positive. i am goin to stay active in my chapter and hope to come back and run for a positon next year. child permitting!! if any of you are in a sorority and wanna talk please let me know!!

Friday, 25 Jan

i jus got back from my sonogram. it was amazing the baby looked so much bigger then the lima bean i seen before! my bf was amazed. he was like it looks like me. i said yeah because u have a big head! i think it truely moved him. i could tell the look in his eyes was nottin but true amazement. he wouldnt give me the picure back he jus kept saying look at my baby! it was too cute. i knew it would be to soon to tell the gender but im still in astonishment. i havent put the pic down since we left. wow!!! thats how i feel is wow!! the baby wasnt moving aroung alot like others have said about theres but he was arching his back and waving to his mommy and daddy!! he kicked his knee up. he wasnt moving around as much as other mothers say they seen theres do flips and stuff he was chillin and relaxin smiling for the camera jus like his momma does!! i keep saying he but he/she u know what i mean!!

Sunday, 2 Mar

ITS A GIRL!!!! HAD A SONO TODAY AND THE TECH WAS 95% SURE THAT ITS A LITTLE GIRL. DADDY WAS A LIL ANOYED BUT I AM SURE THIS LIL GIRL WILL HAVE HIM WRAPPED AROUND HIS FINGER IN NO TIME!

APRIL 25...

I have decided to change the intended name. We are going with Kamora Nicole. I really love it!! my sister is 13 wks pregnant also. I am so excited that our children will grow up side by side only 3 months apart!! hopefully they will both be girls! and they will get into everything together!! wow!! maybe not such a good idea!! my sis has recently been in and out of the hospital because she started bleeding and had cramps. she is still on bed rest doc says baby is fine and well and she know has a 95% chance of having a healthy pregnancy. i had a sono done tuesday i told this nurse that i didnt know what i was having because i didnt want to tell her i was already told i was having a girl and her to be like oh yeah its a girl i wanted her to honestly look. anyways no luck baby girl had both of her hand in between her legs. im goin for a 4d sono at the end of may i am waiting for my sister to turn 18 wks shes gonna go then to find out the gender of her baby and go with her at the same time to get my done. i cant wait!

APRIL 26

my sister started bleeding very bad last night at a restraunt we were at. we called the paramedics and they came and took us to the ER. we stayed there till about 3am they found a heart beat and sent us home they said her cervix was closed and the wanted her to call her doctor in the morning.

APRIL 27

my sister called the doc and he had her come in he sent her to the hospital for a better sonogram. she went baby was fine but she was still bleeding and cramping he but her on extensive bedrest until further notice

APRIL 30

my sister is doing better. she is off bedrest and back at work.

MAY 1

My sister had bad cramping and passed more blood clots we went back to the ER. they had admitted her until further notice

May 3

my sister was back home on bedrest. she started cramping and yelling my mom took her back to the ER. the sono showed blood in the placenta and the placenta has started to seperate from the wall of the uterus. doc prescribe her some hormone pills hoping to get the bleeding to stop. baby heart beat was fine. he said its jus a wait and see process she is 14wks and they will not do anything to stop labor if she goes into it until she is 26 wks. we are praying she keeps this baby. they now have her labeled as a high risk pregnancy. she will get a sono every monday and see the doc every monday afternoon.

MAY 4

sister back in the hospital.

May 6

my sister bleeding has seems to decreased she is passing huge blood clots. they did another sono today and the blood from in the placenta had passed. nurse said it looks 100% better. she was sent on home!!

MAY 7

my sister is back in the hospital she has now leaked out of the the amniotic fluid from her placenta. there is no fluid around the baby at all. the doctors are trying to get a hold of a bigger hospital in the metroplex to see if they will accept her. they are also worried that she has lost so much blood she may need a transfusion.

MAY 8

the other hospital called back they will not accept her until tomorrow at 230. the hospital here has released her until then. me and my sis were gonna go get her 2d and my 4d sono together. since she is not able too i went today and got my 4d done. is was amazing. Kamora was being stubborn tho. we got a few good shots of her. and tech confirmed she definetly was a girl. Now i can put the Pink polka dots on the nursury wall without being scared shitless!

May 9th

my sister miscarried last night. she was at united with my mom and she passed the baby there in the bathroom. as soon as i got out of my sono last night my 14 yr old brother texted me and told me that they were at the hospital i called my mom she told me to get there now. my mom seen what she had passed and said the it defintelly was the baby. we were all pretty upset my sister also. i think she had time to prepare herself for this but you never can be ready for something like this.She had said several times that she was leaving it up to god and if he wanted her to continue to carry this baby then she would but if he needed her baby for one of his angels she would not be mad at him for choosing her to carry his angel for a couple of monthes. they did a DNC on her and kept her for a few days to watch her blood count.

May 11th

my sis is out of the hospital now she is staying with my mom for a couple of days until she gets some of her strength back. its so hard for me to feel comfortable around her because i jus know the last thing she was to see is my big preggo belly is her face. she asked to see my 4d sono picture and i told her i didnt think she felt like seeing them yet she told me yeah she did and i told her i would bring them next time i came over.

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hi everyone!! I am currently pregnant with my 1st child! Its an experience like non other before. I am scared and excited all at the same time!! That alone is truely over whelming!