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My husband and I found out we were expecting when i was 14 weeks and 1 day pregnant. I never had one bit of morning sickness, or weight gain, so it was the strangest thing! This is so exciting. I feel truly blessed since i was told i would never be able to have children. I am really hoping for a baby girl, but he, and everyone else wants a boy. I never knew that i could love someone so much. I have never seen this person, and i really dont know much about them, but already i feel an indescribable love for him or her. It is the most wonderful feeling in the world to know that I am directly responsible for bringing another life into this world. I cannot believe how wonderful it feels to know that i will be a mother in five months! It is a little overwhelming at times, but I am so very excited, and i can't wait to meet my little one!

I don't think that i have felt any movements yet, i thought i did one time but now that i think of it, it probably wasn't the baby. I go in on the third to get a gestational diabetes test. I have P.C.O.S so i am at an increased risk. I am praying that i do not have it. I know God will keep me and the baby safe. I am just so glad to be having this baby, I know that everything will turn out just fine.If the baby is a girl her name will be Brianna Nicole, and if its a boy i have no clue what ill name him lol.

Sunday, June 24th

yesterday i went swimming it was really relaxing. i am seventeen weeks today which makes me really happy because im one week closer to knowing the sex of the baby. i am still hoping for a baby girl! i still havent felt movement yet, i cant wait. the bad news is i woke up feeling really crappy, i think i ate a bad hamburger yesterday. this is not good!

Thursday, June 28th

i still havent felt the baby move, i have just been feeling really really tired. i got a new job today so i am hoping that goes well. i want to save some money for the baby:) i have been eating nonstop lately, but not gaining much weight so its good :) i get to eat all the things i love, and not gain too much.

Tuesday, July 3rd

So I finally felt muh lil one move today. It was a very great feeling, id have to say like nothing i have ever experienced before. At least now i can stop worrying so much!

Thursday, July 5th
Today I went to take my gestational diabetes test. I passed it with flying colors, which is really great, I was worried about it! The baby has been moving around lots and lots! I got to hear his/her heartbeat today, it was 189bpm, which is really high, i think it was cause I was hyped up on all the sugar from the glucose test. I also heard the baby swimming and the amniotic fluid gushing around. I heard it kick my tummy, it was wonderful, its a great feeling to know that there is a tiny person in there who loves me unconditionally and that they are totally dependant on me. I feel so great, its wonderful being responsible for bringing another life into the world. :) Thats all for today :)

July 9th
Went to E.R last night had a little scare. Found out that
ITS A BOY!

He wieghed 8 ounces, hes doing just fine. Had an ultrasound to make sure that he was doing okay, turns out, everything is great!

July 14th
Not much new here, have another ultrasound appt. on Wednesday.Colby kicked me really hard in the bladder and i really almost peed on myself. i had to look to make sure i didnt. I hope hes growing good :)

July 18th
Went to the doctor today for my ultrasound. Colby has an echogenic fetal cardial focus, which in big words is a calcium deposit in the chamber in his heart. i have to go to a specialist. Usually it is nothing serious, but i have to go to be sure. In other news he weighed in at 11.5 ounces. He was sooo cute! Heart rate was 146bpm.

August 2nd
Went to specialist this morning to look at Colby's heart and to make sure he didnt have downs. He does not have down syndrome but the calcium deposit is still there so i have to go back in 8 weeks to see if it gets any better. He wieghed 1lb exactly, and was doing really well. He was kicking like he was pedaling a bike it was really fun. His heart rate was 155bpm.

August 15th

Went to the doctor this morning. Colby is doing great! I also asked to be induced on November 26th, just to make sure that all of my family and my doctor can all make it there. I passed my glucose test, AGAIN!! The baby's heartbeat was 134bpm. Next appointment is on September 12th, i scheduled a 4D ultrasound for that day but im not sure if ill get it or not. Guess ill just have to see. God bless you all and hope you are doing wonderful!

September 26th

Went to the hospital today cause i went into labor...AGAIN! It is because of a really bad kidney/bladder infection that wont go away. I called the doctor cause i went to pee and it was mostly blood, and that was the scariest thing ever! She said just dont worry they will call me in prescription. Well i went to get the medicine and the pharmacy had already closed. I couldnt sleep that night cause i was having contractions so bad. At about 2am they got so bad that they were taking my breath away, so i decided to call the doctor back again to ask her what to do, she was sooo rude (i hate the on-call doctors) she told me she was sleeping and if something was wrong with me go to the hospital, so i did, and they said they would have to keep me overnight.They gave me meds to take every 6 hours to keep me from having contractions, and put me on bedrest. The next 7 weeks are going to suck so bad!

September 27th

Left hospital this morning to go back to the specialist to get my last look at little colby's heart. Turns out the calcium deposit has gotten alot smaller and less dense, so they said i have nothing to worry about. I thank god for answering all my prayers. My little boy was so beautiful, it brought tears to my eyes to see him, he was so perfect. Its funny to think that that beautiful little person came from me. Its an honor really. I feel so blessed to be called his mom:) His face has changed so much. Last time his nose and chin were kind of pointy, but this time they were rounded :) i guess he is putting on his baby fat like he should. He is doing great, he weighed 3 pounds 3 ounces. That was most likely the last ultrasound ill get for the rest of the time im pregnant.

October 11th

Im getting sort of lazy about updating my page! well all is good here, just getting more and more stretch marks as the minutes go by. My first baby shower is in nine days :) I am feeling pretty good lately, just getting more and more tired. i sleep more now than i have in my entire life! I think i have been nesting. For the past week i cant seem to pry myself out of the babies room. I dont even have alot of stuff for him yet, so its not like im really doing anything LOL. sometimes i just stand in there and look in his crib and imagine what it will be like to see him in there. i try to imagine his personality... i hope he doesnt cry all the time, but if he does oh well. Im getting pretty nervous about the actual delivery, im scared to death! I scheduled my induction at my last doctors appoinment. So it is definitly november 26th. however, im sortof hoping he will be here by then :) LOL i just hope he will behave himself and stay in there till after my baby showers :)

October 15th

Went to the doctor today. All is well except that i tested postive for group b strep. Its not really that big of a deal so i dont guess im too worried. I am measuring just fine.. although i did gain 5lbs in a week.. LOL

October 20th

Today was the first of my two baby showers. I had a wonderful time. it was a small shower just between me and my closest friends. We had a blast. I got a lot of stuff that i really needed. My favorite is the foam bumbo seat. I also got a second carseat w/ base for hubbys car:) The best thing was someone ordered me the bedset that i really really wanted from the beginning but i couldnt afford. I have already bought one of my own, but i guess having two wont hurt :) It was a very nice gift. I had never even been to a baby shower before today, but it was really nice. Not what i expected. we played lots of games, one where people guessed how many toilet paper squares it would take to fit around me (it took 12) and then another where we were blindfolded and had to try to see who could get the most cotton balls into a bowl on our head witha spoon :) then there was also another one where we had to guess how many Q-tips were in a bag. I got a candle for myself, that smells like fuzzy navel wine coolers lol. it smells good even though i dont drink. So today was a giant success :)

October 22nd

Went to the doctor today. All is good i guess? I got examined, 3cm dilated and 50% effaced. And i finally hit the 200lb mark! She was worried, ya know cause doctors dont like babies to come early. Although im not to worried i had my steroid shots a month ago. i know he will be just fine. so i have his little bag packed up and ready for him. i even got some preemie diapers if he needs them :) Now im just sitting and waiting :) ready to get him outta my ribs, and into my arms! i also set the exact date and time for my induction. I will be going into the hospital at 5pm on Nov 25th, they will administer the Cervadil, and then ill stay over night and the next morning they are getting me up and starting the pitocin. I am very excited, but i sort of hope hes not still in there by that time :)



COLBY IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!

I woke up monday morning to go pee, and my water broke while i was sitting on the toilet :) Rushed to hospital, i was still 4cm. I got there at about 730am. They put me in a labor room for a while, i got my IV put in. I was waiting for ryans mom to get there since she lives about an hour and a half away. My contractions were irregular and not very painful. I was still pouring out amniotic fluid. Ryans mom arrived, then i was moved to a delivery room. Then the nurse started the pitocin, the contractions got stronger and stronger. They were getting extremely painful, i told the nurse i was in ALOT of pain, so she said she would get the guy to do my epidural.Epidural didnt hurt much, just uncomfortable, and it only really worked on my right side because if i laid on my back or left side his heart rate would drop way down, and i guess all the medicine went to the right side from me laying that way. The epidural started wearing off when i was about 7-8 cm... OMG IT HURT SO BAD. i was freaking out!!! This time a different guy came back and gave me more medicine and after about thirty minutes i was in less pain.l Anyways, about 2:15pm the nurse says that im 8-9 and one more minute and we will start pushing. I started practice pushing, and after a while she said that she could see his head and he looked like he had alot of hair. i was soo happy i always wanted him to have alot of hair. then she was commenting that it looked like he was going to be a big baby cause he had a big head. Scared the crap outta me. i pushed for about 10 minutes and then the nurse told me to stop so that she could get my doctor, its SOOO hard not to push cause it feels like you have to.My doctor came in the room wearing scrubs, and then it was like everything just came to life for me, that this was really happening. Ryan was crying and staring down there, i was sooo tired i didnt want to watch with a mirror all i could think about was getting him out. When he finally came out and they held him up i was like.......huh? he was SOO small and frail.. i was so scared i thought that something was wrong with him. At 2:41 pm he was here. 5 pounds 9 ounces, 19 inches long head circumference was 33cm. They laid him on my belly, and he was so warm and wet and sort of greasy feeling. I touched his hair, and i was crying so hard, and so was his daddy. He stopped crying and just stared at me like he knew who i was the whole time. They took him over there to measure him and i was so worried i kept asking them was he okay.. and why was he so small. They assured me that everything was just fine.. i breastfed him for a minute, then after a while they took him away to the nursery and ryan left with him. the nurse cleaned me up and helped me to my recovery room. i had about an hour to myself to sit and think. i remember crying cause i felt empty. i sortof missed having him in my belly. I cant describe the feeling to you to look into your baby's eyes for the first time. Its like this total stranger who has been living inside of you that you know nothing about, you finally see them, and you are amazed at how beautiful something can be, whethere they are covered in goop or not. He is so beautiful, i have never felt that way before, it is unexplainable. I only had one small tear, which was much better than the episiotomy that i refused to get. Um i know you are all wondering if it hurt or not, so yes it hurt, even with the epidural, the pressure still hurts, but i forgot it all the second i saw him.There are no words to say how it feels. All in all it was very easy, and i have felt perfectly fine since he was born, im not sore, and the bleeding has almost stopped already. I am breastfeeding him, which is easy. Umm ill write more later sortof tired and need to clean the house up :)


LIFE WITH COLBY

Colby turned one week old yesterday. Everyday has been so rewarding. It feels so wonderful to have him lying on my chest sleeping. I love to hear him breathing, i like watching him smile in his sleep. He is such a beautiful baby, he never cries, except when hes getting his sponge baths. The only time that he likes it is getting his hair washed. He just stops crying and looks at me... its soo sweet. I love looking into his little eyes and knowing that hes mine, that im going to love him for the rest of my life, and that no one will ever take him from me. He has been such a blessing on my life, he has made me into a better person, he made me grow up. There is nothing i wouldnt do for him, and thats how it will always be. I am so glad that he is here and that he is healthy. God really blessed me with a healthy baby, and im truly grateful.


November 27th

Yesterday Colby turned three weeks old. I have to say that this has been the best three weeks of my life. His cord came off yesterday too, ill post a pic of his brand new belly button :) He also got his first real bath yesterday as well. He hated that lol. Ill put some pics of that up too. I havent updated much since hes been born mostly cause i have been so busy. Taking care of a baby is really hard work. Its a full time job. It is so worth it though. I think i am adjusting to motherhood really well. Getting up in the middle of the night isnt even really that bad. He is a very good baby, he doesnt really ever cry. He loves to be held, and hes just now starting to make little noises when you talk to him. He still hasnt smiled yet, but he makes the cutest little faces, it just makes my heart melt :) He is looking more and more like his daddy every day, which i think is so cute. I cant wait to have another baby. Maybe ill get a baby girl, that would be sweet :) I plan on waiting about three years before trying for another baby. As for right now my life is totally consumed in Colby. Its amazing how much i love him. i would do absolutely anything for him and thats how it should be. He is the love of my life, and no one could ever make me any more happy than he has. I guess ill go now, he has a doctors appointment tomorrow, so ill update on how everything goes.

November 28th

Colby's doctors appointment went well. He weighed in at a shocking 7lb2.5oz!!! He is also an inch taller, 20 in. His head grew one and a half cm, so now its 34.5 cm. She said hes still small, but its okay. They also discovered he had a broken collarbone, from birth, that no one has noticed and hes three weeks old. They didnt even know it until now. Its healing up just fine though, she said he will always have a lump there. So just so glad that everything is good :) Hes a healthy boy :)

December 4th

Colby turned a month old yesterday :) Hes growing soo fast! He makes lots of noises now, and when i talk to him he turns his head to look at me. Hes staying awake longer and longer everyday, and every night lol, i think hes getting his days and nights mixed up a little bit. He is a perfect baby, never really cries unless hes hungry, and that is wonderful! Doesnt even cry when he has a wet or dirty diaper. Hes looking at the computer screen right now, i think he likes the bright lights, he watches the TV too lol. I sing to him all the time and he just watches me and makes all these sweet faces. I Love being a mommy. There is nothing i would rather do :)

December 13th

Took colby to the doctor this morning. he is 8lb15oz, 20 1/2 inches tall. He got his shots too :)

December 17th

Got home this morning from three days in the hospital with Colby. He has had a bad virus.. 104.6 fever, and projectile vomiting. We spent three days in the pediatric ward. We are home now and hes doing much better. Just has a stuffy nose. Ill post some pictures of our stay

December 27th

Havent updated in a while! Colby is now seven weeks old. He wieghs somewhere around nine and a half pounds. We had a great christmas! Colby's nana got him an exersaucer! i cant wait till hes big enough to play in it! He is such a wonderful baby, the ONLY time he cries is when hes hungry. Doesnt even cry when he needs to be changed. He is still waking up every 3-4 hours at night. I cant wait till he starts sleeping through the night. He has been smiling tons and tons :) he even makes sounds too, its sooo cute. hes a great kid. He has made my life soo complete. He loves sitting in his swing, and he likes being held and talked to. he will just look at you and smile and make noises. He gets the hiccups alot too lol. OH he has cradle cap pretty bad, does anyone have any tips on how to make it go away. i bought some cradle cap shampoo but it doesnt seem to help. Hope all of you ladies are doing wonderful :) Enjoy those precious babies!


January 3rd

Took Colby to the doctor this morning for his two month check up :) he weighs 10lbs11oz. hes 22 inches tall. head circumference is 37cm. Hes still not sleeping through the night :( hopefully he will start soon, im starting to get a little worn down lol. Hope everyone is doing wonderful:)

February 3rd

Goodness its been a long time since i updated!!! Colby is now three months old. He coos and gurgles and smiles all the time. Hes a VERY happy baby:) i love him sooo much!! Some of his favorite things are talking to his daddy on the phone, he smiles and makes soo much noise when he hears him talk. Umm.. swinging in his aquarium swing, sitting in his bumbo, eating, and riding in the car. He is still eating four ounces every four hours. Last tuesday we went to his doctor cause he has a rash on his chest and shoulders and arms, turns out my baby boy has eczema, so now i had to buy all hypoallerginic baby wash, lotion, etc.. Also had to buy laundry detergent with no dyes or perfumes. And he has prescription cream i have to put on him three times a day. I hope that it will go away. i dont want my baby to be itchy all the time. His hair is getting really long and curly :) he gets that from his daddy. He is also sleeping from 11pm to about 7:30- 8 am. Its wonderful!! Hes a perfect baby! i love him more than anything. We have an appointment at olan mills this wednesday to get his pictures made!!


Feb 17th

OMG soo much has been going on havent really had lots of time to update. Well ill start at the beginning. Colby man has been suffering from severe eczema for the past... two months or so and nothing seems to be helping it. yesterday i took him in to the doctor cause his scalp was cracking and bleeding... they gave me a whole new list of things to do to hellp it go away. Hes now on Enfamil Nutramigen Lipil formula.. it smells really bad, and he hates drinking it. He went from drinking four ounces at a time, to two ounces if im lucky. He really hates the taste of that crap, i hope he will get used to it though. Yesterday he was weighing in at 13lb9oz. hes getting big. We go for his four month check up on march 5th. with all the new list of things to do they said his eczema should clear up in about a week, week and a half somethign like that. i hope to god that it will get better. i hate seeing my baby suffer. i just want him to lead a normal healthy life and not have to have a itchy painful rash to deal with... i love him soo much i wish i could just take the rash off of him adn put it on me... well hope everyone is doing okay :) love you all MUAH!!

Feb 19th

Today was our first walk outside in the stroller. i woke up and it was a very nice day outside, about 75 degrees, little breeze blowing. so i decided what better than to go walking outside with my hunny :) so me colby and dada went walking we walked a mile then sat down at a picnic table for a while and i fed him a bottle. his first picnic lol!!! hes a great baby. his rash is clearing up really good. this new pediatrician must really know her stuff!! hes doing so much better and im soo happy. have a blessed day everyone!!

March 5th

Today was Colbys 4 month checkup. Everything went okay. He weighs 14lb3oz (25th percentile), he is 23 1/2 inches tall(less than 5th percentile), and his head circumference is 42cm (50th percentile) The doctor seemed to be concerned that he is so short. She said she will have to keep a close eye on that. His legs are really really short. He is still in newborn pants and hes 4 months old lol. But i dont think its anything to worry about. His daddy has short legs too. He laughed out loud for the first time yesterday. It was pretty funny.. i have only heard him do it twice but its the cutest thing ever! He is still a joy, and a wonderful baby. I love being a stay at home mom. I cant imagine anywhere id rather be than with my baby all day long. He is a true blessing. I cant even put it into words. He got his shots today too.. so hes not feeling so good. He never does well with shots. he gets really clingy and whiny. He wants to be held non stop for about 2 days afterwards which is okay with me :) Hope everyone is doing great :) Muah!!!

March 16th

Been a while since i updated so i have lots of stuff to talk about :) UMMM.. Colby laughed out loud like a for real laugh on March 4th... he does it pretty regularly now. Hes so cute! Such a wonderful baby! Hes just getting into 3-6 months clothes, hes still short though, wears 0-3 pants. Also, i got SICK of my Dr. Browns bottles... to many freaking pieces to wash all the time.. so i put all those up and went and bought the playtex Drop in bottles..omg my life is so much better now!! I Love not having to be constantly washing bottles for 45 minutes at a time!! My phone got lost/ stolen the other night.. which freaking sucks! So im going to get a new phone tomorrow. Uhh.. well Colby is doing great on the Nutramigen formula.. he just spits up quite a bit which is kind of annoying cause his milk smells so horrible in the first place. It smells even worse coming back up! Not much else going on... weather here is beautiful..about 75-80 degrees during the day.. everything is turning green again! im so happy cause now i can take Colby outside with me. He gets his easter pictures made this friday the 21st. I ordered his outfit online.. and im PRAYING that it will make it here in time.. OH they are going to have live bunnies at olan mills for the easter pictures!! im soo excited i cant wait!

P.S Love ya mal!!!


~*~Malorie~*~

Just wanted to write you a note to tell you thanks for being a great friend to me. I too wish we could have met sooner :) you have quickly become my best friend. Thanks for listening and for always being there for me. I love talking to you!!! I know life might get hard some times but if you ever need anyone to talk to or anything at all.. dont ever forget im here for you. Always remember god will never give you a mountain you cant climb. Keep your chin up and never let anyone or anything let you down. You are a wonderful and beautiful person dont ever let anyone tell you otherwise. I have grown to love you girl!! i will always always always be here for you! I wish nothing but happiness and love for you!!! Dont ever forget how much i care!

Thanks for being my friend.. You have filled a huge hole in my heart.