Hey!

I'm 14 weeks pregnant with my first baby.

I found out only in the 4th week and each and every day after that has been a series of really high highs and down in the dumps lows...

At my 1st USG at 11wks my doc said I was likely to have a miscarriage. The very next day we changed doctors...

And this new doc is incidentally the same person who delivered me!!! So my baby's gonna have an interesting legacy of sorts considering my mom too was born at the very same clinic!!

Yesterday had my 2nd USG and it was incredibly beautiful...My li'l creature's growing incredibly. We saw the developing spine and ribs, the elbows and I could actually see the pint sized heart pumping hard inside of me!!! Jeez,I held on hard to those tears =) =)

Unfortunately, sex determination tests are illegal so they don't reveal the baby's gender. But that's a non-issue considering I have a super strong intuition it's gonna be a boy...Though all of us at home really want a girl...But nothing matters as long as it's a healthy baby!!

27/02: Yesterday had my 4th USG and I felt sooo cheated...We just about saw the baby head and heart and some "joints" (that we could barely figure out...It was terrible especially since the 6th month USG was mindblowing where we were explained everything in detail and it went on for about 30 minutes. I even got a CD!! This time I took a whole jing-bang comprising my mom, my younger sister, my mum-in-law and it was all done in less than 3 minutes. The excuse was the long queue of patients waiting!! I'm so gonna go get a color doppler done on my own...Can't imagine how the li'l one will feel watching himself/herself (when s/he's all grown up!!)

What's important is that the baby's growing just the way it's supposed to and is a mighty hard kicker..Looks like I'm gonna have one hell of a snooty baby 'cuz the moment somebody else touches my belly to feel the kicks, all the party inside comes to a complete standstill and there's no further movement till the hands are lifted!! n I'm already thinking of ways to get my baby to be a social animal!!

Today spent an hour at the mall checking out Mothercare and other mommy-baby stores. Traditionally, I ain't allowed to shop till the baby's born so I had to feel content just looking at the stuff and making my lists for my parents,in-laws and husband...(Doubt if I'll be able to be a part of the initial baby shopping binges) =( =(

15/03/08 - Have had an eventful 29th week. Last Friday ate some bad fish and had no idea it could affect my ever-so-smooth pregnancy to such a great deal. That evening, had my worst coughing fit ever. Guess I coughed for over 30 mins non-stop. And it was all dry cough, tears streaming through my eyes, clutching on to my belly-chest-back-head at the same time...That cough gave me such a terrible migraine, it's been there for a week now.

The next day, the coughing stopped but the fever started. My temperature soared and I had these bad chills.Along with the illness came loads of meds and a loss of appetite. 2 days of burning fever later, just as I thought my worries were over, the rashes appeared like out of nowhere...

My body was all swollen and there was no visible skin. Only pink spots; on my arms, thighs,belly,chest,back, face, neck. Even my ears and lips weren't spared!!And all the doctors and family were convinced it's measles. Something that could be fatal for my baby...Thank God, the tests were negative and a couple of anti-allergy pills later, the rash has now almost gone. Though there's an occasional itch.

During my illness-weakness, suddenly it struck me that my baby wasn't as active and wasn't kicking like it normally did.This called for an emergency USG.Luckily, my baby was growing just right and my infections had no chance of getting even close to the little one...But my amniotic fluid was considerably low. It was scary since the level had been perfectly normal throughout pregnancy and suddenly in week 29, the doc said it was dipping.

This was no good news and at that moment, I was advised complete bed-rest that meant stopping all activities and sundry. I'm a prof and a student and a freelancer, so in that one instant, all my schedules had to be scratched to zilch...Not a big deal at all, considering baby comes first...and nothing right now, nothing and nobody is more important.

20/03 Had a relapse of the same allergy. Figures,I've developed nottoo kind feelings towards fish and the like...Or manybe,mybaby ain't too fond of the flavour! This time I was with my mom and she's the kinda paranoid sort so she had me admitted to the hospital for observation! Luckily, my obs knew abt the allergy this time so there was no time wasted in giving mr the required anti-allergy shot.

Tomorrow myhusband will come over to spend the weekend with us! Yeay..Infact, he was here all day today as well but went back home at night for a bacheloresque night on the town!!

The not-so-nice part abt my pregnancy is the way I'velost all my sleep. It's 415am and I'm up and fresh as a daisy. Allnightandeveryhour have been hitting the bathroom with a vengeance..Can't wait for my routinesyo go back to normal now...

Start my 8th month on the 21st.It's surprising I haven't been feeling the weight of my pregnancy and I don't just want my baby to come out.I ain't scared of the labour...oh not a bit..Just afraid I'll lose the unique connection I share with my baby in the womb...It really is the most beautiful feeling and we had better be bloody proud of ourselves for being women to experience and enjoy it!! =)

Happy Holi and Happy Easter to all u hot mommaz!

07/05 Today's been a hard day for me... I've gotten this killer of a backache that just refuses to go with any amount of changing positions..I wasn't even able to exercise 'cuz my tummy started hardening n I got this awful cramping. Guess, I'm starting to lose it now...I've been a calm and tranquil person all throughout the pregnancy and suddenly this week I've been kicking up major fights with all and sundry..husband, mom, dad..It was my parents anniv y'day and I dint even wish them...n the worst thing is I don't even feel guilty...Isn't that the meanest thing???

08/05 UPDATE- I dropped sometime last evening and the feeling in my upper abdomen is sooo good..I can actually breathe while in my bra n the heartburn's going away...The drop was so quick that I barely realised it...Yeayy! My li'l baby's getting ready to meet mommie..Had my last (hopefully) USG on tuesday and doc said my baby was tiny...That scared me a bit 'cuz it had always been healthy till my 8th month. It's head and abdominal perimeter measurements aren't in sync with the dates tho' there's nothing to worry about...It's ok if the head is tiny as long as the brain isn't! lol...Can't wait to meet it now...And speaking of Sunsigns, I'd prefer a Gemini any day over a Taurean...My younger sister's a Taurean and we started getting along only after I got married (4 yrs ago)..So Gemini's the way to go...

12/05 U really must know what happened y'day...I woke up in the morning with this terrible cramping...Contractions were coming fast but weren't too painful...I hadn't leaked nor was there any "show". Just to be careful, I called my doc and she asked me to come over immediately for a check-up...As soon as I reached the hosp, she did an internal exam n I was just 1 cm dilated...(that was the worst examination ever!!) She hurt me soo hard that the nurses were holding my hands by my side so I don't get up to maybe beat her!!! lol
Anyway, she asked me to get admitted and that she'd keep me till evening in case I started contracting. It was soo boring...My mom, MIL, husband all sitting there waiting for me to go into labour but my naughty baby, just playing around inside, moving like crazy...Showing no signs of coming out =(
In the evening she did another intl exam..My cervix had opened up a li'l more and she said I could go into labour that night or maybe the following morning...So I had to stay at the hospital...And then my mom stayed back with me and everyone was all excited...But I had this feeling (a very strong one) that nothing was gonna happen...And nothing did...It's noon now and I got back home an hour ago. Doc did a sonography and said that baby is still high and needs to descend even more...
Now I've decided, the next time, till the water doesn't burst or till I dont get a show, I'm not telling anything to anyone. PPl in my family start to panic sooo much that it's difficult for a pregnant me to calm everyone down!!!

My doc asked me to STOP exercising..Isn't that the maddest thing? I don't work in the house and exercise is the only movement my body has and needs...and she absolutely hates it when I tell her I read up stuff on the internet...cuz that makes me smarter than her!!! lol