hello there girlies!

My name is Nikki and i'm from Derby (UK) I Have a hubby called Robert Hes a Materials Engineer for TOYOTA and I have a gorgeous daughter called Charlotte who is 2 in January.

I found out I was pregnant with charlotte while i was doing my GCSE's I had a pretty rough pregnancy in and out of hospitals with my sickness! couldnt even keep water down at one point then started to puke up blood - But with the support from my Husband, Family and teachers i managed to get really good grades.

I also have one sleeping angel i lost my baby at 12 weeks, really hit my husband and myself hard. I've been two two fortune tellers and both have picked up on a little girl "passed through the womb of life" and one of them said her name is Sara spelt the same way as my great gran and said that whoever she is named after will always look after her. That to me is such a relief and is good to know that "sara" is constantly with us...looking over us.

We has posponed baby number two until september/october this year. one of the reasons being we are moving to a 4/5 bedroom house in woodville derbyshire in the next month. but the thing is the house is a repossession so it needs a hell of alot of working doing to it so this summer is going to be manic
The other reason we are delaying things for a while and possibly the most important reason I did egg donation for my mum last yr she got to 8 weeks pregnant and lost the baby so we are going ahead for the next few months and doin the whole thing all over again PRAYING FOR A LIVE WELL BABY :0)

I aim to be a teaching assistant which will fit in really well with our life style. I am startingincourse in BSL and also first aid. I'd like to work with special needs.

Charlotte is the most beautiful, sweet, intelligent girl i have ever come across in my life (and im not just saying that cos im her mummy...honest!) She just has this...personality that is bursting with........love and life and happiness.

Here is a pic of what i look like at the moment while concieving...i want to keep a picture log because i never did anything like that while i was pregnant with charlotte.

a few facts about me

full name: Nicola Carrie Banks
Age: 18
weight: 142 lb (ten stone 2)
Height: 5ft 5
Hair colour: Brown
texture: Curly
Eye colour: Green
Hobbies: Singing, dancing, drama, shopping, reading

Certainly not pregnant yet - as i've come on my period...to be fair i didnt expect to! I think it'l be january/Feb time... Just a feeling like... Could be worse really couldn't it?

had some bad news tonight - My sister in law is having a misscarriage :0( Thoughts and love out to her xXx

Rob and i was chattin last night and we've decided if we're not pregnant by 1st march we're using protection for months until 1st may lol...reason being... i dont want another tot born december/jan time! /i really couldt afford that in yrs to come birthdays and xmas's! Argh lol so pray that i get caught in jan/feb :D

Charlotte and I did some baking today - little fifi muffins was really fun she really enjoyed herself. She just about did everything herself

also today (5th december) lottie did her first wee and first poop on the potty yay lottie

9th December 9.27pm

Last night Rob and I went to his xmas party Great night There was a great pic of us both which i'l add in a moment. It was a james bond theme night. So i wore a sexy red dress revealing my bust lol great what wonder bras and fake chicken fillets can do went from like a B cup to a DD! It was held at a Hilton Hotel quite near to us off the a50. It was a james bond themed night so there was a casino, laser shooting game, car racing game then a nice meal and lots of dancing. I didnt drink much had 2 archers and lemonades. Had an excellent time just wasnt in the mood for drinking. Im not a big drinker at all. Then we stopped in the hotel. No Nookie Nookie though lol! Then this morning we got up had a massive breakfast 2 sausage 2 bacon, 1 egg, scrambled egg, toast beans mushrooms! looool and then a croissant and 2 cups tea.. urgh that was me for the day. Then we went to sauna and steam room.I wasnt mad on those too hot for me!

We then went to pick lottie up from my ma's then put the xmas tree up. Looks lovely will put somie pics of that up laterz...too tired at the moment

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heys everyone, i hope you all have a luuuuuuuurverrrly crimbo!! well we set the pressies out xmas eve went to bed , woke up about a million times in the night so excited! lol we finally got out of bed at 6 30 am we managed to prize lottie outta bed 10 mins later! She was like "no wanna!"

She looked on in amazement in the livingroom and was like woooooooooooooooooooow maaaaaaaazinggggg!! we finised pressies n breakfast by nine then made our way to my mums house. we had a lovely dinner which rob cooked. and was nice to spend some quality time with the family

i was sooooooooo spoiled this yr i got..

a Nintendo pink DS (Im a kid at heart!) with dogz and brain training. Sims 2 Bonvoyage, £50.00 - which i got some clothes on boxing day with, three belly bars, earrings, hugo boss deep red and shower gel, sanctury gift set, pjs, makeup, sexy lingere, sims 2 teen stuff, anne geddes calander and note book

Was a lovely day all in allllllllllllllllll!!!!!

pissed offffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff ive come on my period (30th December) 4 days early!!! :-(! So annoyed ho hum.... maybe next month??

((((((((((((((((((((Needs baby dust her way!!!!)))))))))))))))))))

02 Jan 11:19pm

Feeling rather down at the momwnt.. I think im feeling a little sorry for myself maybe? Mixture of that and period hormonal rubbish! I never had this problem with charlotte and i think because of my age i just thought id cop out in the first week or something..

Never mind though i guess i should be greatful that ive got a wonderful little girl already and concentrate on her for the time being and hope that...it will just take me by suprise once its put to the back of my mind.

Think i have the christmas blues anarl lol... get the violins out every body :-D xx

praying for a BFP next month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

04th Jan

well period over and done with now soooooo back to dooing the fox trot ;-) cmon laydeeeees pray for Jan/Feb!! if not il have to wait till june :0(!

charlotte said bugger today! i have no idea where she got it from! i was stunned! i was killing myself laughing inside though cos she said it sooooo innocently (but atleast it was in context!) Still! not good

I did Jade Goodeys DVD work out today - i usually resort to exercise when im feeling down gives me the feel good factor....well anyways it was pretty tough! i did it and it was 50 mins long it worked me up in a right sweat..anyways Rob decided to laugh at me when he got in because my legs were hurting...so i made him do it....he got 24 mins in to it and was like I.....CA....NT....DO.....HHHHHAAAAANYYYY...MOOOORE! all red faced and panting...i p*ssed myself laughing!!!!!!

06th January

Charlotte had the best birthday ever! She had 7 little friends over and had a little tea party. She was squeeling with delight, singing and dancing. im knackered now!!!!

i know its early days and not prego yet but names we have are:

BOY : Daniel Erik Banks

GIRL: Lilly Alexandra Banks or Rhiannon Sydney Banks

i feel sick!! (22nd jan)

i dont think iv ever been so excited about feeling sick in my life!! I dunno if its "Anything" though cos id only be like 8 days (From conceiving) at the most IF i was prego. I donno if i can feel sick that quick? Anyone know?! I dont feel sick all the time like really late last night i did and this morning..then it went off and now it back again?

Last night though i had tummy ache so i bought some sanitry towels incase i come on...pains have stopped... I dunno...

i doubt i am though.. ye of litte faith n arl that jazz...

If i havent come on byyyyyyyyy 3rd of Feb then i wil take a test

only reason im excited is cos from 7 weeks with lottie till the day she was born i was sick alll the time

Wish me lot of love and luck...Will keep you posted

23rd jan

Well...Still feels a little sick! Though i'm convincing myself its all in my head because i woke up and laid really still and thought "oh i dont feel sick" i stood up like 5 secs later and was like urgh now i do! So maybe its all in my head! Omg im going nuts!

Either way 11 days till i test!!!

God that seems like ages away CONSIDERING i had no idea with lottie i was prego at all at this point. i was on theme park rides and drinking days b4 i tested!! with her!!

If im not prego i will be really dissapointed but its not the end of the world..still got 1 more month before we're leaving it for a while.

i dont feel pregnant...except the obvious...boobs arent tender or anything! im burping lots though lol its disgusting! so i read it up and wind can be a prego sign so its like hmm?? well i suppose u can read in to anything if u want it enough

ok nuff of the rambling!

still 23rd january and sadly not convinced!

Well im not convinced im prego now... lottie has got a really bad sickness bug so i think ive just got a mild form of it and just feeling queezy...really dissapointed!

So this morning lottie is fine she ate her breakfast (banana apples and grapes) and lunch (spaghetti on toast with jelly and icecream) and i take her to creche at 2pm then went to work straight after. Rob picks her up at 6pm and they like "yehhh shes not been well since about 2 15 shes been laying on the pillows not interacting or joinin in..." i was like FFS!!!! why didnt u come next door and tell me she wasnt well? i wouldnt mind but 6 months ago she was rushed to hospital from low blood sugars and they were like... "We gave her water" and so i got arsey and was like it wasnt ur place to look after her its her mummy and daddys! so rob goes to pick her up and she spews everywhere he gets her home and shes sick 5 more times

i get in at 10 and i pick her up and shes sick all over me... its going to be a long night..im not going to be able to get sleep because the last time this happen her body was losing its natural sugars so fast through the night while we were all asleep her body was shutting down. it was the scariest thing in my life. i felt so guilty that i didnt sit up wtih her and that i went to sleep.

so robs just gone to tesco im feeling rather dissapointed and lottie is layin here with her head in my lap watching have i got news for you...

its gonna be a long night

25th january

My poor baby has scarlett fever!

Weds night was as long as imagined! we stayed awake most of the night..the next morn i go to put her in the bath and she had a rash all over her body. i was like omg! and we checked her temp and it was 39.9 so we called emergency doc and he said if by tomoz it not down then come bk so thurs night we up again all night lottie crying when she wee'd because her "mini moo" is red and inflamed. and crying when she was coughing

so 8am this morn i called the doc and got in for 11am they basically did the usual checks and stuff and said she got scarlett fever and if she deteriorates any to go bk straight away

so my poor poor poor baby!

30th jan ...

ive come on my period..

i dont want to write much about it...feeling rather crap at the moment.

update 20th feb

Not pregnant and we've stopped trying for a while..Not overly concerned i think its just one of those things...we've been really stressed so its not bound to happen. Plus we're not getting on too great at the moment....nothing serious i think were both tired and stressed out..my dads poorly again and im feeling rather blah so its probs for the best anyhoo!

it was my birthday yesterday i was 19 had a lovely day got some clothes, sexy undies and mainly money because im getting a tattoo in a few weeks...:0)

Hope everyone is ok and everyones bumps are all well

Much love and speak to you soon xx

update 17th march

We've stopped trying for a baby. officially lol...just for a few months. My mums donation failed after 8 weeks so we going through the treatment again. So thats going to take a while. She is sooooo worth it though.

i'l keep you updated on that!

Charlotte is beautiful as ever! she is talking so much now. she talks in sentances and shes such a madam! shes very comical also.

GREAT news weve finally sold our house so we'll be moving sooon hopefully

06TH MAY

Hey everyone i hope all of you are well. we are moving house on 6th june we are moving in to a 4/5 bedroom house in woodville derbyshire its a repossession so its an absolute mess but at £118,500 you really cant complain. So far we've spent £6,000 on a kitchen £2,000 on carpets and now looking for a nice bathroom and also a nice fire place. Rest of it is very cosmetic plastering and painting etc. Going to be alot of hard work but bloody hell itll be worth it. Mum and I start our injections again at the w/e (((oh joy))) I hate them i have panic attacks that im going to die from an air bubble or something crazy!!!!!