Hi,my name's nikki and i have just been trying to fall pregnant,i was using ocp but stopped in august and i got my last AF on the 18thAug. Not too sure how long it will take me to fall pregnant,but hoping it wont take too long.

Okay,abit more about myself and what i have gone through-I have been with Mitch since feb 2001,for about a year we were using condoms as a contraception,we then decided we wanted a child together so we stopped.

In july 2003 we found out i was pregnant at the dr's but the line came up very faded he was about to tell us it was neg,but as we got up to leave thats when he seen the line. So anyway i had an app at the dr's at the hospital in the begining of august every thing seemed fine but as we left and walked a few metres from the dr's office all of a sudden i had the worst pain on the side of my uterus,the dr told me to go straight to the ER,they took me in and told me i had an ectopic pregnancy so i had to have the operation right away they had to cut my tube where the baby was growing but they said i will still be able to have children.

Then in 2005 i had bad pains and the dr sent me for an u/s and they found multiple cysts growing on one my ovaries so i had to have another op to remove that whole ovary,they said i will still be able to have children again,but in between ops we didnt use contraception and still a year after that we didnt fall pregnant,the dr gave me an u/s to make sure every thing was ok and he said it was,but i heard from some freinds that taking ocp might help if im on it for a while then go off it as they werent using birth contrl then they used ocp and then fell pregnant within 2mths of going off of it,so now im off it and hope for the best.

I would love to have my own child and to be able to experience having him/she grow inside me and it saddens me that everyone i know has children and i dont i cry about it every day,i know that may sound selfish but why cant i have a baby too?

okay well i'll keep this page as my little diary,-i asked a Q about this yesterday. The last few days now my breast's have been sore and yesterday for a few min off n on my nipples were tingling weird,but as i said could it be a sign of ovulation or coming off of the pill?I'm not due for AF until 15 sept so it cant be that im getting AF coz it would have come already too since they've been sore for days now.

12th sept-So i had my pap yesterday (ouch), and i took a hpt today which i should'nt have because now im not so happy because it was neg-,but i should'nt have expected to be pregnant so soon,but i can't help it,that's all i think about these days.But it would be great if the test just didnt pick up enough hcg level,guess i'll have to wait until monday.

14th sept-well as i went to bed last night i noticed i was getting af,so i guess we start all over again,bugger.