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niknak
niknak is due today and is now in week 40
	Age: 33 Country: US Province/region: Washington City: Seattle Partner: Tyler Children: Pregnant: Yes Due date: 08 Oct ,2008 Occupation: LIVING
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I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder two years ago. While trying to get my medications just right for me, I began using drugs and a lot of alcohol...self medicating. Well, I've been clean and sober since December of 2007, thanks to drug and alcohol treatment, Alcoholics Annonymous, and Al-Anon. Not to mention the close support I've gotten from people I've met in my programs. My pregnancy has been one of the worst experiences of my life. I do not care about hearing my baby's heart beat or seeing an ultrasound. I am able to take a few of my bipolar meds, but not enough to really help. I see my psychiatrist once a week and run the risk of having post partum psychosis. I have a lot of anger and rage that I control by isolating myself. My emotions have put a huge strain on mine and my boyfriend's relationship. I try my best to not look pregnant so people don't ask me my due date, or even worse, touch my belly. I love kids and babies and I have always dreamed of being pregnant and being a mom, but dealing with bipolar along with that is overwhelming. I am a spiritual person and pray that God will help me. I'm still alive so he's doing something. I don't know what the hell stickydust is, but if anyone could fax me some, that would be great. I'm not looking for pitty, but if anyone can relate to any of my mess of a life, don't be afraid to leave a comment. Or even just to tell me I just depressed the hell out of you! Good luck to all! Thanks for reading.

IT'S A GIRL!!!

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monicagarcialv - Thursday, 12 June

awww o my goodness that is soo cute iv always wanted those kinds of birds but they are very expensive...

JennRunyon524 - Thursday, 12 June
You're having a precious baby girl congrats!!

And I just wanna commend you on taking care of your depression before your little one gets here, as miserable as it must be to be in there right now, once you get out you'll feel so much better...doing this now just shows how much you love your baby girl!

hope you get to feeling better soon and keep your head up...she'll be here before you know it!! keep me posted on how you are girl!

judi - Thursday, 12 June
Hello again! I just got back from another antenatal appointment. Everything's fine with Baby, which is nice to know. Doctor also cut off a little skin cancer from my neck. It's been recurring for a couple of years now. At first a doctor tried freezing it, but it came back. Froze it again, it came back. Then he prescribed a cream but that just made a big infection. Last December I took it to a different doctor who cut it off, but it came back, so this time I had my Pregnancy Doctor deal with it - he cut it again, but more generously this time. Hope that's the last we'll see of it. It's a basal cell carcinoma, which is not a nasty life-threatening type, but still better to be rid of it, hey.

Are you going home soon? What medications can they give you? If you're just pacing in circles, it sounds like you'd enjoy something to make you sleepy, but I dunno what they can give you that's safe. Must be terribly b-o-r-i-n-g there, but hopefully they'll get your moods stabilized. Meantime, take care. (smile?)

judi - Wednesday, 11 June
Thanks (photo)! Sorry to hear you're so down, but very happy to brighten your day just a little with a hug - here's another one: * hug * (Wish I could deliver it in person)

Take care, hon.

judi - Wednesday, 11 June
Hey hon. Hang in there. So sorry to hear you're feeling low. Do you have stuff to do, like TV or books to read? I just hate being in hospital, and it's worse when there's nothing interesting to do, and no-one much to talk to.
* hugs *

Natalies Roti Baby - Wednesday, 11 June
I know you said that you dont feel connected to the baby yet but I also know that is your "our" illness talking. As much as I now hate hospitals its better for you to be there with people to watch over you then at home on your own unchecked where God only knows what could happen. Everything in me tells me that you would be totally broken beyond repair if anything happened to that baby. We are almost there. Please please please feel free to message me I told myself I would really try to keep in contact with you but my isolating gets the best of me sometimes. ((((((((((HUGGGGGSSSSS))))))))

crystalmooon - Wednesday, 11 June
Hey! I saw your post - I want to say something touching and up lifting, but I'm lost for words at the moment. I work at the schizophrenia society of alberta, and although it's not the same as bipolar - there are some similarities, especially when it comes to psychosis and the stigma of mental illness in general. If there is anything I can do, even if it's just reading and responding to a message on here once in awhile, let me know. You are in my thoughts. ~Tina xo

itskristen - Wednesday, 11 June
Hey there,
Saw your post. So glad you're getting the help you need, sometimes that's the hardest part. Take good care of yourself and know you're in my thoughts.

gr8scottswife - Wednesday, 11 June
The best thing you can do for bipolar, depression is get on a healthy eating lifestyle. I have a family history that runs even in me with depression and severe depression.
1. Get at least 15 grams of protein every morning within the FIRST HOUR after waking. This affects blood sugar which causes hormone imbalances.
2. Take Nature's Sunshine Magnesium Complex.
3. Take Nature's Sunshine Glucosamine.
4. Drink as much water as you can every day.
5. Substitute sweets for something else you like.

gr8scottswife - Wednesday, 11 June
Why are you depressed? financial problems? man problems? anxiety about taking care of a new baby? other circumstances?

judi - Tuesday, 10 June
Well, I do hope you're in a good place, emotionally. It is nice that you're being looked after anyway. Take care. * hugs*

jazzyboo - Tuesday, 10 June
hey. i just wanted to thank you for talking about your anxiety. i have panic attacks too and I found they got worse when i fell pregnant. in the end, it will make you a stronger and better person. for now, just take a breath and do what you need to do each day to get by. it'll get easier. it will.

judi - Tuesday, 10 June
Hello - nice to hear from you, hon. It's good you're getting help. How are you feeling about the little one nowadays? Any connection, yet? Piper is a great name!

* hugs *

judi - Sunday, 8 June
Hello honey! How ya been? Still hanging in there, I hope! I've been getting backaches, but hey, that's just part of the job I guess. Mostly I feel pretty good. You chosen a name for your little one, yet?

almightyadam - Saturday, 31 May
thanks, the wedding was great! We are so happy. Glad things are going well for you

MarinoMonster - Friday, 30 May
thank you!

mommys first baby - Friday, 30 May
Hi your bird is so cute is he a Salmon Crested ccockatoo. My mom has one named major. me and him have a love hate type of thing cause we both always wanted moms attention. haha sibiling riverlry!! We had a cockatiel too who plucked his feathers like your! Well hope all is good with your baby and you i guess enough about birds from me

BabyMomma1008 - Friday, 30 May
I'm good, thanks. It was so hard to stay calm and not completely lose it...but I know he's a fighter and I know we'll be together soon!

ArkansasTechMommy - Friday, 30 May
I remember when I was pregnant with my first, I was SOOOO tired too. I remember being ready for that to be over with. hopefully it will pass soon. Thanks for the comment about my profile picture. That is my son Gavin. He is 18 months.

wilsonwilson - Friday, 30 May
I was in shock totally as i had so convinced myself i was having a girl, so glad i found out now lol. I have no idea on baby names at all. I am so happy that you are having a girl really I am, I am frightened of having a boy as I am not sure what I am doing and I have never clothed shop for boy in my life so there is some changes to be made lol. Glad you are well and keep me posted x